2009 May

it’s really just a matter of everything as comfortable, and then it all is – yes, really all of a sudden. that’s how it happens. almost has to happen

–> means that it does and you really don’t want to admit it. don’t be afraid of those things. yes, you do want to teach others but this is what happens. what happens? where? i missed it? please go on. this is exactly how conversations with god was written! it came from god, this other place. call it inspiration, god, intuition, what you will but it’s all the same.

to live a god-realized life means to live from this other place — again, quite literally!
just like everything else you’ve been learning, like this moment now, that you literally are writing a note to yourself by doing this voice. you are living at certain higher levels and don’t even realize it until you do. yes that’s why people do these types of odd things because it makes sense to them. see tho you forgot the thought because you were living in the moment ! holy shit, that’s what it is i knew all along. this is what it means when your thoughts are running faster than you can speak or write it. because it’s so fas that you really can’t.
this is why recording it gets in the way! live it always and only record selectively, and then you’ll have a good balance. yes, it’s the writing and ideas we desire more of — so all ???? always. thats why I feel better now. because i’m doing what fulfills me!! it’s important, very important to do something fulfilling!
holy shit, these really are revelations! it’s funny to remember! everything, quite literally, when it happens, because you already know because you are god and you know anything always anyhow. and we really all are one as being is — and what’d you figure out earlier… judgment all stems from the ego’s idea of separation
isn’t that what Wayne Dyer said that now makes sense completely? I understand it all at a higher level.

the moment you try to record it, its gone.. just like Frederic Lehrman described as soon as you put a name to it, it’s gone because the naming is part of the separation!

it really does work at all these levels you’re only beginning to understand but your understanding is greatly increasing rapidly. this is what “the force” is and i am the jedi learning!

wow, what a great name to call it, because so true it is!
Joe does understand it.

now that we’re free, we can go play in spirit land.
that’s how you leave the separation and connect directly with god and others.
holy shit, i really am learning. it’s all with this greater force, and learning how to use it.

freedom, no barriers, living from a higher leel.
truly accepting, not judging –> same thing

meditation is easy now that you’ve done it and know how to do it. you will live a relaxed life the rest of your life. don’t worry. now that you know it, you’ll relax… just look at those words now. i love words when i understand them.
understanding is love!
misunderstanding is negating, judging ?
life is enhanced with god… awareness, knowing, understanding. god is everything, but knowing from within is truly god. the rest is the expression of god. but there’s a difference between the expression and god. that’s why the expression was created. so god could know god experientially. god had to know what not god (yes all is god)
the original god, the same
the energy
was in order to know what god is.

what is god?
god is.

beautifully put. yes, if i don’t say self my self. i love the revelation, the source, the original, the authentic – god , you keep surprising me with what all these things are when you know them. i know i asked to enjoy all good life had to offer, and i love this! i somehow knew i wanted to experience it but didn’t quite know what i meant by it until i did. oh, life is beautiful! this has been a great quest now that I understand it a bit more. I love sharing it with others too!

I am perfectly fine with everything, as everything is god, and also meaning everything is perfect, as god is perfect.

always take it to the next level. it’s always better and makes more sense. but what about limits? i know no limits but really, no limits. not in that sense. in the sense that in potential, anything is possible — yes, anything is possible if there’s enough belief/understanding/knowing. all the details accounted for. everything is deliberate! this is what living deliberately means!

it’s truly great when you can actually feel it coming to you. it’s always out there, is it coming to you is the question — no, it’s can you feel it coming to you? it’s all through feeling

indeed, living in the moment, now, is feeling without the boundaries of thinking blocking the feeling. live/love a life with no limits, that’s what being in the moment is, that’s what freedom is — freedom to live in the moment always. freedom from the constraints of the ego/mind – and living with god. – a god realized life is freedom!

meaning is in god, and sharing god with others for god is love!

and all good comes from love as you understood earlier, when Lily+Jesse were offering you to stay at their place!

I should always indicate appreciation, to indicate I understand they’re coming from a place of love by doing so. though perhaps I didn’t as I already knew they know that I know their love. wow, the levels.

I can live in the moment, though doing normally society things just doesn’t seem fun. this, why you enjoy adventures + ideas. it all makes sense, always, when you understand. it’s all in perfect order. a quest from god to find god and spread the wor.d what other great teachers have been doing!

conclusion: we all are the same. it’s a cycle of forgetting and remembering. and the remembering part is lots of fun because perhaps even god had an ego, and knew how great remembering god is! ha, the levels, brilliant. i love it.

those who mock merely don’t understand! how true, merely a reflection of them, their own judgment! all it says is they don’t understand! also very true too

this summer really is going to be a blast. the relaxation, the yoga, the girl, the love shared at so many levels. as relaxation is love, as it’s finding god! that’s what relaxing really is! it’s feeling god more than the ego or body –> as those are stressful! that’s why one can do so many things to find god. everyone already knows it (as they do it), they just don’t realize why. yes, the great revelations! this great shift in consciousness! / so perhaps some sort of the would be revelations for the global shift almost? / in awareness, great awakening? ??? lost it, which one was it?

i love the levels, ??????, connections and fully realizing it.

living a god realized life!

Mark Marano feels alive, and re-discovering his purpose!

think I get excited over new ideas b/c I feel the energy of actually speaking them into existence

Chasing these new thoughts… but where to… why? How ? does it ever stop? Why do the thoughts never satisfy? Why not in the moment? Why out of the moment? Why always the future or the past? Why not now, the ever-present now? Isn’t that all that matters? The ever-present, ceaseless now? The mind is what is ceaseless!! Why can it not stop? What is preventing it? is sleep the only way to shut it up? Can’t sleep all day […]

 

It’s great to actually experience everything I’ve been learning. One can never quite know something, how it actually feels, until they, themselves experience it. I feel connections and understanding with others, and realize we all are on the same path – we all are one. And I’m attracting people like myself, and really knowing what I’ve learned that we are all one, that we attract others with similar energy to our own.

I realize the importance of putting yourself out there. Sure, you may risk rejection, but the reward will be much greater understanding and connection. Just like Greg Pinneo has shared, you can never know how far you can go until you risk going too far. And there’s great beauty in sharing the wisdom with others, as it will help them, and the moment of realizing they understand, that connection, will be magnificent. It’s great to begin to truly live.

Live is about experiencing aliveness, and one should always do what makes them feel more alive.

as we do live in this physical world, I use images from this “reality,” photographed ephemerally, with an ethereal perspective, to illustrate and symbolize the greatness that lies beyond this dimension

yesterday in photography and exploring this new space I had recently discovered, I saw the light in a new sense. what seemed to be ordinary light appeared extraordinary. I found/saw beauty in the ordinary/everyday moment. I am rediscovering myself. I am coming back to life, and the energy flowing through me is improving and remaining at this higher level, now that I’ve discovered my purpose, my calling. The beauty of the perfectly warm day with a slight breeze, abundant sunshine, and thriving plant life helps elevate the experience

being surrounded by friends and able to express myself freely!

spiritual journey in old work
roads, wide angles, …
other worldly, ethereal

didn’t even realize it then!
been on this path the whole time
the more you realize it / beam aware, the more you really see everything with a new perspective — literally new ways of seeing – like new ways of seeing/perceiving in photography! no wonder why I always had to keep finding new techniques in photo

Mark Marano is looking for someone to accompany him to Great Chicago Places & Spaces next Saturday:

 

Mark Marano has spent over a decade of his life living as a lens-based artist, expressing his quest for meaning and understanding through the mediums of still and time-lapse photography. Upon finding himself on a temporary departure from his visual expression, he has recently been inspired to revisit photography. With a better understanding of the relationship of his images to his life’s quest, he will share his perspective through a new technique he is currently in the process of developing. […]

perhaps the reason I photograph so many places and seek to travel so much is really symbolic of the journey itself — and the ways of perceiving through the lens ties everything together – indicative that you can only truly find meaning within

wow, life is truly amazing when you understand it. all these things i was doing in the past now make sense. without realizing it. I had been on a spiritual quest through my photos – or photographically so to speak

travel, freedom, ideas, exploration thereof, all make me feel alive as I observe and truly experience the world around me – truly experience, unhindered, uninhibited, no constraints in anything – as in my photos, going crazy, all over the place – how much more uninhibited could you be? even in matte finish – the image is without a barrier in front of it (as lily told me earlier, the word barrier that is, when I saw her images of Costa Rica on the wall of her studio. that’s why art is so important, to see or demonstrate these concepts through a medium – what a ‘medium’ is – a connection between dimensions – dimensions of the idea/spiritual realm and of the material/physical world. the only truly important thing is life – living it freely, freely to understand and experience from a higher awareness. as you must experience in order to truly understand and you can’t understand that concept until you do. just like the tao you can speak of is not the tao! wow! i now know why i was attracted to all the things that I was. it all makes sense and falls into place perfectly. and you can’t understand that fully until you do. in the end, everything is always in perfect order. god is always brining you in the right direction, even if it seems that you’re taking a long way, out of way, to get there. enlightenment is amazing – everything all of a sudden makes sense – your level of awareness increases instantly – a sudden knowing is upon you. yes, everything is all alright, perfect, in divine order. all that matters is love! experiencing (and sharing) love! love is god. love is energy, enlightenment, and all good and great things! once you know, you can continue knowing, as you progress and elevate to all knowing – which at that point, you must temporarily forget again, in order to then once again experience remembering! god, it all makes sense now! and this is only the beginning of the journey!

remember to always continue the spiritual quest and be creative, and share these ideas and perspectives – because others understanding is me understanding. always do these things you enjoy – its very important to feel good, relaxed, and enjoy life much much better. relaxation and higher understanding is the way! and my purpose is unique – communicate these ideas as I experience + understand them photographically and through words (be them spoken or written, or both). help inspire others as when I am inspired, I truly live, and I’ll be helping others experience that inspired state/moment and experience the same, as we all are the same … learning/remembering how to live and experience life … we’re all at various stages in our lives. and the ridiculous ideas are great – they serve as a bit of a reminder of how ridiculous some of these concepts might be to someone who has totally forgotten. I suppose its a bit of a joke or mockery? not really, but more of just a statement, utilizing humor to illustrate it, as those who get the humor understand and perceive in a way others who don’t get it or think it’s stupid – a demonstration of perception is all it has been this whole time, huh?

wow, side note – just think of the lyrics “it’s times like these we learn how to live again” such a higher place that’s coming from – that is what we’re doing + experiencing – and sharing this experience with our mediums of art, music, etc…

wow, this is why I can’t do “work” in a typical sense – it’s so unfulfilling – that’s what that means! never really knew exactly what others were ‘saying’ (telling each other about life + experience) until I did! it’s okay to be me… yes, a little crazy, but it’s fun, and I should live for fun, shouldn’t I? of course! one thing to remember is to do anything, anything, it takes to know and experience god! no matter if others think you’re crazy! god doesn’t judge! only the egos of others who have forgotten god!

wow, is that why others make drugs illegal (at least soft ones), because they are jealous of what those who use them as a gateway to a higher level of awareness feel with them? what hs this world come to? I’m so glad the global shift in consciousness approaches! what a relief to know the other parts f me will experience enlightenment, and to know I’m part of the cause too! the best cause to help others experience understanding and knowing god!

it’s in everyone to be able to know god, to be able to remember what it was like in energyland. with god, everything is perfect. everything is _________
that’s why I am an observer and introverted – because I know you must go within to experience god, to another dimension not in the physical world. though it is great to see the beauty in the world – the natural beauty that connects one back to the divine source that one truly is. it’s a reminder. the beautiful natural light is a reminder and exhibition of something greater than one’s self, or mankind (and the ego of man)!

what man can do can only destroy what god can do – look at the world – when egos run it, it creates things that affect the environment that god made

ego really is edging god out!

thank you god for this knowing, understanding, awareness, and experience!

I’ve found and know my purpose! Wayne Dyer is right – when you you feel you truly feel alive, you are on purpose! –> feeling and emotion are ultimate communication!

release and purging of anything not in alignment with what you seek is a must! the energies associated must go elsewhere! what you put in your body or mind will affect the experience – perhaps grater than you can know!
be healthy, relaxed, happy!

don’t get caught up in the tools or gear, the manmade! yes, research what will help demonstrate the message, but do so quickly, as the feeling/emotion/idea is far greater than the tools or mediums themselves! even in people! the message is beyond the messenger!
now I understand what Joe must have meant when he said “it was greater than himself” or something ‘beyond him’ – can’t remember the exact words now – but it’s the message, not the medium! that’s how people teach others through their own perspectives!
wow, I wonder if this learning, these revelations have anything to do with energies I knew for so long being physically more distant than I (in Rome today!)
I can’t blame them though, for it is only internal that matters as I create my own reality…

yes, I forgive them for being the mediums of forgetting these things I now am knowing, but I chose the experience as it was all in divine order to take me down this path.

remembering how it is to “be”

perhaps why I feel so cold in winter is because I feel everything around me and sense all that cold air in relationship to myself. and when I’m not relaxed, I feel small and weak, and sense what’s around me, rather than my true, inner self.

–> always stay relaxed, and feel the higher level of awareness.

part of why I like the best tools is because it’s more relaxing to know you’re using the best way to illustrate the message, or have the less delay or wait distancing you from the higher message. I suppose I am easily distracted and daydream. I shouldn’t fight it if its part of my purpose.

what others + society thinks bout it doesn’t matter and can’t matter – if it did, that would be “crazy” to me – as I couldn’t truly be me. so I shall relax and not worry what others think, as everyone is here to experience something different. that’s what makes each of us uniquely experiencing + perceiving the world.

so I can’t possibly please everyone, though can more easily get along with those who get it.

god is in 3’s

this has been a great revelation and I am thankful for it! relaxed and inspiring.

the ethereal, ephemeral, natural, and ‘my’ connection to the world in experience, experience of remembering who I truly am after choosing to forget, only so that I may remember – the cycle of life.

stay aligned with the things you like: candles, romance/love – experiencing this with a girl!
communicating ideas with others!

I realize I am only beginning this quest (or so it feels), though have taken a great leap forth in remembering the quest is what I sought! and my purpose!

I know the quest is the most important part of life! and expressing myself and realizing this quest makes me feel alive! and what the outside world thinks doesn’t, and cannot matter – all things will take care of themselves with god.

surrender the ego to god and life becomes so much easier, more fulfilled, more meaningful!

do I really feel judgement by others, or is it merely the ego wanting attention?

wow, why I don’t always feel the absolute need to create images when I’m relaxed is because I’m already there, and the images are about the quest for understanding/relaxation. and the battle it can take to get there (if you allow yourself to experience such a battle). –> hence the craziness in styles, techniques, etc.

wow, all answers are truly from within. you must not search the external world for answers, though I suppose they could give you clues, as to which direction to go, but the true answers “knowing” is within, a state of feeling/being.

the more you “understand”, the easier it becomes to “understand” and the greater the “understandings” become –> hence the increasing levels of vibrational energy

the ego is fear
god is love!

–> ego/analysis is destructive, taking things apart/disecting to look at

god is constructive, “pure” awareness and knowing

–> hence my search for purity, perfection!
–> and desire to portray perfectly!
–> as its a perfect message!

god, where have you been?

please don’t let the ego allow the escape from thee!

everything makes sense when you realize its all a spiritual quest, an act of remembering! and knowing!
perceiving greater!
from an elevated state!

this message is much more fluid than the other day as it came from a place closer to god. the other day, the ego was in the way, wanting to become more important than the message, and it was very rushed!
(am I blaming myself here?)
(is the ego even a part of myself?)

always remember you are the deliverer of the message, and the message is what truly matters!
it is much more significant than the messenger!

when you do so, you are living from a much higher place! this must be god-realization, living a god-realized life, and how miracles can occur in an instant! with god, all things are possible!

I love god! I only write god rather than God because of the way it looks? Don’t let the ego get in the way if that is any bit a part of why!

why different vantage points and perceptions? because everyone is here to experience from a different perspective – hence there is no good or bad, nor right or wrong, and nothing is to be judged, nor deserves judgment! so long as you don’t hurt anyone else!

so why this message, and the spreading of the message? because when you “know” it makes elevates the knowing better and easier when you know a bit before you actually “know”
perhaps this is the same thing I’ve been trying to say all along – the more you understand, the more you can understand! it’s unlimited, as god knows no limits!

think of the term “breakthrough” and what it signifies! you can’t quite know what it’s like, or even what it could be like, until you actually do (know/experience)
yes this writing/message can help others open their eyes to it but they must experience it internally for themselves! (to truly know it)

wow, is that what an artist statement is for? it’s for those who don’t understand the work! so it should be simple! just like a mission statement!

it’s great to understand why you’ve done things that you didn’t quite know why, but somehow know you had to do them – this is part intuition, isn’t it?

is everything we do a communication of some sort?

part of why I like many lights, and warmer tones, is they signify more perspectives, and a natural tone, like the element of fire!
–> desiring to understand from more/greater perspective

perhaps my quest from morning to afternoon of my life, from ambition to meaning is when/as I begin to understand enough that I can focus entirely/mostly on sharing the understanding with others — though the ambition may remain slightly to keep understanding more, or perhaps I’ll reach a point of knowing enough? though there is always growth! ____?

the journals/writings are a record of growth and should not be judged as not being perfect

sometimes you must question everything you know, or think you know, in order to grow
–> and understand yourself + your perceptions of those things fully
–> and be willing to surrender and let go/release everything that you think you need or defines you — as you, the true you, is far greater than anything worldly

thank you God for delivering this message to/through me!

you must go deep within, and you won’t understand why until you do — and it’s not going into the mind/ego either.
–> it’s going to a much higher source.

remember, it’s not always about taking the most direct route to get their either.

the answers always surround you — do you know how to see/hear them?

there’s always a way.