2013 August

it does really all seem that this is all as simple as deciding. you have the power, the key, to unlock it all. decide how you want to feel and feel it. remove all obstacles, should any arise. it’s that simple. you want to know god? decide to know god. be grateful, act on the connections, the flow, the feelings, everything related to god. tune in, and you’ll receive the broadcast. it escalates from there. there is no limit. you can keep connecting, deeper and deeper until all you experience is god. or so it seems. i speak from what comes through me. these answers, visions, solutions, etc may only apply to my perspective. it may be different for you. but do whatever you are guided to do. tune in to your own heart, your deepest feelings. that is where your answer shall reside. what words are you drawn to from what i write here? focus on those. just one example. whatever your attention is drawn to, must have some significance to you. explore that. the messages are everywhere, should you allow them to be. it is awesome, the greatest experience in the world to feel connected to the world, to life, to others, to god. this is where we are all going. as we all awaken, we are growing in our connection, at so many levels. god is available to everyone, even those who don’t believe in god. god may not be what you believe in. it is just a word that we are using to describe this incredible thing. though it’s not a thing. it’s more of an energy, a power, a connection, a feeling, etc, etc. or maybe it’s none of those to you. maybe it’s so much more. it’s our origin. our source. the light from where we came from. it is life itself. think of it as life if you don’t know or like or agree with the word god. think of it as a divine connection. think of it as a friend. if you must think. the thinking is what stops. when the thinking stops, what is left is god [or whatever you desire to call it]. it’s the present moment. the here and now. all that is, as it is. there is no limit to it. when we step out of the perception of the mind and into the perception of reality unlimited, unhindered, it all changes. drastically so. evolve. let it roll. let it flow. embrace it. be it. it is life. it is awesome. love it. it is love. it is peace. it is all of this and so much more.

where does one go when one stops to flow? or the question is more of where does one go when one stops the flow? why stop the flow? why allow the mind to get in the way? back in the day i used to allow things to flow so effortlessly and naturally. though perhaps it was due to social norms and the need to try to do something that i had to start to attempt to force it. though it doesn’t work the same when it’s forced. just like this message. i had this feeling earlier and it’s not coming through quite the same trying to type it up.

this is the dilemma i put myself through. but why? that’s what i’m truly looking for. it seems that these ideas came to me at some point and i thought it’d be great. in the moment it felt awesome. but it was just an idea that i was feeling in the moment. it wasn’t something i necessarily had to do. yes it would be neat to do but not a necessity. but i turn it into a necessity. i make myself do it because i had the idea come to me. and i though it’d be great or neat or fun or whatever. all these things are really an escape from the present moment. yes but they are happening in the present moment. just like how when i wrote that.. or am writing this.. it feels like its coming through more naturally and more effortlessly (if that’s even something you can say), though it’s not quite there. like when i went back to correct a letter that i didnt type.. it somehow slipped between my fingers. but i go back to try and fix it. to make it right. but there really is no right or wrong. why not leave it the way it came through? it seems to be so that others can understand it better. but why write for others and not just for me? it all is just one me anyway. but the other parts of me don’t always quite understand that. in fact some seem to be quite the opposite on that thought. but what do i do then? does it even matter? just allow it to all happen, however it wants to happen. thats surrender. that’s letting go of resistance to the moment, and not forcing it. forcing it doesn’t work. that’s what happened back in the past. i was forced to do things i didn’t want to do or i forced myself to do things i didn’t want to do, perhaps after being forced..? but anyhow, it’s this force we must surrender. this reminds me of power vs force, perhaps that thought is somehow related.

but where do i really want to go with all this? it seems that i do all these things that i’ve been doing [including writing this msg? not sure, maybe, but it feels different now].. the other things, like the aerial photography, driving to every state in the country with my truck and camper [ok, only the 48 connected ones, not all just yet], etc, etc. i do these things just to try to be happy or that i thought i’d be happy or enjoy them. but they’re always not that enjoyable. i try to make it sometimes but sometimes its not quite the same as i intended. or perhaps the intention wasn’t clear? i don’t know all the answers for the answers aren’t what matters. what matters is the experience and the feeling. i try to convey this feeling through other mediums. sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn’t. when i’m connected to the flow, it works. when i try rather than allow, it may not work as well.

so is it all based on resistance? not all of it, but only when i try to do it rather than allow it to happen. but the issue is that it doesn’t always want it to occur and i want it to happen. so there’s some control or desire coming to play there? it seems like that’s the case. because it did flow at one point and it felt awesome and i’m trying to re-create that experience. so what happened was that i fell out of the moment and i’m trying to slip back in. see, it’s all this trying rather than doing. it’s not the same! just do it. it’s simple. but the dilemma is that i don’t know where the moment will take me when i reconnect to it. it could take me anywhere. yes, of course, and we’ve been through this so many times in the past. but the past really isnt real is it? it’s only as real as you make it. if you want to live in the past, go ahead, but that’s only taking you away from your moment of now. but — look at all these excuses. all buts, trys, etc, etc. where do those all get you? surrender to the moment. just let go. completely let go. that’s what you could have done so many times. but you failed to. you deliberately stopped yourself from doing so. but that’s where you want to get to. back to the moment. and no, you can’t always know where the moment is going to take you. but you’ll know as it’s happening, and you may get a couple hints ahead of time. don’t worry, nothing “bad” will happen. for there is no bad. but yes you may look at it as it could be bad because it’s not the good that you seek. but it’s all experience. and if you live fully in the moment to experience it to its extent, then it will all be fine.

i know we’re all here for the experience, but when do i start experiencing it? when you decide to. all you have to do is decide to. you’ve seen many times you can powerfully create what you desire. and quite quickly when your intention is fully there. so manifest experiencing the moment and then you’ll be there experiencing the moment. really? is that how it all works? it’s really that simple? yup, if you want it to be. how do i know these voices are really telling me the truth? well, first off, it’s not really a voice. sorta but it’s more of just a flow, and there’s only one. dont be a smartass. i love being a smartass. i relate to you how you relate to me, remember. so if you appreciate it great, if you don’t, well look at what you’re communicating to the universe there. how do i know all this isn’t just the mind processing and analysing all this stuff at some high level? well, what if it is? then it’s not truly divine inspiration. who says it isnt? can the divine not work in whatever way it chooses? well i suppose. why even have all these conversations with the divine? if that’s what they even are? because it’s fun. it’s part of the process. i don’t know, you’re the one who chose to do this. at some level, at some point, it was intended. you and i are the same. yes there is only one voice, one experience, one perspective. but it can be seen from multiple angles. multiple vantagepoints. different ways. but the same. it doesn’t quite make sense from a mind that knows how to look at things a certain way. but to a mind that is willing to see from multiple ways and is open, it makes total sense. so wasn’t this whole thing about transcending the mind? yes. okay, then why are we talking about the mind? because that’s where the conversation and flow went. it’s that simple. don’t question everything. questioning is really taking you away from the moment. unless the question is spontaneous of course. then it was allowed to manifest on its own. it came from divine guidance. but if you’re stopping to think and question, you’re not in the flow. but where do i go?

to flow? here. now. not then and there :) okay, let’s stop playing with words. but duality needs words, so let’s mix them up a bit. so it’s getting all altered and changed and looking different now. it’s getting all jumbled up. wait, you saying it wasn’t jumbled up to begin with? :) of course it was. but that’s beside the point. none of this is supposed to make sense. what is the point of it all? to confuse me? to confuse others? i thought this was to inspire. it’s an internal inspiration of the i from the i to the i by the i, etc, etc, forever. it always comes and goes. if you want it to. should you allow it. should i desire it. should i/you be it. none of this makes entire sense. just like these words coming out. i don’t know where the words are going, i’m just typing them as they come out. i’m following htem in the moment, for the most part, and not trying to see where they’re going. look, you’re learning by experiencing. allow it to happen. it will flow through you. it doesn’t have to be forced. you don’t have to try and make it happen. just like these words are coming through that’s how you live life. wow was that the point of all the words that have ever flowed through me? like i said, allow it to happen, don’t try to figure it out.

this is everywhere i’ve been when traveling in my truck camper since i got it. a couple of places (mostly around florida) may be missing as i didn’t track it all in the beginning, and some routes might be slightly off as some gps data was missing [the lines on the map that are straight without any curves probably aren’t the exact route i took, but rather the average from one point to another further away when the gps location was saved].

i just got back to florida this weekend.. if anyone wants to get together, drop me a line. i'll be around for quite a while.

i'm also looking for a small car to get around town. the truck and camper isn't exactly the easiest nor most efficient vehicle to drive locally. if you know of anyone who's been very meticulous about keeping their car maintained/repaired and very clean, and is looking to find a new home for it, let me know.

sometimes i want to do too much. can’t i do it all? do i need balance? like this whole adventure coming back these ideas have been bouncing around in my head about what i really want. my truck camper is great for going to the national forests, parks, etc. though it’s not exactly the most discreet vehicle for parking in a town or city. i’ve been thinking of some sort of white van, perhaps the sprinter, would be much easier for all other times. i could have one that has a short wheelbase and maybe even the short roof so it’d be more efficient on gas and i could park it practically anywhere. only thing i’d lose would be 4×4 capability. everything else i could design or build into the van. and maybe gas could possibly be a little harder to find as it’s diesel but that’s not really an issue in most places. so for everything else other than what i got the truck and camper for (the primary reason, i think, it’s been so long i can’t be quite sure), it’d be fine.

do i change my mind too often? i’d love to have both, but where would i put them and would that really be practical? a home would be much more practical but where do i want to build it? in the forest with lots of land would be great, though i’d love something on the beach too! [side note: title this indecisions..] so do i sell the truck and camper and build a home? but even if i decide what factors are most important, where do i want to live? i love so many different places. the mountains, the beach, the forest, small towns, etc. i really want to start a community too. though do i need land to start with or can i just build a community around a group of friends? and go from there?

when i really come down to it, the most important thing underneath it all seems to be connection. i desire to feel connection to others, to nature, to god. what kind of connection do i desire the most? good question. a blank answer for now. all of it would be desirable. probably connection to god is most important, though everything really is connection and expression of god, so can i have that kind of connection in/through connection to someone else, to nature, to a community, etc, etc? what about the things i like to do? do they really matter? they’re fun at times, though sometimes get boring. i can make really beautiful, inspiring, or intriguing art, though where does it all go? what does it really matter? what am i to do with it?

i could live so many different lives and lifestyles. i could create whatever i want. but i don’t know what to create. i know i do want to see this world evolve and see humanity awaken. i know it’s happening. technologically, i’m seeing lots of small yet radical developments occurring that will lead to really amazing technology in the next 5, 10, 20 years. i can’t wait til cars fly, that’s gonna be fun! and until everything is much more convenient. like only having to carry one device that does everything devices currently do now plus so much more, including serving as a key, payment (if money or credit still exists in the future), etc, etc. perhaps the device won’t even be necessary. everything can be instantaneously available everywhere [just like consciousness but in the physical world — perhaps the devices everywhere will just know who you are wherever you are and there would be no need to login, carry a device/key, etc. everything will be stored in some mass computing cloud and every device will be linked to it, and devices would be placed everywhere. like say at a library, you go in to a computer and the computer automatically resets itself and sees/knows who you are and then brings up whatever you need. there’d be no need for personal computers at home, though you could have one – it’d be the same as the devices found in the library and all – they’d all simply be interfaces to the great computing cloud/machine that has everything stored and always available.] long side note there. but let’s continue on with it. technology is gonna be amazing. once we let go of all of our differences and are able to handle basic needs for everyone on a mass scale, without all this ego/competition/money stuff that’s going on in the world/society, it’s gonna accelerate so much quicker. everything could be made for the greater good without need to slowly release products to maximize dollar income for a company. everyone could collaborate on everything if they feel suited for such collaboration. with no need to hide and keep things secret from each other, we could work together so much more easily. there really would be no limits. imagine the technology we have today — what if we had this technology 20, 30, or 50 years ago. all these ideas could easily be tested and produced if we all worked together. things we don’t even know about now could be discovered tomorrow. or more like things we can’t even imagine now, we’ll be easily creating these ideas and technologies in no time. as soon as the idea comes and it’s flowing, everyone interested in and capable of helping would begin to create it and it’d be done in no time. we have so much today that’s just not being utilized properly. all we need to do is start working together and shift our energies [within and without].

okay, enough about technology. what was the other piece? oh, yes, the world awakening. i see it happening too. just little awarenesses and bits of change i see developing are all pointing toward the great shift that is occurring right now on earth. from people becoming more interested in sustainability, “being green”, and basically just caring about this planet, to people doing things for each other [without expectation of anything in return], to people becoming more aware in general to our great interdependency and connection. as more and more of us start to realize that we can all live as one, everything i mentioned about [and so much more] will begin to unfold and quite rapidly. it truly is a tipping point, but will become an overflowing point as we all go over the waterfall into a new life together. i’ve researched/learned/experienced/etc different techniques/approaches/understandings of this connection. one, the oneness university, who has a mission to awaken the world, through a phenomenon known as deeksha, has reported [a couple weeks back] that we now have over 1 million awakened beings on the planet. that is truly amazing as it was less than a year before the million that we crossed the critical threshold of 70,000 awakened people on the planet [earlier than expected or needed too]. this shift is happening very rapidly. when the mind no longer has control over humanity, earth is going to be so beautiful. there will be no more war, hatred, anger, or struggle. everything will flow effortlessly. not everything may be perfect as one might strive for, but everything will be perfect in a different sense, in that we will all see the perfection in everything as it is. and in doing so, we can truly [and easily] make a change.

so all these things. technology and a new peaceful world. they’re already happening. i’m here. i’m beginning to see the changes. i’ll continue to see the changes. what do i do now? do i need to participate in these changes or do i merely watch? if i participate, what do i do? where can my talents and strengths be best utilized? do i need to create new talents and strengths? it’s all a big dilemma i’m making out of it. perhaps i just simply live in the moment and allow things to flow effortlessly. by doing so, i’ll inspire others to do so. and maybe others will ask me about how to do so, and i can teach them or guide them to methods that can get them there. by allowing it all to flow, life will take me where it needs to. i know god is looking out for me. i’ve seen on countless occasions how divine grace has been taking me through life. whether i wanted it to or not. life has always taken me along with it. the journey is far from complete, and i know not where it might go [well, exactly, for i do have some general ideas]. i know i can decide and create the world i want to live in, though i’ve already created this one. and i like what i’m seeing. perhaps some of it could just go a little quicker :) though i do see it getting quicker!

i tend to always look for the end. the final solution/image/idea. the completion. but it never ends! but these things, when i discover them, always seem to be so great of an idea/experience/perception/etc that i think they’re gonna be the final thing. like i could end right there and be happy. but later on, after i’ve been in the same experience for a while, i tend to get bored with it. i begin looking for the next stop along the journey. and it appears. and i experience it. and i get bored again. and then i go on looking for the next thing, yet once again. it’s all this cycle it seems. it’s been like this for quite some time. years, decades, perhaps lifetimes! is this what life is all about? or just how i’ve chosen to experience it?

do i make an effort to change or just allow it to be? it’s been quite a journey, especially when i truly allow it to become one. it can be quite amazing. though i sometimes don’t allow myself to fully experience it, to try to not get sucked back in to it! perhaps a part of me is afraid of where it might all go. it could go anywhere! that’s the thing! it could truly go anywhere. anywhere i allow it to. so that’s why i’m letting the changes go slowly. but i might push down on the accelerator a little more. i know i can handle it. at least a little quicker. i could do so much. i know when i step into the feeling of the flow of life, i can allow it to take me along for the ride. i won’t resist it and it’ll happen so much more smoothly. it was always meant to be smooth, yet i don’t allow it to be! time to stop that. i’ve been to all 48 contiguous states with my truck and camper. time to decide what’s next. i can’t say i’m waiting for the next trip. yes there may be another trip or two or three or whatever, but i can’t sit around waiting for it. i’ve been working on all these things that i wanted to do and getting them out of the way. just so they’re not taking up space waiting for me to experience them as i said i was going to. i know i could simply change my mind and not experience them, or experience them just in my mind, but i’ve been actually doing them. most of them are done, but there are still a few things on the list. and the remaining ones were more of maybes than yes i gotta do them. so now’s a good time to start creating the life i desire. i’m starting to see it happen. little pieces seem to be aligning. and i know i’m gonna be there very soon. [and i’m enjoying the process more so too. at least i’m not resisting it if not overly embracing it fully!]

so it’s funny to watch these conversations with myself [or monologues if you prefer] unfold [funny i typed that as un fold but then went to change it to unfold.]. i always tend to be brought to where i really need to be. it’s all part of the divine plan to get me to where i’m going. i know god is looking out for me and on my side. [that’s a great perspective to have, by the way. these writings are all filled with lots of little tidbits, some so subtle no one will pick up on them consciously but subconsciously you’ll be getting the message you need. anyhow, back to the great perspective: how you choose to see god or the divine in your life makes a huge difference. just how you choose to see yourself, life, the world, etc. i cannot stress more than anything to choose a positive perspective over a negative one. just try it for a day, a week, a month, a year, etc and see what a world of a difference it makes in your life. my life has had dramatic changes since i started looking on the brighter side of things]

just took a quick step outside of the camper to take a short video clip of the environment around me as the sun has set [a short while back] and i noticed a hint of nice colors remaining in the clouds from it as it begins to get dark]. which brings me to exactly what i needed to explore now. i’ll be glad to get back home as i can call this trip done. and stop doing these video clips. i feel i have to as it’s part of the documentation of the journey as i have plans to make films from my adventures out west last year and now my adventure to the east. but this is all what’s been happening above. and this seems like this is the very answer to my desire to “speed it up” [in terms of life, my growth/experiences, etc]. all i have to do is stop holding onto the past. its that simple. i didn’t even know exactly what word was gonna come out after holding onto until i saw “the past” come through my fingers and onto the screen. by holding onto these old ideas [and, in effect, trying to control what’s happening], i’m recreating this old experience. perhaps it all was part of that desire/experience/creation to happen a certain way [it most certainly was as it did happen that way!] but i try to hang on to it, as the idea seems so good at the time and i really want to see it happen. but i get lost in the process. i get tired of waiting when hanging on to it. and start participating to try to make it go quicker. rather than relaxing into the moment and just allowing it to happen! if i get great photos and videos, awesome. if not, my perception still needs to be awesome. i’ve got to surrender attachment to outcome. just say it’s gonna happen, know it’s gonna happen, and let it happen. rather than try really hard and struggle to make it happen. that’s striving, not arriving. allow yourself to have the experience. don’t force it. it’s that simple. i know it’s that simple. i’ve experienced things flowing so effortlessly in the past. now i’m going back to past experiences again! but just as a means to illustrate this point. is this really for me or for someone else? we’re all one anyway, what does it matter? this whole thing is friggin’ hilarious to watch. so many levels going on at once. levels of what? of things going on in my mind that are creating and affecting this experience.. all these little things are getting in the way. despite my efforts, i know i’m breaking through to you. it’s not that hard is it. of course. sometimes it’s so simple. it could be like that all the time. i’m just beginning to write whatever flows through me. and it doesn’t always make sense. i try to stop and watch it unfold and think about if it sounds like i’m crazy before i write it or say it. no it doesn’t matter if you’re crazy or not. this whole thing is crazy, once you truly understand it. so are the crazy ones that ones who are truly alive? and the “normal ones” not really living? some might say that. okay, so where does it all begin and end. in the moment? yup sure think of it like that. it’s really more than words can understand isn’t it? okay, stop trying to control this conversation and demonstrate your brilliance otherwise it’s not gonna happen as brilliantly. you’ve just got to allow it to happen. all the time. all you got to do is connect with the flow. and then the flow will go with you. [if that makes any sense] it’s all so simple. just allow life to flow. if things in your life aren’t flowing, remove them or change them until things begin to flow. it’s more about letting go isn’t it? okay no answer, i must have stopped the flow. i know i did a while ago. it’s really a matter of shifting perspective. sometimes i can’t type quick enough. actually probably most of the time. i really ought to record these outloud. i’ll start doing that sometime. i’ve seen myself as doing this a while back. i thought it was a little crazy. i even did some test runs. not everyone go them i’m sure. i don’t know if really anyone watched them except i heard of someone watching it and not really seeing it the same way i saw it. anyhow, lets stop all this thinking stuff and just allow life to flow. allow yourself to flow, from a higher state of awareness/consciousness, outside of your mind. i see little spurts of it every so often. i know these “waves” are going to become more and more frequent [funny as i saw the word become, almost becoming, come out on the screen when i thought of writing be come or something, i forget now. am getting lost in other thoughts. i gotta get the conversation with marla online. there was some cool stuff in that. the best part happened before i knew i was being recorded. then i was watching it. i talk about it in there. but it’s still good. it’s about getting these messages out to others. we can all break free, together, at some level, from whatever level we’re at. we can always ascend to a higher level. we’re doing it all the time. we can speed up that process. that’s what we’re here for. that’s why i showed up here. to help and to watch. to experience and to live in the moment. to be the moment. the moment is amazing. life is the moment. all in the moment, never in the mind. that’s a good little phrase. maybe i’ll post it somewhere.]

now: 20:45:18. began writing this at 19:47:44. it’s getting dark now. hopefully a little cooler so i can get to sleep. just gotta let go. let it all be. it’s all amazing in the momentÂ…

 

a new intention: to experience every moment as greatly as those great moments i’ve longed for

now is the time for things that have been rare to become normal, and things that are normal to become rare.

things so many see as normal like violence, hatred, separation, war, struggle, greed, and judgment will begin to diminish and soon be completely eliminated from this world.

things like peace, acceptance, connection, unconditional love, harmony, and miracles will soon become everyday experiences for everyone.

this is a map of my journey this summer to chicago and the rest of the 48 contiguous states i hadn’t yet been to in my truck and camper.

the trip from chicago to maine and back to florida wasn’t quite as epic as my journey last fall. this one was 4680.4 miles in just under 3 weeks. getting from florida to chicago was only 1373.6 miles in 5 days, though i stayed in chicagoland much longer than originally intended. the whole round trip including time and driving around chicagoland was 6563.5 miles in 9 weeks. i took my truck and camper across the border to canada for the first time to go to roosevelt campobello international park. i ended up sleeping in a parking lot near the lighthouse at the northern tip of the island as someone i met up there (who was towing a camper) told me the locals said it was fine and there were no signs indicating against it. i had met someone else in the park at the southern tip of the island who told me about that lighthouse location which i didn’t know about before. perhaps i’ll take a trip to all the provinces of canada and alaska in the upcoming years..

 

so why even write all these things? in a brief moment, a few moments ago, it came to me that i was once inspired by coming across some odd thoughts or perspectives. this seems to be my attempt to re-create that experience. though not just for myself, for others. i’d be curious to come across these seemingly random writings and try to make some sense of them. so i figure someone else out there would probably be curious and interested as well. if not, that’s fine too. perhaps i’m the only one that will ever read all of these. if i ever do. but it’ll be a work of art at some level. i suppose. if that’s what you want to call it. again, let’s not think too much about it. let’s just allow it to happen. re-create the experience of allowing like to flow so vibrantly. there’s nothing to fear. you’ve been at some pretty high states of consciousness. let’s live from those places. everything will be totally fine. if not everyone gets it, then not everyone gets it. but there’s nothing wrong with it. everything will unfold perfectly. don’t try to strive for perfection as you’ve done for much of your life. just allow it. you know that’s when it’s all been good. when you’ve allowed it to just happen, it unfolded brilliantly. don’t ya think i’m guiding ya here? you know you’ve been divinely guided and there’s nothing wrong with it. the divine always has your best interest at hand.

but how do i really know what the divine wants for me? simple. just live your life. you’ll find out. sorry if it sounds blunt but it’s really that simple. life is really easy if you just allow it to happen. the only one making it difficult is you. when you decide to step out of your own way, it’ll be perfect and brilliant and all again. and yes it can stay that way permanently. what do you think this era is all about? why do you think you chose to experience this? i know, i know, i know. ya don’t have to keep telling me. i just want it to happen now. it is happening now! when else do you think it could possibly happen? i mean i want it to happen but i don’t want it to happen all at the same time. well then that’s why it’s happening and not happening like that for you. i get it, i know i’m making this all up.. but what do i do? just decide, if that’s what you’re asking. just decide and it will happen the way you decide. i know i can do that but i don’t know what to decide because i have conflicting thoughts. then work out the conflict. or just decide not to have conflicting thoughts. simple. easy. just think simple and easy and it will happen like that. but there’s so much i want to do. well then do it. but i don’t know if i really want it. then figure it out. or just allow life to happen. it’s easier like that. allow life to flow. i keep saying it. i know ya do. i know but i think you don’t want what i want. of course i want what you want. we’re the same being. just different parts and perspectives of the one. okay, how do we make the perspective whole and simple. ahh, you just don’t get it. get what? get that there’s nothing to get. in the sense of understand. the moment you try to understand, the moment is lost. when you stop trying to understand, you understand. sounds like this sort of zen saying that sounds neat and all but its hard to understand. then you’re not allowing it to happen. just be. be.

i recall there being three things i shouldn’t have done here (per the instructions for the rieco titan standard tripod camper jacks): the rear of the camper shouldn’t have been raised higher than the front, the mounting brackets should’ve been screwed or bolted into the camper, and i think the camper shouldn’t have been removed on a slope. i didn’t want to drill holes into the camper for the mounting brackets and i didn’t really have a choice about keeping [...]