this was shot over two days as the camera battery died shortly into the first day (despite thinking i had plugged it in long enough to charge it). there were a lot more people on the road this weekend compared to a few weeks earlier when the beaches had just closed (where it felt like barely anyone was out).

i still did the drive all the way south both days.. driving to the beaches and back (and also out of the way east before heading home the second day), i drove a total of 208.7 miles, and was able to average 7.0 mi/kWh in my electric car (the equivalent of over 235 mpg). with electricity rates being lower in may (likely due to less demand, meaning less usage of dirty & expensive fossil fuel sources on the grid), the cost to do this drive was just over 1.5 cents per mile. gotta love electric vehicles (for many reasons).. i look forward to seeing the transition to renewable energy and clean transportation unfolding much more quickly than most people expected or imagined.

i planned the drive on the second day to get to a spot where i could mount the camera and start the time-lapse right around the same time of day that the first one stopped [it ended up being about 4 minutes later on sunday to drive past the same spot of the last shot on saturday], and luckily it was sunny both days and the camera position was similar enough on the mount/rig, so the jump between days is barely noticeable, even knowing when it happens in the video. this was shot using an lg 360 cam as it can do time-lapse intervals at 2 seconds rather than the 8 second minimum of the ricoh theta s camera i also have [i welcome donations or a gift of an insta360 one x, one r, or other newer 360 camera that has more capability and better quality for stills and video]. i also shot an infrared time-lapse parts of both days, though this is just the little planet shot, as davinci resolve kept giving an error during multiple hours-long attempts to render the whole video the past few days (and i’ve only used davinci resolve briefly a couple times so far, and need to figure out any of its quirks like this).

here’s a version with the full uncropped infrared images. the infrared time-lapse was shot with a raspberry pi noir camera board v2 with a lee 87c filter (that is causing some strange flare when the sun hits it, possibly as the flexible filter is bent/warped). [it looks like the failure during rendering that was happening before was due to davinci resolve still needing a significant amount of temporary space on the internal disk (which was low) despite specifying an external drive as the location to save the file.]

this last version has the infrared shots cropped to a widescreen aspect ratio. i had also thought about doing a cylindrical projection of the 360 degree shots in place of the stereographic little planet, though may save this for another shot where there are clouds in the sky.

perhaps much more dangerous than potentially believing something that is incorrect versus true is the whole division and opposition this causes in humanity. the whole right and wrong game is what causes all war and suffering. it is time to end the madness that the ego, mind, or separate self causes. all beliefs and viewpoints are simply that, limited perspectives of the greater whole. as we awaken and grow, we learn that all of these can be changed. as we continue to expand, we see how in many cases in order for any one particular viewpoint to exist the opposite must also exist. as we transcend this duality we can return to the deep sense of peace and stillness from which we originated. rather than getting caught up in what others are telling you is real or true about the world, spend time going within to heal so you may continue to open up the connection to your true nature. it is only from this place of awakened consciousness that we can truly evolve and transform the world into a better place for everyone. as difficult as it may be, choose to love and completely accept all aspects of yourself and others. know that we are all only doing the best that we can given our current state of consciousness, and as we individually grow & raise our own levels of consciousness, so too will others be able to heal and expand. if you see something that seems completely wrong, rather than judge it as being bad (or even as being a lower level of consciousness), have compassion for the other. feel what they may be feeling in order to be acting or saying what they are. come from a place of unconditional divine love. this is how we heal the world. we choose to live from the higher levels of consciousness and embody those divine energies here on earth.

some of you know that i’ve had visions to create an inspirational center or tiny home community (sustainable with organic farm, etc). i’ve posted some of the various ideas i’ve had here: markmarano.com/what/community-ideas/

this morning the idea came to me to ask for help of anyone whom may resonate with these. while right now may not be the ideal time to start a fundraiser to ask for donations or investments, one way we can come together without any finances would be to enter sweepstakes, such as those found at one of these links: www.diynetwork.com/hgtv-smart-home .. www.omaze.com .. these can be entered for free, with the latter having the option to purchase additional entries (with proceeds that support various causes). the more of us that enter, the more collective chances we have at winning the prize(s), which can be sold and the funds put towards purchasing land and starting the center or community.

a while back, i chatted with a few of you briefly about some of the details of the community / center. i know others also desire to see this vision unfold (and we may be seeing many similar communities being created around the world in the future, as more and more of us resonate with this idea). if anyone else would like to chat sometime about what we can create together, feel free to reach out to me.

now is the time to envision and create the beautiful new earth we desire to experience.

i redid these shots that i had previously posted (using the low res preview images) on instagram. this was the second time i intentionally took the dji mavic mini out to shoot video clips [during the first few weeks i had it, other than a couple of test videos clips, i only shot photos]. it was windy and they’re not perfect, but a good example of how i’d like some of my work to look.

i went for another long-ish drive with the raspberry pi noir camera v2 a couple days ago. instead of west to the beach (like the day before), i went east to the country (and through the city). this drive wasn’t as relaxing, perhaps as there were more people on the road and as i was paying more attention to driving a particular route (with a number of specific turns) slowly so i could make it back home (with the small battery) without stopping at a public charger (and without running the battery too low). i’m not sure if i went any faster than 45 mph the whole way, and most of the time was slower than that (as i tried to take roads with slower speed limits, multiple lanes, or rural roads with little to no traffic). i was able to average 6.8 mi/kWh the whole 102.3 miles (the equivalent of 147 Wh/mi or 229 MPGe, about twice as good as my car’s EPA rating).. looking quickly at my notes (which are missing lots of data), that appears to be the highest efficiency i’ve gotten on a long drive. when i made it to some of the rural parts that i had never been to before, i discovered a very nice, quiet, peaceful area, which was a pleasant surprise.

this was shot with the same settings as the one the day before: 1/128 shutter speed @ iso 60 with custom white balance (and lee 87c visible light blocking / infrared pass filter), at an interval of one shot every 3 seconds (and the video rendered at 10 fps). to try to compensate for the strange glare i was getting from the filter, i added a long extension rod to the suction cup mount that was on the windshield.. the camera was able to sit further back into the car to reduce its direct exposure to sunlight. this helped some, though it still had some sun hitting it (depending on the direction the car was going) and the whole camera was bouncing up and down the whole time (due to the additional leverage of the long rod it was mounted on). i was wondering if i was going to get anything useful out of it or if the suction cup was going to fall off during the drive.. fortunately the camera movement isn’t too noticeable in the time-lapse (perhaps the rate of movement was somewhat aligned with the interval the shots were taken, and/or the time-lapse playing back at a slow stop-motion-like frame rate of 10 fps effectively helps reduce the visibility of the constant bouncing of the camera), and it held the whole time (just under 4 hours). i was also wondering if there would be motion blur as the shutter speed wasn’t super fast.. looking closely at the individual images, they aren’t as sharp as they could be, but again, being played back in a time-lapse video like this hides the imperfections.

again, this is by no means a perfect video.. i think next time i’m going to see if i can mount the camera behind the tint at the top of the windshield (to see if that works to block the glare from sunlight hitting the filter directly). i’ll also be doing a future time-lapse with an interval of 1 second (and more jpeg compression or lower resolution so the (non high speed) sd card can keep up) to make the time-lapse video appear more smooth. i forgot to mention in the previous video notes that there is a part of the image area that is not in focus like the majority of the image (seemingly due to imperfect alignment of the lens to the sensor), and i’ve attempted to hide this by placing the camera upside down (so the lower + left area(s) of the image are the ones that are less sharp).

during the current quarantine and business closure, let this be a time to reflect, meditate, and go deeply within to feel whatever emotions, fears, or other feelings may be lingering. sitting quietly with whatever it is you’re feeling is one of the most healing things you can do, both for yourself and for the collective consciousness of humanity. internally experience and let go of any old hurts, resistances, judgments, blaming, worries, anger, self-righteousness, the mind’s need for control, and anything else that is no longer serving you or anyone else. by releasing the past and any conditioning or emotional charges (that you are constantly creating the present and future with), you open the door for miracles to unfold in your life and in this reality.

also, let this be a time where we can see a glimpse of vision of our future, as some things happening now will be a part of the new world that is unfolding before us (though don’t worry, the whole fear and worry (and anything to be afraid of) will cease as we collectively awaken).

with less need for humans to work (as more things are automated and/or more people awakening to realize our connection to each other), we’ll all start to see funds being dispersed like most of us in this country will soon be receiving (but on a consistent + regular basis in the future). eventually all need for money (or trade) will cease to exist.

with this consistent universal basic income, people will be less stressed (and more healthy) in not needing to worry about survival.

with self-driving automation and/or less people commuting to a job, there will be no traffic delays on the roads like we currently see.

with more free time, people will be more relaxed and able to spend time quietly meditating or with those that they love (or doing what they feel called to).

as people awaken and realize what really matters in life and/or find themselves more relaxed & at ease, unnecessary consumerism & materialism will disappear.

with more people at ease and having their basic needs met, human suffering will be at its lowest point ever and all violence will cease.

with humanity awakened, relaxed, and living with a compassionate & open heart, all forms of competition and conflict will cease to exist.

with less traffic on the road & less consumption and/or a continued shift toward cleaner energy technologies, we’ll all be able to walk outside and breathe in fresh, clean, healthy air wherever we are on the planet.

with less pollution from less internal combustion engine vehicles on the road (and the upcoming complete transition to all electric vehicles), less pollution from reduction (and soon removal) of all fossil fuel energy production, and less pollution than the excessive goods production & human consumption we’ve known, balance will be restored to the planet, and earth itself along with all its inhabitants (humans, plants, and animals) will thrive and live in perfect peace & harmony with each other.

with a complete transition to renewable energy, simplified & reduced manufacturing, and environmentally-friendly agriculture & permaculture, the land, sky, and water will all be clearer & more beautiful, and we’ll see a significant reduction in natural disasters/reactions of any kind.

as all people & nations come together (letting go of any previous differences) and live in harmony with each other and the planet, we’ll see governments, corporations, banks, military, and all other systems of control (that were created by the fearful mind) fall away & completely dissolve, creating space for a much more brilliant new global society to emerge, one where all beings may equally thrive as co-inhabitants of an abundant earth.

with the awakening and enlightenment of the entire collective consciousness of humanity, we will see all of these and so many more beautiful changes that many cannot even yet imagine. new possibilities to improve all of life will continue to naturally evolve and unfold before us. it will truly be a magnificent time to be alive and experience all the beauty that we can collectively create when living from a divinely inspired place.

the text below was going to be the caption for this instagram post, though it got way too long:


sometimes it’s funny how life tests us. several years back, i recall meeting a few others and seeing how their biggest potential lied just beyond a single block or fear they had to overcome. its funny how life works and how just in our everyday experiences we’re given the opportunity to overcome a block and grow or move forward in some manner. sometimes, at times often (at least for me), it seems that we simply need to surrender and let go of attachment in some way. recently one of the aspects of surrendering has been in finding patience and being more present in the here and now, rather than continually looking for some solution to move forward. as we let go and (re-)learn to trust that all will be fine, we begin to see more of the beauty that already exists in the here and now, and can be more grateful for what we do have and for all that we can experience in this life. society has a tendency to push so many of us (especially in the modern western world) to constantly seek more, bigger, better, faster, etc, etc. this sort of need to constantly improve or move forward takes us away from the simple beauty and presence we can find in the here and now. often all we need to do is simply change our perspective. when we step out of any one fixed viewpoint, we allow for many more possibilities to unfold in our lives. when we’re not looking to the future (or the past), we can live in the present, the only time and place anything ever happens. one challenge i’ve faced has been this letting go of where things will go in the future. it’s been challenging as i can see where things (especially technology) will go before they get there. being able to see a few steps or iterations beyond what currently exists, if its something i see that would be good for a new project or improvement or simplification of what i currently have, i’ve often found myself continually researching and looking for any potential sign of development in the direction i’m seeing. i’ve had to learn patience and to trust that the universe will bring everything (but perhaps not this very instant). sometimes it feels like things in the physical world manifest so much more slowly than i can imagine them (and sometimes it feels like i won’t or don’t even want them by the time they show up), and sometimes its frustrating when its such a simple concept that really isn’t too much of a stretch from current technology but others don’t quite see it yet and i don’t have all the resources to make it myself [like in the case of electric vans being readily available for purchase here when they are overseas].

at the same time, i realize how quickly new technology is developing these days. seven years ago i saw the release of what became a very popular remote-controlled quadcopter drone. the summer before i had gotten a kit to build a radio-controlled powered parachute as that would allow me new opportunities in aerial photography above what i could do with kite aerial photography (which allowed me new opportunities beyond what i was doing with a very tall tripod). the rc powered parachute didn’t work as well as i had thought it would (nor did another plane-like kit i built after that), so i ended up getting the first dji phantom a couple months after it was released. i flew it some that year and a bit more the following two years after that (especially after getting the first ricoh theta camera and hanging it off of it), though shortly after having it i was seeing how i wanted to improve the experience by being able to take it with me more easily and on bike rides and whatnot, but it was pretty large [i actually did get a very large bike basket for an inexpensive electric bicycle i had, though when i moved to a second floor condo the bike was too heavy to regularly carry up and down the stairs so i don’t think i ever ended up taking it with me on the bike]. i did see smaller quadcopters come out in the following years but the good ones started off at a higher price-point than i wanted and it seemed there were new regulations coming out that would make flying less fun with more to think about, so i only flew what i had for around 2.5 years before i ended up selling it and focusing on other methods for elevated views like pole aerial photography (and a little bit of kite aerial photography). after years of waiting and having pretty much given up or forgotten about aerial photography from higher views, i saw the new dji mavic mini announced and released a couple months ago. while it was missing some of the features for better quality photos and videos that their higher end models have, it was still quite capable (and it’s small enough that it’s below the weight limit for more regulation in many places). after watching lots of footage others shot with it, i decided i’d give it a go despite it not being perfect. i ordered it last month and waited weeks for it as it was on backorder. it arrived last night and this afternoon i went for the first flight. these are some of the images. it was funny as i almost gave up on it today too, as the process of updating the firmware and doing the initial calibrations was taking longer than i expected and then i thought there might be an issue with it as i didn’t know the trick to be able to power it or the controller off. i went outside and was able to take off shortly before sunset, with just had enough time to take it on a test flight to make sure it was working and try to get some shots. shortly after it was in the air the sprinklers came on where the landing pad was on the grass and i had to rescue it while still flying. there weren’t any clouds in the sky and the golden hour light on the landscape was pretty much gone, so i figured i might not have any usable images to post here today. after reviewing them, i was pleasantly surprised to see i did have these that i could use, even if they weren’t perfect. i’ve kept them all at the original crops (and i wasn’t paying attention to actually composing any photos and just had it set for timed interval photos every couple seconds). the originals were a bit over-processed but the results were still quite good and usable. and the experience of flying was so much better than all of my previous rc aircraft. the first dji phantom only had a gopro mount and i had to pretty much guess what it was seeing and exactly where it was in the air (and the images could have wobble in them as there was no stabilization, and videos were pretty much out of the question from what i recall, though i did manage to make some time-lapses i liked). being able to see what the camera is actually seeing and have data of how far and high it is right on the screen (and see it on the map relative to where i am) makes the experience so much better and easier. more than once i thought i was going to lose or had lost the phantom as i couldn’t tell which way it was going and wasn’t sure if the return to home function actually worked. gratefully i never did lose it, and am glad to have the added ability to see where it’s at. just flying the short route i did today with the mavic mini would’ve previously been a nerve-racking experience in worrying i might not get the phantom 1 back. it’s funny, as most people who just started getting remote-control quadcopters in the more recent years have never known what it might be like to fly without the visual aid of the map or what its seeing. it’ll be even crazier to see what new technology continues to develop in just a few more years or decades. sometimes its good to wait to upgrade technology so we can have a better appreciation of how much change has actually happened (besides this less consumeristic approach being far better for both the wallet and environment). i just ‘upgraded’ to an iphone se a few weeks ago, and even though its not as capable as the latest phones, the camera and speed are noticeably better than an iphone 6 (and now that serves as the screen for the mavic mini app).

after all the waiting, all the various challenges in aerial photography, almost canceling the order to get the insta360 one r camera with drone attachment, and even thinking after it arrived yesterday ‘why did i order this, do i really even need it, am i actually going to use it?’, it looks like it was good a choice and i look forward to all the images i’ll be creating with it. [often we just need to move forward through whatever resistance we may have, however it shows up in our lives. upon doing so we can realize new, greater perspectives in life. how and where we’re looking from make all the difference.] it’s amazing what a simple change in elevation will do for landscape photography [even just walking up around 10 feet on some stairs at a park a week ago made a noticeable difference]. i also enjoy the metaphors aerial images give of seeing from above in relation to opening up to greater perspectives and higher consciousness. and the really significant major changes we’ll be seeing unfold in this world will be a result of more and more of us continuing to awaken to higher levels of awareness.

this is everywhere i went in the first 180 days* of actual driving in my fiat 500e.

* counting nights i arrived home after midnight as part of the previous day when i left

i had an interesting experience last night during a dream. [and perhaps this experience is still continuing now (to a subtle degree), as i just got out of bed to write it, after pondering it for a bit.. as i just heard noise in the other room that seemed to be a distraction now at this point that i want to write this.. and i’ve experienced that other times too, distractions from my parents in the other room when i’m exploring something or other here.. its almost like part of them doesn’t want me to grow, as i notice the distractions when i’m exploring something new.. though i do imagine it could also be my perception of them not wanting me to grow (from what i’ve seen before in the past and have been conditioned to think having very often seen their limited perspectives on life) that is causing it in those moments too… which has all been related to the struggle i’ve faced recently of currently not having my own home or a good solution for a home or land where i can park + build a tiny home..]

anyhow back to the details of the experience, as much of them as i can remember, as its been some hours now.. i thought of getting out of bed to write it down after/when it was happening, though felt i might not be able to get back to sleep afterwards [as i’ve had some issues sleeping multiple times in the past couple weeks, though it has been better these recent days and i’ve been napping a bit more, partially as i’m not seeing anything i can do to move forward and feel i don’t really have anything else i can do in my life while i’m waiting for something to unfold in the world for me to take the next step, and also partially so i can stop continuously looking for an answer or solution with something that currently exists in the world that really isn’t a good option (and stop trying to make something work thats not going to end up working well long term or that i still am missing an aspect of, such as a place to be able to park whatever travel trailer or vehicle i’m considering).. so i’ve been just napping and sleeping more these last couple days to try to avoid running around in circles looking for something that’s not there yet, and hopefully (by stopping the doing and striving) be able to face whatever it is i’m feeling (or resisting), so i can feel better and not want to just leave the planet (because i don’t want to continue being stuck and feeling there’s no point to staying here if i can’t simply move forward in a direction i want to grow or explore in life)].

anyhow, i was in a dream and though things were strange in the dream, like i was seeing that some things didn’t quite make sense or match up with the experience i knew to be true here in the physical world, it felt true or real enough in the dream that i stayed in the dream and kept going along with it and experiencing it as if it was real. (and, though i don’t remember all the exact details, i do remember seeing that it was just the mind processing different elements from the day or my life in a different way) after a little while in the dream, someone said something to me that didn’t make sense, as i knew it wasn’t true in my daily physical world experience.. often at this point in a dream, i’d feel myself quickly departing as i knew it was just a dream and there was no point in staying in it any longer as it wasn’t real.. though, i sat there pondering it for a while, looking at if it could be true in some sense (if i recall correctly, though perhaps not), and realizing it was just a dream, but still lingering there looking at it from a detached place.. almost like the dream itself was on pause as i wasn’t in it, though i was looking or thinking or pondering about what happened.. but i was at a place where i could almost go back into the dream, and part of me was trying to go back to see what would happen next in the unfolding of the story, but then i wasn’t able to, as part of me knew it was just a dream and i couldn’t go back in to the illusion knowing it wasn’t really real.

i almost forgot to write.. after this dream experience i had what felt like a profound experience (that i don’t recall all the details of).. where i think i was in a place of white light, and there was some sense of things (like the dream or aspects of it) dissolving into the light (i don’t quite recall exactly how or if i’m describing it well, but it felt something like this). i think from that place i did feel more of a sense of source where i was dissolving these things or experiences into the light, and where i could create new ones too (from the light?). i wanted to write more about this part as i do recall it being a profound experience and this is what i wanted to actually share rather than the details of the dream (which i had forgotten until i went looking for it shortly before getting out of bed to write this) or what it reminds me below or the preface above.. but i think being awake now with distractions of the physical world, i’m not quite remembering the exact feeling or details of the experience [hmm, re-reading this, i had the thought something like: perhaps in the physical world i’m forgetting source to see what just plays out on its own (in this story/dream of life)]. though it was a nice unexpected way to remember being source of this all. i’ve had profound experiences in the avatar course of this, though haven’t practiced any of the exercises or tools in quite a long time.. which brings me to what i wrote below about remembering an experience (that i had written before adding this paragraph with the most important part of the experience last night that i almost forgot as i went looking for the other details).

this reminded me a bit of a powerful experience i had at the beginning of the avatar course, where i was being taken through a series of exercises to ground myself into feeling (i think that was the purpose or intention).. and at the end of the last exercise, i recall feeling that (having broken through whatever resistances were previously there) i could live from a place of feeling, and that i was already starting to.. and the more deeply i dove into that, the more i was feeling more open and expanded.. then a little into that, another master came over and asked what i was doing and said that i was leaving my body (and i immediately felt myself come back into my body).. afterwards (and maybe during too, its been quite some years now, i don’t recall exactly) the world appeared brighter and more beautiful. (i recall not long before the whole experience at the course i was having thoughts ‘i love myself’ as an affirmation but then immediately after the thought ‘and i want to die’ would follow.. maybe having felt a way out to just live from feeling without the body or mind, i was trying to dissolve into that. afterwards, the master who was guiding me through the exercises asked if i had done energy work before, and i said no, but felt (maybe?) i had in a past life).

i ponder all this (and there was more that’s not coming to me at this moment), as i was wondering about where i’m at it in life and my spiritual journey (and how i did steer away from the spiritual growth for some years), and wondering if i need to first take care of my own life and create a life i enjoy and love, so that as i continue back along the spiritual journey i don’t end up trying to leave life again the next time i experience awakening more deeply (and realizing this illusion isn’t real). perhaps thats also why i don’t seem to have had such profound experiences as others lately.. either that i’m already awakened beyond those experiences other have had, or that i’m resisting feeling the energy or shifts as i’ve stayed grounded here in the body since the experience i had where i was told i was leaving the body (though i did have another profound experience later in the advanced course where i felt that i was the spirit moving and flowing, and that the body simply followed), or perhaps a bit of both (as i’m both already awakened and choosing to be grounded here to be able to experience more of everyday life.. or perhaps its also, as i do recall being drawn to the highest level of bodhisattva (where one waits for others to awaken before entering heaven) and, that i’ve chosen to forget enough of who i really am to a degree as i wait for everyone else to catch up and not get left behind.. or that i just want to explore different paths to awakening and need to forget enough in order for the new/next awakening experience to be effective…. but i think i’ve explored this already in other recent writings and i’m going off (the rails) on a tangent here). [i think there was more i was pondering and wondering and reflecting on, though i added the paragraph a couple above that i almost forgot before writing this one, and i now don’t remember this part.. it seems that sometimes going off on the tangents and exploring in multiple directions at a time can get us lost along the way (or it just takes longer to find our way back home doing so.. perhaps its part of the challenge of seeing how far one can go and still find their way back home, though that itself is another tangential path to explore)]

rather than follow what others are doing in life, choose to create your own life. you can choose anything you like. and, while it can be helpful to see what unique things others are doing, your experience doesn’t have to look anything at all like anyone else’s. the more of us that break free from following society, the quicker a more beautiful world will unfold.

[the grasp of those trying to control can only work if enough people are buying into the fear they’re selling. let go of what you’ve been told you’re supposed to do, and embrace what your heart is calling you to do.]

life can be as simple, beautiful, and amazing as you allow it (and yourself) to be.

[only the mind makes things overly complex and tries to tell you you’re missing out by not participating in its games. the heart knows a deeper, simpler, more profound truth.]

the mind wanting more is simply a form of it resisting (feeling) what is.

the mind wanting more is simply a form of resistance to feeling what is.

each day spend more time nurturing the heart’s capacity to feeling (rather than the mind’s desires, goals, or activities).

look at how you spend most of your time.. is it in connecting through the heart, or controlling through the mind?

do your influences and surroundings cultivate heartfelt connections, or further perpetuate separation, competition, control, and fears of the mind?

are you one wanting to have it all, or one with all that is?

life and existence can be as easy as simply shifting your focus / attention / energy / thoughts / activities / priorities from what the mind thinks it wants to what the heart knows it feels.

[some unfinished thoughts/writing…]

has anyone awakened to randomly notice how strange some things the ego/mind does really are? perhaps i slipped away into another dimension or samadhi or something during a nap earlier, though recall feeling well and present, and then noticing

it’s interesting, it seems that the further one goes on the spiritual journey (and the less interested one becomes in worldly things), the odder the ‘normal’ things people (have been conditioned to) do seem..

it’s interesting as one expands to higher levels of consciousness that one can notice how much lower vibrations really can affect one’s body or experience. i was feeling well before and then ate some lasagna and it felt + tasted disgusting, especially at first (and thought that i might need to give up eating cheese or dairy altogether). later i had a little more and i didn’t notice it so much.. i must’ve been brought down to the lower energy of processed food and animal products. the lower energies can easily brings us back down.. it may be subtle most of the time that most people don’t notice it, though as one lives from higher levels it becomes more noticeable how drastic the difference really is.

it’s interesting to see how some youtubers have used a series of quick video cuts of details of the small actions in everyday activities. i remember thinking of a project doing this nearly 15 years ago, and its great to see this (and other creativity) showing up now.. [sometimes we just need to receive the inspiration (or create the feeling/intention), completely let it go or forget about it, and then watch it later unfold in the world through someone else]

here’s everywhere i’ve driven during the first half year of owning my first electric vehicle, a low range fiat 500e with small 24 kWh battery (this is actually only 5 months worth of driving as i didn’t drive it for 30 days straight). with a small battery, the car is officially rated by the EPA for only 84 miles of range per charge (though i’ve gotten more than that). i was able to go most places on the map on a single charge and have averaged 5.58 mi/kWh in efficiency the whole time (that’s 188 MPGe, a good bit higher than the 112 MPGe the car is rated for, and way higher than the 28 to 33 MPG the gasoline version of the fiat 500 is rated for). other than the very furthest trips (the 2 furthest south, the 2 furthest northeast, and the 2 furthest east) and the times i combined routes to take the very long out-of-the-way route home, i could drive the whole way without stopping to charge. i did use public chargers a few times, which were nice to give me the ability to go further. only one of the public chargers i used was a paid charger (and the cost was a little less per kWh there than at home).

overall, paying for electricity as fuel is much less than paying for gas or diesel. including the paid and free public charging, my average electric “fuel” cost has been 2.28 cents per mile to drive my car everywhere. for comparison, my car that averaged just under 40 mpg cost an average of 5.5 cents per mile the whole time i had it, and my van that averaged 18 mpg had an average cost of 13 cents per mile (both of these were when gas prices averaged a little lower per gallon than they are today). when gas prices were a bit higher, my truck (most of the time carrying my pop-up camper on the bed) averaged a little over 17 mpg with an average cost of 21 cents per mile. and these are just the figures for the electric or gas cost. the maintenance cost an internal combustion engine will be significantly higher than an electric car (which barely needs any maintenance with a much simpler design to the motor + systems).

it’s a bit crazy to think about how much more efficient electric vehicles are compared to gas or diesel internal combustion engines — even a full size electric bus would have a per-mile “fuel” cost similar to what i paid per mile for gas in my van or truck, and the true per-mile cost including maintenance and repairs would likely make a full size electric bus a good bit cheaper to drive than a pickup truck or van with gas or diesel engine! (which will be great news for full time travel when RV’s, trucks, and vans with electric drivetrains are readily available for purchase)

the furthest i drove in a single day was just under 250 miles on the trip furthest east (to bok tower gardens, and through some rural parts and around the bay before heading home). i did stop multiple times to charge, however if one had an electric vehicle with a larger battery (as most new models sold have), one would be able to make the whole round trip on a single charge. or one could add some charge conveniently wherever one might be already going (as the bok tower gardens happened to have chargers in the parking lot), and after one is done exploring, eating, etc, one’s car will have additional range without ever needing to make a stop at a gas station [which, at least for me, always seemed to have a dirty feel to them.. whether it was the ground being dirty from spilled gas or leaked oil, the pollution and smell of engines running or people smoking, the addictions of people going to grab quick fixes of tobacco, alcohol, lottery tickets, or unhealthy food at the convenience shop, the ads or news playing on a screen at some pumps to program people, or knowing the environmental + societal impacts of using gasoline or diesel.. it just wasn’t a pleasant experience. i’m very grateful for an electric vehicle future, and for how much nicer it will be to drive, sit, or walk by the road without noises of loud engines].

sometimes it seems that the divine is telling us to slow down, let go, relax, and surrender, rather than continuing to go forward, push the limits, or see how far one can go. the day before yesterday, i went on a drive the furthest north i’ve been in my electric car, to some parts i hadn’t been to ever or in a while. shortly into my journey, the car displayed a service needed message. gratefully the car drove and performed normally the rest of the trip, and i took it to the dealer early yesterday morning. while waiting almost all day to hear back from them (so i could plan on getting a ride down there to get the car and go to satsang in the evening), i felt myself being triggered a little, feeling things related to patience and waiting (and perhaps letting go and control).

[it’s funny to think about all this.. i remember how i felt in recent months, or longer, how simple things (or beneficial change) can seem to take so long in the physical world to manifest, and a lot of it is due to resistance and control in the collective consciousness.. and this is part of what i was feeling come up in my experience]

[for anyone whom doesn’t realize it, most of the time when i’ve written “it’s funny”, it’s because that’s how this experience of reality works, and it’s funny to see it happening (yet once again) after one temporarily stops paying attention to such sorts of things for a while (and then later comes back (again) to the point of realization that it’s a bit ridiculous to think that it’s not like this, and it’s quite funny, in a sense, to shift viewpoints to one where one can understand more clearly again, until one chooses to forget again for a while)…]

yesterday afternoon i heard from the dealer that the service indicator came on as the coolant pump needs to be replaced and its going to be a few days to get the part (i’m guessing as the car was a compliance car only sold on the west coast and they need to ship it from over there). i’m grateful it’s under warranty so there won’t be a charge for the work, though i was a bit disappointed not having my car for a week. [they offered a free rental car for the week, though i think i’m gonna skip on it and spend the time here, possibly starting to work on making videos from my trip to maine six years ago] i was planning a trip this weekend down to sarasota for a free museum day and then to siesta key before heading back up. i’ll have to postpone it until the beginning of next month.. i wanted to go this weekend to add some lines to the map of everywhere i’ve been in the car in the first half year of owning it. drawing the lines on the map has been fun to see where else i can wander to (at very little cost per mile), and also to demonstrate to others how far one can go in a short range electric car (as the technology is still quite new to most people). sometimes pushing the limits to see how much i can squeeze out of a route without draining the battery too low has taken a good bit of planning / calculating to make sure i have a backup plan in case one of the public chargers isn’t working.. and sometimes i wonder if all the effort is really worth it, and if anyone else sees any value in it. i very much look forward to the continued expansion of public charger locations. it’ll be quite nice when they are as prevalent as gas stations, and it’ll be a lot easier when i get a car with a bigger battery. i know my car wasn’t designed to be taken on longer trips, is really considered a city car with the small battery, and i never thought of driving it as far as i have when i decided to buy it, though it has been good to see how far of a round trip i can drive it in a day either in a single charge or using public chargers to go further. sometimes though i wonder about the various projects i find myself in and if any of them are really worth it or if they are simply distractions to being present, relaxing, and enjoying the moment. i look forward to when i have a fully electric van or truck with solar charging capability, where i can go explore and not have to plan so much.. if i need to charge somewhere for a while, i can just relax or take a nap in the back, and i could have the option to go anywhere even where there are no public chargers, and if my battery charge gets too low, i simply just park and hang out or live inside my tiny home on wheels while i wait for the sun to add back enough range to keep going. i can see a couple things going on internally.. like how i think sometimes we do need to push the limits of what we can do to know what is possible, though it can certainly be exhausting at times if it requires too much mental (or physical) effort, and how i can move very quickly through things in my experience of them by doing this.. i see how i’m already ready for the next step forward, an electric van that i can set up as a tiny home (and there are no major manufacturers in the united states offering electric vans or trucks for sale yet), and i’m even ready for the next step after that, to add solar charging capability (which manufacturers may not offer as an option, or at least right away). it’s easy for this visioning (and seeing what the future will bring) to take one out of the present moment and leave one feeling tired while waiting for the world to catch up. [and it seems that i’ve been doing this my whole life!] i suppose sometimes we do need to embark on a new frontier ourselves and create what does not yet exist [though i’ve also seen how when i’ve done this or how when i’ve envisioned something and waited years for someone else to make it, i haven’t really cared whether or not it existed by the time it showed up.. perhaps that’s the element of surrender and letting go of attachment to outcome, though if so, what’s the whole point of putting forth effort into see anything for the future if it no longer matters by the time it comes out? though i can see through what i just wrote there and see there’s other aspects at play.. and that there is inherit value in envisioning and creating a future, for someone will enjoy it, and at some level i can still enjoy the new technology (even if its in just knowing its available) even if i no longer need it like i felt i once did]. i woke up pretty tired and it was difficult to start to type all of this (and i almost didn’t, feeling that there’s not really much of a point in sharing this.. though now by typing this far, i’m starting to feel better, as i explore the feelings i had about it all. and perhaps that’s merely what all this was about, a means to explore the feelings within rather than hang on to them.. for that is what truly matters in life, to feel what one is feeling and to feel life. feeling is healing. we experience the world through feeling what is in the heart.. and when we try to understand or perceive too much through the mind, we end up feeling exhausted and blocked, and can not function properly). anyhow, i’m not sure if anyone is gonna read this all (or understand it) or if i ever will read this, but it no longer matters. i feel better simply by typing it and feeling it. the story and the details are not important. only the experience matters. [and regarding what i’m looking for, i may consider converting a van or box truck or something into an electric vehicle rather than waiting for their availability.. or i may just build a tiny home instead so i can have a home that i can move between florida and chicagoland to see my friends both places and have nicer weather the whole year.. that was my original thought before getting my electric car, though as i wasn’t seeing good options i liked for land where to park the tiny home here and i started to think more about being able to wander both locally and further more easily in an electric vehicle tiny home, i started to shift my focus more in that direction.. one thing to notice is how one might shift desires from one thing to another, and to see if it’s truly because the latest option is really a better solution for what wants, or if its because one is stuck and not seeing a way for the original option to unfold.. i can see how there are elements of both in what i just mentioned, and also how when i bought my van a couple years ago that it was out of resistance of living in my condo and feeling stuck there (though that’s another tangent).. what i’ve felt what would be best for me would be to have my own land that could be my home base between journeys, preferably with an efficient + disaster-proof monolithic dome home with sustainable aspects (or completely off-grid) in an area i like near friends or spiritual communities, and to have a fully electric adventure/expedition vehicle that i can live out of on extended journeys.. though as i’ve been waiting for the pieces to come together for this to unfold, and as i had multiple health issues the past couple years, i began to wonder if maybe i’m not going in the right direction. i also see in my local wanderings to more rural areas that i remember how much i really love wide open natural landscapes and feel most alive in quiet + natural places. and i’ve seen how even some of these areas that once were more rural are now becoming so developed, making it more difficult to find (or ridiculously expensive to purchase) good land near the communities i want to be by. i know some options still do exist and i welcome the divine to bless me with the gift of a nice acreage somewhere quiet + safe + natural + beautiful around here, though i’ve been waiting for this for quiet a while.. i remember looking for land back when i was on my truck camper trip out west in 2012. perhaps i do need to make some compromise (for now) like getting land in the middle of nowhere (though not too far away from good grocery stores or places i’d enjoy exploring) or just living life on the road exploring and finding places in nature (in a functional + livable tiny home on wheels) until an option for land i like does unfold.. though it would mean seeing friends at local communities less often until a good permanent place to park shows up. it seems like this tangent is starting to go off in circles or get lost.. i wanted to get back to the whole idea of things being substitutions for what i really want as i’ve been waiting for what i want but it hasn’t showed up.. i think what i really want is a nice, sweet, pretty girl with a good heart to join me on the adventures in nature. i know when i’ve been in a relationship in the past i haven’t felt the need to be pursing so many technical or creative things, and i would just enjoy being in the moment with her. and i do recall one of the reasons for ending my trip out west was the lack of having another around.. i saw some beautiful places though it didn’t seem as fulfilling or something just going by myself.. i had missed the community gatherings at the flowering heart center in illinois the summer before.. i remember it was nice when i met up with some friends along the journey, and having a girlfriend / best friend with me on the adventure would be wonderful. part of me has almost forgotten or given up on meeting someone, partly feeling i don’t need anyone, and also seeing i’ve gone years waiting or looking to connect with someone whom had similar perspectives and desires. i think part of when i bought my condo was so i could have my own place with my own energy and be able to open that space to a girl, though there were some things less than ideal about living inside a shared building, as i felt the space was still limited with others’ permanent and distractions right there, and didn’t end up meeting + connecting with someone who wanted to co-create a relationship. anyhow, i’m getting tired writing all this, i think it’s working its way two hours since i got up and started exploring this.. if anyone knows of a nice girl whom has similar (or compatible) perspectives on life to me, please feel free to introduce her (or yourself) to me :) for now, i suppose, i’ll continue to follow my heart as best i can and do what i feel called to.. i think some sort of all-wheel-drive dual-motor electric van or truck with more livable room inside than my van or truck camper would be great for exploration and to be able to see friends different places and visit different spiritual communities/centers. in the future, after i have good permanent parking options, i could see a larger electric bus or truck or tiny home as a permanent home to move around throughout the year and keep parked for a while.. with plenty of solar panels, rainwater collection, and a greenhouse or area to grow plants, it could be a completely off-grid movable tiny home.. i’ll try not to leap too quickly to this one, until more technological advances occur, unless the divine wishes to bless me with lots of financial prosperity and abundance where i could hire whomever needed to research and develop and build all aspects of this into a manner that would work really well for me. anyhow, i think i keep looking for an ending, not wanting to leave this or stop writing without some sort of conclusion or good thought, like that which was before this whole long section in brackets began.. but sometimes we just gotta start and stop wherever we’re at. there doesn’t need to be a perfect ending, it’s all about the experience. sometimes i wonder why i even share any of this, and have thought about deleting my website and all online presence.. i have deleted a lot of social media postings which has been nice. it’s good to let go of these attachments or external definitions.. especially when things can shift in the world/life so quickly and so much/often. i remember noticing this many years ago when i was actively showing art in galleries/museums and then running into someone i talked to at an exhibition whom asked me about some aspect of a project i mentioned back then that i had long forgotten about.. it was all in the moment and what i saw coming in the moment.. and things didn’t always unfold in the way that i saw at that moment, and it was intriguing to see someone inquire about those things that i had long passed by… anyhow, we’ll see which of these potential futures we choose to experience in the continual unfolding of consciousness]

God has no preferences. God appreciates everyone and everything, for God is everyone and everything.

love is about letting go of any one single fixed viewpoint, and connecting with (opening one’s heart to) the other’s perspective.

technically, i purchased my first electric car 5 months + 1 day + some hours ago, though i didn’t drive it for 30 days straight due to a health issue, so have titled this approximately 1/3 year (or 4 months) worth of driving. the large majority of what you see on the map was actually done within the first 3 months worth of driving.. only a few ‘lines’ on the map were added in the most recent month of driving (in just 6 long drives), most noticeably, the northeastern-most route, the southwestern-most route, and some lines in the new tampa / wesley chapel area.

my electrical “fuel” cost has averaged 2.5 cents per mile the whole time i’ve had the car. i’ve been able to go almost everywhere just charging at home (on a standard 120v outlet slow charger). i have used free 240v public chargers a few times, though, other than the couple trips furthest south, i would’ve been able to make it home without charging had i let the charge % go a bit lower (and if i hadn’t combined a couple routes into the same day’s drive or taken the very long out-of-the-way route home).

i’m glad i got a fiat 500e (that had very low miles on it and was practically new). had i gotten a bmw i3 (without the range extender), it wouldn’t have been able to make it as far without stopping to charge (since it doesn’t let you use the full capacity of the battery). had i gotten a nissan leaf, the battery probably would’ve already had some degradation (as it has no thermal management / liquid cooling and this is a common issue), and i wouldn’t have been able to go as far either. also a lot of the used i3 and leaf models that i looked were not in as good condition and had odors of smoke.

i look forward to the upcoming release of electric vans and trucks to be able to easily travel the entire country without a drop of gas or oil. just the other day i learned about someone taking an electric stepvan with a huge solar array on the roof from the arctic circle to the bottom of argentina all on renewable energy.. it’s not an ideal setup (with limited range per charge), but still inspiring to see it being done. i would totally consider converting an electric stepvan into a camper or tiny home and traveling around the country in it. even without solar panels, it could be taken many places with current charging networks.

electrical vehicles have less environmental impact, lower long term costs (from lower maintenance and fuel costs), and better performance than vehicles with gas or diesel engines. some used EV’s can be found at really low prices too (i bought mine for around 1/3 of the new sticker price, and it still had a hint of new car smell to it). if you want to talk to others about their EV experiences, “national drive electric drive week” is about a week away and there are hundreds of local meet-up events throughout the country.

besides the lower environmental impact, the effect on human health will be much lower too. imagine how nice the world will be, especially in dense urban and sub-urban areas, when one can walk or sit outside without breathing in exhaust or pollution from vehicles driving by (especially from vehicles with a dirty diesel engine or vehicles that are old or not in good running condition). it’ll also be really nice not to hear loud internal combustion engines as cars pass by, especially ones that sound like they’re about to fall apart and make so much noise to barely move. hearing engines echoing loudly in the distance will become a thing of the past. some people with ego issues may think louder is better (or feel the urge to annoy others with loud noise), though once one experiences how effortlessly, quietly, smoothly, and quickly electric vehicles can accelerate, there will be no question how much better performance is in electrical vehicles. just imagine being a truck driver and how much nicer (and healthier) the experience will be.. headaches from the noise and vibration all day will no longer be an issue.

sometimes one needs to experience both (or all) sides of an aspect of reality in order to fully embrace it.

some more thoughts on surrender and technology.. it’s interesting to see how the whole concept of surrender has applied in technology. i can see so many things that have unfolded after i’ve let them go or completely forgotten about them. i remember around the time when i got my first laptop computer and downloaded my CD’s onto it (or perhaps when i still had the desktop computer before then), i thought how it would be so much simpler to just play the music on a portable computer in my car rather than have to carry so many compact discs with me.. a couple years later or so i discovered the iPod and saw other mp3 players being released (and newer cars can play the music right off a usb drive). in the world of photography, i remember so much research and trying to find an ultra-wide angle rectilinear lens and then those being manufactured later.. and i was trying to simplify my equipment and be able to do everything with a smaller camera that could fit in my pocket but have good image quality, and then mirrorless cameras became available and later ultra-wide angle lens options started to show up for them (and now smartphones even have it, and its rumored that the next iPhone will be announced in a couple weeks with an ultra-wide angle lens built right into it). i recall when i first discovered the little planet technique that i had to research and develop and have a custom mount machined so i could easily create time-lapses using the technique (as no one had made one before), and after creating some, seeing the next step as making the 360 degree time-lapses move rather than have a stationary tripod (which i attempted but the equipment was so big and heavy that it wasn’t ideal).. several years later 360 degree cameras started to become available to consumers and, now, a few years later, there are lots of options and they’re being used to replace action cameras and do all sorts of movements. i recall for the longest time not wanting to have to carry a tripod and wishing there were some way to just have the camera stay in place without needing to carry or set up a heavy tripod.. i was also researching and trying different ways to take aerial and low aerial images (without needing to fly in a helicopter or plane, use a ladder, bucket truck, etc).. years later quadcopter drones became popular and now there are tons of options. i had purchased the first popular consumer quadcopter model that seemed to have begun the drone industry and after using it for a while, i was looking for alternative options as i’d like to have something small that fit in a pocket (and regulations started to come about and something lighter weight that was considered a toy would be better).. years later small drones came out, though the smallest one was still not ideal, and now it sounds like a new model that is lighter weight and with better image quality will be announced/released soon. a number of years ago i remember thinking of a special tilt/shift lens adapter that didn’t exist and years later i saw that come out. i’m sure i could think of other ideas that i had to wait a long time for it to be developed too. just in the last couple weeks i was doing some time-lapses while driving with my 360 cameras, and the idea came to me of how i could make an interesting little planet shot with two 360 cameras (really just 180 degrees would be needed), one at the front of the vehicle and one at the back, and stitching them together to make the vehicle disappear to only capture the surroundings. just a couple days ago i read about a new camera that’s going to be announced tomorrow, and learning more about it from leaked information, it looks like it will capture 180 degrees and is very tiny, which might just be what could work for the idea i just had recently. it’s funny how all these things come together. sometimes we do need to just let go and forget about the ideas of what we’re seeing or wanting for years. it can be difficult when being ahead of the time in one’s vision, though likely the ideas that are coming to us are also being picked up by others in the collective consciousness and will be developed.. or we could work on the development ourselves if we chose to too. its beautiful to see the awakening of consciousness, and great to see how as more people awaken, how this affects the development of technology. so much new technology and what would’ve once been very specialized technology is now being developed much more quickly with shifts in consciousness. the more of us that awaken, the quicker it will be. we still must learn to surrender and let go and not be attached, though it won’t need to take as long. as we collectively evolve to higher levels of consciousness, we may be able to very quickly or instantly step out of one reality and into another where what we’re envisioning already exists. as we learn to do the work in consciousness, so much will unfold and evolve so quickly. some have looked at the adoption rate of new technologies and have seen how quickly the latest technologies have come about, especially smartphones.. some years ago it seemed like barely anyone had them and then seemingly all of a sudden it seemed like almost everyone had one. this adoption rate may continue to happen more quickly for newer technologies, especially ones that are aligned with the health of the planet and the good of the collective consciousness. electric vehicles right now are getting very close to the point where the adoption rate will go up very quickly. it’s nice to see more options becoming available as i’ve been thinking of an electric van, truck, or something that i can use as an electric RV or camper for a while now. these are currently in the works and will be available pretty soon. i had written one manufacturer a little while ago inquiring about an electric van version of their truck and they mentioned getting a lot of interest in a van. there are other manufacturers that are going to be releasing electric van options (at least overseas) in the coming months too. i know i just sold my van earlier this year, though would certainly consider an electric van when they’re available. i’ve been having more thoughts about getting back on the road.. i have a few different ideas for living and travel.. it would really depend on what large electric vehicles are readily available first and when i get my own land where i can park it near here. ideally i’d have my own home and also an electric RV or van to travel with, though i’d also consider only having an electric RV and waiting on the home if it could either tow a tiny home or travel trailer, or if it were larger to have a comfortable living area inside and had dual motors and all wheel drive to have it as my expedition vehicle / home to explore with (though still really need land if i want to stay around the area here for most of the winter months). i’ve gone off on a bit of tangent there, though this does come back to surrender. i suppose i just need to let go and know its going to happen (and i already know it will, its just a matter of time before a good option with what i’m looking for is readily available for sale at a decent price here). i thought about getting a school bus and converting that into a tiny home because it’d have so much room though i really don’t want to support the fossil fuel industry. back to other technologies that are better for the planet, i’m reading more about renewable energy taking over, and it seems like we’re turning more to the right direction to reduce our impact on the planet. it’s awesome to see the new world we are creating as more of us are awakening. sometimes it’s easy to get caught up in the drama of the world that wants to take our attention away, though as we remember, spiritually, the outer world is a reflection of the inner world, and remember that more and more of us are awakening, it’s easy to see that we’re headed in a good direction despite any hiccups along the way. the more of us that awaken, the more of us that continue to awaken. imagine soon that being awakened will be normal, and there will be more people awakened with flowered hearts than those without. at that point there will be even greater transformation unfolding in the world. some of these things we may be looking forward to right now (and some things that some might even see as impossible) will be nothing compared to what will be possible decades from now after the entire collective consciousness has awakened and evolved. decades from now people will be looking back at what we have yet to experience in the world as being quite archaic. it’s crazy to think that, though just look at how much has happened in the century or even just the last quarter century. a quarter century ago people barely knew how to use computers and barely anyone knew what the internet was. i admit that, back then, even as someone who knew more about computers than anyone else i knew, thinking about the network capability of the computers in school and thinking that i really didn’t see much of a use for it.. though shortly after that i was ‘online’ pretty often to play computer games with someone else, or chat with friends, send emails, or begin to explore the infancy of the world wide web. heck i still even have some emails from 22 years ago. sometimes i’ve thought about completely giving up on technology and exploring other areas of life or just living simply without it to a degree (or at least not engaging in developing technology or researching or envisioning new technology), though its interesting to see here how for the majority of my life i’ve been engaged with technology at some level and how i’ve been able to see where things are going with it. perhaps it is like some have told me, that it is a gift, since some aspects of it come quite easily. i suppose i’ll continue to embrace this gift for now, though also continue to explore other things that really make me feel alive, like being in nature and seeing new places and new perspectives. i’m not sure where this is all going, it’s me just rambling on at this point.. hopefully someone finds it interesting if anyone actually reads it all. as usual, i won’t go back and edit this or re-read it either. maybe later down the line i’ll randomly happen upon this and start reading it and find it interesting.. that’s a whole interesting concept right there to explore.. leaving things or messages behind for oneself to encounter later. in this whole illusion of life, that seems to be what we’ve done. we’ve left a little bit of truth hidden beneath the surface for us to ‘randomly’ discover one day, and this discovery will lead to our awakening and self-realization. if we hadn’t left this bit of truth for ourselves to find, we may have never woken up from this dream. despite how interesting or helpful technology can be, it really doesn’t matter nearly as much as we make it matter. what really matters is waking up. only after awakening can we truly begin to live.

some more thoughts the next morning:

i almost forgot to mention, another thing that i had an idea of was starting to share video clips of aspects of my life.. in a sense i did this 15 years ago in a video i put together about my experiences hanging out with friends, though, more recently, a number of years ago around the time i got my truck camper, i also had begun to post audio recordings of me speaking (and rambling) about ideas that were coming to me or what was happening in my life.. around that time i had the idea that i could record and post videos of me speaking from inside my truck camper and the journeys i was on. i had previously been writing and posting “blogs” in my online journal / website about experiences in my life or inspiration or things/ideas that came to me. i didn’t end up making the videos of me speaking about my own experiences as i saw how absurd and ridiculous just the audio recordings alone could get.. instead when i went on my journeys, i took photos and recorded videos of what i saw (that would become daily films with a hint of a vintage home movie type feel, and could almost be a time-lapse of sorts of my journey across the country). now, years later, many others have started to post lots of videos about their travels and “vlogs” about their life. over many of the years of my photography i had experimented with creating time-lapses and now in more recent years i see how many more people are also experimenting in time-lapses and adding new layers of techniques to them (as i would like to do) and also creating videos about travel or a place through the form of time-lapse videos. it’s interesting to see how all of this unfolds.. sometimes we simply need to have the idea and just surrender and allow it to be, and it will show up in the world through the efforts of others. if we try to make it too much about ourselves or ‘our idea’ then the ego/mind can get more involved and in the way. it’s best to just observe and allow the inspiration, and if feeling called to follow it, to follow it.. but not necessarily feeling the need to follow every single inspirational moment to actualize it. for it seems that we are simply picking up on inspirational messages or wavelengths that are being broadcast to us from the divine source.. and its often not just one of us alone who is picking up on the signal. if its something the divine wants to express through us and experience, it will unfold in some manner through one of us in the collective consciousness.. if one doesn’t express the message, another will have also heard it and will express it in some way. though i do urge anyone who is tuning into the inspiration to be careful that the message doesn’t become too much about the self, ego, competition, conflict, or any sort of other lower vibrational message. having the perspectives i do, i tend to naturally turn away from anything that is too far down that path, though i sometimes encounter the sort of message that has those underlying elements. as i say this, i also realize how much of this writing may seem to come from that sort of limited viewpoint as i speak about myself having seen these things years before they happened.. though the message is really about the unfolding of consciousness and this is how i experienced it.. as one envisions something and embraces the patience or surrender (or complete forgetting of the idea), one allows the space for it to manifest into this experience of reality we have in the physical world. i also see how for decades i’ve had a sense of connection to nature and the environment, and how i also had seen the negative effects of the mass-media-driven consumeristic society.. and over time i’ve seen a couple people talking about some of these things, and how now, decades and many years later, there is much more awareness and concern about the planet and what has been going on and how so many have been unconscious about what was happening. it seems that as more of us awaken, and continue to awaken to higher levels of consciousness, we help others around us awaken.. and in awakening, what one was once blind to becomes quite evident through simple awareness. getting back to the vlogs, one aspect i find interesting is to essentially be able to experience and see the world through another’s eyes.. this is one of the beautiful things in life i’ve enjoyed about meeting someone new or getting to know someone better and having a close connection. this alone could be a spiritual process to open one up to new perspectives and compassion for another, and lead one to higher levels of consciousness. it is interesting in that if one lets go and embraces what one is seeing and hearing through the form of video, one can feel like they are there with others in that experience, and one can begin to lose a bit of the sense of time and place of where one physically is watching from. if one were to watch several videos of others’ experiences in different parts of the world, one could almost live those different experiences all in one day. now i’m not suggesting one sit around and watch videos all day long, though it is an interesting metaphor of how the divine is living and expressing itself through each one of us in unique ways. its interesting to see the underlying divine aspect of so many things in life like this. if we look for the message, or when we have awakened to a higher vibration of consciousness, we’ll naturally be able to see that the divine message and expression is always there, in everyone and in everything. if we get too caught up in the distractions, the mundane routine of life, the drama of the world, or any other sort of mental activity of the ego or mind, we can easily miss the divine message that is always there. it’s simply a shift of focus from the mind to the heart to bring one back to being able to feel and sense what the divine is expressing. now its a simple idea but it can be difficult if one is resisting any aspect of reality as then one may be stuck in the mind until one surrenders and lets go. getting back to the whole interesting metaphor of being able to experience and live through others’ videos (which now i also remember a friend telling me about a youtuber he watched that said something about living vicariously through his videos).. the other day at the flowering heart center a few of us had a chat that included artificial intelligence.. it was interesting to see the metaphor in there of our whole experience here.. how we as as humans are working on creating these machines that will be able to think and do things for themselves, just like the divine has created us with the ability to think and do here. it seems like this sort of thing is all part of the spiritual awakening journey in a sense.. the things that show up that have this underlying aspect are another way the divine is helping us to wake up and see who we really are, and its also an expression of who we really are at another level. i mentioned something related to that during the conversation, though something else came to me (i think it may have been later or after the conversation) that i didn’t get a chance to mention.. it was something along the lines of relating our current experience to the artificial intelligence and how do we know that we aren’t already in a matrix-like simulation of artificial intelligence.. or perhaps the thought was more about how many layers deep are we already in this sort of thing (perhaps not necessarily in AI but in the depths of creation and divine expression itself)… [it’s kinda fun to see and embrace those sort of possibilities, as i feel jumping down the rabbit hole like that, so to speak, can help give us new perspectives aligned with deeper awakening of consciousness] anyhow, i think there was some whole other topic related to what i wrote last night that i was thinking when i woke up this morning, but don’t recall what it was as i did explore this ‘vlog’ one quite a bit and at the moment have lost what the other was.. i’ll surrender and accept it, and if it comes to me a little later will write more.. if not, perhaps it will come to me another time if its something the divine wants to express through me, or perhaps it was simply an inner realization for myself and not necessarily to share at this time. [the mind likes to share all of these things as its quite fascinating to see and explore all of these ideas, though perhaps by forgetting some of them, its more humbling as part of the message was suggesting above.. about not making it too much about the self and the experience of the self, but making it about message itself. which is part of what i like about how the videos i made of my trip across the country didn’t include shots of myself or any of my voice in them.. it was simply an experience that could’ve been lived by anyone, or simply experienced by the divine, without any of the selfie view or telling others what is happening.. this is the sort of viewpoint i was always drawn to, though in the last couple years, upon discovering them, i have come to embrace some of the more typical vlogs or videos of others talking about and expressing their feelings of what’s happening in their world. remember life is not about ‘my’ journey or ‘your’ journey, but simply ‘the’ journey itself.]

a few other notes:

its funny how i just wrote this morning about similar messages coming through many of us.. and how yesterday i mentioned the little camera that was going to be released today. after typing and posting what i did above, i saw that a review video was just posted a few minutes ago about the camera (which may have been a little early as the official announcement is not up yet and other links to it that were posted today have been taken down).. and in the review one thing she said was about how much it could do and imagining what the future brings, reminding me of what i wrote last night about how decades from now we’ll be looking back at the technology today and seeing how archaic it looks. the divine knows no limits, and as consciousness continues to evolve, the divine expression through us will become much more incredible and magnificent than it is today.

if watching vlogs to explore perspectives as i described above, an interesting element is to see the multiple video viewpoints when more than one person is recording the same event at the same time.. which also heightens the sense of experiencing and living through more than one perspective simultaneously. another interesting factor of so many people recording life now (and small cameras that can be left to automatically record) is related to the dilemma i saw 15 years ago when shooting video clips of experiences with friends…that one could really only fully engage with either the actual experience or the recording of it, and not both, as the act of recording would affect the experience [which would be interesting to relate to the role of the observer in quantum mechanics but that’s a whole other tangent and rabbit hole to dive into].. which could be a metaphor or related to the act of living and experiencing life through the heart and feeling compared to the limited viewpoint of being stuck in the mind and thinking and seeing the world through the filters of the mind (rather than the unfiltered awakened heartfelt viewpoint of how reality actually is).

sometimes we need to learn to be patient and surrender with the physical world, for its reality unfolds much slower than what one can envision.

a good example is in the world of technology.. there have been so many things that i’ve seen as the next logical evolutionary step in existing technology that i gave up on finding or almost forgot about, as they’ve taken several years before being developed and made readily available.

[and from a higher perspective, everything in the physical world is merely an illusion and part of this game of life we’re playing, and really isn’t all that important that we need to become attached to it. learn to play in and enjoy/embrace the magnificence of life that is already here and now]

for the next couple weeks i’m taking a break to ‘just be’ as much as possible. i’ve told clients i’m unavailable except for emergencies and have cleared any repeating events off my calendar. i’m grateful to have a quiet home to myself these next couple weeks too, as it’s been over two years since i moved out of my condo and have had my own quiet + sacred space. (i technically did have my own very tiny space when i had my van but the whole need to find a place to park it every night took away from it really being a quiet + sacred space where i could simply be and live undisturbed for as long as i desired) in these next two weeks i’m also taking a break from going on ambitious long local drives like i was doing a lot recently. i had thought of working on making some videos from a trip a few years ago but may not work on those at all unless i feel called to after taking time to be present and honor myself. my intent is to step out of so much of the mental activity of the physical world and have a bit of a quiet retreat in a sense.

i encourage everyone to do the same to as much of a degree as possible in their world. there is so much mental conditioning in modern society of what one is supposed to do and so many things that get in the way from simply just being present. all this conditioning and all these distractions keep one in the mind or stressed or in some state other than truly free. this world is what we make of it, and to truly live it we need to find that still space within and live from that place. yes, one could have a regular weekly or daily meditation, though this is still something that tends to get scheduled into an already jam-packed schedule. sometimes going on a retreat to a quiet + still space in the external physical world for an extended period of time is what one truly needs. from this place of letting go of attachment to all the things one is supposed to do, all the places one is supposed to go to, all the things one is worrying about, all the goals or things one is trying to accomplish, etc, one will find a deeper awareness, a deeper purpose, and a deeper connection to the infinite. in this awakening, and one will realize that everything is already in perfect divine order as it is and there’s no need to struggle or resist anything. with deeper awareness one will realize how everything is connected to everything else. and with this greater clarity one will have new insights on life and one’s true purpose. and if one feels compelled to go back to do everything one was previously doing, one can do so but from a more relaxed place (and even if one continues to fill one’s day with much activity and ‘doing’). though one may discover that so much of the doing was simply a resistance to being in the here and now and experiencing the presence. society is filled with so many things it is trying to sell one on needing in order to live. all these distractions are really designed to take one away from living in the present moment (where everything one needs unfolds in perfect divine order) and fill one with fear that one might not have what they need if they don’t buy what is being sold or might miss out on what others are experiencing if they don’t follow what others are doing. i recall noticing this sort of thing a couple decades ago, where the mass media consumeristic society was conditioning people with these sort of mental constructs, programs, and limiting belief systems (perhaps i couldn’t quite put all the words on it back then but i could see how so many people were living their lives like that). this programming (really brainwashing) can easily become so engrained into one’s everyday experience (it actually becomes so subtle and subsconscious that most people are unaware it even exists). taking a break from everything one is doing in the external world to have another perspective on life or to simply relax may be one of the greatest things one can do for one’s own sanity, let alone spiritual growth.

another thing i would highly recommend would be to go explore places in the world that are quiet and as free from the norms of modern society as possible. in particular, going for a walk in nature can be quiet beneficial. this is something one can do daily. even if one lives in a city, there’ll be some place not too far away where one can step away from the distractions and noise. another thing one could do to help would be to minimize one’s physical belongings. minimalism will help eliminate the distractions and clutter both in one’s home and in one’s mental space. another thing that will help will be to take a break from one’s digital life. it seems that so quickly social media and smartphone usage have become a huge addiction for so many, and that people are not able to live without staring at a tiny screen every few minutes, let alone leave the house without their phone.

this is getting longer than i thought when i started typing and i’m a bit tired. i will get to sleep and enjoy waking up in a quiet space. that alone is one thing one can do to be more present.. embrace going to sleep and waking up in a quiet setting. do not use your phone or other technology for a short while before going to sleep and do not use it for a while after you wake up. do not set an alarm and wake up naturally. when you wake up, do as you feel. if you feel like laying in bed for a while, do so. if you feel inspired to meditate or go for a walk or write in a journal, do that. simply be present with your surroundings and with yourself. all of these suggestions are to help one be more present with oneself.

i will write more as i feel called to, though i encourage you not to read, watch, or listen to anything outside of yourself during this process of unplugging from your typical daily routine and reality. all of the deepest answers and insights exist within oneself. the distractions are designed for you to forget this and to forget who you truly are. when you deliberately step away from all of the distractions, addictions, external messages, etc, you can look within and discover the true brilliance that shines there. this is the place to listen to and live from. until you discover this inner source you cannot know how to truly live nor the magnificence of this experience we call life.

sometimes one fills one’s life (knowingly or unknowingly) with so many things to do as a form of resistance to facing what one is really feeling. if you were resisting anything you may need to feel whatever hurts you didn’t want to feel, though once you move through these you soon discover the bliss and peace and lightness of letting go of these burdens you may have been carrying. this healing process can be quite transformative, especially if you’ve carried these emotions (or conditioning) for years or most of your life. if you do enough of this inner work in your own consciousness, you’ll discover that you can easily re-write the story of your life and do things you may have never imagined possible. you may also realize that the things you thought you wanted to do really no longer matter and you can simply live in peace regardless of what happens in your life. you may discover there is far more to gain from this process of letting go than there is from getting or doing anything else in life. from this place of letting go and unburdening oneself, a great sense of freedom will arise and one will be able to see the true beauty and brilliance of life. ordinary moments will become extraordinary, and beauty will be found in the simplest of things.

sometimes, perhaps often, what we need most is not another spiritual course/perspective/workshop/gathering/etc, and is certainly not another goal or thing we get in the physical world, but is simply a meaningful friendship with another whom loves and accepts us for who we are without judgment.

i once again now remember why i am here. i traveled across the universe to be here, to experience the awakening of the collective consciousness of humanity, one of the greatest and most spectacular awakenings to have occurred in this universe. gratitude fills my heart for this moment, to be here and now for this experience. i am grateful to be able to serve humanity with my presence and to be a clear conduit for divine grace to pour through me to all beings at all times in all dimensions for all eternity. this is one of the most beautiful experiences possible, to see consciousness awakening each day and to witness the unfolding of divine grace. may divine grace, love, light, and blessings fill all of our hearts and may we all live in peace and perfect harmony with each other and with the planet. may the highest light radiate and shine through each one of us as we collectively remember who we truly are.

this is our reality, we chose it and created it. declare the highest good you wish to see in the world and you too will feel it and see it unfold before you. call forth the brilliant light of your divine spirit to shine through all levels of your being, and you will become a light for the world, and help illuminate it for all other beings.

[its often good for the soul to connect with the spirit]

i’m grateful to never have to buy gas again, and that i can go on zero emissions adventures that are better for the environment and cost much less than they would in an internal combustion engine vehicle.

in the first month, i drove a total of 1523.7 miles, averaging 5.7 mi/kWh. at the nationwide average cost per kWh, that’s just over 2 cents per mile. even if the trip computer is optimistic and there are efficiency losses when charging the battery, it’s still less than 3 cents per mile. i did drive slowly + conservatively (and with the windows down rather than with air conditioning) in order to maximize efficiency to be able to go far without draining the battery too low, though even driving a bit faster or with A/C, the cost will still be far less than what it’d cost with a gas car.

at the nationwide average cost of gas (and with the average gas tank size), what it cost me to go 1500+ miles would be right about the same as what it’d cost to fill up a single tank of gas. or another way to look at it would be that it would’ve cost 3 or 4 times as much to drive the same distance in the gasoline version of my car. i forgot to mention that i also charged a couple times at free public chargers, adding a total of around 21.5 kWh of free electricity to my battery so did even better.

besides the financial savings, electric cars perform much better, are much quieter, have practically no maintenance, and have much less of an environmental impact than a car that burns gas or diesel. we’re just at the beginning of the global transition to electric vehicles.. it’s exciting to be driving the future.

i likely wouldn’t have gone to the large majority of the places on the map had i still had my van, as at 18 mpg and an average gas price of around $2.80, it would’ve cost me $237 for all the gas (where my cost for 267 kWh at 13.5 cents per kWh (slightly higher than the national average) is only $36 or around $40 allowing for some inefficiency and subtracting the free charging). saving $200 every month in gas costs sure will add up. looking at this number alone, the car will pay for itself in less than 5 years and will effectively be free (i got a used electric vehicle that was previously leased with very low miles.. it’s practically a new car but at a significantly lower price than it would’ve cost new).

in this month i drove a lot more than i typically do, making up for not having driven very much at all at the beginning of the year, and testing out the new (used) car. i did plan some of the routes just to make the lines on the map more interesting, and it was good to get to explore some places i haven’t been to in a long time or ever. it’s fun to see what one can discover just by going a slightly different route or someplace new.


Awakening Through Gratitude


The Art of Experiencing

it’s beautiful to see how one’s spiritual journey can unfold in so many ways..

** my Van is currently For Sale, with or without the build **

to purchase it, please contact me at:


UPDATE 2019.03.12: i sold the empty van today. the whole build structure is available for sale, or i can sell parts separately like the water pump, water tank, rv-type filling hatch, sink + countertop, shelf, storage cabinet, bath tub with slats (that can hold compost toilet), curtains, hanging closet, etc. i’ve already sold the refrigerator and compost toilet.

this is a very long + detailed video about the adventure of building a simple camper conversion in my new Ford Transit-150 van. while speaking about the build, i show a slideshow of photos of the build process starting with the empty van and going into some details of getting all the pieces and components installed. i may have left out some details (it was the summer before last when i built it, so don’t quite remember everything at this point).

to read a very long + detailed article about why i chose this van with all the custom options and some considerations about how to build it, please visit this link:


to see a full video tour of the finished van, see here:


see more photos, video, details, and writing on the van here:


(the spoken audio (and slideshow of photos) was all recorded in one take without any editing. sorry for the occasional noise from the microphone on my iphone headset. i had tested this before and didn’t hear any noise, and it sounded better than the built-in mic on my macbook that would pick up the sounds of me pressing the keyboard to arrow forward to the next photo)

i’m selling my Ford Transit with Premium Van Package, many/most options, and lightweight Camper Conversion build. to see a full tour video and read lots of details on why i custom ordered + chose this van (after having a truck camper), visit:




please share with anyone who may be interested. it’s located in Florida, though i’m willing to drive it to you if you can’t come down here to get it. to purchase the van, please write me at:

see all photos, videos, and writing / details about van here: markmarano.com/what/van/

UPDATE: i sold the empty van. the whole build structure is available for sale, or i can sell parts separately like the water pump, water tank, rv-type filling hatch, sink + countertop, shelf, storage cabinet, bath tub with slats (that can hold compost toilet), curtains, hanging closet, etc. i’ve already sold the refrigerator and compost toilet.

i’ve decided to sell my van so i can put the funds towards purchasing land where i can build a small home or park a tiny home on. i didn’t end up using it nearly as much as i thought i would. i took it on a couple trips north in the summers, and on some shorter trips around florida (where i live). if you can’t make it down here to pick it up, i’d be happy to drive it anywhere in the united states to deliver it to you (if you cover the cost of gas and airfare back).

i special ordered this van from Ford to be custom built last year. i did a lot of research and went on multiple test drives before deciding on this combo. i’m working on writing a long, detailed article on why i chose this van and can copy/paste the link to it later. it’s a bit of a rare + unique van to have everything it has.

the van has less than 18,000 miles (as of end of december 2018). it does pretty well on gas mileage when loaded with gear + the build. the whole time i’ve had it, i’ve manually calculated the overall mileage to be just over 18 mpg, and have seen as high as 25.7 mpg with cruise control at 50 mph, around 24.5 mpg at 57 mph, and 21 mpg at 65 mph (this includes being stuck in stop-and-go traffic for a little while).

here’s a quick tour of it. i’ll be posting a much longer and more detailed video very soon (its got a couple hours of rendering to go and then will have a 22-24 hour long trip to make it to youtube’s servers). if you’re not interested in any or all of the build as you rather make your own floorplan layout (or use the van for work, a higher end build, etc), i can take everything out if you prefer.


the build itself has the following features:

Nature’s Head Compost Toilet in separate bathroom area
plastic shower “tub” with wooden slats (with many coatings for protection) and drain plumbed in (needs shower curtain + solar shower bag to be hung)
full size dual kitchen sink (installed on real wood countertop) with small faucet that runs off a Whale Gusher Galley Mk3 foot pump (which works quite well and saves on water compared to an electric pump)
queen size bed memory foam mattress (a corner at the feet side has been cut (and can work as a cushion against the wall) to give more room for bathroom)
Dometic CFX-50US CoolFreeze Portable Electric Compressor Cooler Refrigerator/Freezer (holds 50L or 1.8 cu ft, has low power draw, and runs off 12V or 120V)
Marinco Nicro Ventilation 4″ Day/Night Solar Vent model # N20804W (has rechargeable battery and a light)
breathable closet for hanging lots of clothes
removable hanging storage shelf
pantry / storage cabinet with three shelves
always on 12V outlets
string lights
curtains for privacy
lockable storage under bed
26 gallon fresh water tank with rv-type water hatch for filling
access to interior from cab / sliding door / rear doors can be locked off when dropping off van for service, valet, etc. (the longer video will explain how this works and have a couple of photos)
— the only holes drilled into any part of the van were for plumbing + ventilation (and were done by someone with professional plumbing + construction experience). the main structure is held in place at the cargo tie-down points (and some smaller parts are attached via rivnuts using pre-existing holes).

here are all the options / specs that were special ordered / came from Ford:

— 2017 Ford Transit-150 Van XL
Medium Roof
Long Wheelbase (148″)
— 3.7L Ti-VCT V6 Engine (275 H.P.)
— 6-Speed Automatic Overdrive with SelectShift Transmission
— 8600 GVWR
3.73 Limited Slip Axle Ratio
— Oxford White exterior
Premium Package – Van
Exterior Upgrade Package
CNG/Propane Gaseous Engine Prep Package (includes hardened engine intake and exhaust valves and valve seats)
Modified Vehicle Wiring System
Privacy Glass
Rear-Window Defogger
Wheel Well Liners
AutoLamp with Rain-Sensing Wipers
— Rear Bumper – Black
— Spare Tire and Wheel (includes 4 ton jack and tool kit)
Perimeter Alarm
SecuriLock Passive Anti-Theft System (PATS) with Engine Immobilizer
Reverse Sensing System (Reverse Park Aid)
Dual Heavy-Duty Batteries (70 amp-hours each, Absorbed Glass Mat)
Heavy-Duty Alternator
Fixed Rear-Door Glass and Fixed Driver and Passenger Side Cargo-Door Glass
Short-Arm Power Mirrors
— 16-inch Steel Wheels with Full Silver Wheel Cover
— 235/65R16C 121/119 R BSW All-Season Tires
Dual Sliding Doors
— Pewter interior
Level 2 Instrument Cluster
Front and Rear Vinyl Floor Covering (Complete)
Dual Vinyl Sun Visors with Illuminated Vanity Mirror
Cruise Control with Message Center
6 Speakers (4 Front / 2 Rear)
Auxiliary Fuse Box (with High Spec Interface Connector)
High-Capacity Upfitter Switches
AM/FM Stereo with SYNC (with 4″ multi-function display, Single-CD, USB port, steering wheel controls)
Pewter Grey Leather, 10-Way Power Driver and Front-Passenger Seats
— Front License Plate Bracket
— 50 State Emissions
Keys 2 Additional (4 total)
Chrome Grille + Grille Surround + Headlamp trim
— Air Conditioning – Front
— Center Console
— Cargo Hooks
Powerpoints – 12V (3 total)
Power Locks and Windows
Power Steering
— 25.0 Gallon Fuel Tank
Rear View Camera
— Driver/Passenger Air Bags
— Airbags – Side Air Curtains
— 3 Point Safety Belts
— 4-Wheel Disc Brakes w/ABS
AdvanceTrac w/RSC (Roll Stability Control)
Tire Pressure Monitor System
Load Area Protection Package (Full Height)

the cost to order the van alone with everything this one has would be $45k with tax/tag/fees/etc and would take several weeks to be built, a few weeks to be delivered, and then several more weeks to build out (and possibly a good number of weeks to research). this van is available today and would save you months of waiting and working. i’m open to reasonable offers from anyone interested in buying it.

please share with anyone who might be interested.

to purchase the van, please contact me at:



** updates below **

here is a link to the full tour video with some thoughts on why i chose the van:


here’s the long detailed article i’ve written about why i chose the van (and specific options when special ordering a custom built van) and go into lots of details about the build (and compare my experience to the previous truck camper i had), fuel economy experience, etc:


to see all photos, videos, and writing about the van, please visit this link:


i didn’t mention above that the van still has plenty of the factory warranty left from Ford.


*** UPDATE below regarding Price & Value ***

i had someone mention the NADA value, and had a look at the NADA guide online. it didn’t show most of the options my van has (as its only showing the wagon version of the van, not the cargo one that has everything available and built a-la-carte). i looked at KBB’s pricing online and it shows from $28k to over $30k for a similar Transit in good to excellent condition, though with only some of the options. the website is missing a lot of options i have, like the Limited Slip Differential, Dual Heavy-Duty Batteries, Heavy Duty Alternator, CNG/Propane prep package, Windows with Privacy Glass on both sliding doors + rear doors, Level 2 Instrument Cluster (which starting in 2018 is only is available when spending ~$2k on Navigation), High Capacity Upfitter Switches, Auxiliary Fuse box with High Spec Interface Connector, Modified Vehicle Wiring System, Wheel Well Liners, AutoLamp with Rain-sensing wipers, extra set of keys, etc. if you look at all the options that KBB is missing on Ford’s online van builder, you’ll see it’s about $3k worth. even figuring they’re not worth the full value on a pre-owned van, you’re still looking at spending into the $30k’s if you were to find another used van with everything this one has.

as i mentioned above, if you enter everything my van has into Ford’s online builder, you’ll see it’s over $40k, and by the time you add taxes, title, tag, dealer fees, etc, you’d be at $45k to buy a new one out-the-door (or closer to $47k if you wanted the upgraded dashboard instrument cluster as it now only comes with the expensive Navigation feature). yes, you could probably get it for a bit less than that if incentives are available, though it’s still gonna cost a good bit by the time you add everything and it would take you months to special order + weeks/months to build out a new van with everything mine has [it’s very unlikely you’ll find another van with all the options mine has sitting on a dealer lot, new or used]. also keep in mind that my van already has all the options it does, and that adding some things afterwards would cost way more for a Ford dealer to order and professionally install than to special order at time of the factory build.

i forgot to add to the list above that both the power leather seats are heated.

on top of the van price, the components + parts + materials alone for the camper conversion build cost a few thousand dollars, not counting thousands of dollars worth of time and labor to research + build + install. i know the labor part is harder to calculate the exact value, though if you’d do it yourself, figure how much money could you earn working multiple jobs full time from the time you woke up until the time you went to sleep every day for a few weeks or couple months straight, or how much would it cost to hire someone to build a camper van out (and consider how long might you have to wait if its a builder that has a long waiting time, like some that would have months of orders ahead of yours). keep in mind that if hiring a professional builder, they may have minimum build levels and i think some easily start at $20k-$30k just for the build cost (on top of whatever the van you choose costs). the other option to get a camper van would be to purchase a class b rv, though these typically cost at least 2 to 3 times the price of a new van, and can have so much in them that the extra weight will affect performance and mileage (and some models have unhealthy materials that off-gas into the small enclosed space you’re sleeping and living).

the value and cost to purchase a new van with everything mine has and with all the components + parts would be over $50k not counting incentives/deals though also not including any of the weeks of time + labor to build it (which could be a good bit).

i’ll accept $40k for my van with everything in it, and can consider driving it to you (or keeping it somewhere safe here) if you’re unable to come get it right away. i’ll also consider any reasonable offers (somewhere in the $30k’s) for it.

if you want the empty van without any of the components or build, i could take everything out and sell the van to you for $33k.

if you already have a van and are only interested in the components + what i built out in my van, i could remove everything out of my van and sell it all to you for $9k so you can use in your van.


i’ve had some interest, though some potential buyers are out of town and i haven’t received a deposit yet. to sell the van quicker, i’m lowering the price:

for $35k you can have the van with everything in the build
— if that’s too much, i can go down to $32k for the van and take out some or all of the components of the build

i think these prices are quite fair, especially for a van with a very unique configuration of options (that would need to be special ordered to find another one like it with many of the options it has). per KBB, the same size Transit van in similar condition + mileage (but with $3k less in options compared to this one) sells for just over $30k. special ordering a new one with everything this has would cost $45k+ and take months to get. the camper build components + parts would cost a few thousand dollars to buy (not counting weeks or months of time and labor to research, build, and get everything to fit and work together in the small space).

FINANCING — if you don’t have the cash readily available to use or borrow, i can help you come up with creative ideas for financing. for example, when i bought the van, i withdrew funds from CD savings and also did a 0% balance transfer for 18 months that only had a 3% transaction fee. this ended up being less than auto loan interest rates would’ve been.

*** update: LOWER PRICE options ***

$33,500 for the van with everything except the refrigerator, compost toilet, and mattress

$32,000 for the empty van without any of the camper build components or structure

UPDATE 2019.02.19: i received a deposit for the van and the sale is pending until the buyer can make it down here to pick it up. the buyer is only purchasing the van empty so he can build his own setup into it.

** the build structure and parts are available for sale ** i’ve already sold the compost toilet and refrigerator (and will be leaving the vent in the roof of the van). everything else is available for sale, either as the whole setup or as parts. if you get all of the build structure, i can help you install it your Transit if you like. (if you have another van, i could help you figure out what needs to be modified, but can’t guarantee it will all fit in easily)

UPDATE 2019.03.12: i sold the empty van today. the whole build structure is available for sale, or i can sell parts separately like the water pump, water tank, rv-type filling hatch, sink + countertop, shelf, storage cabinet, bath tub with slats (that can hold compost toilet), curtains, hanging closet, etc. i’ve already sold the refrigerator and compost toilet.


it’s interesting to see the variety of beliefs and viewpoints floating around related to current events. something to ponder, that i recalled noticing an aspect of a number of years ago and wondering about.. are spiritual people (or anyone with an open heart) more aware and able to feel what’s truly happening due to heightened intuition, or more gullible as they can easily feel the feelings being conveyed through others (which can be a manipulation tactic by those conveying the feelings), or perhaps both? no answers are required.. simply something to meditate upon and contemplate with yourself.

whatever true answer one may find within oneself, regarding this and anything ‘out there’ in the world, we must also learn to embrace all viewpoints and whatever aspects of truth they may convey, and, most importantly, have compassion for whatever the other is going through. if we are to feel deeply enough into what the other is feeling, beyond what they are saying in the moment, the place of unconditional love we connect through can help dissolve whatever pain or conditioning may be causing their present expression.

earth day is one of the most important holidays we can celebrate. without the earth none of us would be here. so many have taken the earth for granted, completely unaware of how human actions have impacted her. as our home, that provides all of us with food, water, shelter, and life, the earth should be celebrated and remembered at all times. every day have a look at what you can do to help reduce your footprint and impact on the planet. collectively we can all live in harmony with the earth (and with each other). the more of us that make changes to our consumption and stop using fossil fuels, the cleaner the air we breathe will be for all of us. right now if all of us stopped using internal combustion engine vehicles, most of the clean air that has been seen around the world recently would become permanent. if humanity ended its addiction to needing to constantly consume more, newer, faster, lighter, better, etc, etc things, the lower demand for manufacturing would have a positive impact on the air and environment. if we ended or significantly reduced animal agriculture, we’d see a positive impact on the health of the planet. right now, as many are at home during the social distancing / quarantine / self-isolation, many of us are realizing how much of an impact humanity has on earth in daily life. with simple changes (both societal and in personal habits) we can collectively make a difference. all of the technology we need for sustainability is already here. clean energy has already become cheaper than fossil fuels. we can choose not to purchase products that have a big carbon footprint or that require burning of fossil fuels to operate. a variety of zero emissions electric vehicles are already available, and as manufacturers see more people demanding them, they will be ramping up more production and releasing new models. we can simply choose not to constantly upgrade to the latest gadget and not to participate in the latest trends of consumerism that can be found in so many aspects of what most consider a ‘normal’ life. much more fulfillment can be found by simply going for a walk in nature and embracing the experience of being immersed in this beautiful world. as many more of us are awakening and learning to find a deep sense of inner peace through meditation (and other modalities), many more of us are realizing we don’t need to constantly chase after all these external things or experiences for fulfillment. many will see that just the financial benefits of minimalism can give one a sense of peace as one won’t have to work more or struggle to pay for all the unnecessary expenditures. with more free time from spending less, wasting less, working less, hurrying less, worrying less, etc, etc, the sense of peace, relaxation, and being happy right here and now will be greater. from this place we can effortlessly share our inner joy with others, and in our free time we can spend more time living simply and enjoying being outdoors, further helping ourselves and mother earth. there are so many other things i could write and explore that one can do to live more harmonious with the planet. start by simply spending time in nature, either go for a walk or find somewhere quiet to sit and take it all in. the more time you spend quietly in nature (or in silence), the more easily you’ll receive insights and inspiration of what you can do to improve your life and that of the planet.

it was a very nice, relaxing drive, especially once i got to the beach, which had little traffic. the cooler temperature, mostly empty beach islands, and peaceful feeling in the air were quite beautiful and serene. the drive through the beach islands felt like i was in another part of florida (or the country) with quiet, remote, empty beach towns. there was also less pollution which was very nice to be able to breathe in the fresh air more easily (when i wasn’t by gas or diesel vehicles).. when going over the bayside bridge, i looked out the left window, and the tampa skyline (15 miles away) appeared more clear & crisp than i had ever seen it before.

also, knowing that the camera was running automatically let me relax and just focus on the present moment, rather than needing to also concentrate on photographing what i saw during the drive (and i wasn’t able to connect back to it via wifi for some reason a little bit into the drive, so just forgot about double checking that it was still running and the images were looking good). i recall a similar thought or feeling over a decade ago, when i set up long term time-lapses / webcams to photograph the nice view from a high rise apartment i lived in for a year. it was nice to know that the photography was happening automatically and i could spend my time and energy just being present. some automation is nice so one can relax into the presence and be more in the awe & beauty of the moment, fully embracing the experience. i recall this dilemma even further back, 15+ years ago, when i was feeling that one could either live in the present moment or photograph/document the experience, but couldn’t really do both. anyhow, i look forward to when all vehicles are electric so there will be no pollution in the air and one can fully enjoy the fresh, natural air when driving with the windows open. it’s nice that we can now have a glimpse of what our future will look like with less pollution. i hope this time inspires many more people to realize what changes we need to make to improve our experience here on earth. i also look forward to when autonomous full self driving technology is complete and legal to use, so one can have a deeper sense of relaxation and more fully embrace the beauty of the surrounding landscape when going for a ride, without the need to concentrate at all on operating the vehicle.

all still images were shot at iso 60, 1/128 shutter speed, and a custom white balance, at an interval of one shot every 3 seconds, and the video is rendered at 10 fps. it looks like the very thin filter i used is quite reflective and/or perhaps slightly bent.. i’ll need to work on a solution for the strange glare its producing when the sunlight is on it for better results. seeing this issue, i rather quickly adjusted a couple images in lightroom and copy/pasted all the same basic settings to every image, and then gave the beginning images (when driving south) slightly different settings to compensate a bit for the glare that showed up in most frames in that direction. it’s by no means perfect, as the light shifted depending on which direction i was going and when i drove in & out of the shade (and as the sun started to dip toward the horizon later in the drive), though i didn’t want to go through all 4552 frames to tweak them (as originally i was going to post this on instagram which has very high compression and it would’ve been sped up to a minute to be able to post it there).. it looks like youtube’s re-compression lost a bit of the contrast and detail too, as it looks noticeably worse (softer, with muddy contrast) playing it back on youtube compared to the original file (picking the 4k setting on youtube helps, but still loses some of the fine detail of the original). anyhow, enough of the technical details.. i shot another the day after this one that i’ll be uploading next.

here’s everywhere i’ve gone since i purchased my first electric car. i just did the furthest drive north yesterday. i had planned it out, and then some days later was curious how many days i had driven my car and it just happened to work out that yesterday was going to be 250 days of driving, counting times i got back home after midnight as part of the day i left (so i posted this map today rather than wait until next month when its been a year since i bought the car).

since i’ve had it, i’ve put on quite a number of miles in doing the long drives to make this map more interesting.. in just under 11 months i’ve driven almost as many miles as i did in the whole time i owned my van (22+ months) and car (30+ months) before that. i’ll see how close i actually get in the coming weeks, though am guessing i won’t quite make it as i’d need to drive around 75 miles every day to drive as much as i did the whole time owning the van.. though it’s much easier to drive more miles electrically when the fuel cost is so low. my average efficiency the whole time has been just under 5.5 mi/kWh. my total fuel cost per mile (including a small balance i still have on a public charger network) has averaged to 1.9 cents per mile [15772 miles for $300 isn’t too bad.. that’s essentially driving for a whole year on what 3 fill-ups of gas cost on the truck i used to have]. if i hadn’t gotten any electricity from free public chargers (and had paid at home for those kWh used instead), my average cost would’ve only been 2.7 cents per mile (still much less than what gas would cost, especially considering the maintenance costs on an electric car are practically non-existent). insurance has cost at least 20% less on my electric car than on my past three vehicles. and my total cost per mile to own the electric car is looking pretty good.. later this year (unless i barely drive it) my total cost per mile to own the car will be less than what the total cost per mile was for any of my previous three vehicles after i sold them [and this lower cost per mile will be when i still own my car! meaning that even if i gave the car away, the total cost per mile to drive it and have owned it will be less than it was for the other vehicles. part of this is as i bought this car used, though the lower operating costs make a big difference too. even if one bought a new electric car, the overall total cost to own it is going to end up less than in a car with internal combustion engine].

electric cars just make so much more sense: financially, environmentally, and experientially.

just a couple hours ago i found out that ford is going to be selling an electric version of their transit van here in the u.s. for the 2022 model year. this is really great news to see electric vans soon to be available here (as no major manufacturer was offering anything for sale here yet). i’ve been watching whats available in electric vehicles and have been waiting for a while now for an electric van option. it’s funny i randomly heard about it, as i was just thinking about an electric van a little earlier (as really working well for my needs).. and yesterday on the long drive north i had noticed more extended length versions of transit van on the road in one day than i had ever before [perhaps this was as the night before i just watched a youtube video by a couple (rolling vistas) who were talking about building out an extended length transit they custom ordered, and i was thinking of different camper build layouts]. hopefully this announcement will motivate other manufacturers to also offer electric vans (and other vehicle segments) sooner.

its also funny to hear about the transit release now, as despite this being quite exciting news, i’m actually not super excited.. part of me must’ve surrendered attachment to outcome (which allowed this to manifest into my reality).. i’ve seen many times how things have just shown up the moment i stop caring or worrying or thinking about them so much.. i think i accepted where i was at more and was feeling done with this whole project of doing these really long drives that take all day (since my car has a small battery and doesn’t have fast charging capability) and was ready to just post this map and move on (and with other things in life too, i was also ready to move forward). some might say this may just be a coincidence, though i’ve seen that the further one goes down this path, the more one will realize there are no mere coincidences. i knew electric vans would come here eventually (and was quite tired of waiting how long it’d be), but then when i let go of some attachment and came into the present moment more, official news just happens to be released that they’re on the way here. anyhow, i could write more about this but won’t go too far off on a tangent as that wasn’t the original intent of this post.

i hope this map can inspire others to see how far one can go in an electric car, even one that wasn’t intended to go this far with its small battery capacity. electric cars already exist with much bigger batteries (and fast charging) that one can easily drive across the country. electric vehicles are the future, and are the best choice today for anyone purchasing (or leasing) a vehicle.

update: upon looking more closely at a more detailed version of the map, i just noticed that there are minor errors in the gps data, where there appears to be a little line going slightly northwest from downtown ocala when i didn’t go there. the gps logger wasn’t getting a signal in the parking garage where i was charging and must’ve gotten incorrect data. at the scale you see here, its barely noticeable (and i imagine its possible there might also be other minor errors in the map data).

happy new year and new decade! may the 2020s be the decade where most (if not all) of humanity awakens and experiences the flowering of the heart. with this unfolding, may we all effortlessly live in peace and harmony with each other and the planet.

to start the new decade with a clean slate, i've cleared out all my previous posts, photos, comments, likes, etc on facebook and twitter. most of what i had posted can still be found somewhere on my website:

from the silence, it all arises

gotta love electric cars.. since i charged a lot at public chargers (most of them free) for the longer drives i went on in november, my fuel cost for electricity was only 1.27 cents per mile! at the current national average price of gas, that’s like getting 200+ miles per gallon. my lifetime average since i’ve owned the car (including a credit i still have on one of the public charger networks) has been 2.01 cents per mile. had i paid at home for all the free electricity i got from public chargers, the lifetime average cost would be 2.75 cents per mile (still far better than any gas, diesel, or hybrid car).

a good, simple experience to have is to lose one’s sense of what day of the week it is or what month of the year it is. these human constructs keep us in the mind. it can be quite profound to realize one is living in the present moment and doesn’t know “when” it is. when this happens, the mind may want to go looking for clues to determine ‘when’ it is, though that is simply a form of resistance to staying with the presence. to begin to have this sort of experience and new perception, look at what changes you can make in life to let go of the need to do things according to a calendar. modern society likes to give people structure, though this is only to control people through conformity and keep them trapped in the conditioning of the mind. let go of routine. do things you might do on one day of the week on another. change the order you do things in, and be more spontaneous and do random things you might rarely do. little changes like this will begin to free you from the grasp of the mind. if you have certain things in life that you see as obligations or responsibilities you have to do at certain times, look into ways that you can replace those with alternatives that don’t limit you so much. if you’re open to new possibilities, you’ll discover that in most any instance there are other ways to live life that allow you to flow in harmony with the divine presence. and yes, one could find a sense of peace with almost any situation, though, from my own experience, letting go of these external attachments, limitations, and influences allow one to live a more inspired life that is open to more profound experiences.

the simplest truth is often the most profound. [i’m not the first to say this]

as much as technology can help us connect with each other, it can become the biggest distraction that takes us further into the separation of the mind.

do the things (or people) you watch, read, or listen to open your heart, or disconnect you further into the mind?

open your heart. [be free]

sometimes when we’re searching for something but not finding it in the world, all we need to do is open and listen to our heart. [don’t allow the mind’s craving to know (now) become a distraction from the presence]

always return to the present moment.

sometimes all one needs to do to discover higher awareness / truth, is to first work though whatever the little self / ego / mind is facing.

[beneath or through whatever is there (blocking the view), one returns to one’s original nature and allows it to shine through brilliantly]

sometimes i wonder if i should remove all of the writing i’ve posted online. while some is inspirational or helpful, it seems some is too technical, some i might not fully like, and some has come as a product of less than ideal surroundings/influence i’ve had most of my life. (and it would take too much time to read through everything to remove what no longer resonates with me, so would be simpler to just remove it all, at least for now) perhaps i’m being too harsh on myself or what i’ve experienced from others around me… i do realize everything can tell a story too, though i don’t want to be attached to the story, nor do i want the story to have too much ego/mind in it (though i suppose it could simply tell the story of overcoming the ego/mind through various awakenings.. but i also realize it’s not all about the story.. and while the story can help (to a degree), simply being the change is more effective). anyhow, just some thoughts of feelings i’ve been experiencing for a while now, as i’ve thought about completely taking down my website and anything else i’ve made that might be on the internet. i do recall, a long while back, when i made the work all about the images and there was no writing/journaling.. perhaps it was simpler back then, and i’ve allowed the mind (and others’ viewpoints i’ve explored or taken on) to make it much too complex. perhaps creating art or some form of self-expression through the whole spiritual exploration/expansion/awakening process isn’t the simplest path (in part as it can bring about aspects of the mind, depending where one is coming from at any given moment, and especially more so when one does a lot of technical work that also involves the mind), though i have seen and felt how impactful it can be to see or read something beautiful or inspired (and how this experience of wonder and awe can invoke deeper realization and connection).

[other than writing i’ve shared about my own experiences, i’ve also felt i should remove all the external content (by others) i’ve posted.. while it can be interesting to see what another has found interesting, or to have a little bit of an understanding of how one got to where one was going, it also only perpetuates the story (and sense of time), and it’d be nearly impossible to document every single little step of the way, as in every single moment something is affecting/unfolding the journey/experience to some degree (and some of the things from the past no longer resonate and would no longer be recommended or of interest from where i’m at now). and what matters most is the whole unfolding process, not the details themselves (for too many details can just bring us back into the mind), but the process itself, the experience itself. the experience is what we are, as well as the experiencer. we can dwell in the past experience, or we can yearn for a better future (and hope to inspire or help ourselves and others lean this way), though all that truly matters is happening right now. we must feel and experience where we are at. as we move through that (and depending which way we choose), we will experience and step into the next present moment of now. though it will always be here and now (from which we perceive). what/when/where/why/how do not matter. while ultimate truth is the answer, it is beyond questions and answers. one day we’ll wake up beyond this life and be able to laugh at it. and perhaps that’s all it has been, one big (intentional) divine joke (at multiple levels) that we’ve simply chosen this time around.]

it is a journey of awakening, remembering and then forgetting again, only to remember, yet once again. it seems that i do this to better understand some of the ways in how others might awaken. and so i don’t have to wait for another life / dream in order to do it all over again.

when one is living from (or experiencing) a place of unconditional love in the heart, none of the mind’s desires really matter anymore.

if one wants to make changes to one’s experience, all one must do is loosen one’s grip to this current reality. by hanging on to what is, we are solidifying it and making it more real. by letting go, we allow for change to occur. reality is only as real as we define it to be. the only one preventing change is you.

the greatest gift one can give to the world is one’s own inner transformation.

[this may seem a bit selfish at first, until one realizes what this truly means and how this experience of life/reality works]

while it’s beautiful to see new human achievements and the unfolding of technology, remember what truly matters in life are heartfelt experiences and connections with others + the planet.

here are some more thoughts coming to me recently. i was going to save these for instagram captions as well, but am first trying to figure out a way to clear out my old posts on there without doing them one at a time or relying on a third-party app or deleting the whole account.. i may just end up keeping most of the images on there for now, though as it still might be a while before i actually post and more writing keeps coming, am sharing these below…like what i posted a little over a week ago, these are also unedited:

remember to take a break, relax, and always be present. doing so you can hear, see, and feel the presence of the divine anywhere and everywhere. this especially important when caught in the midst of all the seemingly endless distractions of the modern world.

learn to see god in everyone and everything

creativity is simple. it’s actually a form of meditation in a sense. all one must do is relax and be still and listen. the words or ideas arise out of the silence. if you’re unable to relax or quiet the mind, then begin by feeling whatever may be there (and, if necessary, learn how to dive into the unconscious emotions and blocks and experience those). once whatever blocks are felt and healed you’ll find peace and bliss and from this place, can hear and feel the inspiration.

the choice not to suffer is yours: either choose to change some aspect of your life, or choose to feel whatever it is you may be resisting internally.

it seems, these days, that so many people are obsessed with the character they are playing in life. as one learns to let go of identification with this character and simply watch the movie we call life, one will discover a great sense of peace (and will be able to see that neither the character nor the movie are real).

one thing i like about meeting someone new is learning about their experience of life and their perception of the world, and being able to understand the world through their perspectives. in being able to see and feel the world through another’s eyes we gain a greater sense of awareness. the more viewpoints we can accept and appreciate, the more whole we become. in a sense, this is the path of surrender. rather than looking at what you can gain in a relationship or friendship, look at what aspects of yourself will you no longer need to assert through greater clarity and an opened heart.

rather than looking for what else you can do or get today, ask yourself, what else can i let go of? can i find a deeper sense of peace simply being where i am?

ask yourself each day, what aspect of my self do i no longer need that i can now let go of?

pick one of the things, aspects, or experiences in life you think you need, and see how long you can live without it. after letting it go for a while, pick another aspect of your life that you think is important and let that go. the more of these must-haves and self-defining aspects that you can truly surrender, the greater sense of peace you will discover.

go to nature and see how effortlessly everything exists together. you too can live simply, without the suffering caused by the desires and attachments of the ego/mind.

always remember, everything is in perfect divine order as it is. learn to see the divine beauty in everyone and everything, and you will discover how much of a miracle the whole experience of life is.

sometimes a quiet drive through the country (or local rural parts) is all one needs to feel better. the lower density and more natural surroundings alone are healing.

always remember that there is nothing outside of you. all of physical reality, any alternate dimensions or realities or universes, the angels, dreams, thoughts, spirit beings, ancestors, other people, the mind, the adversary, everything that exists and that is manifest in some way, whether seen or unseen, is all a part of the unmanifest source that you truly are.

see God in everyone and everything

you are everyone and everything

you are the universe, and the universe is in you

it seems that so much of social media is tied to identity. in one sense it’s interesting to look at, as one is effectively creating one’s online identity through the virtual online world (which is a metaphor for how we create our own lives in the physical world/reality). however it’s also quite problematic when one gets too attached to their identity (both the ‘real’ one and the one they created for themselves) or when others see one solely through an identity that’s not even real. i recall many years ago seeing how others wouldn’t understand me.. i see how this is tied to what i’m describing here in identity. others are unable to understand another because they are perceiving through the limitations of the mind which is remembering and identifying another by what it thought happened in the past (or by what it thought just happened in the present moment through its limited filters of perception), rather than feeling who the person really is (and what is being expressed in the moment) from the heart.

besides being more fun to drive and much nicer to be able to charge at home (and never go to a gas station), electric cars are so much better on maintenance. i just did both the 2 and 3 year ‘maintenance’ on my car, which was really just a multi-point inspection (that was free at the dealer). it only cost me $21.35 to rotate the tires. unless something doesn’t pass inspection (which will pretty much just be whenever the tires wear down, as brakes are used much less in an EV and most of the mechanical systems don’t exist), the only other recommended service isn’t until 100,000 miles or 10 years (to flush/replace the electronics/battery thermal cooling system). along with inexpensive insurance and an electric cost here of about 2.5 cents per mile for my car, its definitely better than an internal combustion engine vehicle.

you may cry watching this, though it’s beautiful to see how faith can be found and kept, even through tragedy: www.youtube.com/watch?v=zLf9Hoz2ab4

on a personal note, it’s interesting to see how i’ve run into a couple similar underlying messages recently. one thing said in this video (or in another video that her sister shared) was related to knowing how everything is in perfect divine order and not to be mad at (or judge) God for what has happened, and to be grateful for the time and experience we were blessed with. almost three weeks ago i ran into someone who shared messages from the bible but they were from a viewpoint of awakening (which i had not typically seen or heard), and one thing he shared was a similar message about not judging this world or our experiences here. it’s been interesting to see these messages as one of my recent challenges has been seeing so much judgment, criticism, complaining, etc from my close family and i think experiencing this (or not wanting to be around this) caused the health issues i had the last couple years. another interesting aspect of these experiences is that i was forced to go to church and Catholic school when i grew up, and i think shortly after graduating i stopped going to church and lost interest in religion (which partly may have been related more to my own childhood hurts rather than religion itself). around a decade later i began to find interest in spirituality through other forms. and along the way to that point i was exploring other viewpoints and perspectives without even knowing it or being deliberately on a spiritual path. since abandoning religion i hadn’t really looked at or been interested in anything at all related to it (and subtly resisted it and saw aspects of religion, such as indoctrination, as getting in the way of being able to directly experience and know God). a few weeks ago my best friend from high school’s father passed away, and while sad, it was beautiful to see the love and faith that his family had. i think i’m beginning to let go of judgment of religion and allow it to be as it is. many of us may have turned away from religion or other things in our past that did not serve us at the time, though if these aspects of life help others find love, peace, faith, hope, understanding, or learn or grow in some way, there is value in them. and from a higher viewpoint, everything is already in perfect divine order, even the parts of life we don’t like or understand. perhaps by simply accepting these aspects of life that we don’t like (or resist) we can grow, transform, and awaken. from perspectives such as oneness or enlightenment, all things are connected and are a manifestation of the one consciousness or being that we all are.. and if we aren’t fully accepting or loving a part of ourself, we cannot truly be whole.

good inspiration of how i could see some of my future photo projects looking like:


Morten Rustad – SOUTH AMERICA 8K


Timestorm Films – PATAGONIA 8K


Florian Nick – ALIVE | Canada 4K

it’s great to see simple messages like this reaching more people..

this is one of the most brilliant audio programs i’ve heard in a long time. it’s spot on in what’s happening in this experience we call life. i haven’t read his book nor done the process he’s describing after the beginning, though it reminds me of other very powerful transformational work i did years ago. i’d highly recommend checking it out.. he describes and explains whats happening through awareness, the bodies, healing, emotionally, etc, etc.. basically how life works and how to navigate it and the subtleties / details of whats happening (but described clearly and concisely without any religious dogma or spiritual / new age lingo). [a friend sent this to me some months ago and i just finally got around to giving it a listen last night, though it seems to be all in perfect divine timing now with what i’m going through in life. its funny too to see repeating numbers on the youtube page.. when i was played it, it had 72772 views, 72 comments, and 711 likes.] even if you don’t do any breathe work, meditation, or processing, its great to have a better understanding of how our experiences in life form. here’s part 1:

here’s part 2:

happy earth day! 🌎

have a look today at what you can do to help mother earth. as we sit and look at all areas of our life and realize how and where we can improve our habits, we’ll see there really is so much we can do in many aspects of life to help reduce waste and consumption. every little bit counts and helps.. even by just becoming a little more conscious of what’s involved in making the products you purchase will help you choose alternatives that are more environmentally friendly. taking care of our planet is one of the most important things we can collectively do. we have a lot to be grateful for.. our planet is our home and provides everything we need for this experience we call life. reducing our consumption and avoiding purchasing things that are destructive to the planet is a way of saying thanks to mother earth for all she provides. i’m grateful to see that many more people are becoming more conscious of what humanity has done to the planet. the more of us that become aware and change our habits, the quicker we’ll help the planet heal and the quicker we’ll prevent any further destruction caused by man.

i recently purchased an electric car and am grateful to never have to go to a gas station again. besides stopping support of the oil and fossil fuel industries, this also allows me to go on more adventures exploring various parts of the area here and not feel bad that i’m wasting gas or furthering pollution. today i went on a zero emissions adventure driving to some areas i hadn’t been to in a while and some that i haven’t ever been to. it’s nice to see what little things we can discover along the way just by taking a new route that may be not too far from where we normally go. one of the great financial benefits to an electric vehicle is that its practically free to drive more. there’s practically no maintenance required and electric motors are way more efficient than internal combustion engines. the car i got has done great on efficiency. i drove slow and conservatively on my driving adventures today and yesterday, and averaged right about 6 miles per kilowatt-hour [i was a bit surprised as about 1/4 of today’s journey included some time on the highway at 50mph, with around 1/3 of the trip at 45mph and the rest was slower local driving]. 6 mi/kWh is just over 200 MPGe (which is not the best unit of measurement for an EV but helpful in understanding an equivalent in terms people are used to). my overall average since i got the car earlier this month has been 5.5 mi/kWh and i’ve driven just under 760 miles so far (which is more than i typically would drive in the short time i’ve had it, though i’m making up for not having driven much at all earlier this year before + after selling my van). 5.5 mi/kWh is around 185 MPGe.. that’s pretty good for a car that’s rated for a combined 112 MPGe! anyhow, i’ve started to get a bit lost in the numbers and data.. looking at what this actually means, with electricity costing $0.11 per kWh, is 2 cents per mile! (a small fraction of what it’d cost per mile in the van i had or in any gas vehicle) electric vehicles are the future for many reasons. if you are in need of a vehicle, i’d highly recommend getting one that’s electric. pre-owned EV’s, especially low range ones with small battery packs, have some really great prices compared to new ones, and, as i’m seeing, with conservative driving habits one is able to get over 100 miles on a charge. another great thing about a small car is that the turning radius is quite tight.. on most 2 lane roads i’d be able to turn around with a 2 point turn rather than a 3 point turn. (and the car is small enough that i’d be able to carry it inside a tiny home if i built one with an open space in the back)

anyhow, i got a bit lost in the technical details there. there are a lot of other things one can do to change one’s habits too.. if you live in a city or somewhere that you can bicycle, commuting on a bike would be better than driving (even if just some time). reducing or eliminating consumption of meat and animal products would be a great help to the environment. recycling, composting, not purchasing products with wasteful packaging, not purchasing disposable products, etc would all be a great help too. becoming a minimalist in some, many, or all areas of life would be a great help. keeping digital records and not printing emails, receipts, etc would be a great help. not running the air conditioning or heat as much would be a great help. there are so many little things we can do and alternative methods we can use in our everyday life that all add up to make a huge impact on the environment. even if we each just make one simple change every day, week, or month it would make a difference.

i just sold my van yesterday, here’s a map of everywhere i drove in the time i had it

what you're searching for, what you're looking for, is already where you're looking from

- Moojibaba quoting/paraphrasing St Francis of Assisi

This is my simple camper van conversion that I built on a new Ford Transit van. The build is simple and lightweight, designed for off-grid and maintains a stealth appearance of looking just like the regular van from the outside. It took a few weeks to build (after many weeks of research to narrow down what options to special order on the van, what size van to order, and how to build it out). I decided to go with a lightweight build so I wouldn’t have a lot of power requirements and could run everything off the dual heavy duty batteries that I ordered with the van. To read a lot of details about the considerations why I chose this van, all the options, and to build it like this, please read this article on my website:


*** Van is For Sale ***

I haven’t used the van as much as i anticipated, and it is available for sale if you want it. Please write me here to purchase it:


To see a full video tour with me speaking about what’s in the van, see this video:


To see all the photos, videos, writing, and details about the van, please visit this page:


Please share with anyone whom may be interested.

UPDATE 2019.03.12: i sold the empty van today. the whole build structure is available for sale, or i can sell parts separately like the water pump, water tank, rv-type filling hatch, sink + countertop, shelf, storage cabinet, bath tub with slats (that can hold compost toilet), curtains, hanging closet, etc. i’ve already sold the refrigerator and compost toilet.

in this (very) long article, i’ll explore why i chose a van for travel rather than another type of camper or rv, and go into the details of the various options i chose that i felt would be best for a campervan when i special ordered a custom built van. i’ll also go into details about the build and decisions i made there to keep things simple and lightweight. i compare my experiences with the van to the previous truck [...]


looks like i may stop using instagram (or its new parent facebook), as the instagram server is no longer allowing me to fully automate downloading my own images and videos to my website, which was the whole reason i ever started using the platform (and i’m not sure that i want to spend more hours coding a potential workaround that could possibly break at some point, especially as the part that’s currently still working is going to be deprecated in the coming weeks). [i had been thinking on and off recently of no longer posting to social media and deleting my old posts to just keep everything in one spot, on my website.. looks like i now have a good reason to do so, especially as squeezing low resolution previews into the one minute instagram video limit didn’t do justice to the shots and the old phone i was using with the quadcopter would quickly run out of space and i wouldn’t be able to use the video from the whole flight until i later downloaded the original files off the memory card]

for now i will still keep the 3500+ posts i made to instagram here:


i’ll likely still continue to post videos on youtube (as the videos on my website play through there), though it won’t be daily as i typically spend much more time editing these videos on the computer and it tends to be a while before i get to them:


to see all the photos, videos, writing, etc that i’ve shared online, please visit my website:


here’s a direct link to where the newest content currently shows up:


if you want to contact me but don’t have my email address or phone number, write me here:


as some of you know (and a lot of you may not know), i’ve been looking to purchase land for some years now, either to build a new home, park a tiny home on wheels, or start a community. i sold the van i had over a year ago (as i wasn’t really using it as i had anticipated due to health issues) and previously sold the condo i had (shortly after i purchased the van), and my current living situation has been less than ideal (with negative/toxic/unhealthy influences that are not aligned with the directions i’m called to move forward in).

i don’t like to ask for help, though it seems perhaps i need to do so, as i’m in immediate need of a solution if i want to move forward with life and continue to live here on earth. what i need right now is a lot of land where i can permanently park some kind of tiny home on wheels (and ideally also grow organic food). the location should be somewhere i find peaceful (quiet, safe, private, natural, nice, clean, far from main roads and industrial areas, away from emf/emr, away from smokers and other sources of pollution, etc), most preferably in florida, in north pinellas or west hillsborough counties, so i can still be a part of local spiritual communities here and be near various health food stores & nature parks/preserves in the area. clean water, electricity, internet (ethernet), and sewer or septic on site would be preferable, though i could be partially or completely off-grid if necessary. i’m open to purchasing the land through 100% seller financing or via donations anyone can offer, or can consider renting the land for a low rate (around $100 per month plus utilities). i have some funds i can use to purchase a travel trailer (or a cargo trailer to convert into a custom tiny home on wheels), though currently not enough to also purchase the land (until my investments go back up). when my investments go back up to new highs, i’d be happy to pay back (or forward) any donations i receive. other than on vacant land, i could also consider parking in a big back yard (or front yard, if on a large acreage), though am not interested in sharing a house/apartment/etc as i really need my own personal space in order to heal, grow, and be able to tune into inspiration for the creative and technical work i do (and i wouldn’t really be able to relax if inside of someone else’s home, as i’d feel the need or pressure (even if subtle) to have to be following specific rules or looking for another place as its only temporary). if anyone has a good spot outside of florida, i’d consider going somewhere else if in a warmer state (with mild to non-existent winters), in/near nature, and by healthy food stores (with good produce and vegetarian/vegan options).

for decades i’ve been creating unique images, videos, and writing that i’ve shared freely (without advertising or sponsorship, aside from a couple of pieces of gear i’ve won or have been given). others find my creative work inspirational and i’d like to continue to create & share, but am currently barely able to, given the current circumstances of my living situation. i’d also like to be able to continue to support spiritual awakening & growth in others, though its extremely difficult to do so when i don’t have my own quiet, safe, sacred space in which i can heal, grow, relax and feel divine inspiration. and i’d like to help create eco-conscious communities that i know others desire, though this also requires a good space to effectively work on the various aspects of the project. please help me in being able to move forward in this life. i have other projects and things (like inspirational visions of a beautiful new earth we can collectively co-create) that i’d also like to be able to share when i’m in my own space. at times i’ve thought perhaps the divine doesn’t want me here anymore (as multiple things haven’t worked out in recent years where i ended up losing a good bit of money, i had clients whom didn’t paid me fully, and i have yet to receive the abundance (in any form) to purchase land and a new home), though i’d still like to stick around and i know others appreciate my presence. if you find any value in me or my life, please help me continue to live this life. while part of me doesn’t want to have to ask anyone for financial help, i suppose its the norm these days for content creators to ask for help in various ways from those who appreciate what they do. i recall a while back, around a decade ago, having inspiration to create a ‘help support the artist’ web page or site, though never created anything more than a simple affiliate link page that i didn’t promote, so here’s a more direct approach to asking for help.

please let me know if you have or know of anyone who has suitable land, and please contact me if you’re able to donate, help raise funds, or know anyone whom can. thank you, many blessings & much gratitude!

a year ago today i bought my first electric vehicle, a 2016 Fiat 500e that a local dealer had imported from the west coast when it came off of lease. it only had 4710 miles on it when i got it, and still had a hint of new car smell, despite being ~2.5 years old at the time i bought it. this is a map of everywhere i went in the first year of all electric driving. it’s a total of 275 actual days of driving (counting times i got back home after midnight as part of the same day i left).

when i bought the car i never imagined i’d go this far with it. when i was calculating how far i’d likely want to go with it (when determining if the small 24 kWh battery would work for me), i looked at my typical driving and saw i’d be able to go everywhere i regularly went without any issue. i never intended to use any public chargers, and figured i could do all of my regular driving by charging from home (and saw i’d have enough range to be able to take multiple round trips in a day, like go to a park in nature and/or grocery store, and also go to a local community event). in the beginning i mostly drove anywhere i could go on a single charge, and got a good feel for how much i could squeeze out of a single charge without running the battery too low (i typically plan not to go below 20% or 30% charge so i have a margin of safety, and can extend battery longevity by not regularly draining it all the way). after starting to use public chargers to be able to go a little further on a couple drives, i then started to plan out longer trips with multiple charger stops and was able to explore even further. there was a nice sense of freedom in being able to drive so far without needing gas (and with electricity costing so little per mile, and being free at most public chargers). in the first year of owning my car i drove 17300 miles, nearly as far as i drove the whole time i owned my previous two vehicles (18678 miles in the 30 months i owned my Honda Fit, and 18271 miles in the 22 months i owned my Ford Transit). when i owned gas vehicles i didn’t feel as compelled to go as far, as there was always a cost associated with filling up gas, and larger vehicles, like my van (which averaged 18.43 mpg) and the truck i had a few years earlier (which averaged 17.36 mpg), were not very efficient. although i averaged 39.57 mpg on my Fit, i still didn’t end up taking it too far. with my electric car, i can ignore the prices at gas stations (which multiple times in my truck (and maybe in the van) i spent so much that i had to run the credit card twice, since it hit the $75+ limit when filling up.. at times when filling up the truck it was well over $100 for a full tank). now with the electric car, i just pay $20-30 a month for electricity and i’m able to drive much further without thinking of how inefficient it is (and with barely needing any maintenance either, as electric vehicles are much simpler with many less moving parts compared to an internal combustion engine where it seems there’s always something needing some kind of service or repair.. the most one will spend for maintenance and repair of an electric vehicle is when replacing the tires). even though gas prices are currently low due to supply & demand, its still less expensive to drive an electric vehicle.. if i had the gas version of the Fiat 500, i imagine i’d get around 40 mpg like i did in my Honda.. at the current national average gas price of $1.89/gallon (which is also what the local station here is charging), it’d be about 4.73 cents per mile to drive (not including all the oil changes and maintenance needed). my total cost for electricity in the whole first year was just over $318, making my average overall cost per mile to drive it only 1.84 cents. during this past year, gas price averages were 30-50%+ higher than they currently are (while electricity prices remained about the same the whole year), so the actual cost if one had a gas Fiat 500 would’ve been 6 to 7+ cents per mile, about 3.5 to 4 times more for fuel alone than electricity in the 500e. my overall average cost could potentially be a little higher than it actually costs, as i added an extra 10% to allow for any potential inefficiencies during charging (on top of the total number of kWh that the car actually used during driving). had i paid for the electricity i got at free public chargers (at the same rate i pay at home, which is slightly higher than some paid public chargers cost), my average cost for electricity would’ve been 2.66 cents per mile, still much less than the cost of gas. in the future we may see the prices of gas drop as demand drops and gas stations close, though the costs of purchasing electric vehicles will continue to drop as well (as the cost of batteries and other technologies continue to improve with time, especially as more and more electric vehicles will be produced every year until internal combustion engine vehicles are no longer made at all). i almost forgot to mention, my average efficiency the whole first year has been 5.517 mi/kWh or 186 MPGe (about 57-66% better than the EPA rating indicates), or a consumption of 181.2565 Wh/mi.. yes, i typically drive slower and more efficiently than most drivers to extend how far i can make it on a single charge, though even under the EPA rating or conditions more typical of the average driver, one would still have much better energy efficiency in an electric vehicle than a gas or diesel vehicle.

a lot of the posts i’ve written about my electric car experience have been about the costs, as many still might think that electric cars are more expensive than gas vehicles, when in fact they end up costing a lot less over time [and especially so if one buys a used electric car.. my total cost for electricity, maintenance (just tire rotation as multi-point inspection was free), insurance, registration (just renewed for two years), and to purchase it has been 79.7 cents per mile. i estimate that later this year (if i continue to have the same monthly average amount of driving as the first year) that my total cost per mile for the car will be around 60 cents per mile, the same that the total average cost of my last couple vehicles was after i sold them (and i’ll still have my electric car at that equivalent total average cost per mile!). looking at the total i’ve spent to buy and use my electric car, its already 20%+ less per mile compared to what it cost me to buy, use, and sell the truck i had several years ago. buying it pre-owned certainly did help achieve this low total cost per mile so quickly, though even when buying a new electric car, one will see that the total cost to own it will end up less than when buying a new gas or diesel vehicle.] fleets have already started to make the shift into electric vehicles, and soon too will most consumers. if one has never driven an electric vehicle before, one will immediately notice the vastly better performance upon test driving one. after getting used to driving an electric vehicle, it makes internal combustion engine vehicles feel like very old technology. i recall once when i drove my parents’ car after having my electric car that it felt very sluggish (and when previously using it before buying my electric car, i recall thinking it had pretty good performance). the smoothness of acceleration due to the instantly available torque in an electric motor (and no unneeded shifting or transmission) make even a basic electric car feel like a well refined expensive luxury vehicle. there is no unnecessary noise or motion from idling when stopped like in most gas or diesel vehicles. and even when accelerating at maximum power (which is much quicker than comparable (and even higher segment) gas/diesel vehicles), there isn’t lots of noise nor the feeling that the car is really working hard [sometimes it seems that some gas or diesel vehicles are making a ridiculous amount of noise and using/wasting lots of energy just to barely get up to a regular cruising speed]. overall, electric vehicles are really much more of an enlightened or peaceful experience. besides the lack of unnecessary noise, there are zero emissions when driving an electric vehicle. imagine how clean the air will be on (and near) roads when most vehicles are electric. we’ll be able to drive with the windows open, bicycle, or walk or sit alongside the road, and still have beautiful, fresh, healthy air to breathe. globally we’re now seeing big reductions in pollution with less people currently driving. this is a good glimpse at how clean the air will be when we make the full transition to electric vehicles and renewable energy. the experience of being able to wake up each morning with a full charge (and potentially never need to go to a public charger) is nice, and saves most people time. instead of getting to your car, seeing your gas gauge is low, and then needing to rush to stop for gas during your commute, you simply plug in your car at night or when you get home, like you plug in your smartphone at night to charge, and its ready for you when you need it.

as i and so many others have written, electric vehicles are the future for so many reasons (and that future is here today). one of the nicest aspects is that i haven’t had to go to a gas station in over a year.. i think regularly going to a gas station, which had a very dirty feel to it, was one of the worst parts of driving an internal combustion car. i remember feeling i would need to go right home and wash my hands really well every time after filling up the gas tank. besides the overall dirty feeling when going there and potentially lots of germs at the pumps, the gas stations also seemed to often be filled with unhealthy pollution and odors from cars or trucks (that are sometimes really bad when in they’re in poor running condition), unwanted loud music, spills or stains of gas, oil, or other leaking fluids on the ground, people quickly feeding addictions of tobacco, alcohol, unhealthy food or drinks, etc at the convenience store located at most gas stations, and other aspects that contribute to the overall unpleasant feeling or unhealthy environment everyone driving a gas or diesel vehicle needs to regularly be in. with an electric vehicle, the majority of one’s charging can typically be done from the comfort of one’s home. if one is traveling (or parks somewhere without access to a regular A/C power outlet), there are a rapidly growing number of public chargers for electric cars (that are often free, and some of the paid ones charge a little less for electricity than one pays at home). public car chargers are located in variety of places, most in locations that are much nicer than dirty gas stations. locations can vary from places one goes to regularly like a grocery store, shopping plaza, business, or restaurant, to travel destinations like hotels, resorts, or attractions. many local municipalities already have chargers installed in city parking lots, garages, or on streets. one can easily park and charge while doing what one was already going to do: get a bite to eat, run errands, go for a walk, etc. in the future, the number of public electric vehicle chargers will be much higher and one will find them in greater numbers than gas stations. to help find chargers, there are a number of apps and websites that list the locations. there are also apps and websites that help one plan long trips, which will include all the charger locations one needs to stop at along one’s route when driving far. today, with currently existing public chargers, one can already drive across the whole country in an electric vehicle. even with a car that has a small battery and slow charging like mine, one could currently make it from Florida north to Chicago or New York (though going from the east coast to the west coast might not be possible yet with a small battery (as, when i looked into this last year, there are some far distances between chargers in very remote places in the middle of the country, though this will likely be changing soon).. however, cars with small batteries were never intended to go that far to begin with, and most electric vehicles have much larger batteries anyhow). i mapped a couple of test scenarios using cars with 200+ mile range, and one can make it from the east coast to west coast using existing public chargers.

i could go on writing about the many benefits of electric vehicles, though have already shared some of these before with my personal experiences.. here’s a link to other maps and writings about my electric car experiences: markmarano.com/what/EV/

as part of my technical and creative services, i offer advice/consulting/education on newer technologies like electric vehicles, and custom data solutions such as gps logging and making maps like this. below is a video i made drawing out all the gps data points in the order i drove (to make the video much shorter, you’ll notice that i only drew out the route to new spots on the map rather than having the line go back over roads i’d previously driven on). feel free to reach out to me if you’d like to hire me, whether for a short consulting session or larger project.

below are links to some messages & meditations from various spiritual teachers about the current world pandemic:


A Message from Amma on the Coronavirus — www.amritapuri.org/79739/20corona.aum


Craig Hamilton: Spiritual Survival Skills for a World in Chaos — www.youtube.com/watch?v=y_cO0IhSA7c


Doug Bentley: In a Time Of Global Crisis – How We Can Help — www.youtube.com/watch?v=lUmCoPy2LYU


Marianne Williamson: Coronavirus Meditation — www.youtube.com/watch?v=VPACQatSP-8


Michael Milner: Interfaith Communion with the Cosmic Christ — vimeo.com/400337110

here’s the letter he refers to — www.facebook.com/kristin.flyntz/posts/3020095601354571


Mooji: Remaining True in a Time of Crisis — www.youtube.com/watch?v=t3wTOKjH3xM

Mooji: A Simple, Powerful Prayer in Challenging Times — www.youtube.com/watch?v=8sOFaT3UOg8


Preethaji & Krishnaji: Limitless Field Meditation — embed.vhx.tv/videos/774879


Sadhguru: Next 3 weeks can be the best possible time — www.youtube.com/watch?v=p2MYUkxo1gU&t=445


here are more related messages from others, though some parts may not be understood or might be seen as out there by some:


Bridget Nielsen: 5 Ways To Prepare For The Spring Equinox (March 20th – Ascension Energy Update) — www.youtube.com/watch?v=aalXM15fLs4


Gigi Young: COVID-19 (Coronavirus): The Big Picture — www.youtube.com/watch?v=3n3g5m06D1E


Heather / Activation Vibration: Energy Update: PANDEMIC PARADIGM SHIFT — www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cu5HBEbp0wY


Polona Aurea Dawn: Collective & planetary reset points — www.youtube.com/watch?v=KZ_QkdhJCfs


here’s everywhere i’ve driven my fiat 500e since i purchased it earlier this year.

technically i’ve had it since the beginning of april, though there were 30 days straight where i didn’t drive it, and another time 7 days straight i didn’t drive it, and other times where i didn’t drive it for multiple days in a row. if you exclude these, this is about half a year’s worth of driving. counting the number of days in my gps data, there are 180 unique days worth of data (though the gps time is in UTC rather than eastern time, so if i come home at night after 7 or 8pm, it counts as a new day.. i’m not going to analyse all the data right now, though i imagine it’s actually less than 180 days worth of driving, as there were likely days i didn’t drive the following day after coming home at night after the new UTC day started at 7pm EST or 8pm EDT).

the total it has cost in electricity to drive a lot in half a year is the same as what it would cost someone with a big inefficient gas or diesel vehicle to fill up their tank just a couple of times. its a bit crazy how much more efficient and cost-effective electric cars are to drive. the average cost per mile has been just over 2 cents, for both electric “fuel” and maintenance.

i think i’m about done with this project of seeing how far one can go in an electric car with small battery. if i really wanted to, i could take it up north or to the midwest. i checked the routes, and there are already enough charging stations along the way to make it. though, i think i’ll wait until i get an electric van so i have more room and can enjoy the drive more easily in a tiny home on wheels.

one of the beauties of spiritual growth is that one’s perception of the world, time, and reality will change. as one finds more peace in life, one will be able to live much more fully in the present moment. as one moves through life and lets go of resistance (and attachment to the past), more depth can be found in the here and now.

i’ve known this (and have been feeling it in more recent times), though its always great to be reminded yet once again. i just realized that something that seemed like it happened months ago only took place six weeks ago. so much more can be felt and experienced more deeply when living more fully in the here and now. experiences can quickly arise and dissolve, allowing more space and energy to experience whatever continues to unfold in this journey we call life. [as we allow things to dissolve (and past experiences (or time) feels more distant than it is), we create the space to move forward more deeply in the presence]

at more profound states, minutes can seem like hours, and one can truly feel (and experience) life with awareness of all the details of the simple yet beautiful experience unfolding in any given moment.

the presence is all around us, and at all times. we simply need to let go of all the doing and thinking that become the blocks to perceiving it.

allow your consciousness to shift, transform, and expand. life is amazingly beautiful as we heal, grow, and evolve.

if it’s not divinely inspired, do you really think forcing it will have any effectiveness?

sometimes to connect with god, all one needs to do is write whatever one is feeling (or start with thinking if you’re not yet feeling it from the heart).

sometimes the path to god is through the pen (or the keyboard). [as one works out whatever one is feeling, one creates the space for the divine to brilliantly shine through]

writing is a form of letting go. [when we surrender, forgive, or otherwise release, we create more space for the divine to fill us]

are these things you are hanging on to really worth more to you than the divine grace that can pour through?

it’s amazing how simple it can be. [yet strikingly just as profound how difficult we can make it]

to feel is to be free.

one of the most challenging circumstances can be to feel (from the heart) when surrounded by so many others whom are engulfed by the mind, though the divine can always be found in any situation or place if one delves deep enough.

i had a lot of good insights or inspiration coming to me this morning before getting out of bed. i wanted to share them though was in the place of where i felt that if i got up to start to type them, then i wouldn’t be in the same place or energy where the words were coming from. and the body was feeling quite tired or exhausted and wasn’t quite ready yet to wake up. after i did get up, i felt i should give some nutrition to the body (and got a juice) and then i could start writing. though i was greeted by ego-based distractions from family. perhaps the divine didn’t want me to share this, or perhaps it was the collective ego didn’t want to hear the inspiration that was related to letting go of the mind / ego. yesterday i went on a very long drive to explore some parts i hadn’t been to and to push the limits of how far i can go in a short range electric car. the whole idea started more for fun to draw lines on the map of where i’d been (using a gps logger i made that’s inside my car, recording everywhere i drive.. which i had done for my last couple vehicles and had found it interesting). it also started inspirationally (if thats even a word) to be able to show others what can be done with a car with a small battery (to help inspire others in the transition to electric vehicles, as they’re better in many ways). though it seems that the mind took over the idea and began to push it further and further. i’ve seen this happen in other creative or technical projects i’ve done (or that others have done). the mind likes to see just how far it can go (we can see this collectively, in how ridiculous some things in the world are today). what i wanted to write about was this, the extent of this, what’s happening, and how true inspiration comes from following the divinely inspired idea, rather than the mind trying to force an idea further. it can be easy to slip into the mind and let it get carried away by the idea or goal. though lots of things could be at play at a deeper level of why this is actually happening. one needs to explore within to find out exactly where these desires from goals are originating, and sometimes (or perhaps often) explore more deeply into where they are really coming from. at some level, it seems that any desire or goal (especially one that has any form of attachment to it) is coming either from a lack, likely some attempted replacement for not having peace or a sense of love (or being loved) in one’s life. in my own life, i recall the times that i was “in love” or felt great or at peace or whatnot, i felt i didn’t need anything else. when one is feeling from the heart or observing from a peaceful place of higher awareness, one is whole and complete (and does not need any of the attachments or desires that the mind might bring). when one is not resting peacefully in the heart or higher awareness, especially if one might be resisting experiencing a feeling or emotion that might have been triggered, one is more prone to slip into the mind (and get caught up the games the ego/mind plays). a simple way to get out of the mind is to go for a walk in nature until you feel more peaceful. surround yourself in nature long enough and you’ll discover the amazing beauty that is all around us at all times. the mind can be a useful tool, though one must not allow the tool to take control. it can be challenging at times, especially if one does work or projects that require lots of use of the mind — which in this case it’s even more important to regularly go to nature, meditate, practice mindfulness, or simply relax in the present moment (and enjoy one’s surroundings without trying to do anything). these days (in modern society) it seems everyone wants to do more and continuously be doing something, whether its in over-working or in finding some distraction (from the present moment) as a form of entertainment. [sometimes one needs to jump into this sort of thing to see what it’s all about, as i seem to have done after having already previously seen this sort of approach to life is not healthy] last night when i was on my way home from the long day, i began to notice the odometer (and realized that it was going to be a milestone in the number of miles i had driven since purchasing in my car) and started to calculate that i could probably do another long (but not all day) drive tomorrow (today) and just make it under that milestone to be able to have those lines on the map as part of it. after i got home last night and showered, i updated the map, looked at the route i had already previously planned, made some adjustments to it, and thought i would go this morning whenever i woke up (but not set the alarm as whenever i do i don’t sleep well, anticipating that i’ve got to be up at a certain time), though as i went to sleep i figured that i’d see how i feel in the morning (even though i was leaning towards going). this morning i woke up early, either from noise or from anticipating the drive or from being exhausted from the long day yesterday [yesterday during the day, i knew it was a long day (and didn’t eat a whole lot during the day) but it didn’t really feel all that bad.. perhaps as part of pushing forward to be able to actualize the goal of doing the drive, the mind was pushing the body and not really feeling the effects until later.. i suppose doing this often is what leads to burnout]. this morning, waking up tired, i knew that i could ‘overcome’ it (or ignore it) and just go if i wanted to, and knew how the mind wanted to do it just so it could say or show that little extra piece as part of the map for this milestone (though looking at at the map i made just over a month ago, i had already added a lot to it… though it seems the nature of the mind is to want some form of ‘more’, though this could just be conditioning that currently exists in the collective). as i laid there in bed, i saw that this could be a good opportunity to choose not to push myself to do another long drive today just because it would fit into a milestone.. when in the grand scheme of things, this little bit won’t really make much of a difference, and if the mind still wanted to keep playing the game of seeing how far it could go, it could easily fit into the map of the next milestone (of time or distance).. and another thing i just noticed is that the mind could easily reword the title of the next one to make it seem more significant.. again, when in the big picture, none of this really matters.. and the important thing to realize is not what the mind can do (we already see many great inventions and accomplishments that the human mind has done in the world), but to know that true inspiration cannot be forced.. the mind trying to effort to accomplish something can only go so far, and it can never be as magnificent as what is truly divinely inspired. and if one is not feeling the inspiration, all one needs to do is to relax (and become present in the here and now) in order to be able to tune into whatever the divine wants to flow through in any given moment, and know whatever it is, big or small, is equally beautiful in its own way (judgment and comparison is another trick of the mind…). even in wanting to write something like this, begin to look more deeply at it and where it’s coming from [yes, it may help others (or provide insight to oneself), though is it fully coming from a place of inspiration, or is there any part of the mind wanting to share its own story?]. with so much of humanity being fueled by these external desires and the obsessive compulsive need to be great in some way, perhaps the best thing one can do to help oneself (and others) is to practice humility and simply observing the world (and whatever arises within it). the story of what one has done is really unimportant. all that really matters is how one is being in the present moment. [as i attempt to write all of this, and wonder if there’s any coherence to it, i look at how i’m being, how i’m feeling (and seeing how feeling tired (and whatever else may be there) is affecting the ability to write] sometimes the lines blur.. between sharing the inspiration and one’s own story/feelings/journey.. the story can help when it helps one connect with another, though when its to show off in any way what one has done or what one can do, it pushes people away [its interesting to see how this sort of thing has shown up lately in the world]. its also one and the same, what is happening individually and collectively, in the mind and in the spirit. its all part of this unfolding experience. while we can speak about what parts are more helpful for one to discover and know the divine, higher awareness, connection, etc, the other parts have their own purpose as well. remember that we have the choice of what we want to collectively experience here. we can collectively choose unconditional love, forgiveness, presence, peace, connection, etc. we can collectively create a beautiful world if we choose to. the more of us that choose to live from higher frequencies of vibration, the more we’ll see it in the world. the world now is in perfect order as its what the collective has been choosing (even with all the chaos, its all a part of the process that is happening now so that we can all grow and expand in new ways.. we need to fully experience and make it through the old in order to get to the new). it is beautiful to see that more and more people are waking up, choosing higher vibrations, and living from a more beautiful place. we are all on the way, even if it seems at times that so many of us are so far behind. we are all getting there. it may go more quickly for some of us than others, though we will all arrive. and the more of us that move quickly and begin to arrive, the more quickly others will begin to awaken, shift, and transform. [it was great to watch this last part flow through quite quickly.. it was a subtle difference in how the words were coming out, though it did feel like those were flowing through more profoundly, without the mind interpreting or remembering or whatnot. that’s a good indication of where one is at any given moment, and where the words or feeling are coming from.. if it flows through more naturally and effortlessly, its coming from a higher place in the present moment. if one is trying to remember, think, or analyze in any way, then its quite likely coming from the story or perspective of the individual self]

sometimes the way out is through. we must explore and embrace the forgotten, resisted, or lost parts of our self in order to for them to become whole again (and be able to fully dissolve).

i went to the introduction to Michael & Suzanne’s new course at the Flowering Heart Center this evening. they shared the flowering heart eye blessing at the end and it was pretty powerful. in the beginning, for a little bit, i saw connection, or oneness, and saw a bit of a white haze or light in the room. it felt like the more i tuned into the light the more i could feel the oneness (and see the divine). i had a vivid experience of seeing others as parts of myself nearly a decade ago (and have had glimpses of this since then). its beautiful to experience a bit of it again. it felt like the divine was coming through during the meditation/blessing and i was able to perceive this during part of the process. i could also see where i had resistance coming up and how it blocked the experience of oneness. i could also see the relation between the eye blessing and some of the Avatar feel-it processes. it seems this connection or oneness between us can simply be experienced by extended ‘feeling’ of the other, or opening/extending one’s heart to the other by looking at the other (and gazing into the other’s eyes in the case of the eye blessing experience). it makes sense how the direction of one’s attention is part of the process, and how the blessing is powerful when the eye blessing giver is connecting back with you. [i wanted to write more.. the insights were more powerful and profound when i felt them earlier on my way home, and have lost the exact words or feeling now after showering and getting to the computer.] one of the most powerful, beneficial, healing, and profound things one can do in one’s life is to heal whatever blocks there are to fully feeling and being present. life is so much more beautiful when we are fully present and connected with others and the world around us. there are so many distractions in the world that prevent us from seeing and experiencing this connection. on a mental and physical level, eliminating distractions is helpful. on an emotional or mental level, feeling and healing whatever resistances, charges, and subconscious programming one has is very helpful. the only thing blocking us from fully experiencing life, god, oneness, enlightenment, etc is our own self. as we heal ourself, the beautiful light and revelation will pour through in our self-realization. we’ve been creating this experience all along. we can heal it and change it if we choose to. i would highly recommend the new course at the Flowering Heart Center, the Avatar Course, or any other experiential workshop/process that takes one into and through one’s charges, resistances, etc. it was good to hear Michael speak about how our intention can direct us through different dimensions, planes, or aspects of this reality, and to mention the upper chakras and their relationship to the planes/dimensions/lokas. i’ve experienced or have had feelings of this in the past, and it was great to hear all of the topics he condensed down into the introduction tonight. he had said it all in the past (and i’ve had other understandings related to it), though it was great to hear it all again in a new light. it was also great how he mentioned that sometimes one has to just hear the message from a different person even if someone has been saying it to them over and over. it’s funny how reality can work like that. there were other great insights too related to my own journey or perspectives, like how he spoke of reality being a spherical projection around the projector in the middle, which reminded me of the 360×180 degree little planet images i create [i recall discovering this look/technique only after i had grown to better understand consciousness/life/reality.. although it was only a mental concept at the time, i was on the way to soon understand it more deeply, experientially]. it was also great to hear Michael mention (again, recently) that the faster one goes the slower time goes (until it stops when one is going at the speed of light).. i recall, long before knowing anything conceptually about the spiritual path, feeling something related to this.. needing to go faster to change the perception of time or reality (and did have profound experiences where minutes seemed like hours). i know we don’t need an external teacher (as mentioned again tonight), though it’s good to see others teaching and perceiving similarly to what i have known or understood.. it helps to clarify what i’ve experienced into words i can share with others and to know i’m guiding them in a helpful manner [to know that the experience or understanding was real/spiritual and i’m not just imagining it or sharing misinformation… though what can actually be defined as real is a topic for another discussion/ramble]. [there was another insight i wanted to explore, related to the inner lokas, flowering heart path, and source within, compared/related to the planes of existence surrounding us in the external world, though will need to do that at another time as i’m getting tired and sleep would be good before waking for the course in the morning.]

some shorter thoughts/insights:

we are all one. it’s all a matter of our perception whether we see this or not. we can understand this with the mind first, though it’s not until we actually live it, through the experience of it, that we will truly understand.

let go of all that no longer serves you, at whatever level or place it exists. these attachments or resistances are what are holding us back from fully experiencing this (or any) reality.

it may be difficult to imagine what one might be missing through one’s own misperception, though once one knows, one will wonder how one could have possibly lived without knowing (yet the past won’t matter any longer, nor will the future, for the present moment itself will be profound and beautiful).

this world is only as real as we make it to be. only when we learn to break free of ‘the matrix’ can we really understand.

we only perceive the world through our own understanding of it. to perceive more clearly, we must unlearn and let go, rather than seek to gain some new insight or understanding.

[i woke up early this morning and was unable to get back to sleep, likely processing and feeling whatever was arising (and resisting not being able to fall back asleep).. as daylight would be breaking soon, i got out of bed, and attempted to write and explore some of the insights that had come to me earlier in the morning.. some inspired by the beautiful one tribe potluck/gathering/satsang last night (and some more random). thank you everyone for being there and for the experience/conversation!]

there is often the desire to capture our experiences. however, the most profound experiences are ones that we surrender to.

rather than chase the desire to capture the experience, learn to surrender to the experience.

the most beautiful moments cannot be described with words nor captured with images or sound. only in the experience of feeling life and being fully present to the moment can we truly live.

none of this really matters, yet it all matters. we chose it at some level when we created this game of life. embrace it all, without attachment.

we gain more by letting go rather than by acquiring. whether this be knowledge, experiences, physical possessions, or anything else in the physical or mental world, learn to surrender the need to have any of it. by letting go of this attachment, we can live more fully in the present moment and experience all the beauty that surrounds us at all times regardless of the circumstances.

each day look at some aspect of yourself that you no longer need and let it go. by dissolving the layers of the self, we grow closer to who we truly are. rather than identify with this body/mind image, we discover more deeply who we really are.

everything in this world and beyond is created, and nothing that is created is real nor who we really are.

who we are is beyond anything that exists at any level in the physical, mental, or spiritual worlds.

we are nothing yet we are everything simultaneously.

as long as we are here in this existence, let’s collectively choose to make it as beautiful as possible. while, from a higher level, none of it is real, we can choose to create a beautiful, loving, harmonious world.

remember to always choose love. while this may be difficult upon seeing things in the world that appear to be wrong, remember that by choosing this higher vibration of love, we can help elevate and transform anything that is not love. [and upon doing so, we may just discover that love was always there, even in the aspects of life where it appeared it was not]

while words may help point the way, they are never a substitute for direct knowing and experience.

god, the universe, self-realization, enlightenment, oneness, unconditional love, and any higher truth one may seek can only be known through the direct experience thereof. while many others may write, speak, or share their perspectives and experiences of truth, any viewpoint outside of the actual direct knowledge can merely point the way.

remember, that most often, the things and experiences we seek in the world are merely distractions to what actually matters.

remember that your story does not matter. while it may be fun, entertaining, or even inspirational to create and experience your character in life through a certain way, remember not to get too lost in the story, for doing so can lead you astray from whom you truly are as the creator of the story. [this is what all the messages about letting go are really about.. remember to peel back the layers of the onion and let go of the masks you may still be wearing. while these identities may serve you in certain moments, wearing them too long will become a hinderance.]

learn to remove the filters you have that may be blocking your light.

like in poetry, writing, or any other verbal expression, words can only ever be metaphors of truth.

even if others do not understand or are nowhere close to understanding, continue to share nuggets of truth. one day, even if after hearing the same truth many times, the other will understand what it was all about.

the greatest experience is realization.

life can be heaven or hell. it’s up to you.

do not seek to emulate others. while it may be inspirational to see what others have done (or you may be able to gain some insights or little aspects related to your own journey), remember to follow your own heart. this is your awakening.

while the destination may be the same for all of us, each of our own individual journeys is unique.

sometimes one may choose to awaken then fall back asleep only to awaken and then fall back asleep again in a different manner. while, according to some, this seems to be how this experience occurs lifetime after lifetime, one might choose to do this over and over within a single lifetime simply for the experience of doing so (and to better understand what others may be going through, and to be able to suggest multiple paths to others).

the mind wants to understand, though to truly know is beyond words, through the experience.

remember life is not about ‘my’ journey or ‘your’ journey, but simply ‘the’ journey itself.

in recent years i learned about universal basic income. i read about it being offered (or tried) in some northern european countries, and, coincidentally (or not), these countries were also ranked as being the happiest on the planet. i do my best not to get caught up in politics, though i’ve recently seen some things online mention universal basic income. i think someone running for president is supporting it, and billionaire + genius Elon Musk supports it. i haven’t looked into what they all think or any details of it, though the concept sounds like a great way to end the suffering + struggle of so many. as automation takes over jobs, it will only make sense as a feasible solution to keep humanity alive. by not having to worry about survival, people won’t have a reason to do desperate things that harm others. with more free time and freedom to do what one feels called to, more people can be creative and do simple things to help another and society. as an artist and creative myself, i easily see this.. there are so many creative projects that could easily flow through me if i didn’t have the burden of things that need to be done simply to exist on the planet. as more of us awaken to who we truly are, we’ll see that there really is no need to compete with another. as more of grow and are healed, we’ll see that there are more than plenty of resources for all of us to live healthily and in harmony with the planet. through our collective transformation, we’ll eventually grow beyond the need for any type of currency or trade. in the meantime, as we shift away from how things have been on the planet and wake up into the new world we are creating, something like universal basic income would be a great solution to provide the funds needed for food, water, shelter, healthcare/wellness, and the other essentials of living well in the modern day (such as communication and transportation).

near the beginning of last year i recall looking up some numbers and seeing out how this could work with the current system of taxes. i don’t have those exact calculations in front of me, though i do recall it being quite feasible to do under a number of scenarios. i’m by no means an expert or knowledgable in the national budget, though quickly looking up the numbers online now, the national income for the united states in 2018 was 20.7 trillion dollars, the federal budget/spending was 3.8 trillion dollars, and the population is 327.2 million people. if the tax rate were simple and equal between all corporations and people, the needed 3.8 trillion over the 20.7 trillion that came in would be 18.3% to cover current spending. if we were to give every person that lived in the country $2000 per month as universal basic income, we’d need an additional 7.85 trillion dollars, bringing the total needed for spending to 11.65 trillion dollars. this would bring up the effective tax rate to 56% but that does not account for the fact that everyone would be receiving $24,000 a year, effectively lowering their taxes. for example, if one earned $50k a year, the 56% would be $28k in taxes but one would get $24k back, so one would really only be paying $4k in taxes, an effective tax rate of 8%, lower than what one would pay in the current tax system. yes, if one earns a lot more, they would pay a much higher percent, but would also receive more in the universal basic income payment if they have children or are sharing funds with a spouse or other family whom doesn’t receive income (or pay taxes on it). this is just a simple example to see that this system could be feasible. essentially those who receive a lot more in income would be helping those who don’t receive as much, and in return would see a much healthier society and planet where humanity is not suffering from poverty, crime, sickness, etc. i can understand how some whom earn a lot might not like to have to pay more, and this is only a simple example.. to lower the tax percent individuals would need to pay, the amount being given as universal income could be different and there could be other factors affecting the amount dispersed such as looking at the size of the household (as with several people and children sharing a home, not as much would be needed per person.. though if the amount dispersed was even per capita, it would encourage sharing resources). there could also be a sliding scale and tax brackets, and it could get complex (though still kept more simple than the current system). another quick example: if we were to change the universal amount given to $1000 per person, then the flat tax rate needed would drop to 37% and someone who earned $100k per year would only pay an effective tax rate of 24% after receiving their $1000 per month in universal income.. and one’s individual tax rate could be even lower if the amount corporations paid were higher since they are not real people. i won’t elaborate further into all the technical details.. there are lots of examples and ways to look at this.. these numbers are simply a proof of concept to see that it could be a feasible solution today (and the statistical numbers i quickly found online may not be accurate).

i would encourage anyone who finds this interesting to research it, conceptualize or visualize the possibility, and share it with others. the more of us that see new ways of thinking (and living), the quicker we can effect change into the world. it seems that this way of subtle (or massive) change is the new growth we will see in the world. there’s only so far the current system of how things work in the world can go. sometimes we just need to let go completely of what is to allow room for what will be to unfold. it can be hard to surrender and let go, but once we do, we’ll be able to embrace the beauty of what is to come. as we transition into a world that is more peaceful, loving, and living in harmony with the planet, the future generations of human beings will look back at the history of what we’re currently living through and wonder how we ever existed like that (similar to how some now can look back to the past or distant past and wonder how people could’ve ever lived like that.. heck, some nowadays wonder how life could’ve existed without smartphones).

here’s a peek [funny at first this was spelled peak, which could also apply] of some messages that were coming to me this morning.. i’ll be using some/most of these (and others) as captions for instagram posts when i create some photographs in the near future..

the trick to awakening is to see the divine perfection radiating through all the chaos of the world.

when one stops striving for perfection, one will be able to find the perfection in what already is.

we can become more whole (and remember who we truly are) by simply accepting and loving more perspectives and aspects of life that we don’t understand (or resist)

sometimes it helps to step outside of any given viewpoint (or yourself) and laugh at how absurd it really it is

honor and respect all ways of life.

learn to see what exists between where you are and what you’re looking at.

the empty space is not empty.

it seems there are two approaches to the current game of life:

work hard, struggle, do all you can to achieve and try to be successful.. and ultimately fail in the end, still feeling like you need to continuously keep on striving for more to be happy.

or simply surrender, let go, awaken, realize this is all an illusion and none of what you were struggling with or wanting really matters or brings you any significance or true fulfillment.. and upon doing so find a deep sense of peace, love, and appreciation for all of life (from where you can begin to really live).

[some speak of the easy way or the hard way.. the hard way can eventually lead to the easy upon reaching your breaking point, or you can just let go of what society is telling you and start with the easy way]

heal. the most important thing you can do in life is heal your unconscious, emotional, conditioning. after that, all falls into place. the divine is always ready, as soon as you are.

love is always here, simply waiting for you to open your eyes to it.

surrender doing. start being.

stop doing. begin being.

the tools, how to, and techniques matter not. what does matter is the message. when you learn to be still and hear inspiration, everything you need will unfold in perfect order.

remember: the message that comes through is what is important, not who it comes through.

if you find yourself not knowing what to do next in life, ask yourself, what can i do to be more humble or kind?

honor all paths, and let go of your identification with any particular group or mindset. while nice to gather with others and meet with new people whom have a common viewpoint, it’s very easy to identify with the group-thinking, which can overpower your ability to hear clear inspiration directly from the divine.

the biggest hurdle to growth is seeing what’s wrong with any given situation rather than seeing what’s unenlightened about your viewpoint of the situation.

listen closely. the inspiration is always there.

when waking up in the morning, spend as much time as possible in silence, without listening to, reading, or watching anything in the physical world. by doing so you’ll increase your ability to hear the divine speaking to you through inspiration. combining extended periods of silence with time spent alone in nature can be very powerful and healing.

what i’ve been sharing (or describing) for decades in my work is simply another form of meditation.

do what makes you feel alive. but also realize that you can feel alive in any given moment by simply being.

one reason to spend as much time in silence as possible is to be able to hear the divine inspiration within (by stepping away from the distractions of the external world). another reason is to avoid tuning into any lower vibrations, as many (if not most) people live in a state of fear. while not absolutely necessary, listening to, reading, or watching positive influences can be helpful if you are certain that you know the external message is one of a higher vibration.

my work has often depicted the beauty of nature, and wide open landscapes without people. over time these images expanded to wider and wider perspectives, and various depictions of seeing in all directions, such as in the 360 degree ‘little planet’ images. in these i’ve created ways to hide the tripod or myself from appearing so its still an image about experiencing the natural world (and not about me). in the self-obsessed ‘self-ie’ world, it’s fun and interesting to think of these little world images as the ‘selfless-ie’. also interesting is that i only discovered the little planet look/technique after going through a process of surrendering and getting on a spiritual path.

simply relax and be still. you don’t need to struggle to follow any particular meditation or spiritual process. just spend time in silence or in nature, and you will naturally begin to feel and heal.

when sharing something with another, ask to remain humble in doing so. while at times it can be helpful to share a story or personal experience as a means to relate or connect with another, pause for a moment to see if this sharing is coming from one’s own need for attention or from an inspired place that will help the other.

likewise, it can be exciting to share what one is learning during one’s process of awakening, transformation, and growth, though pause to listen if what you’re sharing is really what the other needs to hear. sometimes all the other needs is merely to be heard or loved, and giving advice or teaching will not help (and may push the other away).

love knows no boundaries

remember, the ego is loud, while the presence of the divine is an infinite silence that resonates much more powerfully.

we’re all here for different reasons. not everyone’s path will look like yours. and there’s nothing inherently wrong with anyone else’s particular path.

when sharing with others what you’ve learned on your spiritual journey, it can be much more effective to use universal language and say things in your own words, rather than try to repeat what another has said (as certain lingo may not be understood by the other or may create a sense of group identity within you, either of which may create further separation).

perhaps the express lane on the spiritual journey: stop identifying with any thoughts, teachings, or beliefs that come from another or from any group. let go of these, embrace silence, and listen to the inspiration coming directly from the divine in your heart.

so much has been said about the impact of social media upon people in modern society. there’s so much information online and many people trying to be the expert in any given field to earn a living (or sometimes just to cause trouble).

perhaps, rather than using social media to post ‘comments’, ‘news’, or ‘how-to’ information, we can all begin to use it simply as a means to share our own personal feelings, journey, and stories in a way that is heart-felt, authentic, and real.

we don’t need any more people telling us what to do, how to do it, or what they think about what others are doing. all of that sort of thing keeps us trapped in the mind (and causes further chaos and separation). any ‘information’ shared should be inspired (and kept simple).

share what you feel, who you are, what is real to you, your essence as a human being.

content like this will help others feel more connected as humans compared to technical or opinionated content from the mind. opening one’s heart also encourages others to open their hearts. and all the world really needs for great transformation is for enough us to open our hearts and heal past wounds.

what matters is not what you think, but what you feel.

…i had some more insights but they escaped me.. they came to me as i was waking up though the body wasn’t quite awake. it’s a dilemma i’ve experienced many a times.. the inspirational message would come to me but i or the body is not fully awake yet and in order to keep tuning into the message i need to stay with the message, and if i come back to the body and get out of bed and to the computer (which is only a couple feet away now), by the time i type in my password and get to somewhere i can type (if i’m not distracted by whatever was previously on the screen), the message is lost. it’s really lost just by the time i get fully back to the physical world.. as it seems it doesn’t exist fully, or there’s too much distraction, whether it be noise or stuff on the screen or clutter in the room or whatnot. i feel this is also related to my photography.. where i’ve had the desire to capture some brilliant moments or experiences of being somewhere but the act of getting the camera out affects the moment, or it’s just not the same if i quickly snap a photo and look at it later.. perhaps its the time it takes to really create a great image affecting the experience. or even in just the time to stop the car and get out and compose a good image, the moment is lost, or there’s something else i’m feeling.. i think its just that i wouldn’t ever get anywhere if i were to stop every single time there was a beautiful moment. and sometimes there aren’t places to easily stop if its a narrow road or if others are on the road. this is what led me to the idea of time-lapses while driving or walking or biking or wherever i was.. to have a camera always capturing the world around me so i could go about exploring and experiencing and not be distracted by the act of photographing the experience. anyhow, i digress.. it’s interesting to see all the rambling unfolding this morning. i didn’t plan on this but just sat down to try to type the words that are now lost, thinking perhaps they will come to me, and they tend to come back to some degree.. i just have to let go and forget about it all. in this act of surrender and not caring whether i remember them or not, they or something else, related, perhaps even better, can flow through. and if it doesn’t, it won’t really matter as i’m no longer attached to the need or desire for them to flow through.. and from this place, likely they will come again if they were important or unresolved or whatnot. and if the don’t come back because they were resolved, then at a higher level the work is already done, and the lesser need to share it is unimportant. perhaps at times the most brilliant insights and experiences are left for one alone to experience. it is nice to be able to share them and create some sort of writing or art or whatnot to lend this insightful experience to others, though it’s not always necessary. everyone will find their own way at some point. yes the external representations and insights can help point the way, though there is no need to be attached to the need to create these. if they are meant to be created, they will be created. and there are also others whom probably can share somewhat similar viewpoints.. while they may not be the same as they won’t have the underlying basis of all the experiences and viewpoints one may have, they will lend other helpful perspectives. this is why so many of us are here right now, to lend these perspectives of this experience of life, of awakening, of being from a new place to so many. sometimes the simply being present and following one’s heart is all one needs. often, actually, or always. there is not much else to really do or think one must do. follow your heart and you’ll discover and experience all you need. it doesn’t really matter what it looks like either. there comes a time to let go of chasing after all the external teachings, reflections, manifestations, and representations. for they get in the way of listening to the true message that is coming from within. all that the external messages really do is remind you to look internally. if one were to study and look at all of these messages, one would see this common ground. while it may be interesting to do so, it’s not necessary (and can get in the way of actually experiencing). just look within. that’s all we’ve been saying. that’s all we’ve been pointing to. the experience is greater than the thought. the beingness is greater than the doingness. peace is greater than anything else. simply be. be peace. be love. be you. be one. be all. be.

[funny to read back over this and see how this reminds me of writings that would flow through me many years ago.. funny to think how perhaps then i was on this journey or at this place, without even knowing it.. it was always there, it just simply had to be recognized and more deeply realized]

on april 6 this year i purchased my first electric vehicle, a 2016 Fiat 500e.  previously leased with very low mileage, it had a hint of new car smell to it.  it's fully electric with a smaller battery, making it a low range EV, though, by driving efficiently, one can get significantly more range between charges than the EPA rating.

in the first month of owning it, i drove a total of 1523.7 miles, averaging 5.7 mi/kWh.  at the nationwide average cost per kWh, that’s just over 2 cents per mile. even if the trip computer is optimistic and there are efficiency losses when charging the battery, it’s still under 3 cents per mile.  i did drive slowly + conservatively (and with windows down rather than air conditioning) in order to maximize efficiency to be able to go far without draining the battery too low, though even driving a bit faster or with A/C, the cost will still be far less than what it’d cost with a gas car.

with electricity being so inexpensive it opens one up to be able to explore more (and without any emissions that an internal combustion engine vehicle would have). if i would've driven all those same miles in the van i had, it would have cost me $200 more for the gas than the electricity costs.  saving a couple hundred dollars a month surely adds up.. looking at this number alone, the car will pay for itself in less than 5 years and will effectively be free. (some electric vehicles can be purchased used at a much lower price than new)

besides the financial savings, electric cars perform much better, are much quieter, have practically no maintenance, and have much less of an environmental impact than a car that burns gas or diesel.  we’re just starting the global transition to electric vehicles.. it’s exciting to be driving the future.

if you're in need of a car, i would strongly encourage you to get an electric vehicle.  besides helping prevent climate change, you'll have a much better driving experience.  some new models have bigger battery packs that can go as far as gas cars and can charge very quickly.  even with a higher initial price, a new electric car will cost less to own than a gasoline car with the savings in maintenance and gas.

#fiat #500e #fiat500e #electric #car #EV #BEV #driveelectric #electriccar #electricvehicle #drive #electricvehicles #nogas #cars #zeroemissions #travel #journey #road #nature #park #trees

all images shot on an #iphone6 with the basic #iphone camera app, and the jpeg files were edited in an old copy of #lightroom that was released 6 years ago.. there's often no need to have the latest photo technology or gear if you know how to work with what you do have.

i recently saw these videos with some beautiful aerial views of the world.. i could see my photographic work looking like this in the future. if anyone wants to donate or raise the necessary funds, i’d be happy to consider creating a video or photo project like this :)


FLYING OVER KAUAI (4K) Hawaii’s Garden Island | Ambient Aerial Film + Music for Stress Relief 1.5HR


7 HOUR 4K DRONE FILM: “Earth from Above” + Music by Nature Relaxation™ (Ambient AppleTV Style)

i had an interesting experience waking up this morning, or thinking i was waking up.. i woke up and heard some sort of audio program or video playing on my computer where someone was speaking some words and everyone on the call (or in person if it was a live recording?) was repeating the words. it felt kinda strange for so many people to be blindly repeating the affirmations or prayers or whatever it was, and i didn’t know who the speaker was now that i think of it. and then i realized that was still part of a dream at another level.. i was dreaming and woke up within a dream to realize (or wake up again) that i was still dreaming! if it would’ve been another level of waking up, it would’ve been like in the movie inception where they go multiple levels deep into dreaming within a dream. i’m not sure if you’ve seen it.. it is good in how it portrays these multiple aspects though having hollywood action elements to it there is a little violence i think, but its not really bad like other movies. the metaphors (or realities expressed or hinted at in different ways) are really great in regards to this, and it also looks at not even knowing if one is dreaming or not. it was interesting as at first i didn’t know i was dreaming but then i just woke up or realized i was.. not sure what caused it, it was really just a happening, like awakening can be for some, without any direct cause that the mind can know or understand. it was just like an expansion or stepping out of that false reality into a greater reality, awareness, or understanding/wisdom. and then it was interesting as having known this i could still almost linger in between worlds, the dream world and this reality (if one could call it that as it may just be a dream too) where i know it was a dream.. and from the in-between state of knowing both, it felt like i could continue to create the dream more if i wanted to but it was also difficult to keep creating it after knowing it was just a dream (difficult being in a sense.. not that it really was difficult, but it was like why would i want to).

i think this is why there’s almost a little bit of a fear or wondering what will happen as i awaken to greater levels of consciousness and awareness.. as when i realize this whole thing is just a dream i may have this similar experience as i linger in the place where i’m still here in the world but also beyond this unreal world, and i may not feel inclined to stay as i know it isn’t real. and in thinking back to some of the experiences i’ve had where i’ve had experiences of transformation and awakening, one time i was actually starting to ascend out of the body and leave until someone at the course asked what i was doing and he said i was leaving my body and then i felt myself come right back in to it.. though another time after a more advanced process i found myself in a place that felt like i was at a higher level of awareness (or in a higher dimension/plane as my friend who guided me through the exercise described it), and i felt like i had no desires and no resistances.. i just quietly was there and everything simply was. i sat there for a while just watching the world around me from this place of no-mind awareness and everything was totally calm, quiet, and peaceful. i think people were working on their own processes and talking in the background or whatnot, and i was completely undisturbed or affected by any of it. i just saw it as part of the surroundings as i gazed out to the world. [an interesting aside, i remember that when i was sitting there totally calm, one of my friends there whom i had liked (and was interested in a month or two earlier) had said now she actually likes me.. it was funny as it no longer mattered to me (nor did anything else) as i was completely at peace without desire or resistance] it was just before lunch break and most if not all people had left the large hall/room by the time i got up from where i was sitting on the floor. when i got up and started to walk out to the hallway, the experience/perception was as if i moved and then the body followed. i wasn’t confined to being the body or the mind.. i was the spirit and i could flow (around the general area where the body was), and as i floated or flowed in the direction i wanted to go, the body just moved and followed to keep up with the spirit.. i didn’t have to do any of the motion of the arms or legs or anything.. i was the spirit/soul/consciousness/energy that moved (either invisible in the physical plane or on another more subtle / higher plane), and then the physical body followed. i don’t recall exactly what happened after that.. i remember seeing a friend and someone else from the course there and hugging them both on my way to the hallway as i was feeling so free with this ‘new’ perception (and they could get some sense of how / where i was). i probably ate lunch and integrated the experience that afternoon.. i’m sure i had other experiences later too as the whole course/workshop was filled with profound and healing experiences, the most transformational, healing, and profound things i remember experiencing so far in this life.

anyhow, went off on a bit of tangent describing that second experience there.. though getting back to where i started exploring it, i didn’t feel like i wanted to just leave this reality after having that experience as it was just so amazing and beautiful to be here having this experience of life on earth (and have new perceptions of this reality). so it is interesting to wonder what may unfold as the journey continues and consciousness expands/grows. i suppose it all depends on how or where one is looking at it from.. the time i was leaving my body, or when i’ve had thoughts of maybe not coming back after knowing this is a dream, may be arising when certain aspects of life aren’t working.. and i just see that it doesn’t matter anyhow and might just take off and completely stop creating this whole illusion. though if it is working and i’m relaxed, comfortable, and enjoying it, then i’m more likely to stay and just experience it as the whole universe is then a worthwhile creation to continue to play in. i know some say one’s own happiness matters and some say it doesn’t in spiritual growth, though it may possibly be a determination of where one goes as one does grow, ascend, expand, etc. and perhaps all i described was merely just one particular aspect or viewpoint of one particular experience and its completely different every time and for everyone, regardless of any particular similarity or difference in subtleties.

i feel now i must’ve expanded or healed or grown in some way as the words are able to flow through to describe all of this.. recent resistances and obstacles had prevented me from being inspired or creative for quite some time, and now those must be lifted as i’m having this able to flow through me (although not entirely effortlessly, yet the words are able to flow through). i think it comes from the letting go and release of things or aspects in consciousness that i was seeing as burdens.. like all the thoughts about what to do about elements of my physical reality that aren’t perfect or were seemingly unhealthy or limiting in some way were more of what was actually limiting me rather than that the perceived limitations — perhaps it was the resistances and perceptions or thoughts themselves that were more limiting than the actual physical limitations.. as i’ve been letting go and surrendering and accepting where i’m at and being less attached to whether i’m able to do anything in particular (like accept that maybe i just won’t go to any of the community events if i’m not able to find a good car at a good price), i free up the energy and attention that was consumed by these thoughts/feelings/emotions/resistances/etc, and i have more free energy/attention to naturally tune into this creative flow and inspiration. i know i know all of this as i’ve gone through this sort of thing in all the healing + transformational work i described above, though its nice to experience it again. sometimes we can get so caught up in our own perceptions/beliefs/thoughts/etc that this gets us stuck inside the mind in a sense… which is interesting as most of the time the mind is empty and quiet, though the underlying feeling must still be there in consciousness even when we’re not having any of the thoughts and emotions that might be arising strongly at times.. that underlying feeling or aspect of our consciousness is creating a block that may be invisible. we may know that there’s this thing going on in our life but until we fully experience it or let it go in some way, its affecting our reality and preventing the flow of life / the divine / the universe / etc in our experience of life/reality.

i don’t know what else i wanted to write about this at this moment, though its good to have another look at surrender and acceptance and be able to share this from my own personal experience. there are so many teachings out there about this sort of thing but the most important aspect is to have our own direct experience of it. the words can give us some direction but can never be a substitution for actually learning it and feeling it yourself. i remember back when i took the courses i mentioned above and had such profound experiences that simple truths like ‘feeling is healing’ would arise. its good to get back to some of those and to share them once again. it seems that there is so much stuff out there in regards to spiritual and personal growth and healing work and whatnot, so many modalities and teachers, that it can become so overwhelming to one who’s trying to make any progress in life if one is trying to follow someone else’s direction. yes these things can help in the beginning, though one really needs to embark on one’s own inner journey and allow it to all unfold rather than continue to be reading and watching others speaking and sharing new techniques and methods. stick to what you know works and continue to explore through that method if its helping you. now i’m not saying that new things are bad as there is some great technology unfolding in the physical world, though in the realm of consciousness and higher awareness, things tend to become more simple the further we go. all one really needs to do is feel the various aspects of life that one may be resisting. yes some techniques can be quite powerful to help bring those to awareness especially if they’ve been long suppressed, though do not forget that the greatest teacher lies within. follow your heart and ask for divine grace if you feel stuck, and dive wholeheartedly into whatever it is you may be feeling or resisting, and you’ll make it through and discover the peace and bliss on the other side as you surrender and let go of your resistance. as you work through and feel and release whatever may be in your consciousness, you’ll naturally become more aware as you free up your energy. with this greater awareness, you’ll naturally start to see and realize new levels of perception and capacities as consciousness/spirit in a human body. there’s no need to seek these directly, and trying to seek or force any of these on your own may only hinder you in your own growth and expansion. it’s all a very natural process.. just feel and embrace all aspects of yourself unconditionally and you will be free. [and in being free you may just discover that there really was never anywhere to get to but the here and now]


..it seems as though, in this world, consciousness creates the illusion of a problem in order to have the experience of transcending it


stillness is not different from silence, is not different from contentment, is not different from joy


This Is Immediate Sadhana — As You See, So You Are Free


The New American Story | Marianne Williamson | TEDxBerkeley

this is a full, detailed tour of my 2017 Ford Transit-150 Cargo Van with Premium Van Package and lightweight campervan conversion build-out. after having a look at what’s in it, i talk about some of the options i chose and why.

here’s a much shorter, quick + silent walkthrough video of the van: youtu.be/HnzBWp9vEuI

i’ve written a very long detailed article about why i chose the van (and specific options when special ordering a custom built van) and go into lots of details about the build (and compare my experience to the previous truck camper i had). here’s a link if you want to read the article:


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