2019 August

besides being more fun to drive and much nicer to be able to charge at home (and never go to a gas station), electric cars are so much better on maintenance. i just did both the 2 and 3 year ‘maintenance’ on my car, which was really just a multi-point inspection (that was free at the dealer). it only cost me $21.35 to rotate the tires. unless something doesn’t pass inspection (which will pretty much just be whenever the tires wear down, as brakes are used much less in an EV and most of the mechanical systems don’t exist), the only other recommended service isn’t until 100,000 miles or 10 years (to flush/replace the electronics/battery thermal cooling system). along with inexpensive insurance and an electric cost here of about 2.5 cents per mile for my car, its definitely better than an internal combustion engine vehicle.

you may cry watching this, though it’s beautiful to see how faith can be found and kept, even through tragedy: www.youtube.com/watch?v=zLf9Hoz2ab4

on a personal note, it’s interesting to see how i’ve run into a couple similar underlying messages recently. one thing said in this video (or in another video that her sister shared) was related to knowing how everything is in perfect divine order and not to be mad at (or judge) God for what has happened, and to be grateful for the time and experience we were blessed with. almost three weeks ago i ran into someone who shared messages from the bible but they were from a viewpoint of awakening (which i had not typically seen or heard), and one thing he shared was a similar message about not judging this world or our experiences here. it’s been interesting to see these messages as one of my recent challenges has been seeing so much judgment, criticism, complaining, etc from my close family and i think experiencing this (or not wanting to be around this) caused the health issues i had the last couple years. another interesting aspect of these experiences is that i was forced to go to church and Catholic school when i grew up, and i think shortly after graduating i stopped going to church and lost interest in religion (which partly may have been related more to my own childhood hurts rather than religion itself). around a decade later i began to find interest in spirituality through other forms. and along the way to that point i was exploring other viewpoints and perspectives without even knowing it or being deliberately on a spiritual path. since abandoning religion i hadn’t really looked at or been interested in anything at all related to it (and subtly resisted it and saw aspects of religion, such as indoctrination, as getting in the way of being able to directly experience and know God). a few weeks ago my best friend from high school’s father passed away, and while sad, it was beautiful to see the love and faith that his family had. i think i’m beginning to let go of judgment of religion and allow it to be as it is. many of us may have turned away from religion or other things in our past that did not serve us at the time, though if these aspects of life help others find love, peace, faith, hope, understanding, or learn or grow in some way, there is value in them. and from a higher viewpoint, everything is already in perfect divine order, even the parts of life we don’t like or understand. perhaps by simply accepting these aspects of life that we don’t like (or resist) we can grow, transform, and awaken. from perspectives such as oneness or enlightenment, all things are connected and are a manifestation of the one consciousness or being that we all are.. and if we aren’t fully accepting or loving a part of ourself, we cannot truly be whole.


here’s a peek [funny at first this was spelled peak, which could also apply] of some messages that were coming to me this morning.. i’ll be using some/most of these (and others) as descriptions for instagram posts when i create some photographs in the near future..

the trick to awakening is to see the divine perfection radiating through all the chaos of the world.

when one stops striving for perfection, one will be able to find the perfection in what already is.

we can become more whole (and remember who we truly are) by simply accepting and loving more perspectives and aspects of life that we don’t understand (or resist)

sometimes it helps to step outside of any given viewpoint (or yourself) and laugh at how absurd it really it is

honor and respect all ways of life.

learn to see what exists between where you are and what you’re looking at.

the empty space is not empty.

it seems there are two approaches to the current game of life:

work hard, struggle, do all you can to achieve and try to be successful.. and ultimately fail in the end, still feeling like you need to continuously keep on striving for more to be happy.

or simply surrender, let go, awaken, realize this is all an illusion and none of what you were struggling with or wanting really matters or brings you any significance or true fulfillment.. and upon doing so find a deep sense of peace, love, and appreciation for all of life (from where you can begin to really live).

[some speak of the easy way or the hard way.. the hard way can eventually lead to the easy upon reaching your breaking point, or you can just let go of what society is telling you and start with the easy way]

heal. the most important thing you can do in life is heal your unconscious, emotional, conditioning. after that, all falls into place. the divine is always ready, as soon as you are.

love is always here, simply waiting for you to open your eyes to it.

surrender doing. start being.

stop doing. begin being.

the tools, how to, and techniques matter not. what does matter is the message. when you learn to be still and hear inspiration, everything you need will unfold in perfect order.

remember: the message that comes through is what is important, not who it comes through.

if you find yourself not knowing what to do next in life, ask yourself, what can i do to be more humble or kind?

honor all paths, and let go of your identification with any particular group or mindset. while nice to gather with others and meet with new people whom have a common viewpoint, it’s very easy to identify with the group-thinking, which can overpower your ability to hear clear inspiration directly from the divine.

the biggest hurdle to growth is seeing what’s wrong with any given situation rather than seeing what’s unenlightened about your viewpoint of the situation.

listen closely. the inspiration is always there.

when waking up in the morning, spend as much time as possible in silence, without listening to, reading, or watching anything in the physical world. by doing so you’ll increase your ability to hear the divine speaking to you through inspiration. combining extended periods of silence with time spent alone in nature can be very powerful and healing.

what i’ve been sharing (or describing) for decades in my work is simply another form of meditation.

do what makes you feel alive. but also realize that you can feel alive in any given moment by simply being.

one reason to spend as much time in silence as possible is to be able to hear the divine inspiration within (by stepping away from the distractions of the external world). another reason is to avoid tuning into any lower vibrations, as many (if not most) people live in a state of fear. while not absolutely necessary, listening to, reading, or watching positive influences can be helpful if you are certain that you know the external message is one of a higher vibration.

my work has often depicted the beauty of nature, and wide open landscapes without people. over time these images expanded to wider and wider perspectives, and various depictions of seeing in all directions, such as in the 360 degree ‘little planet’ images. in these i’ve created ways to hide the tripod or myself from appearing so its still an image about experiencing the natural world (and not about me). in the self-obsessed ‘self-ie’ world, it’s fun and interesting to think of these little world images as the ‘selfless-ie’. also interesting is that i only discovered the little planet look/technique after going through a process of surrendering and getting on a spiritual path.

simply relax and be still. you don’t need to struggle to follow any particular meditation or spiritual process. just spend time in silence or in nature, and you will naturally begin to feel and heal.

when sharing something with another, ask to remain humble in doing so. while at times it can be helpful to share a story or personal experience as a means to relate or connect with another, pause for a moment to see if this sharing is coming from one’s own need for attention or from an inspired place that will help the other.

likewise, it can be exciting to share what one is learning during one’s process of awakening, transformation, and growth, though pause to listen if what you’re sharing is really what the other needs to hear. sometimes all the other needs is merely to be heard or loved, and giving advice or teaching will not help (and may push the other away).

love knows no boundaries

remember, the ego is loud, while the presence of the divine is an infinite silence that resonates much more powerfully.

we’re all here for different reasons. not everyone’s path will look like yours. and there’s nothing inherently wrong with anyone else’s particular path.

when sharing with others what you’ve learned on your spiritual journey, it can be much more effective to use universal language and say things in your own words, rather than try to repeat what another has said (as certain lingo may not be understood by the other or may create a sense of group identity within you, either of which may create further separation).

perhaps the express lane on the spiritual journey: stop identifying with any thoughts, teachings, or beliefs that come from another or from any group. let go of these, embrace silence, and listen to the inspiration coming directly from the divine in your heart.

so much has been said about the impact of social media upon people in modern society. there’s so much information online and many people trying to be the expert in any given field to earn a living (or sometimes just to cause trouble).

perhaps, rather than using social media to post ‘comments’, ‘news’, or ‘how-to’ information, we can all begin to use it simply as a means to share our own personal feelings, journey, and stories in a way that is heart-felt, authentic, and real.

we don’t need any more people telling us what to do, how to do it, or what they think about what others are doing. all of that sort of thing keeps us trapped in the mind (and causes further chaos and separation). any ‘information’ shared should be inspired (and kept simple).

share what you feel, who you are, what is real to you, your essence as a human being.

content like this will help others feel more connected as humans compared to technical or opinionated content from the mind. opening one’s heart also encourages others to open their hearts. and all the world really needs for great transformation is for enough us to open our hearts and heal past wounds.

what matters is not what you think, but what you feel.

for the next couple weeks i’m taking a break to ‘just be’ as much as possible. i’ve told clients i’m unavailable except for emergencies and have cleared any repeating events off my calendar. i’m grateful to have a quiet home to myself these next couple weeks too, as it’s been over two years since i moved out of my condo and have had my own quiet + sacred space. (i technically did have my own very tiny space when i had my van but the whole need to find a place to park it every night took away from it really being a quiet + sacred space where i could simply be and live undisturbed for as long as i desired) in these next two weeks i’m also taking a break from going on ambitious long local drives like i was doing a lot recently. i had thought of working on making some videos from a trip a few years ago but may not work on those at all unless i feel called to after taking time to be present and honor myself. my intent is to step out of so much of the mental activity of the physical world and have a bit of a quiet retreat in a sense.

i encourage everyone to do the same to as much of a degree as possible in their world. there is so much mental conditioning in modern society of what one is supposed to do and so many things that get in the way from simply just being present. all this conditioning and all these distractions keep one in the mind or stressed or in some state other than truly free. this world is what we make of it, and to truly live it we need to find that still space within and live from that place. yes, one could have a regular weekly or daily meditation, though this is still something that tends to get scheduled into an already jam-packed schedule. sometimes going on a retreat to a quiet + still space in the external physical world for an extended period of time is what one truly needs. from this place of letting go of attachment to all the things one is supposed to do, all the places one is supposed to go to, all the things one is worrying about, all the goals or things one is trying to accomplish, etc, one will find a deeper awareness, a deeper purpose, and a deeper connection to the infinite. in this awakening, and one will realize that everything is already in perfect divine order as it is and there’s no need to struggle or resist anything. with deeper awareness one will realize how everything is connected to everything else. and with this greater clarity one will have new insights on life and one’s true purpose. and if one feels compelled to go back to do everything one was previously doing, one can do so but from a more relaxed place (and even if one continues to fill one’s day with much activity and ‘doing’). though one may discover that so much of the doing was simply a resistance to being in the here and now and experiencing the presence. society is filled with so many things it is trying to sell one on needing in order to live. all these distractions are really designed to take one away from living in the present moment (where everything one needs unfolds in perfect divine order) and fill one with fear that one might not have what they need if they don’t buy what is being sold or might miss out on what others are experiencing if they don’t follow what others are doing. i recall noticing this sort of thing a couple decades ago, where the mass media consumeristic society was conditioning people with these sort of mental constructs, programs, and limiting belief systems (perhaps i couldn’t quite put all the words on it back then but i could see how so many people were living their lives like that). this programming (really brainwashing) can easily become so engrained into one’s everyday experience (it actually becomes so subtle and subsconscious that most people are unaware it even exists). taking a break from everything one is doing in the external world to have another perspective on life or to simply relax may be one of the greatest things one can do for one’s own sanity, let alone spiritual growth.

another thing i would highly recommend would be to go explore places in the world that are quiet and as free from the norms of modern society as possible. in particular, going for a walk in nature can be quiet beneficial. this is something one can do daily. even if one lives in a city, there’ll be some place not too far away where one can step away from the distractions and noise. another thing one could do to help would be to minimize one’s physical belongings. minimalism will help eliminate the distractions and clutter both in one’s home and in one’s mental space. another thing that will help will be to take a break from one’s digital life. it seems that so quickly social media and smartphone usage have become a huge addiction for so many, and that people are not able to live without staring at a tiny screen every few minutes, let alone leave the house without their phone.

this is getting longer than i thought when i started typing and i’m a bit tired. i will get to sleep and enjoy waking up in a quiet space. that alone is one thing one can do to be more present.. embrace going to sleep and waking up in a quiet setting. do not use your phone or other technology for a short while before going to sleep and do not use it for a while after you wake up. do not set an alarm and wake up naturally. when you wake up, do as you feel. if you feel like laying in bed for a while, do so. if you feel inspired to meditate or go for a walk or write in a journal, do that. simply be present with your surroundings and with yourself. all of these suggestions are to help one be more present with oneself.

i will write more as i feel called to, though i encourage you not to read, watch, or listen to anything outside of yourself during this process of unplugging from your typical daily routine and reality. all of the deepest answers and insights exist within oneself. the distractions are designed for you to forget this and to forget who you truly are. when you deliberately step away from all of the distractions, addictions, external messages, etc, you can look within and discover the true brilliance that shines there. this is the place to listen to and live from. until you discover this inner source you cannot know how to truly live nor the magnificence of this experience we call life.

sometimes one fills one’s life (knowingly or unknowingly) with so many things to do as a form of resistance to facing what one is really feeling. if you were resisting anything you may need to feel whatever hurts you didn’t want to feel, though once you move through these you soon discover the bliss and peace and lightness of letting go of these burdens you may have been carrying. this healing process can be quite transformative, especially if you’ve carried these emotions (or conditioning) for years or most of your life. if you do enough of this inner work in your own consciousness, you’ll discover that you can easily re-write the story of your life and do things you may have never imagined possible. you may also realize that the things you thought you wanted to do really no longer matter and you can simply live in peace regardless of what happens in your life. you may discover there is far more to gain from this process of letting go than there is from getting or doing anything else in life. from this place of letting go and unburdening oneself, a great sense of freedom will arise and one will be able to see the true beauty and brilliance of life. ordinary moments will become extraordinary, and beauty will be found in the simplest of things.