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it’s beautiful when things begin to flow effortlessly on their own. this comes from learning to surrender and trust. i’ve seen as the more i let go (of control), the more i am allowing the divine to take over and flow into and through my life. today i renewed my driver’s license and registration (i decided to go today as it’s ‘pi’ day and i thought it’d be fun as it would be printed on my license as the renewal date). i received a card in the mail saying i needed to go in person this time to renew. i had a some thoughts about being uncertain if they’d make me do an eye exam and if i’d have any issues as i haven’t been to the eye doctor in a long time (i had lasik surgery back in 2005 and went for a check-up sometime shortly after that but not anytime recently). i can see fine though i’ve spent a lot of time in front of the computer screen these past weeks/months and was wondering if that would have affected my vision. i also feel like, on this spiritual journey, as i tune into higher energies/frequencies/etc that sometimes my vision of the physical plane may not be as crisp, and was possibly a little concerned about that affecting my ability to see normally. when i got to the county or state office to renew my license, the person who walked in before me had made an appointment to renew her license, and the thought crossed my mind that there might be a long wait and that i hadn’t thought of seeing if i could schedule a time online (though the thought did come to me earlier today or yesterday to call to see how long the wait times were and if i could begin my wait time when i called, but i didn’t do so). i didn’t worry too much after i got my number and sat down in the waiting area, and saw there weren’t too many numbers ahead of me per the computer screen. i did feel a bit nervous and wasn’t sure why. perhaps it was due to my concern about my eyes, though i wasn’t actually feeling nervous about it when i previously thought of it. it could have been that i was feeling someone else’s emotions being there in the waiting area or something else. while waiting, i quietly invoked the divine and sent blessings to anyone in the building or who had ever been or will ever be there. i also did a little bit of breathe awareness meditation with my eyes closed while waiting (to try to help me relax and stop the nervousness). my number came after a short wait, and i walked around the corner to the booth i was called to, to see many more waiting seats in a larger area that i thought would’ve been a better spot. when i told the guy at the booth that i needed to renew my license, he began the process and said that i needed to do a vision test. i looked into the device to read the line he told me to read and i read it without any issues. i could see the mind almost doubting a couple of the letters that could’ve appeared to be something else if i looked too quickly, though i passed fine. another thing that was a bit funny was that i had decided to wear a white shirt as my old license had a blue background color behind my photo, and this background ended up being wight. it was funny as i had had the thought cross my mind of what if it was a white background they were now using and i just appeared to be a floating head on my license. it does appear like that a little bit but with the design of the new licenses, its not so bad, and its nice to feel like there’s a white glow of good energy around me. i also had a bit of a concern that perhaps they were going to ask me to pay extra to renew the registration on my van as the pricing on the paperwork they had mailed to me didn’t seem to match any of the numbers i had seen online, though again there wasn’t any issue and i’m pretty sure the amount he told me was what it had said on the form i received in the mail. when i was there with the guy, he made a comment about it being so quiet today, saying that normally all the seats on that side are filled (and they were pretty empty) and there are screaming kids running around. perhaps the divine presence had filled the space when i called it forth while there. or simply meditating created this peace, or the peace just simply follows me wherever i go as i’m usually pretty peaceful. also, earlier in the day i had set an intention / asked the divine / manifested the experience of the renewal going smoothly with no issue and not a long wait. it seems that the universe / divine had created this reality for me, despite whatever nervousness i was briefly feeling while waiting.

i suppose sometimes when i’m not paying attention to consciously creating this experience of reality, i forget that its still occurring or that i can do so. a couple or few days ago i was looking at some old files on my hard drive, working on purging things and files i didn’t need, and i came upon some signs of how i’ve been creating this reality and signs of how i had a good bit of awareness, even some 20+ years ago, before i had any conscious interest or idea of being on a spiritual path. it was also nice to be able to remember how i used to flow in different times of my life in the past, and how i was happy simply being me and connecting with another. and, a little bit to my surprise or intrigue, i saw how an actual file i remembered saying one thing now read to say something else, and i hadn’t changed it or opened it since early 2010 when i had run a numerology software program to generate the file with the report.. around that time i was becoming more aware and interested in spiritual growth, and though i had just had an experience of oneness (of seeing and feeling others as being parts of myself) shortly before generating the numerology report, i didn’t truly experience much more release, healing, growth, awakening, transformation, shifts in perspective, etc until later that year when i attended the avatar course.. so it makes sense that with the growth i went through after the file was generated, that it’d be possible for the reality it described to change, though i didn’t realize that it would mean the actual file changing.. i was thinking that i’d have to have forgotten what it actually said (and not been attached to that reality) for it to be able to change. however, in this case, i remembered what it previously said, and it still changed (it was pretty significant and made sense what it said, so i’m pretty certain it actually read differently and its not that i just remembered it being different or misinterpreted what it meant). perhaps this is what others describe as the mandela effect. i suppose with the transformation i had gone through years ago, i could’ve stepped into a different timeline or reality, and i’m remembering what occurred in the previous timeline or reality i was in. either that, or time really isn’t what we think of it (as i’ve heard others allude to). some speak of all time occurring at once, and perhaps i’m beginning to be able to experience multiple moments in time as well as multiple varieties/dimensions/timelines of time at the same time. or perhaps i’m simply breaking free of the limitations of time, as time, or our perception of it, seems to be a human creation. it seems that as we surrender and release attachments, especially those in the physical, emotional, and mental planes, we free up our ability to experience the higher realms of consciousness and reality, as well as have more energy available to create this experience of reality. this all makes sense, and i’ve experienced this before in different ways, and i’m grateful for the journey i’m on. it was a bit of a roller coaster in recent months, especially with the health challenges i faced, though i’m glad i’ve made it through and am continuing to grow and expand in new directions. it’s exciting to be alive and to flow with life!

back to the story.. after i left the county or state office and was walking back to my van in the parking lot, i felt a subtle sense of peace. it was good to have taken care of it, and had one less thing to think about doing. the more we release in different ways, either by taking care of things or letting go our attachment to needing to do things or whatnot, we free our energy, and are then able to be more present and experience the beauty of reality and life much more naturally. i stopped at the grocery store on the way home, and at first when i pulled into the parking lot, i wasn’t seeing a lot of open spaces in the area where i typically park, and as i kept going forward i saw something right at the end of an adjoining aisle/lane, and was easily able to pull into it. at the store, things flowed nicely, and i was able to briefly connect with the cashier whom i shared i was going to a meditation when she asked if i had any plans for the evening. i felt fine telling her that and asking her if she ever meditated and then telling her about the meditation at the flowering heart center which she said maybe she’d check out sometime. a lot of times in the past, when i haven’t been experiencing life flowing, when i’ve been in some form of resistance or worry or whatnot, i haven’t been able to connect with others easily nor have i felt okay sharing anything about meditation, higher consciousness, spirituality, etc. i think perhaps its come from experiences i’ve had in the past in trying to share these things with others whom didn’t understand (or perhaps weren’t ready to hear them), though i’m grateful to be able to experience the divine flowing through me in this way. earlier today, my dad was complaining about me being the cause of his negativity (as simple things i did, such as opening up the window blinds a different way than he or my mom do, triggered him to be upset or angry).. i don’t recall exactly what i said though i spoke something about me not being able to cause it, and it being good to let the negativity out (and joked in a sense about me helping him do this) or get rid of the negativity rather than hold it inside. i had thought about saying something more detailed about how he’s triggered by so many things such as lots of other drivers (and how i used to be though i no longer experience those drivers showing up, and if they do, they don’t bother me at all the large majority of the time) but didn’t. i’m not sure if he really understood what i meant or not, though hopefully it helped a part of him begin to realize that he doesn’t need to get upset about so many little things.

it’s nice to allow this all to flow through me. in the recent past, i’ve felt blocked in being able to write or create or whatnot. a lot of times in recent years i was either forcing it or it wasn’t flowing through quite like i had previously known. it all comes down to where we are energetically.. by surrendering and letting go of attachment to outcome, we open ourselves up to allow the divine to flow through us in magnificent ways.

as humanity continues to collectively awaken and our hearts flower, we will see a new world unfold that is very different than the one in which we currently live. our reality will shift to one that is full of peace, love, and harmony. as we realize that all conflict originates in the mind and we become free from the mind, we will no longer feel the urge to live from any lower vibrations of consciousness. anything that was previously arising […]

When there is no cause for your unhappiness, happiness is what arises within you.

- Matt Kahn
... and the next adventure begins

this van will be my tiny home on wheels during my journeys, wherever they may take me

after a quick bite to eat and a little traffic, the first stop was one of my favorite local parks for some photos

special thanks to everyone at Ferman Ford in Clearwater, especially Nick and Rudy, for all the time they spent helping me as i decided what to order

thank you to @idletheorybus, @wheresmyofficenow, @exploringalternatives, @funforlouis, and many others, for sharing your stories and adventures

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i’m selling my four wheel campers keystone truck camper. it’s in great condition and hasn’t seen that much use. most of its life it’s been in the garage. i’m open to reasonable offers on the selling price. i’m also open to keeping the compost toilet and maybe the refrigerator, tripod jacks, dolly, and perhaps a couple other components that i could sell separately. the camper came with a thetford cassette/cartridge toilet that is practically new — it was only used a couple or few times and i did not even fill up the cassette once before dumping it. this camper is 9′ long and is designed for a long bed truck. it can be bolted down or tied down with a built-in turnbuckle system. an alternate method for usage, transportation, or storage would be to place it on a flat trailer.

here is a very detailed full tour video i made going over everything it has: www.youtube.com/watch?v=G4oFCYPtEx8

if you’re interested in purchasing it, or know someone who is, please send me a message here: markmarano.com/contact/

i found most of the original invoices and receipts for the camper. here’s a list of all the options and add-ons the camper has, along with the original prices i paid for everything:

— four wheel campers keystone base model $13995
— 12v/110v low power compressor fridge $1400
— furnace, forced air w/thermostat $495
— hot water/outside shower package $595
— DSI optional electric start for hot water heater $155
— screen door $235
— fan-tastic fan $295
— front opening window $175
— awning $695
— awning rail $32
— auxiliary battery system with separator $395
— second battery $275
— small drivers side window $175
— gas strut roof lift assist system $250
— bolt down and wiring $495
— arctic pack $475
— roof hatch $995
— 2 Sharp 130W pv modules $1314
— charge controller $329
— cable kit $79
— installation of solar $498
— propane pressure reg + purge/fill $42
— rv water hose $13
— aqua-kem holding tank deod $9
— rv water pressure regulator $10
— 600 watt true sinewave inverter + installation $366
— custom sink drain tubing $112
— compost toilet + installation $1484
— additional power outlets + installation $238
— custom camera mounts $117
— freight / destination + pre-delivery inspection $1980
— taxes on camper and dealer additions $1663
— rieco-titan tripod jacks $500
— parts for dolly $201
— labor to engineer + build custom heavy duty dolly $?
— hitch step $27
— longer shower hose + piece to hold above shower $31
— extra window frame for screened window in front $53
— screen for extra window frame $?
— longer shower pan $58
— rv water filter + hose extension $?
— addition of locks to cabinet doors so won’t open on their own $?
— storage area dividers $21
— storage bins/crates $?
— rv dish drying rack $?

adding everything up comes to a total of at least $30,277 — this is counting $0 for everything with a $? above. if you don’t count the $3,643 for tax, freight, and pre-delivery inspection (that were part of the actual acquisition cost of the camper), and take off the base model price, you’ll see all of the options, modifications, and add-ons come to a total of at least $12,639 (again, not counting some things i don’t have the receipts readily accessible for).

it’s a little difficult to determine the exact value as this is now a rare unit (as four wheel campers is no longer producing the larger keystone model). the biggest model fwc is currently making is the grandby which is a foot shorter — this is most likely either a marketing decision or to save on manufacturing costs by trimming their line, as lots of people are buying trucks with shorter beds (which wouldn’t be recommended for the 9ft keystone model). being a rare model and harder to find (especially loaded with most of what fwc offered plus extra additions professionally installed that they didn’t offer from the factory), its value will be a bit more than the high value four wheel campers already hold.

this camper hasn’t seen that much use either. it went on two long trips: one from the chicago area to the west coast and then back to florida (over a total of 72 days), and another from chicago to maine and then down the east coast to florida (a total of 22 days). it also saw a few shorter trips: the original trip home from the dealer in north carolina to florida, a trip back to the dealer in north carolina (from florida) to install additional components (and then back home), two trips to chicago from florida, and a couple/few trips in florida. most of its life it’s been in the garage. i purchased it new in october of 2011 and it’s been in the garage (in florida) since august of 2013. i sold my truck in january of 2014 and am not going to be getting another anytime soon so the camper is ready for a new home. it’s very clean, in great/excellent condition, like new.

this is your chance to get a unique camper that’s ready to go on new adventures. please contact me to make a reasonable offer and arrange to come pick it up in florida. if you can’t make the trip here, i can possibly make arrangements to deliver or ship it to you.

*** UPDATES below

i’ve gotten some questions about the price.. i’m open to reasonable offers on the camper and can consider keeping some components to go a little lower on the price. altogether, i’ve got over $30k in it and it’s in great condition with not that much use (and rare), so somewhere in the lower $20k’s would be good.

*** truck requirements ***

i’ve been asked about what truck it will fit, the weight, dimensions, etc. when i ordered the camper i didn’t know what truck i was going to buy, so i think they built it as a universal model to fit any truck. i don’t know its exact weight — the sticker on the back says 1095 lbs though that’s probably empty and was before adding the additional options. terry at four wheel campers estimated that my camper probably weighed close to 1500 lbs with everything. the bottom of it is 9′ long so it hangs past the end of the truck bed a little (and a few inches past the back of the bumper). it’s designed for a truck with a full size bed though i’ve seen others use theirs on a short bed truck (but this is probably not recommended by FWC). the cabover part adds just under 4′ to the overall length (making it right about 13′ long from the front of the cabover section to the back of the camper). the width is 80″ and another 3.5″ for the awning on one side. the height from the bottom of the camper (where it would sit on the bed of the truck) to the underside of cabover section is 48″ or just under 48″. if you have a very tall cab (or big lights or something on top of it), you could place a wood board or something under the camper to lift it up a bit. it’s also recommended to place a rubber bed mat under the camper as that helps prevent it from shifting around when driving (though this is probably only a potential issue when off-road). the width of the part that goes between the wheel wells is 48″ (or 48.125″). the height of the camper from where it sits on the bed of the truck to its top is just under 57.75″ with the solar panels adding just over 2.25″, making the total height from the bottom of the camper to the top of the solar panels right about 60″. i recall the overall height of the truck and camper (when it was on the bed of my heavy duty F-150) being right around 7.5′ from the ground so it worked really well in low clearance areas. (all these measurements are for when driving or storing it, with the top/windows/awning/door/etc closed)

*** more on price + value ***

i just looked at the numbers to determine a fair price for the camper with everything it has. i looked on nadaguides and the options they are showing seem like they might just be generic as they’re not exactly what FWC was offering. they also don’t show a high retail condition, only a low and average. i would say the condition of my camper in not seeing that much use and being very clean would fit into a “high” or “clean” retail or very good / near excellent condition, which basing on the $1700 difference between low and average, would put a high retail around $11,400 for the camper without any of the additional options. its hard to get an exact estimate on the value of all of the additional components without doing lots of research, though based on the $11,400 “high retail” being 81.5% of the $13,995 suggested list price, the more than $12,639 worth of options would be worth at least $10,301, bringing the “high retail” with all the options to $21,701. (this is not factoring in any of the $3650 that the freight, tax, and pre-delivery inspection cost — if you consider these, the total cost to buy everything new was over $30,277. at a price of $21,701, the camper would be almost 30% less than it cost new, and considering the number of days it’s been used compared to sitting in the garage, it’s seen under 10% use and is in like new condition.) if the calculation of how i got to the $21,701 doesn’t make sense, i can explain it better if you like. as i mentioned above, i’m also open to keeping certain components for a different price.

*** details of option prices ***

i had someone ask about how much the options really were worth so i went over to nadaguides again to try to figure out where they’re at for the options. here are some of the things i’m seeing that are close to or the same as the options i ordered:

looking at the power roof vent they offer, their low value is 130 and average is 155, making the “high” or “clean” value 180, which is 61% of the 295 i paid for the fantastic fan. and since power roof vent is generic, it might be worth more being a fantastic vent as that’s one of the major rv vent brands.

looking at the water heater 6 gallon gas/elec w/DSI — they have low retail as 190 and average retail as 230 — this would make “high” or “clean” retail 270. the outside shower low is 100 and average is 115, making high 130. both the heater + outside shower together add up to 400 — i paid 750 (595 for the hot water + outside shower and 155 for the DSI electric start option), making high retail 53.333% of the new cost. their numbers don’t add up exactly as the DSI option adds 100 above their water gallon average price, making it add 110 more at the calculated high price, which would be 71% of the new price for the DSI option.

looking at the solar panel 130 watt, they have low as 700 and average as 800, making high 900. they have the solar battery charger low as 430 and average as 520, making high 610. i have 2 130 watt panels so their total would be 2410 (900+900+610) as a high price. i actually paid less than this, 2220 total for the solar + install (1314+329+79+498), making the high retail 108.555% of what i paid new.

for the awning, they have 380 low and 455 average, making high 530. i paid 727 (695+32) for the awning + rail, making it worth 72.9% of the new price (or 76.3% if you don’t count the rail as it was a separate option when i ordered it). their awning doesn’t specify the brand and its a Fiamma, one of the major rv manufacturers for awnings, so not sure if that makes a difference or not.

the numbers do exhibit a wide range of % compared to what the new cost is. if we add up everything above to get an overall average, at the high value/condition, their #s would be 3520 for those specific options (400+180+2410+530). i paid 3992 for those options new (750+295+2220+727), making them worth 88.2% of what i paid new.

if we were to go by their average price rather than their high price, their total would be 3075 for the above comparison (230+115+155+800+800+520+455), making them worth an average of 77% of the new cost.

i’m not looking at their fridge as i didn’t order the regular option and got a special low power + better quality compressor one instead. i did see some furnace options there though they didn’t list the thermostat option separately like they did for the DSI for the water heater, so its hard to determine exactly where that would sit. if we counted it at their price without the thermostat and went with the lower unit (as i have to go look to see if it says the BTU’s on it or not), its high value would be 100 (70 for low, 85 for average — though the more powerful one is 85 low and 105 average, which would be 125 high). adding the 100 to the total high above makes everything above 3620. i paid 495 new for the forced air furnace with thermostat, making the total new for the above options 4487, bringing the overall average high value of the options down to 80.677% of the new cost (but its likely really higher than this because i have the thermostat with it).

they do also list values for some options like dry bath (290 low or 350 average, making high 410), lpg gas/smoke detector (120 low and 140 average, making high 160), and toilet-electric flush (330 low and 400 average, making high 470, or more as the cassette toilet was barely used) which i got from FWC but was not charged separately for by the dealer, so this effectively brings the $11,400 high value of the camper up another 1040 to $12,440 or 88.888% of the $13,995 i paid.

so it’s tricky to come up with the exact value and fair price for it, though it seems like somewhere in the lower $20k’s is about right.

if we go by the 80.677% as the overall average high price of the options they had listed, the $12,639 the options cost new are now worth $10,196.77, though if we consider that i also got the few options that have value included in the $13,995 i paid, the high value of the camper is $12,440, making the high/clean value of the camper with options $22,636.77, which is 76.77% of the $30,277 total i paid for everything new including the tax, freight, pre-delivery inspection, etc that were part of the acquisition costs (it was actually more than $30,277 that i paid but i don’t have the receipts for all the little things so didn’t count them)

*** package options ***

based upon the last calculation using nada, the fair value of the camper is at least $22500 to $23000 (or perhaps much more as it’s rare and in great condition with little use). as that may be beyond your desired budget, i’m offering several different package options where i’d keep certain items to go lower on the price. i’m open to other offers as well — let me know what price range you want or what options you want and i’ll come up with something.

— $ 22,500 — you get everything listed above
— $ 21,500 — i keep the compost toilet and dolly (with any of the packages, you still get the original cassette toilet that is practically new, and i’ll leave the ventilator, mounting brackets, and wiring in place so its ready for a new compost toilet to drop right in if you want to add it later)
— $ 20,500 — i keep the compost toilet, refrigerator, and dolly
— $ 20,000 — i keep the compost toilet, refrigerator, dolly, and tripod jacks
— $ 19,500 — i keep the compost toilet, refrigerator, dolly, tripod jacks, arctic pack, and power inverter
— $ 19,000 — i keep the compost toilet, refrigerator, dolly, tripod jacks, arctic pack, power inverter, solar panels, solar charge controller, and gas strut roof list assists (i’ll leave the internal solar wiring in place so you can hook up your own panels later if you want)

buy it this month (April) and i’ll take $500 off any of the above packages (i can keep it stored safely in the garage if you are unable to come get it right away, though i will need the majority of it paid in order to hold it for you more than a couple days). yes, the middle or higher packages are a better value, though with the $500 discount for buying it this month, you can get a rare Keystone camper in great condition and ready for new adventures for as low as $18,500.

please write me here to buy it: www.markmarano.com/contact/

To watch on youtube, click on this link: www.youtube.com/watch?v=G4oFCYPtEx8

 

This is a detailed tour + demo of the Keystone pop-up truck camper I had custom built by Four Wheel Campers in 2011. I go over all of the built-in features, custom added equipment, and modifications/hacks/tweaks I made to it. It is currently available for sale (in Florida) with a custom built dolly and tripod jacks. If you’d like to purchase it (or know someone who does), you can reach me by sending me a message at the following link:

markmarano.com/contact

 

Here’s a link to a very long, detailed article I wrote about why I chose this camper and truck after doing lots of research on various rv options:

markmarano.com/2012/01/11/why-i-chose-a-four-wheel-campers-keystone-truck-camper-and-a-4x4-ford-f-150-supercab-heavy-duty-truck-with-ecoboost

 

Here’s an interview I did with Truck Camper Magazine about my journeys in this truck camper:

truckcampermagazine.com/camper-lifestyle/mark-marano-roam-free

 

At these links you’ll find videos of my 72 day “life on the road” journey out west, from Chicagoland to California and then to Florida:

markmarano.com/what/truckcamperfilms/

youtube.com/playlist?list=PLYlEKn8xkNmVcJzBPGDznWUqHbu51wGC3

Here’s a faster version of all those videos combined into one:

youtu.be/kUVuTyxuVXU

Here are just the time-lapses (mostly of the stars) from the videos:

youtu.be/w02JSdm4bJw

This is a time-lapse video of the removal of the bolted-down camper from the truck:

youtu.be/zYlaydCjP7Q

 

More I’ve written about my truck camper and photos can be found here:

markmarano.com/what/truck-camper/

Sped-up 1 minute instagram versions of the truck camper life on the road videos can be found at the following link along with some writing about each day:

markmarano.com/what/truckcamper+instagram/

 

To see my photos, videos, writings, perspectives, etc, visit:

www.markmarano.com

 

here are details of the price and components it has:

markmarano.com/2017/03/11/2011-four-wheel-campers-keystone-pop-up-truck-camper-fully-loaded/

 

thanks for watching! please share with anyone who might be interested.

(a response to my friend Larry to an email/article he forwarded to me)

“I figure it out as I go.”

brilliant! :)

that’s usually what i do in my creative or technical process…. though i let the big things that i think of as important work differently.. i try to over-think them and know all the details and answers ahead of time rather than just let it all unfold and only figure out the little pieces as i go.. i could ramble on much more about this.. and how this is allowing the divine/universe to bring exactly what we need at any point in time and just what we need, nothing more, nothing less.. we don’t need to know all the answers ahead of time :) i’m just about ready to order my van. actually am waiting now on the dealers to get me quotes so i can place the order. i will go check a couple things tomorrow to make sure i want all the options i’ve picked, but other than that i’m ready to roll. it’s exciting! i even see how everything is unfolding perfectly.. the other day, out of nowhere, a friend of mine who i met in chicagoland wrote me saying she’s in georgia, just over the florida border, and thinking of moving there and wants to collaborate to build a sustainable community. a couple days after that, i run into my neighbors when getting back home (who i usually don’t see or run into that often), and they say they’re looking to buy a home (they’re renting the unit downstairs) and they may want something bigger than my unit but their son might want it. it’s crazy how it can all come together so smoothly and effortlessly when we’re in the flow :) this is how life should really happen. and just like how i’m writing this to you. thank you for the inspiration. i wanted to type up and share the “miracles” that unfolded the other days but didn’t, and now i see how responding to what you wrote me was exactly what i needed to share them and type them up. thank you! life can really flow like this and all the time, if we allow ourselves to live life like this. we need not get stuck in the things we’re resisting or not wanting. let go, let it flow. i don’t know exactly what everything will look like in selling mostly everything and living out of a van, though i’m sure it’ll be a fun adventure. part of me was over-thinking it and thinking how much money i’d essentially lose selling a car i just bought 2.5 years ago (after selling my truck after around the same amount of time of owning it and losing a whole lot on it), but hanging onto what we might have now just because of some fear of losing out while not fully enjoying all aspects of it or holding ourselves back from something even better is no way to live. so it’s time. time to let go and be free. and allow this amazingly beautiful life to unfold before us, and flow through us in new expressions and enjoyment and consciousness.

thank you Larry, gonna post this on my website/journal!

Myna Aashna – 5th Dimensional Consciousness Calibration: Go 5D Daily!

 

How to Create New Earth Timelines from the Zero-Point Heart-Field

it was a very calm moment. i felt like everything was okay. it was a little strange just having met someone from my hometown (a small town in new jersey) down here at the park near my home in florida. after he left i continued on shooting another time-lapse clip. that’s when it struck me how odd it was.. how odd to be meeting someone from the same small town way down here. i had never met anyone from there anywhere else. he had even gone to the same school i had gone to. we briefly chatted only for a few minutes or moments. time seemed irrelevant. i felt more fully present in the here and now. and everything felt calm all of a sudden. one might think perhaps it was the beautiful weather or the feeling from meeting the guy or from what i was working on in my photography.. though it felt deeper and more profound than all of that. it felt like i had ascended. just a bit. but from this higher place everything was peaceful and okay. it felt like the encounter was a divine meeting of sorts. it was funny, as at first when i felt him standing there looking at the camera, knowing he wanted to ask something about it, i only said a couple words. though on his way back a minute or two later we spoke much longer. [i can see how this was all part of the divine orchestration or lesson of what i might miss by being too caught up or focused on my own goals rather than allowing the divine to flow through me and take me where i’m going]

back to the feeling and feeling that i was at a higher level. it felt a little eerie like i remember feeling in a dream around nine years ago. in the dream i remember being in a really strange place and encountering a little girl (when no one else was around as everything was all run down). i think i asked where i was and she told me it was thought city, where people go to process their thoughts. at the time i was really stuck in the mind and anxiety. and thought i was actually stuck in that place when in that dream or alternate reality. here it felt really different. the opposite of being in the mind. really calm and peaceful. and from that place i knew everything was okay. i’m not sure why it reminded me of that dream. (perhaps i felt this calmness when in that dream, i don’t recall) i think it was the feeling that the meeting or place was so strange that it had to have been divinely orchestrated.

or it was the feeling that i knew i was here in this reality but i really existed at a higher level than it. i was in the world but not of it. i felt it and knew it. and it was okay. no matter how weird the world was, it didn’t matter. [it was like i was awake, lucid, in this dream we call reality/life on earth, and this life on earth almost felt like it was a temporary meeting place for those of us who are stuck or traveling through this plane of existence.. almost like i was in this heaven/hell “loka” that some see earth as]

maybe it was just the experience of realizing how subtly more present or relaxed i was. i need not try to figure it out but it’s fun to look back at this and see if i remember any of it in the future. or perhaps it’s insightful to someone. it doesn’t matter why. in feeling called to write, despite the inaccuracy of conveying feeling into words, i am doing so.

this is the life i want to live. where i just wander and explore and meet others in their own journey and it’s all perfectly orchestrated at a higher level. and i continue to ascend into higher levels of awareness while still embracing this experience on earth. i think part of this process had been about realizing how caught up i’ve gotten in things that don’t matter and trying to control or make things happen. rather than just enjoying and embracing the journey (and trusting it) and allowing it to be a meditation. i read a good article earlier about the tao or zen of photography and treating photography as a meditation rather than forcing it. it was a good reminder.. that’s when it really was more meaningful. in that ascended moment it felt like i had gone back to old ways in photography.. where it was more of play and not so serious. perhaps that with a brief reminder of childhood it allowed me to integrate some feelings and ascend to the presence.

it’s funny how the divine and universe work like that. i didn’t think about coming to the park when i did. i happened to at that time because that’s when i heard the noise from the lawn crew at my condo. and then i left and came to the spot i had thought of to do the shots i wanted to experiment with. as i was driving in the park i thought of another spot or two to explore though i ended up where i did. this is part of why my work has always had the element of experimentation and perspective and perception in it. it’s a subtle message for this higher reality we can all live from if we allow ourselves to.

i also had thought of an experience i had six years ago at the avatar course where it was really bright and i was doing a walking exercise/meditation that brought me into the present — during this experience, i was able to walk with the sun in my eyes and still see and feel fine without it bothering me at all. i was resisting the sun a little when i first got to the lake as it was really bright and i was thinking i needed sunglasses (which i’ve only worn like once in many months). when i was talking to the guy, i had my hand in the air blocking the sun as i was facing directly towards it. a little later when i felt calm and at peace, it no longer was an issue and i had forgotten about the sun bothering me (i may have not been facing directly towards it though i had integrated the overall brightness and i didn’t notice it like i did when i first got there).

it also seemed like time disappeared. i didn’t feel like i was in the park that long though the time had gone by quite quickly even though i had only taken a few short time-lapse clips. [as i’m editing this right now, i just realize it’s been an hour since i got home and it didn’t seem like that much time had passed. i guess time and space truly do disappear as we expand to higher levels of awareness.]

a thought i had ten years ago also came to me a little later: do whatever it takes to remove the burdens from your life. and most of these burdens are in your own perception.

i made it home so now i can type the rest of this on my computer rather than the phone…

another layer to all of this is that i was almost (again) at the point last night of totally quitting photography. i had an issue where a new camera i just got couldn’t perform the function that i had purchased it for. i won’t go into all the technical details though i found myself in the midst of deciding i would just return it and also return the lens i had just purchased. the divine had left me little ways out to get my money back. the lens had a little mark on it when i got it and the camera wasn’t properly doing the function i wanted so i thought i could just return them and be done. i was also having an issue with the infrared camera that had fallen in the pond a few weeks ago and was thinking i’d just sell that or i could repair it and keep using it.. anyhow, i’m starting to get caught up in the details. this is the reason i’ve been wanting to quit photography is because i get too caught up in the mind in the technical aspects of it, rather than allowing myself to be inspired and do the photography as a meditation. i get so frustrated trying to create new technical ways of seeing the world and i’ve also found myself getting frustrated trying to make things as efficient as possible and to cost as little as possible, so even little things like getting a refund on the ten dollar app i bought for the camera end up frustrating me as i’ve often had to jump through hoops to get to undo whatever mess i find myself in by getting trapped in the mind or technical aspects. these technical and mind aspects of life may serve a purpose but we cannot live there. they are not where life truly happens. living in the present moment is so much more meaningful than technical achievements or making things happen a certain way. those are all so short lived. last night when (or after) i was photographing the stars at honeymoon island realizing the app on the new camera wasn’t taking the time-lapse photos the way i had expected it to, i accepted that i might just have to return it all and save the money instead. i thought i could always get the equipment later and i really don’t necessarily even need it right now, but then i thought of all the work i went into getting the very best deals i could on them. part of the frustration was that i’ve been trying to simplify my life but still see myself falling into the trappings of the mind and desires, and part of it is from not trusting i’d get the same opportunity later and thinking i need to work to not miss it.

when i had such a strange yet simple encounter that was perfectly orchestrated by the divine/universe earlier this afternoon it must’ve broken me out of all of that mess and taken me into the moment. i’m not feeling it completely now, though it felt like none of those burdens/chaos/mess that the mind created existed. i was completely out it.

that was the feeling.. it was like when i was doing the process/exercise at the avatar course in the summer of 2010. it was realizing that i was there in the environment/world and i was out of my mind and everything was totally fine. i normally don’t have thoughts running in my mind.. it’s been pretty quiet these past few years since my transformation at the courses, though i feel that i default to still residing in the mind. i think with the combination of the experiences i had, or simply with divine grace or growth, i naturally relaxed and stepped out of the mind and into the present moment. i integrated whatever was there or released it or whatever happened and there i was, peacefully awake in the world. it was beautiful how i just realized it without any effort or trying to get there.

i see myself having many more moments and experiences like this as i continue along this journey. i know i lived from a higher place years ago after shifting some perspectives and transforming at the avatar course though i allowed myself to go back to old ways and old influences over the years since then. i feel i’m getting back on the path and as i re-align with this journey of growth and transformation, i’ll continue to have this sort of experience. perhaps the clearing of obstacles course at the flowering heart center in clearwater on sunday helped these life experiences occur so i could release and integrate what i needed to. the course was really great as i didn’t have any expectations or think too much about it (as was the case when i first went to avatar), and i had some feelings arise so i could experience and release them, as well as some insights come to me. i’d highly recommend any of the courses michael and suzanne have created this past year. they are all great and expand upon each other to help one heal, grow, and transform.

perhaps a part of it was also videos i’ve recently watched about ascension and the fifth dimension. when i watch, listen, or experience something in this spiritual journey, i realize how insignificant all the little troubles in life really are. getting caught up in stuff that really doesn’t matter is such a waste of time. all that really matters is being fully present in the here and now. planning or thinking too much about the future (or past) is such a drain of energy and time. it takes us out of the beauty of the present moment, where we can realize higher awareness, connect with others + the divine, experience miracles, etc, etc. if you find yourself not fully at peace or in the present, remember to stop whatever you’re doing and take a few moments to meditate, relax, drink in the beauty of nature, or do whatever helps you step out of your mind. when living in the present moment rather than the burdens of the mind, you’ll discover that it doesn’t matter what it is that you’re doing, and that what really matters is simply being.

six weeks ago today, in a less-than-brilliant moment, i decided to walk across a concrete barrier/dam at the edge of a retention pond in a local park. it appeared that the water was barely going over the top of the concrete and was really only flowing a bit in the middle. i took a step forward on to it and the next thing i knew, i was falling down. i hadn’t thought about the possibility of the ledge being quite slippery. apparently that part of the ledge was darker because there were some really slippery plants or algae growing on it. on the way down, i felt my right hand let go of the tripod that was holding my camera on it. i thought to myself something like “really?” the camera was not waterproof nor water resistant, and i had it custom modified to photograph infrared light. the modification cost much more than the camera itself and it likely wouldn’t be covered by a warranty once the repair shop saw it was altered (let alone if they saw it had water damage). i landed on my butt on the ledge. it was a bit of a miracle (or divine grace or simple luck as some may call it) that i didn’t fall into the pond or slip in a way that i hit my head. i did have a few cuts that were bleeding a little but it wasn’t that bad. my phone in my pocket and keys in the other pocket didn’t fall out or get splashed (i was lucky as i had damaged my previous phone simply by using it with wet hands while using its flashlight to try to find a camera that fell into the gulf early last year). realizing i was okay, i placed my keys and phone on the ledge to avoid any further loss when rescuing the camera out of the pond. i didn’t see exactly where it had landed as i was looking forward while it went flying to my side or behind me. thinking of it, i don’t remember if i even was looking at that point.. all i remember was in that moment knowing i was falling, feeling the camera let go and hearing it go into the water (and thinking really god?), and then realizing i was on the ledge wet. i must’ve completely surrendered to the moment as soon as i realized i was falling and couldn’t do anything about it.

the tripod and camera were completely underwater and i couldn’t see them from where i was. the water was very dark and i didn’t know how deep the pond was. when i reached into the water in the direction i thought it might be, my hand quickly found the tripod and i lifted it out of the water. apparently it wasn’t that deep or the tripod landed in a manner that i was able to reach it. i’m glad i didn’t have to dive in to try to find it. i pulled out the battery and memory card and let it sit in the sun. i then (much more carefully) made my way across the ledge to retrieve one of my sandals that had floated away when i fell. my shorts were soaked and i didn’t have a towel in the car so i waited a while in hopes they’d dry out in the sun. i removed the lens from the camera and changed its position while waiting to hopefully dry it out as much as possible. while sitting there not knowing how i was going to drive home without getting my front seat wet, the idea came to me of emptying out my messenger bag and just sitting on that. while not as ideal as a towel, i thought it could work and i ended up dropping my shorts as they were still very wet and sitting in my boxers on the bag. i wondered if anyone would see me but stopped worrying a little sometime during the drive and focused more on that. luckily, it wasn’t that long of a drive home though the shorts lowered around my legs probably made driving and working the clutch a little more challenging (can’t remember exactly at the moment). it was also good that none of the neighbors were out when i was getting out of my car in the parking lot at my condo. after making it home, i probably showered as i didn’t know how clean the water in the retention pond was as there was a water treatment plant nearby and i wondered if that was where the water was coming from as the ponds seemed to be man-made (it didn’t smell bad like it was sewage water though i still wondered).

that evening, i went to help my friend michael at the flowering heart center in clearwater with something on his website before the weekly satsang. when i got out of the car to go inside, my back really hurt just getting up. later that night and the next day, the body was hurting a good bit. i decided to take it easy and try to rest that following day. i had left the 528hz miracle tone playing on my computer (i may have left it playing overnight, and had it playing in the background during the day). sometime that afternoon i realized that i was feeling better and 90% of the pain was gone. i don’t remember exactly when, maybe a couple or few days later, all the pain was completely gone. the scrapes and cuts healed soon after. i can still see a little bit of where one of the cuts was on my arm, though it feels smooth and pretty normal.

after the memory card was dry, i downloaded all my images without a problem. over the past few weeks i left the camera sitting so it could completely dry out. for the first few days or week, i had it in the glovebox of my car thinking the heat of the car could help dry it out. most of the time after that, it was sitting in the sun in a plastic zip-lock bag with silica gels in my condo. i would move it or flip it every so often. i did pull the camera out of the bag at one point after the first week or two to dry out the silica gel and bag in the oven. the bag had melted to itself and ended up with a few small holes in it when i tried to pull it apart, though i still put the camera back in with the silica gels (probably the next day). during the last couple weeks, i almost forgot about it when i left it on the windowsill where it’d get the sun during a good part of the day. the other night, i turned on my oven to 170 degrees, the lowest temperature i could set it to, and then turned it off as soon as it beeped that it was up to temperature. i opened it up for a little bit to let some heat escape, and then placed my camera on a paper towel on top of an oven mitt, along with the lens (that had just sat in my office, sometimes in the sun, sometimes not). i checked it a couple or few times after putting it in, opening the oven door for a little bit to let some heat go out to make sure i wouldn’t melt anything inside, and then left it there overnight. the day after, i pulled it out and left it in the sun in my office for a day or two.

yesterday, not really knowing if it’d work or not, i popped in the battery and turned it on. it was asking for the date like it did when i first got it. the screen looked normal and it was working. i set the date and went through the menus to see that it appeared to have remembered all the other settings i had previously set. i grabbed a lens to test it, and saw that the camera appeared to be working totally fine even before i focused the lens. i inserted a memory card and it saved a couple photos like normal. when i played them back, it was showing them as vertical when they were shot horizontally. perhaps the orientation sensor wasn’t working, though if that’s the only loss, i could deal with having to correct the rotation of images on the computer (and who knows, it might start working eventually.. for now, i adjusted the setting so the camera doesn’t automatically rotate the images upon playback). it does appear that the infrared-pass filter (that was installed in front of the sensor where the ir-cut filter typically is) could be cleaned, though again, if cleaning the sensor is really all it needs, that’s no big deal (and its still functional shooting at wider apertures where the dust or watermarks don’t really affect the picture so much). i really didn’t know if i was going to have completely lost the camera or have to pay a lot of money to repair it (or maybe just use the gopro camera i converted to infrared instead, or convert my older mirrorless camera myself rather than pay a lot for the professional conversion again), though i am grateful i don’t have to worry about any of that. i tested the lens and it works totally fine too (and it’s an autofocus lens with a power zoom mechanism so has more electronics and moving parts than most of my lenses). the lens may need to be cleaned a little but i didn’t notice the watermarks affecting the picture quality in the quick test shots i took yesterday. (i wasn’t worried at all about the lens and was willing to accept that it died if the camera would’ve worked, though am glad both are working)

another thing that worked out is that the new wide angle lens i recently got appears to work with the infrared-modified camera. a lot of lenses often have ‘hot’ spots appear in the center of the image as they’re not designed to photograph in the infrared spectrum of light. it looks like this one may have a little bit of a hot spot that’s more noticeable if i stop it down, though it’s not as noticeable at wider apertures. and it’s definitely far less noticeable than the previous wide angle lens i was using before i decided to get this new replacement lens. i primarily got this lens for star-lapses and use on my regular color camera as it’s faster and easier to focus in low light. it’s an added bonus that i can also use it for infrared photography when i wasn’t expecting to be able to (as i recall seeing it on a list of lenses that don’t work for infrared).

always remember to look for the good in life. even when things don’t happen the way you want them to, they still can work out. falling into the pond, thinking i may have just destroyed an expensive camera, and feeling physical pain were not exactly what i wanted to experience, though i surrendered and accepted it, and inside, i truly believed it was possible that the camera would be totally fine and it was. when we believe something can happen, we open the door for the universe to present us with that possibility. i realize not everyone may believe that the world is a product of their beliefs, thinking, or perception, nor have faith that a higher power can work miracles, though even to the skeptic, over-analytical, or scientific mind, just think of the possibility that the camera and lens were only immersed underwater for around a minute or so (or maybe less, i didn’t sit there counting the time) and that water may not have found its way into the most critical components of the camera, or even if it did, it may not have been that dirty and by pulling out the battery quickly, not much electricity may have run through it to short out in that brief time and all it needed was to dry completely. being open to the possibility that something can happen, regardless of if you believe its happening because of something scientific or spiritual, allows for that possibility to unfold in your experience of life.

sometimes the best thing we can do is simply relax, accept/surrender/allow, and forget about what happened so the mind doesn’t take us somewhere we don’t want to go. had i been worried or resisting the whole situation, who knows what would’ve happened.. the physical pain may have lasted longer and who knows if the camera would’ve worked or not. i had the thought cross my mind that maybe i should’ve put the camera in the oven closer to when it first happened to try to get out any water and moisture that may be inside, though i didn’t worry about it and just trusted that it’d be okay. i also began to accept the possibility that maybe i wouldn’t have it and would have to shoot with my infrared gopro camera or not at all.. i became detached from the outcome. this became easier as i was starting to see myself too engulfed by my photography and began thinking maybe i should quit or stop altogether. perhaps that’s part of what manifested the camera falling in the water. i thought that when it happened though then thought okay, i don’t really want to lose the camera as being the reason i have to quit. it was funny as just a minute or two before i decided to walk across the concrete edge/dam, i was getting tired of shooting the long video clips. had i followed the feeling of not wanting to photograph any more at that time, it wouldn’t have happened. instead, i followed the mind thinking maybe i should stay a little longer which took me into the water. [it’s funny seeing how i just wrote that and how that ties right in to how i started this paragraph.. i added these last few sentences later and wasn’t really thinking about where it was going and i just realized that i was guided to tie it all together.. that’s the beauty of learning to live through feeling, flow, or the heart rather than living through the thoughts of the mind all the time… and it looks like this that i just wrote ties in to the next sentence too (which i had previously written).. its brilliant how the divine flows like that!] as i’ve learned to shift my perspectives on life and what’s happening (especially the parts i don’t like so much), i’ve learned to trust that the divine is guiding me and everything is working out exactly as it should. i’ve learned to stop trying to force things to work out or make them happen, and just try and know they will happen (or something better will). it’s a far simpler approach and allows you to enjoy life along the way much more. yes, there still is ‘doing’, though the more time we spend ‘being’, the more we open ourselves up to be able to experience the true beauty this life has to offer. life truly is a magical experience if we open ourselves up to experience it as such. the more i relax and trust, the more i can see this. i’ve had unexpected moments recently where i just felt much more peaceful, relaxed, or have felt the presence of divine / unconditional love or something beautiful yet difficult to describe in words. i wasn’t trying to create these feelings.. they just presented themselves to me in this journey. it feels like part of it happens from this whole process i’ve been describing of letting go, trusting, surrendering, etc, etc.. it opens us up to flow with life more or for life to flow through us more. we get back on track, in tune, and things work out much more simply or effortlessly, and we live more fully in the present.

so what can we do to embrace life more fully in this manner? it’s best not to try to ‘do’ anything, though if we do want to something, spend time looking at your life internally. go deep within and look at the beliefs and stories you’ve made up about life. see that’s all they are: beliefs and stories that were made up (or told to you by someone else and you took them on). and decide to let them go if they’re no longer serving you. as we bring to light and become aware of these aspects of ourselves that may be unconscious, we can then deliberately decide whether we want to keep this as part of our consciousness or not. if it’s something that no longer serves us, we simply fully experience it and let it go. the more we let go, or forget, the more room we open up for whatever we do want in life, or for whatever is already there waiting for us (but unable to arrive because we’re so full of the past self-limiting beliefs or pre-conceived notions). all we have to do is shift our energy/consciousness in order to see changes in our physical and mental reality. the mind likes to keep track of things and remember, though this remembering does not serve us. this keeping track eats up our attention and prevents us from experiencing new things in life or simply being fully present and alive in the here and now. forgetting can be handy in the physical world too.. i had forgotten about some fruit i had purchased that i left in the fridge and have been eating the remainder of it the last couple/few days. today, just before writing the last couple paragraphs, i ate the last mango i had. it was much softer and more ripe than the previous ones and it tasted so much better and sweeter. had i been thinking too much about making sure i eat all of it before it goes bad, i would’ve had it sooner and wouldn’t have gotten to enjoy it as much as i did. it was the best conventional mango i’ve had out of all the ones i got in the recent weeks. perhaps that wasn’t the best example or didn’t exactly fit in here, though i wanted to share how good it was :) getting back to looking at the limiting beliefs, it’d be good to really look at every single aspect of your life and every single aspect of how you perceive life itself, and observe where it all comes from and see/realize how these beliefs/perspectives are really altering and creating your perception of this reality. you could get lost in this so you don’t need to spend every single moment doing this, though it’d be helpful to do as often as you feel helpful. if you’re feeling stuck or that life is not flowing like it could, then it’d be helpful to spend a good bit of time engaging in the inner work so you can work through whatever blocks are there. if your life is okay or even going well but you’re still feeling a little bored or like there could be something more fulfilling in life, then that’s another time to dive into your consciousness and discover what may be lurking within. other things to ‘do’ in this journey would be to simply do what inspires you and what you feel driven or called to do.. there’s a reason you feel so passionate about something, so follow it and see where it takes you. it could be a lifelong adventure or it could be something short-lived that takes you to something else. whatever it is is fine.. it’s taking you one step further along your journey so embrace it. life is a never-ending process. if we feel too stagnant, then that’s when we begin to feel stuck or feelings and thoughts that don’t serve us may begin to linger. if we regularly shift how we’re feeling, what we’re doing, or how we’re perceiving life, we can continue to grow, evolve, and expand, and can bring about great change not just in our own lives but also in the lives of others and of the earth. if we already are following our passions and inspiration, then it’s also good to take time to just relax, meditate, or go to nature, and ground ourselves back here on earth in the present moment. this balance of engaging with our inspiration or higher calling/purpose and of simply being will help us along the journey so our energy isn’t just entirely focused on the same thing all the time. it will open us up for new possibilities and growth if we make subtle changes, even if its as simple as changing the time of day you do things or the order you do things in.

life can really be simple if we allow it to be. finding peace is as simple as learning to shift our own perceptions of life. creating peace in the world is as simple as practicing this and sharing this with others. the more of us that discover and create inner peace, the more quickly we’ll see peace manifest and unfold in the outer world. the beautiful world we desire is closer than we think.

Energy Upgrade – Matt Kahn/TrueDivineNature.com

 

The End of the Old Paradigm – Matt Kahn/TrueDivineNature.com

recently i started watching livestreams of speeches author Marianne Williamson gives weekly. the one from last night was pretty good, a lot of it was political, though she spoke a bit about what we can all do to help make change in the world. here’s a link to it: livestream.com/accounts/11464019/events/6590930 most of her livestream links usually disappear a couple days after the event — if you want to watch future ones, you can sign up for them (for free) at her website: marianne.com if you want to see one before then, there is one from a few weeks ago that is still online: livestream.com/accounts/11464019/events/6336347

i also recently watched a video by Matt Kahn speaking about The Love Revolution that had great energy. here’s a link to it: www.youtube.com/watch?v=fFS84Jp1qfc

one last thing i’d like to share is an article by Charles Eisenstein i saw the other day: newandancientstory.net/this-is-how-war-begins/

i hope you find these perspectives helpful in a time when so many of us are divided

how beautiful it was to simply lay in the grass for a short while on this sunny day. it was cooler today than it has been lately. in the shade, 71 degrees felt a little cold though after walking for a little bit to the lake nearby, it felt nice to just lay down in the sun. at first i thought i’d just walk around the lake or partially around and sit on a bench and then go back home. something told me to go to the grass. it was subtle, though my attention was drawn to it, almost like it was calling to me. at first i resisted, then decided sure, why not. i let go of thinking of what others might think of me just laying down there and just surrendered into the moment. looking up at the deep blue sky, i felt more present and relaxed. a couple bugs landed on me though i didn’t let them bother me too much and then they went away after a bit. the energy of the the brilliant sun and earth below me was grounding. i felt better than i did earlier sitting inside my condo bored trying to think of what to do or resisting being there. something so simple can be so energizing. i feel rejuvenated. just walking toward the pond i felt a little more present or relaxed as i noticed the trees around me and wasn’t thinking so much. relaxing and being present is one of the most beneficial things one can do in life. remember to take some time for yourself to simply be present and do something that calms you. while staring up at the bright blue sky above, i began to see little bits of something in the air.. i had experienced this long before. it felt like i was seeing little bits of energy moving about. i also noticed the little bugs in the air though when i focused in a certain way and noticed the energy, it felt different. it was like it was in a slightly different dimension or plane or something. while laying there i got the idea of driving down to the causeway to shoot a time-lapse of the stars tonight. i had thought of that earlier though wasn’t quite feeling it and was thinking maybe i can do that later as i’ve been shooting footage to create monthly time-lapses and this wasn’t a new month yet and i had also thought of maybe wanting to post still images to instagram of some of the shots along the way.. when you let go of the mind and it’s overthinking or needing things to be a certain way, things flow much more simply. while laying there, i felt like it’d be good to go tonight. i don’t need to wait, and it’d be good to just hang out there while the camera is running and see how cool it gets or how it is to hang out there for a while at night (as i’ve thought of doing van-life next year, and perhaps selling my condo as i may not be able to park it here and living out of the van for a while, and it’d be good to feel what it’d be like to spend more time in nature). so much of the time i spend in nature is usually doing something.. either riding my bike mostly for exercise or walking around to photograph. it was nice to just be present and just be, rather than have to do. it was so calming. it reminded me of how i would sometimes be in the past, though i had lately been so caught up in needing to do. simply being or feeling is so much better than always doing. i looked up at the tree near me and thought what if i wanted to photograph it because it felt so nice and i wanted to capture the moment.. then i thought i could carry a camera and just photograph when i feel inspired but not feel the need to do so all the time, and i also thought i could simply just be and enjoy it without photographing it. there’s no need to capture everything. sometimes it feels like it comes out of the fear of what if that moment never comes again or something like that, though living from a place of being, beautiful moments will always unfold. then the mind also thinks what about wanting to share this beautiful experience with someone else.. but then i could see how many thousands of beautiful images i’ve already created and realize i don’t necessarily need any more. shift how you see aspects of your everyday life, and you’ll see how beautiful the world becomes as you transform. this whole illusion really is a mere byproduct of what we’re feeling.. if we’re not liking our experience or want to change it, all we simply need to do is change our perspective and our perception of it will change what we’re seeing. and sometimes all we need is to take a walk out to nature and fully embrace it and allow ourselves to relax so we can really experience being there rather than thinking or feeling other things we may have been going through. oh, and i almost forgot to add that the whole walk to the lake nearby was inspired.. i walked to get the mail and wasn’t thinking i’d go out to the lake. after checking the mail, i felt like going for a walk to the edge of the pond and followed that feeling. i hadn’t locked the deadbolt on my door though quickly forgot about that and didn’t let that bother me as i thought i’d only be gone for a minute, though when i got there, feeling how nice it was but not knowing what to do, i thought maybe i’d walk around or to the bench on the other side or something.. as i started to make my way around the lake, i then was drawn to the grass after noticing how beautiful it was out and calm i was being out there. simple exploring is so fun and calming. and inspiration is always there for us if we choose to tune into it.

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CONSCIOUSLY CREATE YOUR REALITY WITHIN THE 3D MIND MATRIX PART 2

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The “Oneness Moolamantra” describes the whole process of the evolution in Consciousness from the trascendental utmost formless manifestation of the Divine, to the flowering of the heart “Paramatma”, the abode of the Divine inside of us. This Awakening is the source of all Light, Truth, Love & Wisdom, who is our heavenly Father and our beloved Divine Mother ~ guiding us at every step of our life until we finally merge into Oneness.

this writing started off as me pondering a potential question or writing about how one can see a vision for reality that’s so vastly different than what presently exists (when many others may see it as completely out there, crazy, or not in tune with the present reality). the ideas that were coming to me were something along the lines of it being quite simple. one simply does not allow the present reality to affect one’s vantagepoints. one simply chooses influences and viewpoints that are conducive to one’s own wellbeing and the wellbeing of the planet and humanity. so many people are easily influenced by what others are saying, what others are doing, what the media is saying, what corporations are saying, and effectively what those in power or control want everyone to think. those pushing these messages to the masses, which causes the masses to continue to push and reinforce those messages themselves, continue to create the same reality and situation over and over by this simple mechanism. the more of us that wake up and become aware of what’s being said and pushed out to the masses, the quicker this game will end. fortunately many of us are awakening quickly now and these old ways of thinking are fading away.

this message isn’t coming through anywhere nearly as clearly as it was before i got up and decided to type it down when realizing it was quite good. everything happens in the moment, and when one tries to re-create the moment that previously existed, it doesn’t quite occur in the same manner. there was something else coming through about how we could simply end this, with more details of what was actually occurring…

i can’t remember it exactly, though in essence, it had to with choosing higher frequencies/vibrations. ah, one thing i recall.. was related to how one can see a reality that’s quite different than what’s occurring. effectively one chooses to ignore most of what’s not serving one’s vision. and some may think that one needs to know what’s happening in the world and ignoring destructive channels such as the news might not be good.. though one could choose to simply read or hear enough of what happened to get a feel for the essence of who to send/give blessings/energy, prayers/intention, and love to. though not watch or read for too long as to get caught up in all that fearful programming, as this is exactly what those sort of messages are designed to do, to keep us afraid and enslaved in the existing systems that require people to give their power and energy and life away to governments, military, corporations, banks, police, etc, etc. now i’m not saying we vanish all these systems this very instant with consciousness still where its at. however, the more of us that choose to see through the illusion of control and fear that requires and sustains these very systems and external forces, the more quickly we won’t have a need for any of the systems. the more of us that choose and learn to live our lives from a place of peace, joy, love, etc, the more quickly we’ll see the end of violence, war, and any kind of suffering. as we awaken to higher levels of reality and consciousness, we will see that all suffering is being created by our own perspectives of the mind, and that we no longer have to be live from that place. as our hearts open, we will begin to feel life and let go of resistance to what the mind has been creating and the limited viewpoints and beliefs that have been programmed by both our own previous experiences, manipulations/indoctrination by others, and the collective consciousness. as more of us begin to see through the veil and heal, we will naturally radiate energy from a higher place of peace and love. this higher energy that we feel internally will be what we begin to see reflected back to us in the external world. others will pick up on this vibration and begin to live from that place as well. (this is already all happening) this will spread to all of humanity and we will see great shifts in the world. without our own internal suffering, there will be no external suffering in the world. without our fear-based so-called rational thinking of the mind, we will no longer have to worry about our own survival or the survival of our family or other groups we identify with. we will begin to feel, trust, and know that everything is being taken care of for us by a greater power. (this doesn’t mean we completely let go of the mind, but rather we can choose to use it as a tool, rather than it use us) with the clarity of living without fear or limited belief systems, we will be able to see clearly exactly what steps we need to take to make the world a better place. our intuition and connection with others will lead us to work together to heal the planet. we’ll naturally and effortlessly collaborate in whatever way we’re best suited to do to create a world where everyone has healthy food, good shelter, clean water, and can live freely and at peace. no longer will anyone be forced to do something they don’t want or be manipulated or negatively influenced by an external force, as we will all be in tune with our own inner guidance coming directly from the divine, source, universe, higher mind, etc. this direct guidance comes from a place where we are all one and connected, and all of our actions will naturally be aligned with the greatest good rather than the fears/control/manipulation of the lower mind/ego. as this great shift in perspective occurs in the bodies, minds, and spirits of all of humanity, so much of what we currently see happening in the world will change, as the previous world was being created by humanity living from a place of disconnection, from a place of the lower mind/ego/fear, and that previous world will no longer serve a purpose and thus quickly dissolve, making way for a beautiful new world to unfold and grow before us.

for anyone living a world predominantly influenced by external factors and still engulfed in the old systems, the first step is to begin to see how these external systems truly do not serve humanity, and at the same time, to gain greater awareness and become more open to new possibilities. practice meditation, yoga, go for walks in nature, or do something else to help calm and transcend the mind. the more time you spend calming and becoming free of the mind, the more quickly it will lose its grasp. modalities that assist in healing one’s emotions and feeling through elements of one’s past that are unresolved or still showing up today can greatly help in quicken this process, as can receiving various forms of blessing (energy transfer, or direct experience of spirit), such as the flowering heart blessing or the oneness awakening blessing/deeksha. as you become free of the ego/mind, you’ll realize how much suffering it caused that is no longer there and you’ll be able to clearly see what no longer serves you or humanity. from this place of clarity, you can deliberately choose to focus your attention and energy on what does benefit yourself, humanity, and the planet as a whole. your higher vibration/frequency alone will be a gift to the world, as will be any actions you feel inspired to take to help transform, shift, and create the new world, no matter how big or small.

i made it back.. had some thoughts on beliefs when walking before dinner, lets see if i can remember.. my first thought was something like i have no idea anymore :) then some thoughts about beliefs themselves.. i believe that our beliefs and perceptions are what create our reality. this is partly what i’ve learned from others teaching, though also partly in what i’ve learned experientially. we can choose to believe something that is good for ourselves and create a reality that we enjoy, or we can choose to believe things that do not serve us and end up having a tough time in life.. we can choose to believe things that serve everyone as a whole and we’ll likely experience a much more beautiful world and connection with others and the divine than if we choose to believe things that are only self-serving. it seems that too many self/ego-serving beliefs and desires are what have caused so much of the struggle and situation we are now facing on earth. some, if not all of these, stem from some sort of fear, or something one isn’t (or many aren’t) willing to face. sometimes beliefs are created out of resistance to situations as its easier to do so than fully experience what is happening when its something we don’t like (which in itself is a belief of what we desire and resist, and what is good and bad). there was something else in there, lets see if i can remember…

it’s not coming to me in these few seconds i waited for it.. perhaps it will appear later. or perhaps it has dissolved or wasn’t there to begin with :) as far as individual beliefs, or what you asked me to be my core beliefs, i believe humanity is collectively awakening and evolving and that we will see drastic changes in society in our lifetime as a result. i know others are saying this as well, though i do also see signs of it unfolding. it seems that what is happening currently is what i thought of as the last stand of the ego.. it knows its on its way out and is fighting to survive. (which seems to be similar to what i’ve felt in my own experience lately) thank you, btw, for asking this question, as i was just thinking recently of writing a vision for a new world, and this could be an intro to it, though not sure i will write it all here for ya as it might get to be a bit lengthy :) essentially it will be a world of peace, where we each sense the connection to each other and the planet, and live in harmony as such. we’ll likely still be experiencing from different levels of consciousness and awareness, though as more and more of collectively evolve and become more loving and are able to see that we have more in common than what separates us (and can see that the things that do separate us really aren’t what we think they are and are simply limiting perspectives or beliefs), we’ll release what no longer serves us and naturally open ourselves up to connecting to each other, the world, god, etc. ah, that reminded me of what i was thinking earlier.. that so many people live with indoctrinated beliefs that come from outside of themselves and go to great lengths to defend their beliefs or viewpoints, when they weren’t even something they came up with themselves.. they were merely fed those beliefs by someone else trying to control them or whom didn’t know any better. as humanity gains more clarity and awareness over this, we’ll be able to grow more quickly. it seems to be happening with people not tolerating various injustices.. which i feel to be most effective, one’s approach in doing so must be carefully chosen, and be one coming from a higher vibration of love and offering a more loving or inclusive viewpoint rather than one that comes from an approach of fighting or resisting what is. not only does this work better energetically as there is no resistance, but as well in the physical world, as those being opposed will be more open to listen to someone coming from a higher place rather than just another mind/ego from the same level of fighting or control or resisting they are coming from.

another thought that came to me as i was walking was regarding my own personal perspective.. i don’t recall the exact words that came to me earlier, though it was basically about the part where i said i have no idea anymore.. i think i went into i don’t even know who i am anymore.. but in reality, i do know who i am as the one who is experiencing through this body and mind others think of or perceive as mark marano, though it’s more that i don’t know who mark marano is anymore, as mark marano can be whomever i decide and choose mark marano to be, based upon my own beliefs and chosen perspectives. i can pick anything i desire, and choose to be it. the difficult part for me has been knowing what to decide, hence having gone back to old ways as i mentioned earlier today, as i think at some point i realized that i liked me (the old me) and still had some exploring to do. however it seems that i got carried away with it or lost in that identity for too long that was no longer serving me, that the divine presented me with the recent health challenges (and other challenges before that regarding my projects) as a bit of a wake up call telling me its time to move on. i don’t know exactly where i’ll go from here in the future, though i do have some ideas, and i know it will be better than the past as i continue to expand, grow, and evolve. and its possible it won’t be a huge shift in my whole life in everything i do, but more of a subtly profound shift in how i perceive and experience life.

regarding choosing beliefs, i recall, from years back, that i felt something along the lines of it being better to let go of beliefs that no longer serve rather than taking on lots of new beliefs. it seems that the latter can simply feed the ego/mind/identity more than it needs to, especially if one gets too caught up in one’s own beliefs and needing to defend one’s beliefs or prove themselves or the beliefs right. by putting forth more effort into emptying oneself of one’s beliefs (or allowing life to do so), one creates more peace and space and freedom from which to experience life. and, if one so desires, one can still choose to create some beliefs that do serve one’s desires or perspectives that will help humanity evolve and transform, though one may not find it necessary to do so, as when one is living from a more empty place, a blank canvas so to speak, one will be more in tune with the divine, and the divine can naturally and more effortlessly flow through one’s life in a manner that does serve humanity and life itself.

For those who believe, no words are necessary. For those who do not believe, no words are possible

- Saint Ignatius de Loyola

Spirituality is a science that teaches us how to live in this world, how to face the challenges of life, and how to experience permanent happiness and contentment. It is the science of mastering the mind.

- Amma (Mata Amritanandamayi)

it’s beautiful how all the little pieces come together on their own when in tune or aligned with the divine, or when simply open to it. i’ve noticed a few little miracles or synchronicities these past few weeks, and just had a couple little ones this morning.. i’d been trying to sell some old things as i prepare to make some changes in my life and i saw one sold unexpectedly over this weekend, but i still had quite a number of things that have been sitting there for a while that hadn’t sold, even after dropping the price quite a bit. i decided i was done and was going to just donate them to the library or elsewhere (after briefly thinking i could give them yet another shot and almost doing so). after gathering together the things i’d be donating into a box, i was going to prepare to send out the one that sold and i noticed that another thing had just unexpectedly sold in that short time! (both of these were not super valuable but also not the least expensive things i was selling either) by surrendering my attachment to selling the ones i’d be donating, another one i still was going to sell sold right then. sometimes we just have to do things a little differently or simply let go of attachment or control. it was nice to have a little bit of unexpected income. and it was nice to see that i had finally gotten most of the pile of things i wanted to sell out of the corner of the room where they’d been stacking up for a long time. sometimes we just gotta make the decision to move forward and the divine will take that step with us and for us. as my printer was down, i went over to my folks’ place to print out the shipping labels there. i thought i was just going to be there for a few minutes and then leave, though ended up staying a bit longer as my mom offered me a little lunch. after my sister arrived on her lunch break (since my mom was babysitting my nephew), i felt i should get going to make it to the postal box before the pickup time that was approaching. i had biked over since it warmed up quickly (another nice little thing that happened today as i was thinking i’d have to drive if it didn’t warm up until later), and wanted to have enough time to make it before the postal carrier went by. as i hopped on my bike and started to make it a few houses down the street, i saw the local postman coming to drop off mail. i stopped my bike, got out the couple packages and as soon as i walked across the street, he was pulling up to the house that was there. since i no longer had to bike to the postal box, i decided to take the longer route home and rode by the nice park between here and there. i took my time and made a couple short stops to embrace nature on the beautiful day it had become. another nice little thing that happened was that i had gotten an expected call from a new client when i was out. when i got back home, i listened to his message and gave him a call back as it sounded like he needed some computer help. he ended up resolving that though had good news about an investment opportunity he had recently told me about. i was starting to wonder how it was going this weekend and as i temporarily forgot about it this morning when in the midst of what i wrote above, i unexpectedly got positive news about the direction its going in. so often it seems simply letting go, surrendering, or forgetting (or forgiving or focusing on something else or anything along those lines) is the key to allowing the divine to effortlessly unfold unexpected miracles in life.

somehow managed to get out and shoot some video while literally spending the whole month editing the old life on the road films..

 

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decided to do some last shots with my gopro before selling it.. funny that literally as i was dropping it off to be shipped out to the buyer gopro announced the new model

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Becoming Silent

 

 

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Koolulam’s Cover Of One Day By Matisyahu – One Day קולולם שרים את

 

Matisyahu – One Day (YouTube Version)

tonight after dinner i went for a walk out to the main entrance of the development here and stopped near the end by east lake road, on the opposite sidewalk/trail this time, and looked at the fountain that was lit on the water. as i was simply looking at the fountain, after remembering back to when i first started photography and took some nice long exposure photos of it, i shot a couple photos on my phone, and then i began to notice that the cars on east lake road seemed to be moving pretty slowly. i was able to easily follow them as they passed by in the distance. they seemed to be going much slower than the 50mph speed limit and they didn’t seem as loud. there were enough of them that had gone by for a while that it couldn’t be that they were actually going that slow. it was that i had slowed down.

i must’ve stepped out of the mind without realizing it. i suppose it’s been difficult to tell if i’m in the mind or not as the mind has been pretty quiet or silent for years and i can step out of the thoughts or stop them most of the time. perhaps, although the mind is usually quiet, there’s still a sense or urge to be wanting to move forward, or some other subtle anxiety or fear i’m feeling that’s preventing me from relaxing into the stillness of the moment. it reminded me a bit of when i stepped into feeling during one of the avatar courses and how beautiful it was. i wish i had written this right after or when i was still at the fountain as now i’m not feeling the words that were coming to me at the time. it was a subtle feeling, like being a little high, yet powerful. i recall having a similar feeling in the sense of the sounds of the cars passing by seeming distant the first time i was paddleboarding on the intracoastal and was slowly paddling my way back from an island to the causeway.. it was a bit different then as i recall the sounds seemed loud yet they were far away. i’m not sure that i perceived the cars moving slowly or not that time, though it was still nice to experience a slight shift in perception. it may have been getting a bit cold as the sun was going down if i recall and it was in the cooler part of the year. tonight it was a little cool as it was dark, though i just accepted it and experienced and remembered how beautiful it was to walk down the sidewalk and experience the way the trees, plants, and fountain were lit at night. since most of the area was fairly dark and only some parts were lit, it makes sense that my attention was easily focused on the sight and sounds of the water spraying up into the air. through this, i must’ve naturally stepped out of the mind and into feeling the here and now. part of my back had started hurting this morning though that was gone when i was out there. and i don’t recall feeling the pains or sensations in my hands as they’re healing. the feelings and thoughts about the healing taking so long were gone, as were the thoughts and feelings about potentially not doing as well as i could on my investments. i simply was present there. [i think i had also let go of a bit of the concern of looking weird walking with my hand up to prevent swelling] afterwards on the walk back to the house, after the mind had started thinking a bit about the whole experience, i saw an airplane passing by overhead and it seemed to be going slower than normal too.

it was a bit of a miracle to have this unexpected experience. some may think of it as a little bit of an awakened state though it feels more of a natural state we can live in often or on a regular basis. it was subtle yet beautiful to just feel life in the moment. there wasn’t anything outstanding about it.. i didn’t have to go chasing after some goal or traveling to some new distant land.. i just simply discovered what was already here in a new way, yet once again. and its likely none of the external desires or goals would’ve provided such a simple yet profound experience. it was funny that it ocurred around the same spot as yesterday when i went for a walk and felt i slipped into the present moment and realized that the walk seemed much longer than it actually was. it’s also funny that the fountain is less than a couple hundred feet behind the house yet i have to walk half a mile to go down the block and then out the main entrance to get there. and that i normally don’t hear the fountain and forget its there from the house as i typically just hear the traffic. it’s quite funny how close yet how far away it is. and also quite funny how so many of us are chasing after bigger, better, faster, more, when slowing down and relaxing into the moment yields such a simple yet more profound and deeper experience than the never-ending chase. the world around us truly is beautiful when we learn to perceive it more fully.

here’s an exploration looking at what i really desire in a new home..

what i most desire is somewhere peaceful, sacred.

[it’s interesting to see how this exploration unfolded.. this morning i awoke excited with some ideas of visioning what i wanted in a home here in florida since i’ve been looking and looking and not finding anything totally ideal. i began writing about what/where i was looking for a home, and as i continued to elaborate on the details and what all it could have, it started to flow into a grander vision of what could be created for a community, a vision i’ve been meaning to re-visit, explore, and write for quite some time.. it’s funny how the divine can work like that and how one thing can lead to another unexpectedly, especially when following inspiration..]

to me this means natural, quiet, safe, away from disturbances of traffic, not near big power-lines with emf/emr pollution/radiation nor any other industrial/commercial source of pollution or noise, not near any areas of crime or parts of town that are run down or unpleasant to look at. it’d be nice if its somewhere not overly developed, or if its developed, its planned out nicely or kept up.

i’d like somewhere that is right by a nice trail (or small roads) to bike on, where i can bike to a local nature park or preserve without taking or crossing any major roads (or seeing any stores, gas stations, stoplights, etc). (this is why the lansbrook area is nice, as i can get to both the local park and john chesnut park without going on or to east lake road, and some of the trails/sidewalk to the local park are wider and have nice landscaping, where you don’t really see the homes, and the homes you do see are newer/nicely kept. both parks are also quite nice being right on the lake, and john chesnut itself being large enough to provide plenty of space for bicycling within it and exploring on a couple trails)

i’d like a good size lot for the privacy and space it offers. when i look out my windows or doors, i’d like to see nature and not other houses, streets, or signs of anything manmade. i’d like something without any deed restrictions nor hoa or any other special rules so i have as much flexibility to build and do what i want. (however, as above, i’d like it to be in a nice area where everyone keeps everything looking nice/clean but just doesn’t need the rules telling/limiting them what to do) i’d like to have plenty of room on my land for various projects, such as growing food, building a greenhouse, making a meditation garden, building a treehouse or lookout tower, etc. i’d like somewhere where i can first start off parking a tiny home, large travel trailer, airstream, or other rv so i can live in that before i build my home to make sure i like the lot and area (and to have somewhere to stay in the interim). i’d likely still keep the rv/home somewhere on the land to be able to travel with up to the flowering heart center in illinois in the summer months (which hopefully the new center has a spot where i can park and have at least a couple hookups for water and electric, unless there’s enough of us in the community there that want to have community living space soon that we build residential options on-site or nearby).

i’d like my home and land to be very peaceful, natural, and enjoyable as i’d likely spend a lot of time there. daily i’d wander out for a bike ride on the beautiful local trails to the nearby park, or go for a drive to a local park. other than going to parks or nature preserves, i’d mostly just go out to the grocery or health food store, local spiritual communities, or on occasion some local restaurants with good vegetarian options. when i meet a nice, beautiful spiritual/conscious/awakened girl with a good/flowered heart who desires a committed relationship, i’d also often spend time going to visit (until we live together) or going out exploring with her. my home shouldn’t be far from health food stores nor from the flowering heart center in clearwater. my home need not be right by the water though it’d be nice to be close to the gulf, or at least a nice lake or wide open field, as i often like to go see the sunset regularly.

my home would be my own little private ashram, a sacred space where i can be present, relax, or work undisturbed.

the air will be very clean as i like to keep my windows open most of the year when temperatures permit. it will be quiet in the sense of sound, quality of air, etc on the physical plane, and it will also be quiet in the spiritual/mental/emotional planes where i wouldn’t feel any disturbances of lower consciousness anywhere on my land or in the surrounding area. my home will be a very peaceful place where it will be just me and the divine, and i can dissolve into the divine presence daily. everyone and everything nearby will feel and live from a deep sense of peace. it will be more of a mountain cabin or vacation home that one might seek, except it will be my primary residence during the cooler/moderate months in florida where i can easily live and enjoy a simple life. when i feel like going on adventure or interacting with the world, i’ll get in my van (or other exploration vehicle) and go for a ride, wandering as i feel called to. when i get tired of being on the road and just want to rest, i’ll come back home and relax and can feel very refreshed/renewed.

the home itself will be constructed of something very strong and resilient, such as a disaster-proof monolithic dome, so i can leave it for as long as i like and regardless of weather or anything, i know it will still be there safe when i return. it will be energy-efficient and have eco-friendly healthy materials. the styling will be modern, simple, clean, and elegant, either bright or rich in tone, and perhaps with wood or other natural materials in the inside. it’ll be constructed for longevity and to require little to no maintenance. it’d be nice to have off-grid capability in terms of rain collection and solar/wind power, with perhaps the water re-usage capabilities/treatment of an earthship. it’ll have a nice deck/balcony with portions enclosed by screen and portions open, both with magnificent views of trees and nature as far as one can see. it’d be nice to have a jacuzzi and/or sauna to relax in. my home will be a bit of a retreat center where i live simple, relaxed life for as long as i feel called to, between adventures, explorations, and gatherings with beautiful communities. all components will be made of quality, built with care and love, feel solid, and work very well without need for any repair nor maintenance visits.

if my acreage is quite large or huge, it need not necessarily be right by a park as it will essentially become its own park that i can make trails on to explore and bike around. the views from my home will be quite stunning as i see, feel, and sense that i am surrounded by nature. wherever i walk in the home, as i’m going to the kitchen, through the living room, sitting at my desk, lounging in a chair, etc, i will experience glimpses and sights of the natural beauty through the windows or glass doors, as i feel the fresh breeze lightly flowing through my home bringing in quiet natural sounds of birds, the air, water, etc.

the lighting, both inside and outside of my home, will be quite nice. there will be different options for mood, such as dim intimate lighting for romance or sacred space, dimmable lights that light the entire ceiling of the dome for a nice glow, candlelight throughout, more typical modern lights, including under cabinets, etc. there will be nice rope or christmas lighting (perhaps inside and outside), and torch and/or sidewalk lights outside (perhaps lighting various paths on the acreage to be able to wander in the meditation garden).

i will experience much financial abundance and easily be able to pay for the land and home (and continue to add new aspects later, such as the gardens and outdoor areas or structures), as well as easily purchase quality food, travel/adventure, health/wellness experiences, pay for taxes/utilities/ongoing expenses, etc, and be able to generously contribute to spiritual communities and causes that resonate with me. i’ll also be able to start intentional/spiritual community living centers.

some may see aspects of what i wrote above as unnecessary or a bit excessive.. while it’d be nice, i wouldn’t necessarily need dozens or hundreds of acres all for myself, and…

i’d be happy to have all of the above as part a spiritual retreat center or ashram, with a smaller home nearby on a quiet section of the land for myself. then i could spend quiet time in my home as i felt called to, and easily go for a short walk over to the common community areas where we’d have beautiful gardens and shared spaces to meditate and explore together. we’d have plenty of community events: dinners, gatherings, fires, crystal + tibetan bowls, performances, etc. the main community center/temple could be quite large to hold many people for bigger events and would be a nice gathering place for community members to sit quietly, meditate, or meet with friends. i see the main center being one large room in a white dome building. there’d also be smaller buildings, adjoining or nearby, with restrooms, classrooms, a community kitchen, meditative spaces, etc. community members would help with keeping everything neat and clean, growing/harvesting food, gathering/preparing supplies, cooking, gardening, maintaining, etc. we would all live and function as one, in harmony with each other, the space, and the divine. it will be a beautiful space with everyone living at high levels of consciousness and anyone who steps on the grounds or anywhere nearby will be awakened and have their hearts flower. the community will grow to have multiple locations throughout the country or world. i see myself traveling between the locations, at first between the flowering heart centers in florida and illinois as i do now, and then to wherever the centers may grow. my adventures will be the journey between the communities, stopping in nature and other beautiful places, and while at the community centers, i’ll have my own homes and feel at home surrounded by the community family. it will be an extraordinary experience and many beautiful souls will feel called to join, participate, and help elevate consciousness. the communities will experience much abundance in all aspects, and be able to be completely self-sustainable. no longer will any of us have to do anything we feel forced to do just to survive. the divine will provide effortlessly, and the communities can help be a model, inspirational centers, for others looking for alternative ways of life than what currently exists in most of the world. there’d be various living options, exploring sustainable and alternative ways of building, such as building with natural materials, earthships, monolithic domes, yurts, tiny homes, treehouses, etc. some homes would be closer together for those who desire the neighborly small town feel, and some further apart with more natural space between for those who prefer the most monk-like silence. there could also be larger buildings with suites/dormitory/hotel style living for anyone who prefers those, and there would be both temporary and permanent spaces for living. the community could be a retreat center where one could come and stay for a few moments, hours, days, weeks, months, years, or a lifetime. the daily activities and gatherings would be there for those who like or need a schedule or routine, though the atmosphere would be very relaxed and if one missed a class or activity, one could easily pick up where one left off whenever one returns. if anyone is in need of any guidance, spiritual or otherwise, there would always be someone there who could be present or help, though the divine presence itself would so abundant that there likely wouldn’t be the need to specifically hold space for whatever someone may be going through. one would heal simply by being there. there could be a dome room/building where solfeggio frequencies and other sacred sounds are continuously being played where one could sit or lie down in and heal or relax. in other spaces, community members could share various modalities, such as yoga, tai chi, kai chi do, qi gong, reiki, sound healing, oneness processes, exercises from the avatar course, etc, etc. besides cooking community dinners, some members could teach and share how to cook, prepare, and eat healthy vegetarian, raw, or plant-based foods, how to use essential oils, breathing techniques/meditations, and other wellness-related perspectives. there’d also be teaching and workshops of how to apply sustainable principles to create new communities. visiting or living at the center would be an incredible learning and growing experience.. it could almost become a resort or theme park for spiritual wellbeing (but without any consumeristic or detrimental aspects that may be found in those typical sort of facilities). it would be a place for very clean, pure, divine living.. a heaven manifested on earth. there could be group adventures on a regular basis, to take a bus out to a local beach, natural park, local festival/event, healthy restaurant, or to simply wander about public places and radiate blessings and joy to whomever is there. the spiritual retreat center could be like a small town with beautiful walkways, trails, and common areas between the various unique homes and community buildings. divine love and peace would be felt and seen all throughout and within. there could be spaces where community members would regularly exhibit their divinely inspired creative talents, art, writing, speaking, etc. in places that are cold for extended portions of the year, such as the midwest, the center would have indoor facilities to grow food throughout the year, and there could be long heated hallways or tunnels between buildings so one could access most, if not all, of the structures without needing to step out into the cold. in temperate but rainy places, such as parts of hawaii or somewhere else tropical, there could be covered walkways made of bamboo or other natural materials that are open and airy between the buildings. wherever the location is, there would be many beautiful tree-lined trails, walkways, and streets (though motorized vehicles, particularly ones that create noise or pollution, would be kept and driven outside most of the walkable or bikeable areas). the grounds of the center/ashram/town would span hundreds of acres or more, and be surrounded be undeveloped nature, farm, or preserve in a rural area (but not necessarily far from a town, city, or suburban area). as the community and presence grows, the energy emanating from the space would be felt throughout the entire region, causing other beautiful divine manifestations to unfold in their own unique ways nearby (which would help elevate consciousness and flower the heart of those not necessarily interested in a spiritual retreat center or any of the modalities or perspectives offered). there would be a number of unique, beautiful, and serene places to just hang out, sit, walk, or meditate throughout the grounds. there could be a nice observation deck or lookout tower where one could look out into the horizon over the trees, a beautiful pond or lake where one could go for a swim or canoe/kayak ride, and many places to see and experience the natural beauty of the sun setting and rising. there’d be dark open fields to gaze up at the star-filled sky at night. the gardens would be beautifully kept, a meditation just in walking through them, and could become a single reason some come to visit the grounds. there could be a labyrinth, rock gardens, meditation circles, and many places to get lost exploring (with perhaps even a garden/hedge maze for fun). on some parts of the grounds, there could be some subtle ethereal music playing as well as nice lighting and water features or fountains. as one awakens there will be many joys and much beauty to explore and discover, both natural and human-made. there could be large open house events where many come to the center for workshops or a visiting spiritual teacher. during these events, naturally some new visitors may decide to stay for a while, and there’d be plenty of rooms available for whomever feels called to. one may feel drawn or guided toward certain modalities, workshops, or activities offered, or one’s process may simply be to take in the energy, embrace nature, or relax in the community jacuzzi, sauna, or other amenities. whatever path one may be on, one will discover exactly what one needs. there could be a community library of donated books, or little libraries throughout where one might just happen upon the perfect book having the exact answer or question one needed next. if there are families and children residing on the grounds, the education will come from a higher level of awareness, teaching spiritual principles and how to live and interact in the body as a spirit/consciousness, rather than most typical education/memorizing currently taught in society that focuses on programming the mind. one wouldn’t be forced to learn anything, and learning would be more of a discovery process where one could explore and learn whatever anyone felt called to. naturally and organically, some would feel inspired to explore creative aspects of life, some would learn technology, some would learn sustainability, growing food, building, connection, spiritual or healing modalities, teaching, etc, etc. everything that is needed will be divinely inspired and unfold. the spiritual center community will be a place where miracles will unfold on a regular basis. one will feel lighter and more peaceful simply by stepping on the grounds. it will be a safe place where one can be vulnerable and truly embark upon one’s personal/spiritual growth process, whether it be by healing through a process in the loving presence of the divine and other community members, or by simply having a place to dissolve into the void and slip into samadhi to explore higher planes of existence. the boundaries of separation would dissolve and we would all live from our highest divine nature, letting our light shine forth to the world and universe.

I can quickly photograph and deliver 360 degree photographs of real estate (or vacant land, preserve/park, or any type of location) for you to use in your listings, marketing materials, or interactive virtual tours. I can offer this at eye level as well as low aerial or elevated photographs, up to 40 feet from the ground.

This will give you a much nicer angle of the home, building, or landscape you are showcasing. You or your clients can also use elevated photos to see what the view would look like from a higher floor or roof deck if you’re considering building a new home or adding on to an existing one. If you need higher perspectives than 40 feet, I can possibly do this as well (depending on the location).

I can provide images in standard 360 degree equirectangular format for use in 360 degree viewers, or render the images as flat panoramas or regular photos. To see some of my work, please visit and browse my website at the following link: www.MarkMarano.com — most images you’ll see are artistic in nature (many with a “little planet” look). I can create the photographs I shoot for you with a commercial/professional look or an artistic one, whichever you prefer.

If you are constructing a new building or renovating an existing one, I can create a time-lapse video of the project and can also offer a live webcam view (subject to internet or mobile service availability at the location).

I’m currently based out of North Pinellas County and am able to travel anywhere in Hillsborough, Pinellas, and Pasco Counties (or the greater Tampa Bay area) on short notice. I’m open to considering further locations as well.

If you’re interested in hiring me, please write me here: www.MarkMarano.com/contact

(shot with ricoh theta s and lg 360 cam.. includes shots experimenting with the new interval composite model on the theta s)

Man's chief delusion is his conviction that there are causes other than his own state of consciousness.

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recent miracles (yup, this got long but all the details are connected and part of the unfolding)

a couple weeks ago i felt like going to one of my favorite parks around here, honeymoon island. when deciding what camera gear to bring, i felt i should bring my setup to do a time-lapse of the stars in case i want to take some photos after leaving the park at sunset. when i got to the park, i saw they were letting people in for a halloween event they were holding. i recall having seen the signs a week or two earlier and thinking i won’t go that day so i’m not in the midst of all of that and it might be pretty packed. i had forgotten about it and saw that one of the parts of the park i was thinking of going to was where the event was. i drove around and was going to go to part of the beach further away from where the event was being held. i think it was after passing the parking lot where the event was, i realized that if i were to park there, i’d fit in with all the cars of everyone there for the event and i could photograph the stars after it got dark as the event ran til 10. i went back around the loop and headed to the parking lot where they were parking cars for the event and found a spot a little further into the lot. i then went for a short walk on the beach.. there were a number of people around though i still took a couple 360 degree time-lapse clips of the beach and water. i went back to the car to wait for a little bit until it got dark (and in case they’d be driving their cart on the beach to kick people off after sunset). near the end of nautical twilight, i grabbed my gear (and a thick shirt i thankfully had left in the car a few days earlier, as it was pretty chilly with the wind blowing) and headed to the beach. i walked to a spot just a little bit up from the parking lot and started taking some night landscapes. shortly after i got there i saw some lights coming by and hoped it wasn’t someone that’d be kicking me off (though i was off in a little spot to the side where they may not have seen me). luckily, it ended up being a few people fishing. i wondered if they worked for the park (as i saw a sign for a friday night fish fry) though it didn’t seem that they did. i thought perhaps they were doing the same thing as me and staying late the one or two nights the park was open late. it was a little cloudy but the sky opened up after a little while and i probably got some decent shots of the stars. it was also really awesome to be able to experience the park at night. even just driving around the park on my way out was exciting to get to see it like i had never seen it before. it’s funny as recently i was looking at the park webcam and thinking i should have a look at it at night as i’ve only looked at it during the day to check out the conditions of the clouds. it was a really nice unexpected surprise and little miracle for me to end up going to the park the night it was open late and get to stay and experience it after dark (and have the gear with me that i needed to photograph a time-lapse of the stars). sometimes miracles are totally unexpected and the various layers and dimensions all come together in new ways.

after experiencing the beauty of the park at night, i decided to go back the next evening as they were having the same event a second night. i went to the same parking lot and found a spot, though there seemed to be more cars and i felt there’d be more people this night, so i ended up moving my car to the same spot i had parked in the night before (a little further out) as it’d be less obvious i was sitting in the car while waiting for it to get dark. i walked up the beach for a little bit and saw some people already set up with lots of fishing gear in the same spot someone was the night before. i wondered if it was the same group or not. i kept going and went much further than i had wandered the previous night. i found some great spots that would be really amazing to experience in the dark. when i was hiding behind a shrub shooting a 360 degree photo of the sky before sunset, i saw someone walking north with a tripod. it seemed like he was going to go pretty far north on the island. i wondered if he was doing the same thing as me and staying to photograph on the night the park stayed open late. i had thought of going back early to get the rest of my gear for the star-lapse photography and just head further into the island like i saw that guy doing, though didn’t. it was right around the time the sunset and i looked at my phone to see i had walked quite a bit. since i was a mile or more north of the parking lot, i figured i’d time how long it took to get back to the car if i was at that spot, so i could later make it before the parking lot cleared out when the event ended. i went back and didn’t have to wait in the car as long as the previous night before it got dark. i grabbed my gear and a light shirt in case it got cold (though didn’t end up needing it this night). the first spot i stopped at was a little further up than the last spot i was at the night before. there still was some light in the sky though i took a few shots. i didn’t want to stay there too long as i wanted to go further up where i could set up both that camera and the 360 degree one and was a little worried someone might come and tell me i couldn’t be there. i saw lights further up and thought i saw headlights from one of the carts in the distance. after finishing the first shot, i started heading a little further north and noticed someone off to the side of the beach. i was thinking i’d just keep going near the water hopefully unnoticed in case it was someone who’d say i couldn’t be there. as i got closer, the guy asked something like if i was getting some shots or shooting the stars. i said yeah, hopefully if the clouds open up. we got chatting for a bit and he was there doing the same thing. he took me up a little bit to show me where his camera was so i wouldn’t step on it and he asked if i had the pass. i don’t recall how our exact conversation went.. i think he asked how long i’d be there and i said until close to 10 when it closed. he asked if i had a pass and i found out about a photo pass the park offers if you have the family annual pass to the park. it allows you to stay all night in the park and photograph! i was so excited when i found out about that. we chatted a little longer and he apologized for keeping me from photographing. i told him it was worth it finding out about the photo pass and i thanked him for sharing that with me. i headed up to a few spots to set up the cameras and walked back and forth a couple times between them when setting them up (to keep them further away from each other). i was so ecstatic and excited to find out about the pass. this was truly an unexpected gift from the divine. i had no idea that a photo pass even existed for the park. i’m not sure if its new or has been around for a while or anything. it’s really exciting as i have been seriously considering selling my condo and converting a van into a small rv or camper. i had thought of spending my days at the park or one of the other local ones. how amazing would it be to not have to leave when it got dark and stay photographing!! even now or soon, it’d be so awesome to just explore the park at night and photograph it. i was just about to order a better lens for night photography too. all the pieces are coming together. i thought a little about the additional cost of the family pass on top of the individual pass though i’m sure it’d be totally worth it to be able to stay at night to explore and photograph. i could see a lot of great shots the more i started exploring this idea. i was so grateful to the divine for this unexpected miracle and gift. had i not been inspired to go to the park friday (after not making it thursday) and happen to have my gear with me and then go back on saturday and wander around exactly in the manner i did to go back to the car and then go to the spot where the guy was, i wouldn’t have found out about it. this opens up so many more possibilities. this is one of the best places in the area to see nature and the stars and whatnot. and it’s much closer than driving all the way down to clearwater beach. i had thought of going there and hiking up to caladesi island though it’s a really long way from the public parking spots. honeymoon island is so much easier to get to and besides being closer, a much nicer drive too (with far less distractions from stores and traffic). it’s so amazing how the divine brings new opportunities when we least expect them!

after hiking for miles on the beach and standing for a while photographing, my legs were hurting. when i got home, i left the 528hz miracle tone playing all night on my computer in my office right next to my bedroom. when i woke up, i felt fine and my legs were back to normal. i may have been a little tired though had some fruit for breakfast, showered, and went to the grocery store early as i’d be going to help with the livestream at the flowering heart center afterwards. i felt good and probably still a little excited from what’s been unfolding for me. i feel like i’m heading in some direction rather than just sitting in my condo waiting and waiting and bored. i finally decided that this is it, i’m not gonna just sit at home bored and lonely another hot summer. unless i meet a girl around here, i’m gonna get the van and go wander and explore. it seems like making this decision has helped the pieces start to come together in various ways. even little things like the handle on my refrigerator breaking reinforce the idea that it’s time to go. i’ve also been hearing the neighbors through the walls at times and its not exactly my idea of a sacred space that i want my home to be. i’ve had hesitation and have thought it’d be good to keep this condo just in case as its easier to just stay here when i’m here, though the association doesn’t want me parking a large van here. it must be the divine forcing me to get up and go and do what i really want rather than settle for something less than ideal. i much rather have my own land where i can grow food, have a garden, be in nature, and build a small home or get a tiny home or something.

it’s funny to watch how things unfold when one decides or creates an intention for something to happen. all the pieces start to come together and everything start to flow, but also other things may start to come up too. when i went to one of the local natural grocery stores, i was greeted by one of the girls who worked there and then saw another girl right near the front and briefly talked to her and felt like i could talk to her more. it seemed like that me deciding that i want to do the van life was now manifesting opportunities for me to connect with others when i had previously not encountered them or had missed them. i’m not sure exactly why.. perhaps its cause i feel like i’m on purpose or i feel better or have healed along the way or whatnot, or that this is just coming up as a last chance to do so before moving out (as one of the reasons i originally got the condo was that i felt i needed to be settled down in my own space before i could meet someone). i previously was traveling in my truck camper though it wasn’t ideal for living full time in, especially not in an urban area. anyhow, i won’t get off too much on the tangent or back story there.. i’m sure i’ve written plenty about it elsewhere. it’s just funny how everything flows when we’re on purpose and how things don’t seem to be going anywhere when we feel stagnant or bored or whatnot. back at the grocery store.. when i was near the frozen gluten free pizza, someone told me about the sale they had on it (which i had seen on their flyer or email online but wasn’t seeing the signs posted). i grabbed three pizzas and headed to check out with an overflowing basket of groceries. i noticed the price didn’t come up on sale for the pizzas and said something to the cashier. i don’t recall exactly what we said though i accepted it wasn’t on sale and didn’t get them. i thought of going back to look at which ones were on sale but didn’t feel like it. as i was finishing at the register, the cashier asked someone else who worked there if he could put the pizzas back. i asked him about the sale and if he knew which ones were on sale or something as those weren’t ringing up at the sale price. rather than go look or figure it out, he told the girl to just give me the sale price on the ones i had there (i think she said he was the boss or something). i wasn’t expecting that and wasn’t attached to the outcome of getting the pizzas and was able to get them at the sale price (which was close to half off). it was nice to see this all flow smoothly. i almost didn’t get the pizzas when i didn’t see the sale sign though someone happened to be there to mention they were on sale and it all worked out when initially it didn’t. it feels like part of everything just flowing smoothly is what i mentioned above.. its when we are on purpose or when we choose to feel good (or any particular way), and then good things happen for us in the world to reflect what we are feeling. the external world really is a mirror of the internal world, of what we’re feeling and believing (and how we’re being). i’ve know this for years though somewhere along the way forgot to a degree or just wasn’t really thinking it, or i just got caught up or overwhelmed by so many things or aspects of life or old negative influences and my energy started to go down a couple/few years back. (i think at one point i remember just wanting to do things the old way for a while..)

besides the little miracles unfolding, the bigger miracle is that i’ve been getting back on track. i’ve been letting go of what no longer serves me and allowing room for the good aspects of life i desire and also allowing for the divine to work through me so i may inspire others, help them awaken, etc, so we can all find ourselves living in a peaceful world. the more of us that find ourselves drawn to shift or transform (or just find this happening naturally or unexpectedly), the more quickly our planet will transform into someplace radically different, where we all live in peace, free from all the conflict caused by the ego/mind (and its unnecessary manifestations). we really can and will see a beautiful world unfold. i know it may be difficult to believe with various events that are happening in the world, though do not allow yourself to get caught up in those. if you hear or see something negative, acknowledge it as what is, do not resist it, and simply allow it to pass (this gets much easier as we continue to grow and evolve). and then shift your attention and energy to the world view you do want to experience and create. if you’re finding this difficult or not as simple as you’d like it to be, practice meditation, learn awareness building exercises, find a spiritual practice or community that resonates with you, or ask for divine grace or blessings. i could go into much more depth about all of what you can do to grow and awaken in this journey of life, though this is already getting long and i’m going astray on a tangent away from the miracles.. follow your heart and allow yourself to be inspired. the divine and universe will guide you through various means such as your intuition or feelings, and you will discover exactly what you need. you’re already exactly where you need to be, even if you don’t like all or any aspects of where you are. learn to accept and love the circumstances of your life, and your life itself, and you will see any blocks you may have begin to dissolve.

getting back to the miracles.. it’s now been almost a couple weeks since i wrote the first three paragraphs above though didn’t finish what i wanted to add after. a couple days ago, i went back to honeymoon island and i got the after hours pass for photography. and i didn’t have to pay to upgrade my pass to the family one either! it was a nice little miracle as i had thought it was only if you had the more expensive pass though it wasn’t necessary. in the recent weeks i was trying to decide which lens i should get for the night photography. i’ve sold a lot of gear and no longer have the previous camera i was shooting night star-lapses with and also sold the lens i could’ve sorta used as the focus by wire was barely usable for focusing in the middle of the dark. i narrowed down the choices to a couple of lenses (and was thinking about another potential that won’t be released until next year), and finally started leaning toward one of them. the one i wanted had a big sale at the beginning of august. it was the lowest the price had ever been and only for a day. i had previously thought about it and on that day, i figured i should sell the lens i currently have first rather than spend more money and accumulate more gear (as i’ve been working on simplifying and reducing the past year or two). i didn’t get it then and the price went back up. i was contacting dealers to see if they could honor that sale price though wasn’t having any luck. i also had contacted the manufacturer who told me to check back weeks later, which i did and they offered me a discounted price as part of their ambassador program. the price wasn’t as low as the previous sale price was and i never heard back from the guy though and was going to have to write a review and send images to them as part of the program. i was waiting to hear back from one major merchant about matching the price they had on a different color of the lens. i really preferred the black over the silver one that sold for less (especially as the lens hood on the silver one was black and it looked kinda weird). last wednesday i got an email back from someone who said she was waiting to hear from a different department and would let me know in a couple of days. that meant i’d get a response on friday, which was the day the manufacturer said they could offer me the ambassador pricing up until. i was waiting and didn’t see any response and it was already mid afternoon so they’d be closing soon. i called the merchant.. just before calling or when on hold, i shifted my energy basically asking the divine to just be done with this whole matter of searching for the very best price and i think i was also accepting that i might have to just get it at the regular price. when i got on the phone with whom had emailed me, she simply said yes she could match the price. however, she wasn’t expecting the lens to be in stock until a couple weeks into december. i then asked if she could substitute the lens for the same lens but with the other brand name on it (this manufacturer makes the same exact lens under different brand names). the one i asked for typically sold for more than the one that was out of stock. she let me know (pretty quickly) that she could sell me that one for twenty dollars more and it’d be in stock the third week of this month. i decided to go with that one instead of waiting until next month. in my previous mindset of needing to get the very best deal to save money as i didn’t have tons of money to just waste, i would’ve just waited, though i figured it really wasn’t that much more (and this other ‘brand’ might sell for a little more if i later decide to sell it, and this was the brand i would’ve gotten from the manufacturer (also for twenty dollars less) but i didn’t have to worry about the requirements of the ambassador program and i’m not sure if i would’ve been able to pay the manufacturer with a credit card, which by the time i got special reward points for my purchase through the credit card (and i think a little through the merchant), it would’ve been right about the same price anyhow. so basically, it all worked out!). i ordered the lens and filter and figured that i’d get it a little later in the month. i think on the next day i thought of asking another major merchant to match the price i had gotten. i inquired first about the previous sale price on the lens again though they couldn’t match that, and then i asked about matching the price i had on my invoice. i sent it to them and after a little bit, they said yes they could match it. it was great they could as it wasn’t a completed invoice yet as i hadn’t given my payment information to the first merchant since the bonus reward points didn’t start until this past monday. the new merchant said the price match code would only be good until that evening (this was sunday when i contacted them). i didn’t want to wait until monday as i didn’t know if they’d honor the price match a second time and i didn’t want to lose one of the ones they had in stock in case they happened to sell out. i asked if i could give them a credit card to place the order and then switch it the next day (as they said it charges it immediately upon ordering). he said i could so i did that. i was excited i’d be receiving the new lens this week (and be done with the whole searching and waiting). i wrote the first merchant asking them to remove the lens from the order and only ship the filter (unless they could ship the lens monday) and correct the shipping address on my order. on monday morning i called the credit card to confirm the bonus program i had received in the mail and then called customer service at the second merchant to update the credit card they were going to charge. i called the first merchant as they had corrected the address on my order though hadn’t canceled the lens. i gave them the credit card to charge the filter to and then found out that they had gotten the lens in stock. this was totally unexpected. i almost didn’t believe it as just the day before i had checked again and they still were not expecting it in stock until sometime next week. they said they had gotten it from the manufacturer and it would be shipping that day. still in a bit of disbelief or shock as to where this lens came from all of a sudden, i even checked their website and the status had changed to show the lens in stock. i contacted the second merchant and requested they cancel the order, and now my lens and filter are on their way to be delivered sometime today. tonight i’ll go out to honeymoon island to take some time-lapses with it and i’ll now be able to use it in a few days on the night of the supermoon. i was planning on using one of my current lenses though now don’t have to. i don’t know exactly what i’ll shoot just yet.. i do have a couple ideas i thought of that would work better with the brighter moon.. we’ll see what method i feel inspired to do or what unfolds.

another little miracle of connection that i almost forgot about was that last week i had gone to the bank to make a deposit to a new account as they were offering an opening bonus for doing so.. after having someone check the opening signature paperwork, i went to the teller to make the deposit. normally i just stand there waiting and staring off into space to not give them any pressure by looking at them when i’m waiting. i felt that i could shift my energy to connect with her through my heart and send a quiet blessing or love while waiting. i could sense a subtle smile on her face when i did so. it was nice to share that quiet connection with her. when she looked at me i made eye contact briefly though didn’t say anything outside of the transaction. it was nice to make a little connection and not look away or feel awkward or weird when she looked back at me. i still didn’t know what to say though this was an improvement for me to feel some connection with someone i didn’t know (especially when it’s a girl in her 20’s or 30’s that i could potentially be interested in). i feel as i continue to grow and heal as i free my energy of the burdens that i’ve been holding onto, connecting with others will continue to become more natural and effortless, and i’ll become comfortable in sharing helpful perspectives and inspiration with anyone i meet. i know i’ve been in that place before and am grateful for getting back on the path. it’s also nice to free my attention of the burdens of little insignificant things i need to take care of such as opening new accounts just to get some bonuses deposited. i had another one that i recently opened that i hadn’t heard back from and it took over two weeks by the time it finally got opened.. i almost just gave up and told them to cancel opening it as it was taking a long time for them to process all the paperwork i had to mail in. i called on monday and they opened it.. i was able to get the routing info over to my friend i work for just in time for him to send me my weekly direct deposit on tuesday morning. i barely made it too, as i’m only expecting one more of the weekly direct deposits from him next week and this bank requires two for the bonus. i’ll probably still get a little more work from him in the following weeks though i really don’t know how much or if i will get any. its a miracle that i’m actually not worried about it and that earlier this year i was able to save up enough money to pay off all of my debts if i wanted to. i do have a little more than what i owe to keep me going for a little bit though i’m probably gonna sell the condo anyhow.. i’m grateful to not be worrying or feel like i could easily be drowning if i stopped getting paid (as i was certainly feeling this a year ago and other times). it’s also been a miracle that throughout the financial struggles, i’ve come to accept where i am and realize how much stuff i really don’t need and how the stuff itself isn’t bringing me real happiness. (again this is something i’ve known though in going back to old ways or negative influences a few years ago and finding myself living through various fears or limiting perspectives, i ended up chasing after external things for fulfillment. i’m glad to be letting go and going back to what really matters in life)

i realize this has gotten quite long with all the details, though i share all the details as i see them all connected to exactly what unfolded. when we step into a miracle mindset, or simply allow the divine to flow through us and guide us in life, all the pieces start to come together quite effortlessly. yes, sometimes there are hiccups or challenges along the way, though an opportunity or solution will naturally be there or present itself. as we surrender into this flow, our lives become much simpler (and we become more effective at handling whatever arises). the more we learn to see how everything is connected (and the divine grace that has brought us to exactly where we are through all of the little pieces of our lives prior to this moment), the more we can naturally become connected with this divine flow and allow miracles to show up in our lives. we can choose to use this to improve our lives and the lives of those around us. as we continue to expand and grow, we’ll see how we can use this to improve the conditions of the entire world. and it seems that the more we surrender into the divine flow and allow the divine to work through us to help others, the greater the miracles, flow, and connection to the divine will become. (we are all connected.. you’re really just helping another part of yourself when you’re helping another and working for a cause greater than your own self-interests. and if a part of ourself is hurting, how can we truly be whole without healing that part?)

i think one of the things i really liked about doing really long exposures or time-lapses at night was being present. sitting, waiting for the camera to expose the images would give me a lot of time to just be there and experience being there. i recall feeling this sometimes during the day when doing time-lapses and just sitting waiting, or when simply waiting for the sun to set when i would get to the causeway or park early. it was nice to just hang out and be in a natural place without thinking i needed to photograph every single moment. it’s so much better to create when feeling inspired rather than trying to force it when wanting to do a specific project. being somewhere at night is nice as its cooler and there’s usually not very much light in the natural places i go to (or even in places that are more well lit), so it’s easier to relax and focus on what i do see. perhaps a part of it is that its also quieter with less people out. i’m not sure all the exact specifics.. i should stop trying to figure it out. it’s all about just relaxing and being in the moment. i’ve experienced this perception even when walking on a bright sunny day, so it’s not all about the external conditions.. it’s about the internal feeling. the external environment can help one feel a certain way, though one can shift how one feels regardless of any external conditions.. it might take a little more effort and work if one is resisting a lot of what one is feeling or experiencing in the world, though it can be done. i’m glad i came out here to do this shot tonight. i felt inspired earlier to do so when i was laying in the grass. it’s not the most exciting shot though i’ll put it with other ones i shoot in a time-lapse and i’m sure it’ll add to the interest of it.

i think what i’m enjoying most about my experience today going to lay on the grass and coming out here is that its bringing me back to aspects of the old me that i had forgotten.. i used to be more spontaneous and free and very often feel inspired to create lots of photographs.. i’d also really embrace the experience of life. somehow over the past couple/few years i strayed away from this. i’ve been wanting to make changes in my life so i could have more fun and enjoy it more again. i think part of the issue i’ve faced was in having my own condo i’ve really felt the struggle to make money to be able to pay for it.. i really don’t like owing anyone anything, especially not when it’s tied to some legal agreement where they could take my home if i didn’t pay. a long time ago, even though i did need money for rent or food or something, i still managed to be free. i was more care free and wasn’t attached to outcome. sometimes i did have less to worry about, less responsibility or concern, though i still sometimes managed to let go of attachment and be free. i think it helped when i either had a group of friends who were easy-going or knew me and appreciated me as i was, or when i had a girlfriend who enjoyed being spontaneous and going on an adventure. one of the most enjoyable aspects of life is just having fun and being in the moment with someone else. it’s something i’ve missed for a long time as i either lost touch with or let go of a lot of people from my past. having nobody and feeling stuck inside a condo that i didn’t fully appreciate really affected me. as i learn to surrender and enjoy my life more, i’ll really be able to embrace wherever i am, regardless of whether or not i’m with someone else or not. yes, it’d certainly be nice to hang out with someone whom i have a meaningful connection with, though i can still appreciate and enjoy my own life.

these recent months (and years) i’ve been so busy working on my photography projects that i haven’t really just sat down and enjoyed life. and as i did the projects and wasn’t really enjoying them for very long after they were complete, it began to feel quite meaningless doing them. when that’s all i was doing, my whole life began to feel meaningless. i really wondered what i was doing with it and often felt lonely and bored. i think sometimes the photo projects were just a means to satisfy that boredom, in an attempt to give my life some meaning or purpose, though it never quite worked as well as it could’ve. it’d only be a very temporary satisfaction.. it’d feel exciting to create a new technique and be out shooting that way, though it quickly lost its excitement after doing it for a little while or completing the project. sometimes it began to feel like work i had to do to complete it and it was no longer fun. i think part of the issue was that i was only going to the same parks and places in the area here. they quickly lost their excitement as it was the same places i was just photographing in new ways. it feels so much more exciting and thrilling to be traveling and exploring someplace new, or some place i hadn’t been to in a while. i know i’m not the only one to experience some of these things and others have written about similar feelings. places and experiences can become mundane if they’re repeated over and over, especially when there is no real purpose or the purpose is only a means or failed attempt to fulfill a deeper longing.

yesterday, or the day before, i deleted thousands (or tens of thousands) of dollars worth of ‘success’ audio programs i had purchased when i was attempting to start business a long time ago. i also deleted the majority of audio files i had downloaded or copied off old cds from a very long time ago. it feels good to purge and let go of things i no longer need. we often hang on to things (digital, physical, mental, or emotional) thinking maybe we’ll need them one day or want to experience them again, though if we look at when was the last time we actually used them (or did we ever use them), we’ll realize that the actual likelihood we’d use them is slim to none. i also deleted old video files i either downloaded or copied off dvds. all together, i purged over half a terabyte of data. it’s funny to look at how much time and effort i wasted downloading and copying the data, thinking maybe i’ll need it some day. i think the large majority of what i deleted i never played once. it felt good to let it go, knowing i didn’t need it. i look at even recently how i’ve downloaded some audio programs i’ve found on the web so i would have them for someday rather than just play it online and see if i even like it. most of them i never listened to though knowing i had them made me feel or think i was okay and could just listen to them whenever. however, whenever never came. it wasn’t a beneficial way of looking at it. now, looking at things more from the perspective of the experience, i can choose to see it in a way that i no longer need to have it or hang on to it. and i don’t have to be on the total opposite extreme about it either.. if i end up liking something, i can choose to keep just those things. i recently read an article talking about de-cluttering.. i think they quoted someone and it basically said to look at or hold each thing you have and if it doesn’t bring you joy, get rid of it. that’s such a great way to look at it. i don’t need to think about the usability or potential of it.. it’s simply going by the feeling it brings. this can be applied to any aspect of life. rather than overthinking things, simply if it doesn’t feel good, don’t do it, and if it does feel good, do it. a friend of mine who’s a transformational coach taught me about living from the ‘feel good’.. it’s simply stepping into the feel good and choosing from that place. it’s much simpler to live from feeling, or the heart, than the mind. the mind can take one in all sorts of directions and often contradict itself, though the heart, soul, and inspiration can guide in a much more effective manner. just like right now.. i wanted to write more and had other areas i wanted to look at, though i’m feeling a little tired and the camera’s been going for long enough to get a decent shot for the time-lapse, so i’m gonna head back home instead of try to force more words out at the moment.

as i was leaving the causeway, the thought of not caring came to mind. by not caring i mean in not being attached to outcome, not worrying so much about the little things, and not caring what others think or expect of you. i used to live more freely from this place of not caring. i didn’t really worry so much about certain things and would just go with the flow or what felt right. i’m sure there was some degree of caring, i don’t remember exactly, it’s been many years now.. though at some point i just got to not care or worry so much and would just enjoy the moment and the experience of life. lately i see how i’ve been trying to control things by wanting things to be a certain way or making things happen a certain way or whatnot.. this hasn’t served me as i’ve only put limitations on myself by doing so. i could write about lots of examples that i was thinking on my drive home, though i won’t go into them all as i’m not feeling them right now. as i surrender attachment to outcome or needing things to be a certain way (or seeking perfection in a sense), i’ll be able to flow more with life. trusting things are going to work out works a lot better than trying to force things to go a certain way. it’s much less stressful to let the universe handle everything rather than take it all into your own hands. the more you do this, the more you’ll see it just naturally works out anyhow (and all that time and energy you wasted was of your own making and truly unnecessary).

it feels good to just be in the moment. i’m sitting here in my condo and realizing this is okay right now. it may not be perfect though right now in this moment it’s okay. learning to relax and take it easy makes a huge difference in life. you don’t need to make everything so difficult. take time for yourself and enjoy the experience. relax. love life.

I am Not the Body, I am Not the Mind. Sadhguru

 

“Saying Yes to Life” – Sadhguru

i’m looking to meet a sweet girl who desires a relationship, or new friends with similar perspectives on life.

some things i like:
– being outdoors
– exploring new places
– nature
– deep conversations about life
– cuddling, spooning, intimacy
– goofing off
– watching something funny
– peace
– relaxing
– meditation, higher awareness
– photography, creativity, writing
– healthy food, mostly vegetarian
– adventures around town
– romance, falling in love
– enjoying + living in the moment
– inspiration