[i woke up early this morning and was unable to get back to sleep, likely processing and feeling whatever was arising (and resisting not being able to fall back asleep).. as daylight would be breaking soon, i got out of bed, and attempted to write and explore some of the insights that had come to me earlier in the morning.. some inspired by the beautiful one tribe potluck/gathering/satsang last night (and some more random). thank you everyone for being there and for the experience/conversation!]

there is often the desire to capture our experiences. however, the most profound experiences are ones that we surrender to.

rather than chase the desire to capture the experience, learn to surrender to the experience.

the most beautiful moments cannot be described with words nor captured with images or sound. only in the experience of feeling life and being fully present to the moment can we truly live.

none of this really matters, yet it all matters. we chose it at some level when we created this game of life. embrace it all, without attachment.

we gain more by letting go rather than by acquiring. whether this be knowledge, experiences, physical possessions, or anything else in the physical or mental world, learn to surrender the need to have any of it. by letting go of this attachment, we can live more fully in the present moment and experience all the beauty that surrounds us at all times regardless of the circumstances.

each day look at some aspect of yourself that you no longer need and let it go. by dissolving the layers of the self, we grow closer to who we truly are. rather than identify with this body/mind image, we discover more deeply who we really are.

everything in this world and beyond is created, and nothing that is created is real nor who we really are.

who we are is beyond anything that exists at any level in the physical, mental, or spiritual worlds.

we are nothing yet we are everything simultaneously.

as long as we are here in this existence, let’s collectively choose to make it as beautiful as possible. while, from a higher level, none of it is real, we can choose to create a beautiful, loving, harmonious world.

remember to always choose love. while this may be difficult upon seeing things in the world that appear to be wrong, remember that by choosing this higher vibration of love, we can help elevate and transform anything that is not love. [and upon doing so, we may just discover that love was always there, even in the aspects of life where it appeared it was not]

while words may help point the way, they are never a substitute for direct knowing and experience.

god, the universe, self-realization, enlightenment, oneness, unconditional love, and any higher truth one may seek can only be known through the direct experience thereof. while many others may write, speak, or share their perspectives and experiences of truth, any viewpoint outside of the actual direct knowledge can merely point the way.

remember, that most often, the things and experiences we seek in the world are merely distractions to what actually matters.

remember that your story does not matter. while it may be fun, entertaining, or even inspirational to create and experience your character in life through a certain way, remember not to get too lost in the story, for doing so can lead you astray from whom you truly are as the creator of the story. [this is what all the messages about letting go are really about.. remember to peel back the layers of the onion and let go of the masks you may still be wearing. while these identities may serve you in certain moments, wearing them too long will become a hinderance.]

learn to remove the filters you have that may be blocking your light.

like in poetry, writing, or any other verbal expression, words can only ever be metaphors of truth.

even if others do not understand or are nowhere close to understanding, continue to share nuggets of truth. one day, even if after hearing the same truth many times, the other will understand what it was all about.

the greatest experience is realization.

life can be heaven or hell. it’s up to you.

do not seek to emulate others. while it may be inspirational to see what others have done (or you may be able to gain some insights or little aspects related to your own journey), remember to follow your own heart. this is your awakening.

while the destination may be the same for all of us, each of our own individual journeys is unique.

sometimes one may choose to awaken then fall back asleep only to awaken and then fall back asleep again in a different manner. while, according to some, this seems to be how this experience occurs lifetime after lifetime, one might choose to do this over and over within a single lifetime simply for the experience of doing so (and to better understand what others may be going through, and to be able to suggest multiple paths to others).

as humanity continues to collectively awaken and our hearts flower, we will see a new world unfold that is very different than the one in which we currently live. our reality will shift to one that is full of peace, love, and harmony. as we realize that all conflict originates in the mind and we become free from the mind, we will no longer feel the urge to live from any lower vibrations of consciousness. anything that was previously arising in the lower self, the ego/mind, will no longer serve us and control us. we’ll be free of any inner conflict, discovering a deep inner peace, and will begin to live from that place. our inner peace will radiate outward to the world and reflect back to us as a beautiful, loving, harmonious place.

with our freedom from the mind, our level of consciousness will increase and we will become more aware of what is occurring in both the inner and outer world.  we will be able to clearly see what is happening, and realize that when something arises all we need to do is fully experience it and it will dissolve, freeing us from the suffering that occurs with resisting it and preventing it from being projected onto the outer world.  the more of us that do this inner work, the quicker we’ll reach a point where the lower frequencies of consciousness no longer arise in the collective consciousness of humanity.  as we become liberated from these feelings, emotions, thoughts, and charges that no longer serve us, we naturally are able to see reality as it is and can experience it in its full beauty, realizing that everything is perfect as it is.

being free from the mind, we will see the dissolution of many aspects of society that have existed solely due to the power and control games of the ego and its fear-based reality.  all conflict, war, greed, and need to control others, oneself, or the world will disappear.  we will no longer need any military forces, police, government, or controlling authorities of any kind as humanity will naturally be kind and loving towards each other. if any emotions or conflicting thoughts were to arise, we’d naturally be able to experience them and release them internally, or share from a loving place with each other through conscious communication and help each other feel and fully experience whatever is there rather than fighting, condemning, judging, criticizing, or resisting each other or any feelings. any emotions or charges will naturally pass through very quickly. no longer will one be able to hold a grudge or let something affect one’s life for days, weeks, months, years.

we will see drastic shifts in how the socio-economic systems of today operate. resources that have been controlled by the few will become available to the many. no longer will anyone feel the need to control or hold onto more than they need. the greed or fear of not having enough will simply no longer exist. those who have excess will realize what they’ve been holding onto unnecessarily and will begin to give away and share what they are no longer feeling they need to control. any games the mind plays of control, manipulation, or domination of others in any way will no longer exist. when free of the ego/mind, one will realize that trying to control something outside of oneself is not going to make one feel any better or take away any pain or fear one may be resisting. one will be able to face and fully experience and release any pains, fears, or thoughts that were being resisted and will no longer feel the urge nor desire to harm another in any way.

with the dissolution of the collective ego, we will see drastic changes in money, barter, and other forms of trade. all corruption that had existed in socio-economic systems, politics, governments, the financial world, etc will completely dissolve and cease to exist. over time, money and the whole idea of profit will completely dissolve as neither will be needed any longer. everyone will simply do what they feel called to and all of our needs and desires will be met from the universe, or a higher source, (and in alignment with the benefit of all of humanity) rather than relying on previous systems of needing to work, buy, or trade. one will feel fulfilled as one’s needs are met and as one has the opportunity to selflessly serve and help others.

technology will continue to improve but it will arise from a place of cooperation and love for what one can do to serve humanity, rather than from a place competition and wanting to out-do the other or be the first or only to make something. new technological innovations will be inspired, from the divine creative source, to help humanity in one way or another, whether it be to make life simpler or better for others, or to inspire others and celebrate the beauty of our human experience and the experience of earth. with all the great shifts we’ll see, people won’t ever feel they are forced to do anything they don’t want to do simply to survive. we will live from an inspired place of doing what we love or feel called to, rather than from a place of struggle, resistance, and just trying to survive or make ends meet. if anyone is ever hurting in any way and unable to work through whatever one is facing, others (or the divine source) would naturally appear to help and one would never have to suffer unnecessarily. there will never be any judgmentalism, criticism, or punishment over what one might be facing. others would simply see what is occurring and allow the loving presence to shine through to help uplift and heal whomever may need it.

as the ego dissolves and the consciousness of humanity increases, our sense of connection to each other will increase and we’ll begin to experience our oneness with each other. everywhere we go, we’ll simply be meeting other parts of ourself. even if its the first time meeting a physical being, we’ll feel a deep sense of already knowing them. we’ll naturally be in tune with each other and feel what the other is feeling. we’ll reach a point where physical communication through actual speaking or by means of technology is no longer necessary, as we’ll be able to communicate telepathically. we still may choose to use some form of physical or technological communication for fun, though it won’t be necessary. when someone is in need of help, another will be able to feel it immediately and provide assistance. this may begin by one feeling inspired or called to go somewhere and not knowing why, and then discovering that one was divinely inspired by the need or call of another. although it may seem like a need, there will never truly be any need or lack, as the divine will provide abundance to all and there will be more resources than humanity and earth need.

these changes arising out of our collective awakening will lead to the end of poverty, homelessness, starvation, disease, and any other kind of physical or mental suffering that has existed on earth. as we sense our connection to one another, we’ll naturally want to help each other and create a reality where everyone is taken care of. the conflicted mind/ego will no longer need to be controlling resources nor indoctrinating others to continuously chase after more, bigger, better, faster, etc. one will know what one needs and live from a place of inspiration of what to do in one’s life, rather than from forces of manipulation, consumerism, control from the media, etc that had previously existed. religion that has exhibited control, power, or authority over the people will either transform or cease to exist. humanity will become god-realized and be in tune with the divine source within, and be guided from that place, rather than relying on external sources that may not be fully accurate or are coming from a place of serving their own agenda. as more and more of us live from a place of inspiration, the world will transform and evolve very quickly. we’ll naturally sense our connection to everyone and everything, including the planet itself, and all of our actions will be ones that are aligned with the health of mother earth.

we’ll see great changes in systems of education that have been focused on programming the mind and people to think, act, and conform to certain ways. there still will be education available for certain aspects of the mind for those who want to study science, technology, etc, though nothing will be forced, and there will be emphasis on much more heart-based education where, from an early age, one will learn how to flow effortlessly with life, others, and the divine. education itself will become something that arises out of inspiration rather than a very rigid, scheduled, and controlled system. if one becomes interested in a certain area, whomever is teaching will naturally be there to guide the child or student to explore that area at the time of inspiration, rather than put it off until later because its not part of a previously determined systematic approach. everything will flow naturally and effortless as the divine and universe inspire and provide. humanity will start to see more mystical, magical, and miraculous experiences on a regular basis. we’ll regularly be opening ourselves up to more of what is truly possible in this beautiful reality.

living in a world where continuous economic growth is no longer a priority, and one where new technological innovations can perform most of the tasks that previously required a person, we’ll discover that most of us will no longer be required to work and we will be free to live life as we feel inspired to do so. at the same time, everything we could possibly need will be provided for as resources will no longer be controlled by aspects of the ego/mind that no longer exist. being free from having to struggle just to survive or exist on the physical plane, humanity will have much more energy available to connect with the divine creative source, and naturally flow with life and serve others and the divine. some of us will feel called to explore and develop new technologies. some of us will be inspired to meditate or deepen our spiritual connection with the divine and each other. some of us will play, create art, music, write, or other things to celebrate life and inspire others. regardless what each of us do (or don’t do) in the physical world, it will all flow perfectly, as we all will do what we love or what resonates with us the most (even if that changes often), and it will be divinely aligned with humanity and the world. we will all shine our divine light and experience the presence in each other and wherever we go. with open hearts, the world will look and feel very different than it did in the past when so many of us were closed off from each other. we will all be healed on all levels, and be free to flow through life. those of us that still do what one might think of as regular tasks, such as to oversee the technology or perform tasks that technology cannot yet perform for us, will naturally do so out of a place of selfless service for the collective benefit of humanity, and will enjoy doing so. anything that must be done will be done by those called to do so, and the ways of doing it will easily be passed on from those currently doing so or directly from the divine, without excessive complexity that previously had been found in many systems or ways of doing things. one choosing to perform any task or interested in a new activity will do so from a place of inspiration directly from the divine or higher self, and won’t need to rely upon external sources dictating or demanding what to do (though at times, one may feel inspired to ask someone else for help, and the other will naturally be able to be of service).

many changes will be seen in the various forms of entertainment that humanity partakes upon. free from inner conflict and no longer feeling the urge for any kind of competition to make one feel better by putting another down or making another lose, we’ll see the dissolution of various aspects of sports, fashion, consumerism, etc. sports will be played merely for the fun of the game and there won’t be complex systems in place to determine one big winner upon regular intervals as there have been in the past, and there never will be any shaming or putting another down or thinking one athlete or team is superior to another simply for having performed better in any game. any kind of game or performance will be seen as a playful expression of the divine, and not indicative of any particular human(s) being better or worse than others. fashion, in clothing, luxury products, jewelry, cars, technology, and any other form, will no longer be in place for one to make oneself look better than another (nor to think one is better because one has something that is newer, more expensive, etc, etc), but rather it will exist as a celebration of the humanity and for one to be able to have more diverse experiences and feelings simply as an exploration (such as using colors, elements, crystals, or stones that have different healing or spiritual properties). we’ll no longer see any kind of violence in the media or any form of entertainment, as no one will have any interest nor desire in seeing any one of us harmed in reality or entertainment, and no harming will occur. what humanity will be interested in and experience will be entertainment and celebrations that are uplifting. if anyone ever does feel down or stuck, it will be honored and one will be encompassed in love and will heal quickly. everyone will learn and know how to handle whatever might show up. one will no longer need to turn to or rely upon external substances such as alcohol or tobacco or prescription drugs to make one feel better. the entire medical industry will transform and evolve into one of wellness and natural or divine healing, and the pharmaceutical industry will no longer be needed and will cease to exist. the news will no longer spread fear nor control others, and will shift to come from a place of sharing the good of humanity and celebrating life. eventually the news will no longer exist as something one needs to watch regularly as humanity will be completely engulfed in living in the present moment that one doesn’t need any external source to tell what is happening in the world. advertisements and promotional messages of any kind will no longer exist as part of our daily experience. there will be a place or resource, such as on the internet, where one can discover new innovations and explore products or services one might be interested in, but the messages there will be simply technical and informative, and not coming from a place of persuasion, competition, nor of overly creating need or desire or fear or any other approach that does not help others. the resource will simply exist as a means to serve humanity. as no one will be living from the lower self and the fear, competition, greed, etc that can come from the ego/mind, any product, service, entertainment, or otherwise that is created will arise out of a place of love and selfless service, and not as one’s means to an end or other self-serving purpose. the news and celebrations of humanity, and media or notices of what else has happened or will be happening in the world, will also be found at a similar resource where one can go if one wants to explore or learn, and will arise from a place of neutrality and selfless service to humanity. most of what one needs to learn or know will arise out of intuition and divine calling, and any information needed will already be there or will be spontaneously created or provided as one needs it. in every moment, one will realize one’s connection to everything and clearly see how one is co-creating reality with the divine/universe. reality will be an amazing high yet grounding experience. the divine presence will be fully realized on earth, and humanity will shine more brilliantly than ever.

the air we breathe will be clean. the water we drink will be pure. and all of the food that is grown and produced will be natural, organic, and without genetic modification or any manipulation that adversely affects our health. overly processed foods will cease to exist as no one will desire them any longer. we’ll live in a world full of an abundant variety of healthy food. any technology needed to produce healthy and clean food, water, air, and any and all other conditions for our greatest health and the health of the planet will naturally unfold. unhealthy food addictions, and addictions of any other kind, will cease to exist. humanity will naturally feel called to eat what is best for the body, and we’ll all live in perfect health. any new technologies and developments of any kind will all be aligned with that of our collective health and wellbeing. patents, corporations, companies, and any and all other mechanisms or forms of control, power, or manipulation that do not serve the benefit of humanity as a whole will dissolve. humanity will work together as a collective for the benefit of all and will no longer need any such forms of control or regulation. everything will work more in the form of open-source, and as a community creating and sharing together. all of this will happen naturally and effortlessly, from the guidance and inspiration of the divine creative source, without need for excessive regulation or rules created by the mind. rules, regulations, laws, etc will cease to exist in all areas as humanity will no longer need any external moral compass nor control in order to thrive and exist in harmony with each other and all beings on earth, including earth itself. and as the power/control games of the ego/mind cease to exist, we’ll realize how many rules were really unnecessary. any differences any of us may have had with or against another will be completely dissolved and no longer arise. when creating or resolving anything, we’ll come from an open place of sharing perspectives, and will naturally understand and appreciate each other’s viewpoints, and we’ll be divinely guided as to which direction to take.

as newer technologies are developed, we will see high-tech advances that have never been done before, though we’ll also see an interest in low-tech solutions, as some of these may be simpler and more efficient, effective, or reliable than the high-tech options. as our collective goal will be that which serves humanity and the planet, rather than competing to make the best new gadget, we’ll be open to what actually works best and simplest for our intended purpose. further into the future, as our capabilities as divinely-realized human beings evolve more greatly, we’ll need less and less technology to achieve and experience than we previously did.

we will live in perfect harmony with nature, and we will see many more parks and green spaces throughout urban and suburban areas. many more large nature preserves, parks, and open land will be found in rural areas, and any new development will be carefully planned around preserving the natural environment. new cities will be much more in tune with nature, and will have more preserve and natural areas than developed areas, created with a very organic and natural feel, yet in a sustainable manner. local communities and technologies will become more self-sustainable without the need to run infrastructure long distances to non-renewable sources. with many previous systems and structures no longer serving the new humanity, old buildings will be re-purposed, transformed, or recycled into something new. we will see many more local community centers with regular events and gatherings, both spontaneous and planned, throughout new and old cities and towns. more people will become interested in gathering regularly for a greater purpose, to selflessly serve the community and earth, such as by planting a garden or trees for food or natural restoration, or by working together to build homes for new community members, or by coming together to meditate, celebrate life, or raise the vibration and consciousness of the local and global community in some other way.

as awakened, transformed, and evolved human beings on earth, we’ll experience more joy, happiness, peace, and love on a daily basis, and it will be without cause and without the need of any external circumstance to produce it. we’ll simply be living naturally from a place of unconditional love that will arise from the divine in our heart. we’ll experience, feel, and live from a place of gratitude, grace, and connection, and feel deeply fulfilled regardless of what we do or don’t do in the physical, mental, or virtual world. while we’re able to live from a place without desires and without resistance, we’ll still be inspired to play, create, experience, and explore the beautiful world around us. everywhere we turn, we’ll see the unconditional divine love within us manifesting as a magnificent world around us, filled with beautiful experiences and radiating love.

in essence, humanity will transform to become a celebration of love and life itself.

wow, it feels like i created this whole reality. i mean the whole thing, with the planets and stars and everything. it feels like the sort of thing i would create. [perhaps i created it in order to have a playground to experience this thing called life, which was also created.]

it also feels like i created this within a dream, another level deeper than in this waking reality.. like i woke up inside a dream where i was dreaming and realized this. and i was watching myself think and type this [while trying to avoid the distractions that were there, and now i just stepped out of that, knowing that was not real, and woke up into this waking state as i realized i wasn’t typing it in a place that was real or that would be preserved in this illusion of truth].

[2017.11.14 2:52am]

[i haven’t written in a while or had this sort of insight/inspiration in quite a while. it feels good to have the realization and allow the words to flow through somewhat naturally. i look forward to more. perhaps this is part of the whole journey in the van. i’ve been wondering what my purpose was, and i’ve been thinking of quitting photography altogether as it was no longer feeling like it used to [in terms of the drive, excitement, etc]. and now i remember when i did travel in the truck camper out west, and when random realizations would come to me. this sort of feeling is what really drives me.. a connection to a deeper truth or understanding of the universe and this creation called life.]

[i was thinking about exploring who i am or what i want in life for a while though hadn’t gotten to it. last night while on the phone with a new friend, DeAnne, she said something at one point about me not knowing what i want, so i felt perhaps i should explore this this morning]

so what is it that i really want?

i sit here and ponder how to write the next chapter of my life. i’ve been desiring a few things, a few changes. part of me feel torn in deciding what really would be best for me right now. simply, i just want to enjoy life. and i’ve gotten to a place of having a lot of peace in my life, after surrendering attachments and things that were no longer serving me. so now that i’ve freed up this space, what do i create? how do i live my life?

i could simply sit here and live a peaceful life and i’ve had the experience of feeling that it’s totally fine, even just when i’m here at my condo and not doing a whole lot. i no longer have the need to go out and do something necessarily just to to make me feel better. nor do i have the resistance to being here and being bored. yes, sometimes i may feel a little bored or lonely, though most of that is gone. i’ve been able to accept it.

yet at the same time, i don’t want to just sit here and do nothing. part of me feels i should or could do something else with my life. so i ponder what is my purpose. what am i here to do with life? at least right now, or in the coming years. where do i decide to go?

so many speak of doing what one loves or is passionate about to make one feel happy or enjoy life. i look at what really moves me, and what i really enjoy. and some of it i am experiencing now. i do really like having alone time, or more specifically, quiet time, away from the chaos of the world. and i have a lot of that now. and i do like exploring nature and the beauty of it. and i do get that now. i enjoy biking, and there are really nice paths here to go to a couple of local parks without crossing the major roads too. it’s quite a beautiful area. i really enjoy that. i don’t like my immediate area as much as i’d prefer to have my own home on my own land rather than live in a condo building with the parking lot right outside. though the beautiful area and being able to bike around here partially makes up for it, and most of the time it is quiet and peaceful here. if i were to change it, i’d find somewhere where the immediate area was more natural and peaceful and quiet. i like my home to be a sanctuary or a sacred space. somewhere i can go to escape the noise of the world and relax or do as i please. if i want to engage in the noise of life, i’ll go out to places that are loud where i find that. though i really enjoy and like my home to be quiet and peaceful, unless i’m choosing to turn on music, watch a movie, speak loudly, etc. though i don’t want any outside influences happening at undesired times to affect my space. going back to nature, i do bike to the parks on the lake here and through paths that are usually fairly empty which is really nice. i look at if i were to live somewhere else if i would have such a beautiful area to bike in, and i realize a lot of places might not have paths or trails so that would be something important to consider if i were to move elsewhere. though i look at if i were to travel [more about that later], that i could go to beautiful natural places and find those types of paths or trails too. i enjoy living here as there are a number of really nice parks in the area or not too far away. i often go out by the gulf and its nice to be able to drive less than 20 or 30 minutes to various quiet or natural spots by the water. sometimes there is a little traffic to deal with though its typically not that bad when i go. and when i go exploring, i do engage in creativity with my photography or occasional writing too which is something else i enjoy. i also see that i have a nice feeling of community here over at the flowering heart center, and there are a few other spiritual communities too though i haven’t gone to them in a while.

so i see i have a lot working and that i do enjoy already. but what else is it that i long for in life? before going there, i see that a lot of what i desire, in what i do have and in what i seek, is connection. a deeper connection, one that i can find in a quiet space such as in my home, or out in the beauty of nature or by the water, or in a community, or in a close intimate connection with another. i feel that this last part is what i really desire. to have a deeper intimate connection with another. it’s one of the most important parts of a relationship that i desire to create with a girl. there are many other aspects too that i’d like to share with her, though with a deep connection and to be truly in love, so much of the other stuff no longer matters. it seems that everything is based on love. whether its something we do, or something we feel for ourselves, or for our own life, or for the world, or something we share with another. i look at the times i’ve felt love in various ways in the past and its when i’ve felt most alive. i feel the most aliveness has been when i’ve been in love with a girl or when i’ve been engaged with a community or friends that accepted or loved me for who i am. feeling this love back from another allowed me to open myself up and shine forth who i really was. then all the things i enjoyed doing naturally happened. it seems that often we look at what to do when it’s not really what we’re doing that matters. it’s how we’re doing it, from a place of love. when i’ve been surrounded by friends and just having fun and being me, it felt natural and was really a lot of fun. when i’ve been in a close relationship with someone whom i shared love with, it didn’t really matter what we did. just spending time with her, whether cuddling, laying in each other’s arms looking into each other’s eyes, cooking or eating out together, going on an adventure around town or traveling further away, watching a movie, talking, whatever it was, it didn’t really matter. it was just being in that place of feeling love for each other and feeling that love returned. that was the aspect that truly mattered and made a difference. it was the feeling and the being, not the actual doing. the romance, the adventure, the fun, the intimacy, the connection, the sharing of life was all great but love was what made it feel so beautiful. that is what i truly long for. someone i can share a beautiful life in love with. and from there we can create whatever experiences we desire to embrace, share, and experience in life. it’d be nice to have some compatible perspectives on life. we don’t have to have the exact same viewpoints on things though just ones that are somewhat aligned to be able to create and share the experiences we both desire. so that’s something else i can explore..

so what is it that i enjoy doing or how do i see the world?

some of this i’ve already mentioned above. i enjoy adventure and exploration. in various forms. it’s nice to go for a ride around town to someplace new or that i haven’t been to in a while. it’s nice to go on further trips or across the country or even around the world. however while i do like traveling, i do also enjoy staying locally too or just hanging out at home. i think this comes as a part of being in love, either with another or by loving and accepting myself where i am. with this love, some of the urge or need to travel disappears. though i still really do enjoy the adventure of travel and it’s been a lot of fun, especially to go someplace i’ve never been to. part of this desire to travel is why i got a truck and camper a few years ago, and more recently i’ve seen videos of a few couples who’ve been living life on the road and thought that’d be really neat to do. i’m not sure if i’d want to do that long term or not, though i do like the alternative lifestyle and how beautiful it’d be to wake up in many beautiful new places and go exploring every day. i have yet to explore many other countries though would consider doing so at some point. i think for now, i’m more interested in exploring here as it’d be much more cost effective to be able to travel more and it’d require less planning.

i like to have some idea in life of where i want to go though i don’t like be burdened down by plans. it does feel to be a lot more fun to be spontaneous and either not plan at all or only plan a little bit in advance. i also feel that if someone i loved wanted to do the planning, with my input or knowing my interests, i’d be okay with that too. though i don’t want to get too caught up in the details or feeling i have to follow the plan or keep on track. that’s really the part about it that i don’t like. is the burden of feeling limited in time and having to get from one place to another by a certain deadline. i like to really embrace the experience of where i am in the moment, and thinking of needing to do something by a certain time really limits my experience and then i’m thinking through the experience rather than fully being present in the moment and embracing all that is in the here and now. this freedom and flexibility is really important to me as it affects how i experience and enjoy life. in the past i’ve had so many times of being burdened down by something or other that i didn’t feel i fully experienced what i could have in the moment. i enjoy spontaneity and if i get curious about something, being able to go explore it. it’s fun to see a place on the map or find a path or trail and feel drawn to it and just go down it. if i have to think i’ve only got a certain amount of time before i need to go somewhere else or do something else, then i feel i need to focus on that so i can stay responsible and make certain i do what i said i was going to do. so in short, it goes back to what i said earlier. if who i’m exploring with doesn’t mind not planning or wants to gently or quietly keep track of the plan and time, then i’m fine with that as i can still feel the sense of exploration and freedom.

so that was a bit of a tangent on spontaneity that i chose to explore. so this is how this sort of thing works. i got interested in that or was feeling that and its what came up. if i chose not to write about it or explore it because i had to stick to some sort of plan of what i was trying to convey here, then it wouldn’t have been the same. in looking for someone, i realize a lot of girls, especially a lot of who i’d be interested in who are in their mid to late 20s or early 30s, may be thinking of having kids. i’m really not certain if i do want kids or not, and a lot of it is because of this whole freedom, flexibility, and spontaneity. also a part of it is financial as i know there can be many more expenses in having children and having or needing to create more income goes back to the whole idea of freedom, spontaneity, and living in the moment. i don’t want to be forced to have to go to a job i don’t like just to survive in this world. i see too many people do that and they aren’t happy. they’re living out of a place of need, struggle, or having to do something. rather than embracing life and creating the life they desire. a lot of people feel they need to do this sort of thing because that’s what society conditions them to do. all they know is the whole basic pattern of what most others have been doing in their lives. i do see this whole area starting to change as more people awaken to new possibilities, and i’m really drawn to exploring these unique ways of living. i’m really interested in sustainability, especially complete self-sustainability and off-grid living, and not relying on anything outside of one’s self to in order to exist. so then one can put one’s energy and focus on what one really desires in life rather than in doing something one might not like just to earn money in order to pay for the essentials to exist, and sometimes, for many, get caught up in purchasing many things one doesn’t really need because they think it’ll bring happiness but it never does for very long. so going back to the whole idea of children, i felt into it the other day and pondered on what it was that was giving me the viewpoint of not being sure about wanting children, and the past viewpoint of not wanting children. i feel a lot of it is what i said above and part of it is also wanting to make sure i could bring them up in a good place as so many of us, myself included, had experiences in growing up that were less than ideal. and i wouldn’t want to put anyone else through a less than ideal experience. yes i realize life is not perfect though i do strive to simplify it and make it as ideal, or coming from a more positive place as possible, than otherwise. i feel if i was deeply in love with someone and we had shared a beautiful romance and deep connection for years, then at that point i could feel more open to having kids though i’d also likely be totally fine without having them as i currently am. sometimes its hard to know exactly how one will feel in the future for there are so many experiences that will affect how we’re feeling between now and then. before knowing or deciding what i want to do regarding this, i’d like to have and share the deep connection first, as that’s where everything originates from. and from a place of being truly in love with each other, as i wrote above, a lot of the actual experiences in the world really won’t matter. it’ll be experiencing the world from a place of love that makes life really beautiful. i also feel in being so close to someone else, that it would be much easier to share whatever aspects of life we want to create together. we’d engage in the world as a team and be there to support each other rather than trying to figure it all out on our own. and we might not agree 100% on everything, though from a place of love it will all work out. looking at another aspect of life, for example, i wouldn’t mind living in a city or a more densely populated place if i was with someone i loved. yes, i’d still prefer to have someplace more natural though the feeling of being deeply in love with someone would overcome a lot of the obstacles of living in a place that’s not 100% the most ideal. and i think that in a case like this, it would allow for more adventures and travel. in at least one of the videos i watched recently about couples who were living out of a van or traveling, they spoke about getting so comfortable in living in a nice home that they might not want to go out and explore the world. and i’m not saying either is good or bad, though just exploring multiple perspectives on it.

exploring multiple perspectives leads me on to the next aspect of this exploration which is that itself. i love to explore, yes i believe i said that above, though not just as in going out in the world and exploring, but also in exploring ideas, philosophies, viewpoints, ways of seeing the world, possibilities, etc — much of what my photography, writing, etc are all about. i feel that in this exploration we open ourselves up to new ways of seeing the world, and let go of limiting perspectives, and sometimes see things that were always there though we were blind to. i could ramble on a lot about this, and will keep it short for now, though this is really part of personal and spiritual growth. as we become more aware of various aspects of ourself, we expand our awareness to higher levels of consciousness and gain new insights and direct experiences of what this whole thing we call life really is. we’ll also learn that we are all interconnected, and coming from a higher place, can create great change in the current world and make it a truly beautiful place for all of us to live in. so that was really short and didn’t touch on a lot of what it could have though i’m getting a little tired of sitting at the computer typing this and am feeling my next adventure awaiting. and that’s how a lot of this works. our intuition, or divine guidance, or inner feelings can guide us and effortlessly take us to where we’re going. i see this is a much more effective and very much more peaceful way of going about life. i see so many of us get caught up in having to do things, and a lot relates to what i wrote above about most people being conditioned to think they have to do so in order to live life, that we don’t truly live or fully experience or embrace the beauty of life. i love to see beauty in simple things. and it feels so liberating to have less to worry about or keep track of. society has grown so quickly and so many of us have gotten so addicted to modern technologies or solutions for things that we don’t really even need. if we step back outside of ourselves and look at it all, we’ll see this and realize that none of these external things that we chase after are even real. they don’t define us. they don’t make us happy. it’s all an illusion. only we, ourselves, can make ourselves happy. it’s a choice. we can choose to go about life happily or we can be stuck looking for external happiness.

so back to the other adventure i just mentioned. i’m feeling like going out to one of my favorite parks around here, honeymoon island, and going for a walk. i was originally thinking of writing this out there though i felt by the time i got there and went through traffic and was actually there i might not be feeling like writing it, so i chose to write it now before going. i think i mentioned above that i enjoy nature and parks. it feels so long ago, i don’t even know exactly when i started writing this or how long it’s been. i love getting lost in the moment. that’s what i’m talking about with spontaneity and freedom and flexibility. i like my life to flow effortlessly. yes sometimes there are challenges but i do my best not to get caught up in them. that doesn’t always happen, though as i learn to surrender and let go of resistance and allow a force higher than myself to guide me, all the pieces of the puzzle come together. the universe is in perfect order when we allow it to divinely unfold. still trying to get back to adventures.. i’m open to exploring adventurous activities like zip-lining, riding personal watercraft, skydiving, etc. i haven’t done too much in this realm and am not too attached to having to do any, though if i meet someone who’s interested in them, i’d be open to trying them. i’d probably enjoy them as i’m sure a lot of these things would be fun or would give me new perspectives on life. which is why i’d also be open to living life on the road. when i lived out of my truck camper for 10 weeks from chicago to california and back to florida, and the following year for 3 weeks from chicago to maine to florida, i liked seeing and exploring new places, though i missed the connection with another or community. i loved seeing beautiful places in nature though without having someone to share it with, and sometimes without having an internet signal to connect with the outside world, and without having a community to participate in regularly, it wasn’t as nice as it could’ve been. this is why i came back to florida and ended up buying my condo. so i could be settled down in one spot and be able to meet other people and find a community, friends, or a girlfriend to share the beauty of life with. it was also much easier not having to go looking for a place to park and sleep undisturbed every night. and there are some beautiful places in this area that many other parts of the country don’t have.

i’m feeling it’s time to take a break though i know this doesn’t feel complete. there’s much more i could write and i have to scroll up to see what i even started talking about when i asked the question of what i enjoy doing or how i see the world. for the most part, its basically anything coming from a place of peace, exploration, or fun. i like meeting others who are awakened, on a spiritual path, open to higher awareness, have a conscious perspective on life, or simply have a good attitude and are nice or sweet. essentially i’m looking to meet someone who is coming from the heart or who wants to open her heart to me as i open my heart to her, and who desires to share and create a beautiful life together. i don’t know how all the exact details will look though life is our canvas and the world our playground, and we can share an amazing journey and adventure together, should we desire and choose to.

(shot by Margaret, after the Oneness Awakening Course)
(shot by Margaret, after the Oneness Awakening Course)

i put this playlist together yesterday [2015.05.18] though will likely update it as i create more. the individual time-lapse videos are in chronological order by the date shot, starting with the first ones i made back in early 2009 [shortly after i first discovered the little planet look, figured out how to do the whole technique, and then naturally thought it’d be awesome to do a time-lapse video with this technique as no one had done so yet]

this technique has gotten tremendously easier since i got a ricoh theta camera last year. it no longer takes many days just to stitch and process the images, nor the need to carry many pounds of heavy equipment that has to be precisely aligned [which also required a large, heavy case to be carried in and a heavy duty tripod to be mounted on]. now, a small camera that fits in my pocket, my iPhone, and something to mount the camera on [which can also fit in my pocket] is all that’s needed, and the most difficult part of the image processing is done automatically! the only downfall is that the image quality is a bit less than using my custom rig, though it still yields good results and allows for shots that could not have been done with the other gear, such as the aerial shot where the camera was hanging from the kite line as i walked for miles on the beach [or a driving shot that i have yet to process, which reminds me there are also a few other 360×180 little planet time-lapses i’ve shot that i have not yet created as of the time i’m writing this].

due to the way the youtube embed works with playlists that have different aspect ratio videos, some clips may be cropped a little bit. use this link to see the entire playlist directly on youtube: www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLYlEKn8xkNmW3bOSwai0v6bu3cFPmaK23

simply put, my art is about exploring new ways of perceiving the world. the variety of perspectives found in my images, films, and writing exist to inspire others to embark on their own journeys of learning to experience life with expanded awareness.

after experimenting with some pole aerial photography shots

to simplify one’s life is one of the greatest things one can do for one’s self

beyond all labels
only the experience remains

what an incredible experience the last week or two has been! life is amazing when one allows it to flow!

i’ve been having some great conversations with people i just met and some that i’ve known for a while though hadn’t really conversed with. lots of amazing connections and understandings have come up. i was originally only going to be up in chicagoland for 2-3 weeks and was wanting to get on the road soon for my trip to the east coast, but now i know why it all worked out for me to stay here.

i’ve experienced greater awareness and connection to others and the divine. it’s probably been a cumulative effect between the sound healings, Oneness blessings, Oneness Meditations, Darshan from Amma, etc, etc. i’m becoming more comfortable talking about all of these things in front of others, even people i’ve just met. in the past i’ve felt that i had to know someone first or know that they’re interested in similar things, though now it’s easier to sense the connection/interest/etc and allow these experiences to flow through me. it’s only going to get better and better, as the energies are continuing to increase and expand. it will be absolutely amazing and beautiful when the whole world has awakened.

i had heard about Amma, the hugging saint, in the past, though didn’t know much about her. a friend, Iris, who i just met at the sound healing a couple weeks ago, told me about it and inspired me to go, especially the first day and the last day. at first i was thinking i’d go just the middle day for a couple hours, though i did end up going for pretty much the whole three days (except the last day when i got there midday). the energy was so amazing, just being in her presence or nearby. a lot of the first day i was sitting there through the program though i hadn’t seen or heard from Iris (or anyone else i knew). i thought maybe i’d leave though continued to just be there and it felt okay. in the past, i would have gotten agitated, bored, or something and really resisted staying, though i felt comfortable just being there. it’s amazing how just being in the presence of a higher level of consciousness/energy elevates everyone nearby.

i had a great experience during and after the IAM meditation on the second day. Amma’s trainers described the meditation as being very powerful. it’s a great combination of motion, breath, visualization, stillness, etc! it’s awesome as elements very similar to some of the components had come to me in the past. there was a great question and answer session with one of the swamis afterwards too. between this experience and having the questions i wrote for Doug from the Oneness community answered during the skype session last weekend, i’m seeing reinforced connections between my understandings and others’ understandings/teachings of what is happening in this whole thing called life. right after learning the IAM meditation, i went back to the main hall and ran into Marla (who i had met a couple weeks ago at the sound healing + Deeksha at Kristin’s home / spiritual center). things were flowing effortlessly as in being present, I could tell something was different in Marla’s energy, and by simply being there and listening to her experiences, she was able to see the reflection that helped her realize what was in her space. it was funny as we were waiting for Iris to meet us near the entrance though somehow we missed each other, though that must have all been part of the divine plan so i could listen to Marla. i noticed other seemingly random or odd occurrences like that too. it’s awesome how life is experienced at higher levels of consciousness!

i had an amazing conversation later in the evening with Marla. just being more present from experiencing higher energy, so many connections came up. life flows so easily when one is tuned in to it! it’s amazing and crazy how awesome and interconnected this whole thing we call reality is. there really is no limit to all of it — it’s infinite! after a couple times thinking the conversation was amazing and we should be recording it, i started recording it with my phone. it’s funny to watch how conscious i become of being recorded. i start paying attention to the future audience of the recording in addition to whom i’m speaking to in the conversation. it does definitely alter the experience of the here and now. wow, that’s a funny realization i just had. what i just wrote about altering the here and now. because all that is is here and now, and i’m using a device that is acknowledging the possibility of a not here or not now. by doing so, it takes me out of the here and now. i suppose i need to record without knowing i’m recording. so at another here and now, i can stumble upon the message that i created for myself in the earlier here and now (all to remind me, or another part of me, to be in the here and now!). by not being aware that i’m being recorded, i can live more fully in the moment and not think about the possibility of another moment. that must be a key to living more fully in the here and now — to get completely lost in the here and now, and fully engage into it. in the conversation we talked about a lot of related things. it does seem like i resist fully engaging in the moment a lot of the time, or more of fully letting go into the what is [as i feel i may not come back, and i’m liking this reality now]. it seems like we could totally transform this entire experience of reality, and this reality itself, by simply choosing to. though part of me wants to do this, part of me still wants to experience this path i’m currently on as amazing things are happening in the world now. it will be absolutely amazing to continue to live this life and experience the awakening of the planet.

it’s awesome how much energy one can feel and live from. the last night, the program was running overnight until the morning and i felt myself getting a little tired when i just sat there, though when i talked to someone, i would feel myself getting more energetic and the tiredness disappear. i did go sleep in the camper for a couple hours as we had a company event the next day. i was a little tired after another new friend, Natalia, knocked on my door as they announced it’d be a good time to wake anyone up who was sleeping as the line for receiving hugs was approaching the end and the closing would take place soon — after the sun started to rise and the closing began, i felt more energetic and alive (and only sleeping for not more than a couple hours that night no longer mattered).

earlier on the last day, Natalia had spoke about doing seva (service/volunteering). she was going to be helping direct people into the parking lot. it was funny how it unfolded as when Iris first told me about Amma coming to town, she told me about doing seva, and earlier in the program i saw some signs about different types of help that was needed though wasn’t completely drawn to them at the time, though thought i could do the parking seva [during the q&a with the swami, i recall him speaking about the effectiveness of doing seva that resonates with one vs doing seva that doesn’t resonate with one]. i conversed with Natalia for a while after the morning program was ending, though had felt disconnected from her the first day or two even though i talked to her for a little bit when Iris introduced me to her the first day. something must have shifted in the energy as i felt more present and able to connect with her as we spoke with each other. i think i was feeling a little disconnected the first day as i must have been resisting the high energies, though right near the beginning of the second day, i was feeling much more alive and clear. it’s awesome to connect with others, understand new perspectives, and make new friends who are on similar paths! as we were chatting about a few things, she mentioned a lot of people from Fairfield, a high energy town in Iowa, being at the event. shortly after, Chiraj, who lived there, happened to walk by where we were sitting and after chatting for a while, we all ended up doing the parking seva as they could use the extra help. it was great to make another friend/connection. it’s truly joyous to be around so many high energy people. i envision much more enlightened living where life happens so beautifully and everyday everyone can explore their connections to others as we all celebrate this experience of one life through many eyes of perception and hearts of understanding. this will be how the inspirational center i envision will feel. everything will happen smoothly, perfectly, in divine order and it will be so beautiful just to be there.

i stayed awake and energized for most of the day until the evening near the end of the company event. i was feeling pretty tired as we were sitting down for some food before the guys went home after the brief training and indoor racing. i had only maybe 2 hours of sleep the last night, 4-5 hours the night before, and not lots of sleep the night before that — the previous nights i had slept in my camper (not popped up) on the bridge over the river in st charles so it got loud early and was a little cold especially the first night, so maybe the body was focusing on feeling the lack of sleep catching up. i think i was also resisting sharing my awesome experiences the past few days as i’m not sure how much the guys would understand. Joe had brought in Dragan, a trainer for the Tony Robbins company, to speak to the guys — i could tell he had a certain level of awareness to him, and could tell that he could sense an understanding from me too. it was funny, as i ended up sitting right next to him at the dinner table though in the beginning was feeling low in energy and stayed quiet, as i felt i didn’t want to speak too much about my understanding and awareness as it didn’t come from Tony’s material and he had just spoken to the guys about his program (and i had indicated i wasn’t going to the upcoming event). after a little bit, i went to the bathroom and when i came back shifted my energy a bit to a little higher level. i don’t remember exactly how it came up, but Dragan and i started speaking and it felt good as we recognized each other’s understanding. i was able to share my experiences with him and others nearby and it felt really good. Micah asked about the IAM meditation that i experienced at Amma’s program and around that time i felt him and at least a couple others attention fully engaged on the words that were flowing through me. it’s amazing when one decides to show up and allow the energy to flow through. the rest of the evening felt great as i was able to share and connect at a higher level with others. Jake said at one point the whole table was focused on the conversation that was happening in the middle between him, Joe, Dragan, and myself. as i was listening (maybe when speaking too), i was invoking/radiating higher energy to help raise the consciousness. between the conversation and the energy, i’m sure we helped raise new levels of awareness. it’s awesome how this stuff all works (and that it can happen anywhere and anytime)!

i had a great experience at the Shift into Awakening last weekend too. it feels so long ago, it seems i can barely remember it. my entire experience of time is shifting! i do remember it being great and having an amazing experience. i was able to connect with my friend Marielee, whom i’d first seen and met a year or two ago, though never really got to converse with for more than a brief moment. it is truly amazing when i decide to allow myself to show up. most of the time i had seen Marielee would be during Deeksha at Kristin’s, and i felt i should be more peaceful rather than let myself get super excited and lost in the moment, so i wouldn’t really fully allow myself to express more parts of me. as we made a run to get coffee for the volunteers at the Shift event, i felt more open as there were no rules i was forcing upon myself as how i should act in a sacred space. it’s funny all these little things we put in our minds of how things are supposed to be at certain times and places. letting go of our own self-imposed limitations sets us free and it is totally awesome to be free! life truly is freedom. one cannot fully experience what is with limitations.

i was originally only going to go for the Oneness Meditation on saturday evening, though after the sound healing and Oneness Blessing at Kristin’s, she asked me about what conflicts i had and helped me get there. Marla, who i had just met that night, really inspired me too as she described her experience at the Shift into Awakening she attended in Colorado. i am truly grateful and blessed for all these experiences and how everything seemingly unfolds so effortlessly to continue to take me on this journey.

it’s incredible how all aspects of life unfold perfectly as they need to. especially when one is connected to the flow of life, what one might think of as coincidences or chance happenings, just naturally occur so smoothly and feel right.

wow, i want to write so much more about everything that’s happened these last few days / couple weeks though it could go on for so long [it’s all connected and related on so many levels]! i’ll remember the experience and how it feels, and continue to live from that vibration. it’s awesome to be alive! simply decide to do so and you’ll enjoy the bliss and peace. i wasn’t sure if i was going to ask Amma for a mantra, though decided to do so and am grateful for doing so. right after i asked for a mantra while receiving darshan the last day, i sat on the stage for a while, then i went to sit down in the area where i’d wait for instructions for the mantra. as soon as i sat down there, i felt an incredible sense of peace that i hadn’t felt in a long time. it was beautiful and amazing. right after deciding yes, i want a mantra, i began to get the experience of a higher level of consciousness! all one needs to do is decide one is ready and the experience will immediately begin to unfold! it’s incredible how life works! this is truly an amazing experience we/”I” have created! imagine what we will all will experience soon when we all fully awaken to realize the “I” that is! the golden age is beautiful! it’s awesome to be here to watch its birth and the great shift!

i could go on but i’ll end here. it’s getting pretty hot out here as i sit in my truck writing this and i’m thinking too much attempting to remember the details rather than let it all flow out naturally as it did the past few nights/days when i spoke it [maybe i’m also feeling the energy around here as the clouds above are becoming overcast]. i write all this so someone may be inspired and get what they need, no matter how large or small, out of it. [who knows maybe it’ll inspire me one day when i come back across this to remember this journey] i also write this as i am truly grateful and blessed for the experiences i have had where others have effortlessly just shown up to guide me along on this path, and want to give back by sharing these experiences with others and inspiring them to continue on their path! i know whoever needs this will find it. everything works out perfectly, always! it’s all in divine order.

Om Namah Shivaya!


below are some links to events that i’ve recommended to others in the past week or two. these are events are for anyone, especially those desiring to continue on their path of growth/understanding/connection/awareness.


oneness awakening “deeksha” blessings (usually combined with a meditation, chakra cleansing, or sound healing) — the deeksha/blessing is to help one become more aware and break free from the mind:


the meetup group shows both the events friday evenings at the bodhi spiritual center (usually these have either a meditation or chakra cleansing, and sometimes a teaching or q&a), and the sound healings monday nights: www.meetup.com/onenesschicago/events/calendar

more info on the Oneness Blessing (Deeksha) + the Oneness Meditation:


local sites + trainer contact info here (to find events near you):



Amma, the hugging saint:



spiritual center in chicago that has a meditation and celebration service (with positive speakers, band, affirmations, etc) sunday mornings (and a great community with lots of events):



gong bath i’ll be attending (tour happening this month around chicagoland):



the most powerful self-empowerment/discovery course on the planet:



i haven’t experienced Kai Chi Do, though i know people who have recommended it (and i know who runs the one in chicago) — i imagine it’s somewhat similar to Chi Gong or Tai Chi (though with its own unique aspects/energy/healing):



earth friendly homes / alternative building + off-grid techniques:


i’m sure we’ll be seeing lots of radically new improvements to all elements of society (especially how we relate to and treat nature). here’s a site about things happening relating to sustainability:



lots of other stuff:


[ one last aside, it’s neat to see the connection through repeating numbers in this post number being 12114 and today being 07.07 ]

Live for the experience of living.

..something to say about determination and perseverance, or perhaps absurdity and ridiculousness, or just good ol' spontaneity and fun :)
I felt a connection to the tree as I hugged it. I cried as I approached the end of the Avenue of Giants.. I was missing the tall trees already. Although knowing I'd see more in other parts of California, it wouldn't feel the same. Perhaps part of me felt sorrow for the trees that had been cut down. 96% of the trees that once stood are gone due to man logging the trees. The trees are so beautiful, so perfect in their own very nature. It hurts to know what man has done to the trees solely for his own gain. Let's become more aware of nature and earth, and make more environmental-friendly choices in our every day lives! Let's minimize waste and consumption of goods that are produced in ways harmful to our planet. We could all live in a sustainable manner if we chose to. As the planet awakens, I'm sure we'll continue to see more and more people becoming more aware of what they can do to live better, simpler, and sustainably.

it was at one of these spots that i discovered and felt god when the wind stopped and i was left in complete silence

life is better undefined. [it leaves more room to create as you desire]

is that even a question one can ask? mark marano is a role i choose to play. the true I, the I that I truly am, is without definition. mark marano is how i interact with the world. others come to know various parts of mark marano, though few, if any [in current form], will ever know who I truly am. I am that which lives through mark marano. I am the one who chooses what mark marano will be, the creator of mark marano.

definition is strange and intriguing, all at the same time. definition is not real, nor is time. [nor is anything anyone considers reality]

I explore the place between definition and time and reality. when I choose to experience definition, time, and reality, it is often through the eyes and persona of mark marano. sometimes I consider leaving the current mark marano and redefining the experience. in the past, I preferred to experience without this name, though for now, I have returned. until I decide otherwise, here I am. it seems to make sense [if we can even use that word properly], to stick with one name [although the identity may change/grow] so that others may see what I have chosen to experience through this being [through this creation of time].

sometimes I feel stuck with this identity, though then I go back to remembering who I truly am, and realize it’s all a game I chose to play. then I go on to enjoying the game and embracing the role, perhaps exploring it’s definition a bit more, or redefining certain aspects of it. [this is good advice for anyone feeling trapped or not fully enjoying their lives — realize this [all of this] is not real — it is only as real as you choose it to be. embrace it and enjoy it, and know you can change it, should you so desire.]

so if life is just a game, how does one know when one has won? you decide when you’ve won [or lost]. it’s totally up to you. it’s all of your own creation. you might ask, well isn’t that sorta like making up the rules as you go? yes, in a sense it is, though that’s precisely all you’ve been doing this entire time anyhow. you may not be aware of it, though a part of you has made it all up as you’ve gone through it. some parts you’ve held onto longer than others, though it’s all how you look at it. if you choose to get stuck in your own definitions [yes, this is a choice, and so is forgetting that it is a choice], then that’s how you decided to experience it. [a part of] awakening is realizing this.

today you can awaken to the fact of what is truly happening. [it might take you a little bit to fully realize and accept it] or, you can choose to forget it, and label all of this as nonsense. it’s entirely up to you. one day you’ll truly realize what is happening, one way or another. [it could be many lifetimes, perhaps seemingly an eternity, though it’s all how you decide to play [and create/experience] the game].

okay, so mark marano is not real? nope, but neither is the role you’ve chosen to play. they are only as real as we allow them to be.

enjoy it. step in and out of it as you desire. it’s all about the experience anyhow. we’ll all recognize that in the end. [if you can call the end ‘the end’]

Amidst the chaos emerges brilliance.

Abundance • Adventure • Alignment • Aliveness • Appreciation • Art • Awakening • Awareness • Balance • Beauty • Being • Bliss • Clairvoyance • Clarity • Compassion • Connecting Science and Spirituality • Connection • Consciousness • Creating Reality • Creativity • Dreams • Earth • Elements • Energy • Energetic Expression • Enlightenment • Entanglement • Essence • Excitement • Experiencing • Exploration • Expression • Feeling • Flow • Freedom • Fun • God • Gratitude • Green Living • Growth • Happiness • Harmony • Healing • Health • Here • the Ineffable • Infinity • Inner Peace • Insights • Inspiration • Inspiring Others • Integrity • Intention • Intuition • Joy • the Journey • Kindness • Knowing • Lens-Based Art • Life • Living Deliberately • Living in Spirit • Living Life as a Work of Art • Love • Lucid Dreaming • Meaning • Metaphysics • Miracles • Motivation • Multi-Talented Individuals • Nature • Nonduality • Now • Observing • Passion • Peace • Perception • Personal Responsibility • Philanthropy • Philosophy • Presence • Prosperity • Psychology • Purity • Purpose • Quantum Physics • Relaxation • Relaxing • Satisfaction • Science • the Self • the Self-Evident • Serenity • Silence • Simplicity • Source Being • Spirituality • the Spontaneous • Stillness • the Sun • Synchronicity • the Timeless • the Transcendent • Transcending the Opposites • Transformation • Travel • Truth • Understanding • Unlimited Potential • Vacation • Vision • Wisdom • World Peace

I envision a Positive Life / Spiritual / Creative / Inspirational Community / Center, where those of us on a similar path can gather and reunite to help each other along our journey, and where we can share our talents with others. The Positive Life Community will be a place and community where we can teach and inspire others to explore and enjoy the possibilities of life, and to choose to create the life they desire. We will explore and share a variety of creative/expressive areas, including art, photography, writing, singing, dancing, yoga, athletics, cooking, design, speaking, etc, etc. We will teach others to live life as a work of art, be it in some form of creative expression, or in the manner one lives life, such as a unique form of living (like living a life of endless travel, adventure, and inspiration from an RV or otherwise). We will also share and teach spiritual awareness, personal growth, success coaching, healing, and deliver the Avatar Course at the Center.

I see the Positive Life Community starting off as one ‘Center’ and then easily expanding out to many locations worldwide. One of the first locations will be in a high energy, natural place such as Sedona, AZ, or the islands of Hawaii. It will be a place where people come year round and we all come at various times as we desire; some of us may choose to stay at the Center or reside nearby for extended periods of time. As the Community grows, we will have on-site accommodations for our visitors (and those of us teaching and running the Center). Imagine what it will be like for those visiting to wake up in awe and inspired, being surrounded by the energy of everyone sharing and exploring their talents! Every day will be a celebration of life in an amazing atmosphere we create, with dancing, performances, art and film exhibitions, and large dinners for the entire group (during some of the dinners, everyone will get to explore a given topic or idea with the person sitting next to them and then share their discoveries with the table or entire group)!

Feel free to contact me if you desire to participate in the creation of the Positive Life Community.

Mark Marano at Sand Key Island behind the Sheraton Sand Key in Clearwater Beach, Florida, attending Mark Kalman and Colleen Elligott’s beautiful beach wedding on August 21, 2010 in an island shirt for Florida beach attire.

Mark Marano has spent over a decade of his life living as a lens-based artist, expressing his quest for meaning and understanding through the mediums of still and time-lapse photography.

Upon finding himself on a temporary departure from his visual expression, he has recently been inspired to revisit photography. With a better understanding of the relationship of his images to his life’s quest, he will share his perspective through a new technique he is currently in the process of developing.

Mark is also co-founder in an Artists’ Collective, whose mission is to foster the growth of emerging photographic artists, by creating a community in which to exhibit, curate, and discuss photography. The Collective will hold its first exhibition this summer.


too much information
too little time
too much dispersion

absurd junctures of thought time emotion


contact me if you’d like to sign up for ReSurfacing (or do a free intro course to Avatar). it’s been a number of years since i’ve been to the Avatar Course, though still can say its the most profound & life-changing workshop i’ve ever experienced.

sometimes, perhaps often, what we need most is not another spiritual course/perspective/workshop/gathering/etc, and is certainly not another goal or thing we get in the physical world, but is simply a meaningful friendship with another whom loves and accepts us for who we are without judgment.

i made it back.. had some thoughts on beliefs when walking before dinner, lets see if i can remember.. my first thought was something like i have no idea anymore :) then some thoughts about beliefs themselves.. i believe that our beliefs and perceptions are what create our reality. this is partly what i’ve learned from others teaching, though also partly in what i’ve learned experientially. we can choose to believe something that is good for ourselves and create a reality that we enjoy, or we can choose to believe things that do not serve us and end up having a tough time in life.. we can choose to believe things that serve everyone as a whole and we’ll likely experience a much more beautiful world and connection with others and the divine than if we choose to believe things that are only self-serving. it seems that too many self/ego-serving beliefs and desires are what have caused so much of the struggle and situation we are now facing on earth. some, if not all of these, stem from some sort of fear, or something one isn’t (or many aren’t) willing to face. sometimes beliefs are created out of resistance to situations as its easier to do so than fully experience what is happening when its something we don’t like (which in itself is a belief of what we desire and resist, and what is good and bad). there was something else in there, lets see if i can remember…

it’s not coming to me in these few seconds i waited for it.. perhaps it will appear later. or perhaps it has dissolved or wasn’t there to begin with :) as far as individual beliefs, or what you asked me to be my core beliefs, i believe humanity is collectively awakening and evolving and that we will see drastic changes in society in our lifetime as a result. i know others are saying this as well, though i do also see signs of it unfolding. it seems that what is happening currently is what i thought of as the last stand of the ego.. it knows its on its way out and is fighting to survive. (which seems to be similar to what i’ve felt in my own experience lately) thank you, btw, for asking this question, as i was just thinking recently of writing a vision for a new world, and this could be an intro to it, though not sure i will write it all here for ya as it might get to be a bit lengthy :) essentially it will be a world of peace, where we each sense the connection to each other and the planet, and live in harmony as such. we’ll likely still be experiencing from different levels of consciousness and awareness, though as more and more of collectively evolve and become more loving and are able to see that we have more in common than what separates us (and can see that the things that do separate us really aren’t what we think they are and are simply limiting perspectives or beliefs), we’ll release what no longer serves us and naturally open ourselves up to connecting to each other, the world, god, etc. ah, that reminded me of what i was thinking earlier.. that so many people live with indoctrinated beliefs that come from outside of themselves and go to great lengths to defend their beliefs or viewpoints, when they weren’t even something they came up with themselves.. they were merely fed those beliefs by someone else trying to control them or whom didn’t know any better. as humanity gains more clarity and awareness over this, we’ll be able to grow more quickly. it seems to be happening with people not tolerating various injustices.. which i feel to be most effective, one’s approach in doing so must be carefully chosen, and be one coming from a higher vibration of love and offering a more loving or inclusive viewpoint rather than one that comes from an approach of fighting or resisting what is. not only does this work better energetically as there is no resistance, but as well in the physical world, as those being opposed will be more open to listen to someone coming from a higher place rather than just another mind/ego from the same level of fighting or control or resisting they are coming from.

another thought that came to me as i was walking was regarding my own personal perspective.. i don’t recall the exact words that came to me earlier, though it was basically about the part where i said i have no idea anymore.. i think i went into i don’t even know who i am anymore.. but in reality, i do know who i am as the one who is experiencing through this body and mind others think of or perceive as mark marano, though it’s more that i don’t know who mark marano is anymore, as mark marano can be whomever i decide and choose mark marano to be, based upon my own beliefs and chosen perspectives. i can pick anything i desire, and choose to be it. the difficult part for me has been knowing what to decide, hence having gone back to old ways as i mentioned earlier today, as i think at some point i realized that i liked me (the old me) and still had some exploring to do. however it seems that i got carried away with it or lost in that identity for too long that was no longer serving me, that the divine presented me with the recent health challenges (and other challenges before that regarding my projects) as a bit of a wake up call telling me its time to move on. i don’t know exactly where i’ll go from here in the future, though i do have some ideas, and i know it will be better than the past as i continue to expand, grow, and evolve. and its possible it won’t be a huge shift in my whole life in everything i do, but more of a subtly profound shift in how i perceive and experience life.

regarding choosing beliefs, i recall, from years back, that i felt something along the lines of it being better to let go of beliefs that no longer serve rather than taking on lots of new beliefs. it seems that the latter can simply feed the ego/mind/identity more than it needs to, especially if one gets too caught up in one’s own beliefs and needing to defend one’s beliefs or prove themselves or the beliefs right. by putting forth more effort into emptying oneself of one’s beliefs (or allowing life to do so), one creates more peace and space and freedom from which to experience life. and, if one so desires, one can still choose to create some beliefs that do serve one’s desires or perspectives that will help humanity evolve and transform, though one may not find it necessary to do so, as when one is living from a more empty place, a blank canvas so to speak, one will be more in tune with the divine, and the divine can naturally and more effortlessly flow through one’s life in a manner that does serve humanity and life itself.

I can quickly photograph and deliver 360 degree photographs of real estate (or vacant land, preserve/park, or any type of location) for you to use in your listings, marketing materials, or interactive virtual tours. I can offer this at eye level as well as low aerial or elevated photographs, up to 40 feet from the ground.

This will give you a much nicer angle of the home, building, or landscape you are showcasing. You or your clients can also use elevated photos to see what the view would look like from a higher floor or roof deck if you’re considering building a new home or adding on to an existing one. If you need higher perspectives than 40 feet, I can possibly do this as well (depending on the location).

I can provide images in standard 360 degree equirectangular format for use in 360 degree viewers, or render the images as flat panoramas or regular photos. To see some of my work, please visit and browse my website at the following link: www.MarkMarano.com — most images you’ll see are artistic in nature (many with a “little planet” look). I can create the photographs I shoot for you with a commercial/professional look or an artistic one, whichever you prefer.

If you are constructing a new building or renovating an existing one, I can create a time-lapse video of the project and can also offer a live webcam view (subject to internet or mobile service availability at the location).

I’m currently based out of North Pinellas County and am able to travel anywhere in Hillsborough, Pinellas, and Pasco Counties (or the greater Tampa Bay area) on short notice. I’m open to considering further locations as well.

If you’re interested in hiring me, please write me here: www.MarkMarano.com/contact

i’m looking to meet a sweet girl who desires a relationship, or new friends with similar perspectives on life.

some things i like:
– being outdoors
– exploring new places
– nature
– deep conversations about life
– cuddling, spooning, intimacy
– goofing off
– watching something funny
– peace
– relaxing
– meditation, higher awareness
– photography, creativity, writing
– healthy food, mostly vegetarian
– adventures around town
– romance, falling in love
– enjoying + living in the moment
– inspiration

– listen to audio programs by Wayne Dyer
– go to the Avatar Course
– receive Deeksha (the Oneness Blessing) and experience the Oneness Meditation

there are many other things you can also do, though these are the ones that i have repeatedly found to be quite beneficial in my life (and wish to keep this list short). follow your heart and feel what you are most drawn to, and begin there.

at honeymoon island, about to start a little planet time-lapse

I am what I choose to be.

this is everywhere i’ve been when traveling in my truck camper since i got it. a couple of places (mostly around florida) may be missing as i didn’t track it all in the beginning, and some routes might be slightly off as some gps data was missing [the lines on the map that are straight without any curves probably aren’t the exact route i took, but rather the average from one point to another further away when the gps location was saved].

..pondering why i photograph the sky so often. perhaps its because its so fleeting, always different. is attempting to capture the ever-changing moment a metaphor for us to learn to live in the moment? or is it somehow part of resistance against being here now?

when i am here now, the moment is so beautiful and perfect… beyond words, beyond images, beyond.

in the moment i yearn to capture how beautiful it is for i know it is only passing and cannot be held permanently. the image is a means, an attempt, a struggle to make the timeless lasting in time. it’s a communication to those stuck in time [including myself when i find myself in time] to seek the timeless for it is far beyond the greatest beauty or perfection that could possibly be found in time.

perhaps all i must do is choose to live eternally beyond time and there will no longer be a fear of losing the moment, for as one moment is lost, a new one is constantly born, and each is just as beautiful as the last.

.. it’s about exploration, inspiration, adventure — the experience and sharing perspectives [of such], all while developing close relationships so i may better know myself in knowing another

this is a map of the journeys i’ve taken in my truck camper in the first year, month, and week [minus a day] that i’ve had it. the yellow stars are where i went in the first year, and the red line is where i drove the following 5 weeks. now, i just gotta take it to tennessee, kentucky, and the northeast to have gone through all the continental us!

Perception and perspective make all the difference in life.

I explore life as it is and take what I choose from it. Life is amazing and beautiful – you only need to learn to let your self see it like this! The times of my life that I’ve been happiest have been when I’ve appreciated life and what it brought to me — when I’ve followed the feelings and inspiration and enjoyed the journey it has taken me on. Life is a grand journey, ever unfolding before you. Flow with it! Enjoy the ride it takes you on!

So what exactly are creative and technical services, one might ask? I assist others in implementing their ideas. I also assist others in defining their concepts. I work in all aspects of creativity, from drawing out schematics/diagrams/charts/etc to better visualize the various components, to doing the research and development to ensure the technique or concept being explored will function as desired. I can do either the preliminary layout and construction, or work through the whole project until the end. I determine data models, logic, relationships, and create processes to put these all together. I’ve done a bit of this in web site / web application development, custom script writing, and creative technique design.

As you browse my site, you’ll see plenty of examples in still and time-lapse photography (with more cinematography to come). Essentially, I decide/determine/feel what I want to do — whether through inspiration or creatively taking an idea to the next level — and then figure out how to do it. With experience and perseverance, I’ve been able to research and create techniques and concepts that have previously not existed, with little to no information out there related to the various aspects involved. A lot of the world has caught up over time — for example, many of the photographic techniques I explored several years to a decade ago took a decent amount of research to figure out. After taking a short break from photography and coming back to it in the last 2-3 years, I see an abundant amount of information (and products) available online to assist others in exploring the same or similar techniques. I seem to be able to perceive what is coming in the future before it happens, and naturally use this foresight in exploring creative endeavors. I enjoy the ability to be ahead of my time and unique, though others don’t always understand where I’m coming from [perhaps as it’s really more of where I’m heading to].

Anyhow, before I ramble off on tangents, the basic point is to explore my website and journal, as you will find a wide variety of concepts and learn a bit about my perspective and (some of) what I can do. As an archive of creative and technical explorations of the past, my whole website exists to help others better understand the creative process, and offer examples and inspiration for future projects. Individual past images, videos, writings, etc are also available for purchase for display as art, or usage in either collaborative efforts or for specific projects. As you explore the site, you’ll also see that I can write, both creatively and technically [sometimes both at once].

So ideally what would I like to do? Hire me as a creative consultant or creative director for your project or organization. I work best when I have complete creative freedom to express my ideas. I understand that you will have general concepts, with some specific ideas to explore, though it’s best to avoid too many specifics as this greatly limits the potential for full creative expression/exploration of the concepts (and will most likely increase the time it takes to come up with as powerful/impactful a creation/result).

A great part of the creative and technical process is inspiration. To be inspired invokes a greater creative power where all great ideas come from. I help others find that inspiration within so that they may feel inspired to create that which they desire. I offer consulting, coaching, and guidance to help you broaden your perspective so you can feel inspired, and to help you implement your ideas, projects, and businesses until/while/after you do.

So perhaps this doesn’t all make sense and you still have no clue as to what I do. Look at / read / watch / feel what I’ve done — pay attention to how you feel about my work and use that to get a better sense of what I’ve done and what I can do for you. The creative process is not always linear or logical, and I am attempting to explain it with mere words. Yes, one thing often leads to another, yet we may not realize exactly how or why along the way. In retrospect, the answer becomes much clearer and one can see why certain things had to occur as they did in order to get to where they are now. Yet, the process can be twisting and turning, a voyage through the unknown. That’s where I step in — to be a guide in your voyage, your own journey to your particular destination/goal/project/endeavour.

Definition is subject to change. [many parts may remain, though become more refined through time]

Mark Marano starting a 360 degree time-lapse shot at Sand Key Park

Life happens in feeling
I feel more and better every day
I create and feel happiness every day
I am healthy and strong
I enjoy life every day
I inspire others every day
I love being me
I feel more connected to others every day
I have a greater understanding of life and source every day
I create a fun experience every day
I am relaxed and have a quiet mind every day
My will power is growing
My passive income is growing
My income is more than my expenses and I live comfortably
I am satisfied
I enjoy the journey
I feel inspired
I surround myself by positive influences
My feeling perception is growing
I feel more alive every day
I trust my feelings
Life is getting easier
I feel better with every breathe I take
I love my life
I express and feel gratitude for my experiences
I am connected to everyone and everything
Today is a great day
My feeling muscle grows daily
Today is the best day of my life
My mind is at peace.
I see clearly.
I perceive without judgment
I will live in peace
I love every part of myself
I have a strong will.
Everything I need shows up before I need it.
I am trusting feeling more everyday.
I hear my higher self every day.
Life is awesome
Love is easy
Everything I need is always provided
Everything I need always comes to my easily
Everything I need always comes to my easily when (or before) I need it
I love me
Money keeps showing up!
Money arrives every day into my account.
I am a multi-millionaire.
Life is getting better every day!
I speak with confidence.
I clearly hear messages from God
I live in the now.
I am the now
Life is good
I am independent of the good opinion of other people
I am always kind
I am beautiful and everybody loves me
I now live on purpose (in process rather than outcome)
I am detached from the outcome
I love myself just the way I am
My passive income is greater than my expenses and I live comfortably
I release all fears and doubts
My positive feelings grow stronger every day
I enjoy the moment
I now live a balanced, happy life
I enjoy my life
I joyously give to Life, and Life lovingly gives to me
I perceive and enjoy the subtle feelings
I express myself freely and confidently in front of others
I now live independent of expectations
I relax easily
I now release all worries, fears, and doubts, and create the fun life I desire
I now take full personal responsibility for my life
I am in the world, but not of the world
I am multi-talented, and express myself freely
I now release the needs to be right and perfect
I now respect myself
Life is exciting
I am a miracle worker
I learn and grow everyday
I am naturally high on life
I no longer need approval
I help others realize and fulfill their purpose
I inspire everyone I meet/encounter
I handle life with ease
I love myself
Every day is a beautiful gift
I advance confidently in the direction of my dreams
I see everyone in my life as a teacher
I now surrender the needs to criticize myself and judge others
I naturally send everyone love and appreciation
I confidently express myself, regardless of what others think, say, or do
I always speak confidently from my heart
I inspire others through my way of being
I am willing to release my fears
I live a relaxed life
I collect fun experiences
I live in joy
I am happy in anticipation of what is coming; I enjoy the journey
I am confident and peaceful with myself and others
I now release my past
I love myself and others, and enjoy life!
Today is a beautiful day
I see beauty in everyone and everything
I appreciate the subtle details and connections!
Life is exciting!
I am always happy and excited and loving life!
I always see and appreciate the good
I am free
My freedom grows daily
I now release all constraints and set myself free
I feel great
I now allow my heart to open
I have fun with the primaries.
I enjoy primaries more than the secondaries.
I enjoy being me and no longer worry what others think of me.
I now enjoy having fun, regardless of what others think
I am.
I now release my need to make opinions
I now release my need to live from weakening energies below Integrity
I fill myself with love, and I send that love out into the world. How others treat me is their path; how I react is mine.
The more I fulfill myself, the more people love me.
My chakras are now in balance
I naturally heal myself effortlessly
My life gets more fabulous every day!
I am right here with you
I live in love
I see the world through the eyes of love
I now easily and naturally appreciate everyone
I now live in joy
Others feel better in my presence
I am steadfast in the love I radiate to all others
I am confident, and naturally and effortlessly open my heart to others
I am here now with you.
I feel connected
My income is constantly increasing
I always naturally and effortlessly appreciating everyone and everything
I’m confident and peaceful toward myself and all others
I am confident and express myself authentically and freely
Today I am content to be me.
I am a miracle worker.
I feel the presence of God everywhere, in me and around me
I now release all old emotions, feelings, and events
My body is now in perfect balance
My energy is now in perfect balance
I now allow myself to awaken
My third eye is now open and growing
I now allow myself to feel and awaken
I naturally feel, perceive, and appreciate the world around me as it is
I now live a balanced life without need for extreme extremes
I radiate peace
I experience love wherever I go
I am energetic!
I am full of life and energy!
I am alive!
I love being alive!
I love feeling the aliveness run through me!!!
I balance my life between work, rest, and play. They all get equal time.

(I got a couple of these from others.. check out Louise Hay’s Daily Affirmations and Wayne Dyer’s Daily Inspiration .. If you purchase anything from either author, please use these links to help support this site)

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mark marano : a lens-based artist, explorer, observer, seeker of beauty and truth through the energetic expression of freedom in one experience of life

posing with Lindsay at Jasmine & Jeremy’s wedding reception [shot by Jon]

ah this is the part where we must describe my work.. whom could have thought it would come to this? perhaps the answer lies somewhere deeper than we could have ever imagined.. for if you ask me, i won’t be able to lend you an answer.. at moments, never can i lend a thought hinting you in the remote direction of the, or an, answer.. my work lies somewhere within captured moments of dreams that never occurred.. it describes great losses that i never had.. the cherished memories i once had forgotten that never existed in reality.. it is an exploration of such circumstances i can only have wished to give life to, yet bitterly failed to even recognize until the path became too far driven.. the beaten trail is one i despise, for i never lived it and now can only stray as far away from its clenching arms as possible.. what is the work about? when all one could hope for and one’s broken memories collide, the realization of shattered dreams engulfs one far beyond one’s furthest grasps… the work can never have a definite answer, it can only escalate question upon question.. no matter how far the journey may be, the road behind must follow, bringing back what once was repressed.. can the work be a manner in which i find the truth, or is it only a means to remain within the cyclic self-damnation that occurred many moons ago?

i tend to look at place through a variety of perspectives. i seek the smallest, strangest details in the environment to photograph. i transform a mundane street into a striking image through methods of perception control. i am never found without a camera. my images exhibit only the very surface of unknown dreams. some of my work is less chaotic, commenting on beauty and its bitter destruction through evolution of man. rather than clashing, a seemless integration amongst all aspects of my work can be seen to emerge. tendancies of self-presence in my investigations can be found in a recent video/photo montage. my sense of place is often about the lack of the sense. i wander about through desolation in search of forgotten, undiscovered beauty. this journey requires much travel, and thus the road becomes a key element in my wanderings. the road is long, misleading, and repetitive. i archive this cycle continuously, and recently assembled over 256 of these photographs into an evolving series. the slides presented are selected from my untitled road series, which were found in a site-specific installation of the entire series, ambiguous desires.

artist statement


it is a journey of awakening, remembering and then forgetting again, only to remember, yet once again.

it seems that i do this to better understand some of the ways in how others might awaken. and so i don’t have to wait for another life / dream in order to do it all over again.

i had an interesting experience waking up this morning, or thinking i was waking up.. i woke up and heard some sort of audio program or video playing on my computer where someone was speaking some words and everyone on the call (or in person if it was a live recording?) was repeating the words. it felt kinda strange for so many people to be blindly repeating the affirmations or prayers or whatever it was, and i didn’t know who the speaker was now that i think of it. and then i realized that was still part of a dream at another level.. i was dreaming and woke up within a dream to realize (or wake up again) that i was still dreaming! if it would’ve been another level of waking up, it would’ve been like in the movie inception where they go multiple levels deep into dreaming within a dream. i’m not sure if you’ve seen it.. it is good in how it portrays these multiple aspects though having hollywood action elements to it there is a little violence i think, but its not really bad like other movies. the metaphors (or realities expressed or hinted at in different ways) are really great in regards to this, and it also looks at not even knowing if one is dreaming or not. it was interesting as at first i didn’t know i was dreaming but then i just woke up or realized i was.. not sure what caused it, it was really just a happening, like awakening can be for some, without any direct cause that the mind can know or understand. it was just like an expansion or stepping out of that false reality into a greater reality, awareness, or understanding/wisdom. and then it was interesting as having known this i could still almost linger in between worlds, the dream world and this reality (if one could call it that as it may just be a dream too) where i know it was a dream.. and from the in-between state of knowing both, it felt like i could continue to create the dream more if i wanted to but it was also difficult to keep creating it after knowing it was just a dream (difficult being in a sense.. not that it really was difficult, but it was like why would i want to).

i think this is why there’s almost a little bit of a fear or wondering what will happen as i awaken to greater levels of consciousness and awareness.. as when i realize this whole thing is just a dream i may have this similar experience as i linger in the place where i’m still here in the world but also beyond this unreal world, and i may not feel inclined to stay as i know it isn’t real. and in thinking back to some of the experiences i’ve had where i’ve had experiences of transformation and awakening, one time i was actually starting to ascend out of the body and leave until someone at the course asked what i was doing and he said i was leaving my body and then i felt myself come right back in to it.. though another time after a more advanced process i found myself in a place that felt like i was at a higher level of awareness (or in a higher dimension/plane as my friend who guided me through the exercise described it), and i felt like i had no desires and no resistances.. i just quietly was there and everything simply was. i sat there for a while just watching the world around me from this place of no-mind awareness and everything was totally calm, quiet, and peaceful. i think people were working on their own processes and talking in the background or whatnot, and i was completely undisturbed or affected by any of it. i just saw it as part of the surroundings as i gazed out to the world. [an interesting aside, i remember that when i was sitting there totally calm, one of my friends there whom i had liked (and was interested in a month or two earlier) had said now she actually likes me.. it was funny as it no longer mattered to me (nor did anything else) as i was completely at peace without desire or resistance] it was just before lunch break and most if not all people had left the large hall/room by the time i got up from where i was sitting on the floor. when i got up and started to walk out to the hallway, the experience/perception was as if i moved and then the body followed. i wasn’t confined to being the body or the mind.. i was the spirit and i could flow (around the general area where the body was), and as i floated or flowed in the direction i wanted to go, the body just moved and followed to keep up with the spirit.. i didn’t have to do any of the motion of the arms or legs or anything.. i was the spirit/soul/consciousness/energy that moved (either invisible in the physical plane or on another more subtle / higher plane), and then the physical body followed. i don’t recall exactly what happened after that.. i remember seeing a friend and someone else from the course there and hugging them both on my way to the hallway as i was feeling so free with this ‘new’ perception (and they could get some sense of how / where i was). i probably ate lunch and integrated the experience that afternoon.. i’m sure i had other experiences later too as the whole course/workshop was filled with profound and healing experiences, the most transformational, healing, and profound things i remember experiencing so far in this life.

anyhow, went off on a bit of tangent describing that second experience there.. though getting back to where i started exploring it, i didn’t feel like i wanted to just leave this reality after having that experience as it was just so amazing and beautiful to be here having this experience of life on earth (and have new perceptions of this reality). so it is interesting to wonder what may unfold as the journey continues and consciousness expands/grows. i suppose it all depends on how or where one is looking at it from.. the time i was leaving my body, or when i’ve had thoughts of maybe not coming back after knowing this is a dream, may be arising when certain aspects of life aren’t working.. and i just see that it doesn’t matter anyhow and might just take off and completely stop creating this whole illusion. though if it is working and i’m relaxed, comfortable, and enjoying it, then i’m more likely to stay and just experience it as the whole universe is then a worthwhile creation to continue to play in. i know some say one’s own happiness matters and some say it doesn’t in spiritual growth, though it may possibly be a determination of where one goes as one does grow, ascend, expand, etc. and perhaps all i described was merely just one particular aspect or viewpoint of one particular experience and its completely different every time and for everyone, regardless of any particular similarity or difference in subtleties.

i feel now i must’ve expanded or healed or grown in some way as the words are able to flow through to describe all of this.. recent resistances and obstacles had prevented me from being inspired or creative for quite some time, and now those must be lifted as i’m having this able to flow through me (although not entirely effortlessly, yet the words are able to flow through). i think it comes from the letting go and release of things or aspects in consciousness that i was seeing as burdens.. like all the thoughts about what to do about elements of my physical reality that aren’t perfect or were seemingly unhealthy or limiting in some way were more of what was actually limiting me rather than that the perceived limitations — perhaps it was the resistances and perceptions or thoughts themselves that were more limiting than the actual physical limitations.. as i’ve been letting go and surrendering and accepting where i’m at and being less attached to whether i’m able to do anything in particular (like accept that maybe i just won’t go to any of the community events if i’m not able to find a good car at a good price), i free up the energy and attention that was consumed by these thoughts/feelings/emotions/resistances/etc, and i have more free energy/attention to naturally tune into this creative flow and inspiration. i know i know all of this as i’ve gone through this sort of thing in all the healing + transformational work i described above, though its nice to experience it again. sometimes we can get so caught up in our own perceptions/beliefs/thoughts/etc that this gets us stuck inside the mind in a sense… which is interesting as most of the time the mind is empty and quiet, though the underlying feeling must still be there in consciousness even when we’re not having any of the thoughts and emotions that might be arising strongly at times.. that underlying feeling or aspect of our consciousness is creating a block that may be invisible. we may know that there’s this thing going on in our life but until we fully experience it or let it go in some way, its affecting our reality and preventing the flow of life / the divine / the universe / etc in our experience of life/reality.

i don’t know what else i wanted to write about this at this moment, though its good to have another look at surrender and acceptance and be able to share this from my own personal experience. there are so many teachings out there about this sort of thing but the most important aspect is to have our own direct experience of it. the words can give us some direction but can never be a substitution for actually learning it and feeling it yourself. i remember back when i took the courses i mentioned above and had such profound experiences that simple truths like ‘feeling is healing’ would arise. its good to get back to some of those and to share them once again. it seems that there is so much stuff out there in regards to spiritual and personal growth and healing work and whatnot, so many modalities and teachers, that it can become so overwhelming to one who’s trying to make any progress in life if one is trying to follow someone else’s direction. yes these things can help in the beginning, though one really needs to embark on one’s own inner journey and allow it to all unfold rather than continue to be reading and watching others speaking and sharing new techniques and methods. stick to what you know works and continue to explore through that method if its helping you. now i’m not saying that new things are bad as there is some great technology unfolding in the physical world, though in the realm of consciousness and higher awareness, things tend to become more simple the further we go. all one really needs to do is feel the various aspects of life that one may be resisting. yes some techniques can be quite powerful to help bring those to awareness especially if they’ve been long suppressed, though do not forget that the greatest teacher lies within. follow your heart and ask for divine grace if you feel stuck, and dive wholeheartedly into whatever it is you may be feeling or resisting, and you’ll make it through and discover the peace and bliss on the other side as you surrender and let go of your resistance. as you work through and feel and release whatever may be in your consciousness, you’ll naturally become more aware as you free up your energy. with this greater awareness, you’ll naturally start to see and realize new levels of perception and capacities as consciousness/spirit in a human body. there’s no need to seek these directly, and trying to seek or force any of these on your own may only hinder you in your own growth and expansion. it’s all a very natural process.. just feel and embrace all aspects of yourself unconditionally and you will be free. [and in being free you may just discover that there really was never anywhere to get to but the here and now]

here’s an exploration looking at what i really desire in a new home..

what i most desire is somewhere peaceful, sacred.

[it’s interesting to see how this exploration unfolded.. this morning i awoke excited with some ideas of visioning what i wanted in a home here in florida since i’ve been looking and looking and not finding anything totally ideal. i began writing about what/where i was looking for a home, and as i continued to elaborate on the details and what all it could have, it started to flow into a grander vision of what could be created for a community, a vision i’ve been meaning to re-visit, explore, and write for quite some time.. it’s funny how the divine can work like that and how one thing can lead to another unexpectedly, especially when following inspiration..]

(scroll down to the very long paragraph at the end for the community ideas)

to me this means natural, quiet, safe, away from disturbances of traffic, not near big power-lines with emf/emr pollution/radiation nor any other industrial/commercial source of pollution or noise, not near any areas of crime or parts of town that are run down or unpleasant to look at. it’d be nice if its somewhere not overly developed, or if its developed, its planned out nicely or kept up.

i’d like somewhere that is right by a nice trail (or small roads) to bike on, where i can bike to a local nature park or preserve without taking or crossing any major roads (or seeing any stores, gas stations, stoplights, etc). (this is why the lansbrook area is nice, as i can get to both the local park and john chesnut park without going on or to east lake road, and some of the trails/sidewalk to the local park are wider and have nice landscaping, where you don’t really see the homes, and the homes you do see are newer/nicely kept. both parks are also quite nice being right on the lake, and john chesnut itself being large enough to provide plenty of space for bicycling within it and exploring on a couple trails)

i’d like a good size lot for the privacy and space it offers. when i look out my windows or doors, i’d like to see nature and not other houses, streets, or signs of anything manmade. i’d like something without any deed restrictions nor hoa or any other special rules so i have as much flexibility to build and do what i want. (however, as above, i’d like it to be in a nice area where everyone keeps everything looking nice/clean but just doesn’t need the rules telling/limiting them what to do) i’d like to have plenty of room on my land for various projects, such as growing food, building a greenhouse, making a meditation garden, building a treehouse or lookout tower, etc. i’d like somewhere where i can first start off parking a tiny home, large travel trailer, airstream, or other rv so i can live in that before i build my home to make sure i like the lot and area (and to have somewhere to stay in the interim). i’d likely still keep the rv/home somewhere on the land to be able to travel with up to the flowering heart center in illinois in the summer months (which hopefully the new center has a spot where i can park and have at least a couple hookups for water and electric, unless there’s enough of us in the community there that want to have community living space soon that we build residential options on-site or nearby).

i’d like my home and land to be very peaceful, natural, and enjoyable as i’d likely spend a lot of time there. daily i’d wander out for a bike ride on the beautiful local trails to the nearby park, or go for a drive to a local park. other than going to parks or nature preserves, i’d mostly just go out to the grocery or health food store, local spiritual communities, or on occasion some local restaurants with good vegetarian options. when i meet a nice, beautiful spiritual/conscious/awakened girl with a good/flowered heart who desires a committed relationship, i’d also often spend time going to visit (until we live together) or going out exploring with her. my home shouldn’t be far from health food stores nor from the flowering heart center in clearwater. my home need not be right by the water though it’d be nice to be close to the gulf, or at least a nice lake or wide open field, as i often like to go see the sunset regularly.

my home would be my own little private ashram, a sacred space where i can be present, relax, or work undisturbed.

the air will be very clean as i like to keep my windows open most of the year when temperatures permit. it will be quiet in the sense of sound, quality of air, etc on the physical plane, and it will also be quiet in the spiritual/mental/emotional planes where i wouldn’t feel any disturbances of lower consciousness anywhere on my land or in the surrounding area. my home will be a very peaceful place where it will be just me and the divine, and i can dissolve into the divine presence daily. everyone and everything nearby will feel and live from a deep sense of peace. it will be more of a mountain cabin or vacation home that one might seek, except it will be my primary residence during the cooler/moderate months in florida where i can easily live and enjoy a simple life. when i feel like going on adventure or interacting with the world, i’ll get in my van (or other exploration vehicle) and go for a ride, wandering as i feel called to. when i get tired of being on the road and just want to rest, i’ll come back home and relax and can feel very refreshed/renewed.

the home itself will be constructed of something very strong and resilient, such as a disaster-proof monolithic dome, so i can leave it for as long as i like and regardless of weather or anything, i know it will still be there safe when i return. it will be energy-efficient and have eco-friendly healthy materials. the styling will be modern, simple, clean, and elegant, either bright or rich in tone, and perhaps with wood or other natural materials in the inside. it’ll be constructed for longevity and to require little to no maintenance. it’d be nice to have off-grid capability in terms of rain collection and solar/wind power, with perhaps the water re-usage capabilities/treatment of an earthship. it’ll have a nice deck/balcony with portions enclosed by screen and portions open, both with magnificent views of trees and nature as far as one can see. it’d be nice to have a jacuzzi and/or sauna to relax in. my home will be a bit of a retreat center where i live simple, relaxed life for as long as i feel called to, between adventures, explorations, and gatherings with beautiful communities. all components will be made of quality, built with care and love, feel solid, and work very well without need for any repair nor maintenance visits.

if my acreage is quite large or huge, it need not necessarily be right by a park as it will essentially become its own park that i can make trails on to explore and bike around. the views from my home will be quite stunning as i see, feel, and sense that i am surrounded by nature. wherever i walk in the home, as i’m going to the kitchen, through the living room, sitting at my desk, lounging in a chair, etc, i will experience glimpses and sights of the natural beauty through the windows or glass doors, as i feel the fresh breeze lightly flowing through my home bringing in quiet natural sounds of birds, the air, water, etc.

the lighting, both inside and outside of my home, will be quite nice. there will be different options for mood, such as dim intimate lighting for romance or sacred space, dimmable lights that light the entire ceiling of the dome for a nice glow, candlelight throughout, more typical modern lights, including under cabinets, etc. there will be nice rope or christmas lighting (perhaps inside and outside), and torch and/or sidewalk lights outside (perhaps lighting various paths on the acreage to be able to wander in the meditation garden).

i will experience much financial abundance and easily be able to pay for the land and home (and continue to add new aspects later, such as the gardens and outdoor areas or structures), as well as easily purchase quality food, travel/adventure, health/wellness experiences, pay for taxes/utilities/ongoing expenses, etc, and be able to generously contribute to spiritual communities and causes that resonate with me. i’ll also be able to start intentional/spiritual community living centers.

some may see aspects of what i wrote above as unnecessary or a bit excessive.. while it’d be nice, i wouldn’t necessarily need dozens or hundreds of acres all for myself, and…

i’d be happy to have all of the above as part a spiritual retreat center or ashram, with a smaller home nearby on a quiet section of the land for myself. then i could spend quiet time in my home as i felt called to, and easily go for a short walk over to the common community areas where we’d have beautiful gardens and shared spaces to meditate and explore together. we’d have plenty of community events: dinners, gatherings, fires, crystal + tibetan bowls, performances, etc. the main community center/temple could be quite large to hold many people for bigger events and would be a nice gathering place for community members to sit quietly, meditate, or meet with friends. i see the main center being one large room in a white dome building. there’d also be smaller buildings, adjoining or nearby, with restrooms, classrooms, a community kitchen, meditative spaces, etc. community members would help with keeping everything neat and clean, growing/harvesting food, gathering/preparing supplies, cooking, gardening, maintaining, etc. we would all live and function as one, in harmony with each other, the space, and the divine. it will be a beautiful space with everyone living at high levels of consciousness and anyone who steps on the grounds or anywhere nearby will be awakened and have their hearts flower. the community will grow to have multiple locations throughout the country or world. i see myself traveling between the locations, at first between the flowering heart centers in florida and illinois as i do now, and then to wherever the centers may grow. my adventures will be the journey between the communities, stopping in nature and other beautiful places, and while at the community centers, i’ll have my own homes and feel at home surrounded by the community family. it will be an extraordinary experience and many beautiful souls will feel called to join, participate, and help elevate consciousness. the communities will experience much abundance in all aspects, and be able to be completely self-sustainable. no longer will any of us have to do anything we feel forced to do just to survive. the divine will provide effortlessly, and the communities can help be a model, inspirational centers, for others looking for alternative ways of life than what currently exists in most of the world. there’d be various living options, exploring sustainable and alternative ways of building, such as building with natural materials, earthships, monolithic domes, yurts, tiny homes, treehouses, etc. some homes would be closer together for those who desire the neighborly small town feel, and some further apart with more natural space between for those who prefer the most monk-like silence. there could also be larger buildings with suites/dormitory/hotel style living for anyone who prefers those, and there would be both temporary and permanent spaces for living. the community could be a retreat center where one could come and stay for a few moments, hours, days, weeks, months, years, or a lifetime. the daily activities and gatherings would be there for those who like or need a schedule or routine, though the atmosphere would be very relaxed and if one missed a class or activity, one could easily pick up where one left off whenever one returns. if anyone is in need of any guidance, spiritual or otherwise, there would always be someone there who could be present or help, though the divine presence itself would so abundant that there likely wouldn’t be the need to specifically hold space for whatever someone may be going through. one would heal simply by being there. there could be a dome room/building where solfeggio frequencies and other sacred sounds are continuously being played where one could sit or lie down in and heal or relax. in other spaces, community members could share various modalities, such as yoga, tai chi, kai chi do, qi gong, reiki, sound healing, oneness processes, exercises from the avatar course, etc, etc. besides cooking community dinners, some members could teach and share how to cook, prepare, and eat healthy vegetarian, raw, or plant-based foods, how to use essential oils, breathing techniques/meditations, and other wellness-related perspectives. there’d also be teaching and workshops of how to apply sustainable principles to create new communities. visiting or living at the center would be an incredible learning and growing experience.. it could almost become a resort or theme park for spiritual wellbeing (but without any consumeristic or detrimental aspects that may be found in those typical sort of facilities). it would be a place for very clean, pure, divine living.. a heaven manifested on earth. there could be group adventures on a regular basis, to take a bus out to a local beach, natural park, local festival/event, healthy restaurant, or to simply wander about public places and radiate blessings and joy to whomever is there. the spiritual retreat center could be like a small town with beautiful walkways, trails, and common areas between the various unique homes and community buildings. divine love and peace would be felt and seen all throughout and within. there could be spaces where community members would regularly exhibit their divinely inspired creative talents, art, writing, speaking, etc. in places that are cold for extended portions of the year, such as the midwest, the center would have indoor facilities to grow food throughout the year, and there could be long heated hallways or tunnels between buildings so one could access most, if not all, of the structures without needing to step out into the cold. in temperate but rainy places, such as parts of hawaii or somewhere else tropical, there could be covered walkways made of bamboo or other natural materials that are open and airy between the buildings. wherever the location is, there would be many beautiful tree-lined trails, walkways, and streets (though motorized vehicles, particularly ones that create noise or pollution, would be kept and driven outside most of the walkable or bikeable areas). the grounds of the center/ashram/town would span hundreds of acres or more, and be surrounded be undeveloped nature, farm, or preserve in a rural area (but not necessarily far from a town, city, or suburban area). as the community and presence grows, the energy emanating from the space would be felt throughout the entire region, causing other beautiful divine manifestations to unfold in their own unique ways nearby (which would help elevate consciousness and flower the heart of those not necessarily interested in a spiritual retreat center or any of the modalities or perspectives offered). there would be a number of unique, beautiful, and serene places to just hang out, sit, walk, or meditate throughout the grounds. there could be a nice observation deck or lookout tower where one could look out into the horizon over the trees, a beautiful pond or lake where one could go for a swim or canoe/kayak ride, and many places to see and experience the natural beauty of the sun setting and rising. there’d be dark open fields to gaze up at the star-filled sky at night. the gardens would be beautifully kept, a meditation just in walking through them, and could become a single reason some come to visit the grounds. there could be a labyrinth, rock gardens, meditation circles, and many places to get lost exploring (with perhaps even a garden/hedge maze for fun). on some parts of the grounds, there could be some subtle ethereal music playing as well as nice lighting and water features or fountains. as one awakens there will be many joys and much beauty to explore and discover, both natural and human-made. there could be large open house events where many come to the center for workshops or a visiting spiritual teacher. during these events, naturally some new visitors may decide to stay for a while, and there’d be plenty of rooms available for whomever feels called to. one may feel drawn or guided toward certain modalities, workshops, or activities offered, or one’s process may simply be to take in the energy, embrace nature, or relax in the community jacuzzi, sauna, or other amenities. whatever path one may be on, one will discover exactly what one needs. there could be a community library of donated books, or little libraries throughout where one might just happen upon the perfect book having the exact answer or question one needed next. if there are families and children residing on the grounds, the education will come from a higher level of awareness, teaching spiritual principles and how to live and interact in the body as a spirit/consciousness, rather than most typical education/memorizing currently taught in society that focuses on programming the mind. one wouldn’t be forced to learn anything, and learning would be more of a discovery process where one could explore and learn whatever anyone felt called to. naturally and organically, some would feel inspired to explore creative aspects of life, some would learn technology, some would learn sustainability, growing food, building, connection, spiritual or healing modalities, teaching, etc, etc. everything that is needed will be divinely inspired and unfold. the spiritual center community will be a place where miracles will unfold on a regular basis. one will feel lighter and more peaceful simply by stepping on the grounds. it will be a safe place where one can be vulnerable and truly embark upon one’s personal/spiritual growth process, whether it be by healing through a process in the loving presence of the divine and other community members, or by simply having a place to dissolve into the void and slip into samadhi to explore higher planes of existence. the boundaries of separation would dissolve and we would all live from our highest divine nature, letting our light shine forth to the world and universe.

Life is a balance between being the creator and the experiencer.

[my response to a new friend, Aja, who asked about the concept of my little planet photos, amongst other conversation]

that’s awesome! i wish i was raised spiritual.. i had to work through indoctrination and other limiting beliefs/views from my family :) it’s funny to see so many of them still there, and how it’s causing them to continue old ways.

that’s a great way to look at it.. yes, it feels like that to me too.. as our vibration/energy increases by doing what we love, everything flows much more smoothly

i haven’t really thought about one specific concept for the little planet photos.. i’ve written and explored a lot of various perspectives, some related to the images, some not.. (you can look for the “writing” tag/link on my website if you’re interested though there’s a lot of other stuff to filter through) it feels like all of my work is somehow related to exploring perspectives, wider or more expansive ways of seeing the world, and exploring perception itself. they are all metaphors for one to expand one’s own awareness to higher levels to be able to understand this inter-connectedness of everything, and to be able to discover one’s own spirituality, the divine, god, one’s higher self, the inner teacher, oneness, whatever you want to call this higher perspective/understanding/awareness of this experience we call life. it feels like part of the exploring perspectives with various techniques and pushing the envelope, so to speak, is to subtly or subconsciously get others to feel more open about seeing the world, both their own world/life and the collective world around us, in new ways. as one learns to expand one’s own awareness and perspectives about aspects of one’s own life, the self-limiting beliefs and viewpoints fade away.. as enough of these disappear, it’s like polishing a lens, and the discovery of the infinite and one’s connection to one’s source becomes crystal clear. yes it could take a while and this journey is longer for some than others, though.. i’m starting to get off track here :) but essentially yes, the work is about all of this. before i even knew i was on a spiritual path or journey many years ago, these sort of messages were coming to me, and i can see this unfolding in my photography as part of my own journey. i think it all started off by me just exploring and having fun and getting interested in it and seeing where it would go.. and it took me on an adventure!

i could ramble/flow on much more about all of this.. i love engaging and getting lost in deep conversations about this sort of thing :)

have you had any brilliant moments of higher awareness, connection, knowing, etc in your life that really stand out, or any truly defining moments related to your own understanding/spirituality?

thanks! back to the second part of your question about the images.. while there is the underlying message of expanding perspectives, yes, part of it is for one’s own interpretation, as one must expand one’s own viewpoints in order to come to one’s own experiential understanding and knowing. just as one can read all one wants though the intellectual understanding won’t be anything like the actual knowing or doing, and one’s own experience will be different based upon one’s previous experiences and perspectives, this aspect exists in the work too.. it can mean subtly or vastly different things to different people, and that’s totally fine. just as how we all perceive this world differently and even upon awakening to great profound experiences, it’s likely to be a little different for everyone.. so i’m not going to say my work only means one exact thing :) so i suppose the simple answer to your question is both, all of the above, some of the above, and perhaps none of the above for some :)

i recall when i first encountered little planet photos and started researching how to create them, it was after i was awakening to new understandings and perspective shifts of what was going on in my own life. [the short story: i had gone through a lot after attempting to start a new business venture unlike anything i had done before and it wasn’t working out, and i had become more aware of spirituality and really began to step back and look at what i was doing with my life and what really mattered to me at the time] after coming up with a way to somewhat easily be able to create a lot of little planet photos with minimal gear (at the time, now it’s much easier), i decided to really embrace the technique and that’s practically all i shot when i was exploring for a few days on a trip. i forget exactly when, though probably at some point early during the trip after going to a lot of beautiful spots in nature, the idea came to me of how awesome it’d be to do little planet time-lapses as i don’t believe they had been done before (likely due to limited technology and technique at the time). as i was limited with the gear i had with me at the time, i stood for an hour literally walking around in a circle around the monopod i had the camera on taking 4 shots for each still frame of the time-lapse, and i had a proof of concept. from there, when i got back home, ideas came to me of how to solve the technical issues of having the tripod not show up in the shot and being able to automate the process so i could have precisely aligned images to work with, and not have to walk around in a circle every time for an hour :) i’m not sure exactly where this is all taking me, but it feels like it relates to what you said and i agreed with in the beginning.. i was getting really excited about this new technique or idea and jumping all in on it, fully embracing it, and that enthusiasm sparked the creativity and being able to take it to the next level. it feels like this is part of the underlying message too by exploring so many different ways of seeing. the divine is working in subtle aspects to hint at those seeing the work to be able to engage in what really drives them. when people have come up to me when i’ve done kite aerial photography or they saw me in my truck camper or something, and i got really excited talking about it (because i was really was excited to be doing what i was doing at the moment), i could feel and see their perspectives/energy shifting and opening up. they likely wouldn’t ever have any interest in actually doing kite aerial photography but that enthusiastic energy flowing through me of what i was feeling might be just what they needed to make them feel better or inspire them to be able to do what they want (or feel called to). perhaps that’s what my work is about, inspiration

wow, so that was a bit long, hope you enjoy the chapter i wrote :) and thank you for the inspiration that came to me by asking! i think i’m gonna post this as one of my writings on my website/journal (only the part i just wrote, not your message)


oh and i just realized i had forgotten how i was originally going to relate that last part.. [it seems i’ve allowed the flow of inspiration to be a little affected by the continuous loud noise of lots of lawn care equipment all around my condo complex at the moment.. though sometimes we just need to let go and surrender in order to remember] i feel that part of the reason i discovered the little planet look (where you effectively see in all directions) and invented a way to be able to take this to another level (by creating time-lapses with the look) was because of where i was in my own spiritual journey.. as i began to become interested in learning about higher levels of awareness and perspectives such as oneness, i naturally attracted/created/manifested/aligned with a photographic technique that could illustrate this way of perceiving/understanding/knowing..

(after the Oneness Awakening Course, photo shot by Margaret)
(after the Oneness Awakening Course, photo shot by Margaret)
(in seeing that i was even more peaceful than i usually am, she seemed to think i was drunk or high or something!)
(in seeing that i was even more peaceful than i usually am, she seemed to think i was drunk or high or something!)

it’s funny. as one awakens, so does the world around them

part of my work is about the moments you don’t see or pay attention to. it’s making significant the insignificant. it’s the moments inbetween moments you yearn for. the subtle yet overlooked. what is always there yet unknown. it’s taking these moments and glorifying them. perhaps as a means to bring one to notice what one does pay attention to and put energy into. and to subconsciously help one realize that every moment is beautiful. why divide or seperate moments into what one likes and doesn’t like. why categorize into good and bad. why divide at all. reunite, and become one. it’s been underneath all my work. a subtle layer i didn’t even realize in the earlier parts. part of me knew, though part of me thought it was about something else. funny how life is like that. you can see one thing completely differently from the intended message, or from what someone else sees.

it’s about being in love with the world. appreciating it all. feeling alive and life itself.

it’s about rewriting what’s already been written, merely for the sake of doing so.

and expressing reality while entangled in the unreal.

while reversing what is and what isn’t, to expand one’s palette of possibility.

some of my work has nothing to do with any of this. it just exists for the experience alone. [though, yet, this is exactly the same message, in a different manner]

we are all different vantage points in the whole. [the whole is one]

the message already exists. though this time many messengers arrived so it could be heard by all.

[for when all is [knowingly] one, quite brilliant things might arise]

and it’s not always about being a messenger, as it is in living the message. [it will emanate and shine through brilliantly on its own no matter what is said or done, if anything]

the true work is about feeling the connection [to the unknown] and running freely with it.
it’s a wild journey [this whole thing we call life]

don’t try to understand, for that only leads you astray.
it is in experiencing that one knows.

[no matter when, why, how, where, while you read this] today is a brilliant day.

when you awaken, the many [once hidden] layers become transparent and quite obvious [they were always there].

letting go of unnecessary definition [which is all of it], is of far greater value than creating new definitions.

it seems to be becoming a little clearer to me what surrendering really is.

..do i choose to allow it fully?

[one of] my purpose[s] in creating art, life, the world, etc is to see [just] how differently others might interpret it

perhaps there really is no purpose in and of itself [other than to understand/explore new perspectives, through those other perspectives]

[its taking the purpose out of the art, and placing it in the experience of the art]

[for life itself only is experience, hence a metaphor]

on a cruise with my friend's company

Once again, I find myself desiring to create some sort of inspirational center. There is such great energy at the Bodhi Spiritual Center in Chicago, and lots of fun activities happening. Though, will I find this community in other places as I travel? I yearn to have such a connection wherever I may go. Especially as I travel to nature, and experience the beauty of the land. Perhaps what I must create is an escape, a place where one may experience a retreat for their own growth and creativity. Those who live in urban places can still explore what remains there, though when they need to take a break, and escape from the chaos found in the city, they may go visit the inspirational center I desire to create. Whether it be a long or short visit, friends and exploration will await at the inspirational center. Some may choose to live there for extended lengths of time or permanently. Everyone can share their talents and inspire others, while absorbing the high energy of a beautiful, natural setting. This is the place I seek. The place I will create. The center will also grow its own food and be completely self-sustainable so those who visit will have an abundance of fresh food to live off of and not have to worry about the basic necessities as they take a moment or two to visit during their journey of life. And a part of the entire experience will be learning to live in a unique setting, very much an alternate to the conventional city life. This unique experience of disconnecting from the ordinary, everyday life may be the catalyst in inspiring someone to follow their path, their passion.

inspiration • creativity • design • logic • programming • process design • putting together the pieces • seeing the entire picture [and how individual components relate to the whole] • photography • technique creation • research and development • writing • driving • exploring • inspiring • listening • appreciating • solitude / being quiet • being expressive • cinematography • idea implementation • web site + web app design/development • business startup • minimalism • expanding perspectives • invention • perseverance

one who lives in the era of the great awakening to be free, at peace, and inspire others

Mark is a source being, whose life purpose is the energetic expression of freedom. He lives his life as a work of art, expresses himself creatively, and chooses to be a multi-talented individual as an inspiration for others to explore their own unlimited potential.

The Greats in Photography such as Ansel Adams

– Baraka
– Chronos
– Koyaanisqatsi: Life out of Balance
– Powaqqatsi: Life in Transformation
– Naqoyqatsi: Life as War

other films:
– 1 Giant Leap
– Ambition to Meaning: Finding Your Life’s Purposes (and audio programs by Wayne Dyer)
– Waking Life
– What the Bleep Do We Know!? & What the Bleep!? – Down the Rabbit Hole

– Nature, places untouched by man
– Watching the Sunlight Dance Between the Clouds Across the Distant Landscape on a Perfect Day: Mostly-Sunny / Partly-Cloudy, 77 degrees with a light, slightly cooling breeze
– Absolute Silence
– Being in the Moment
– Staring at the Stars on a Clear, Moonless Night many miles from major light pollution
– The Feeling of Connection & Deeper Levels of Understanding
– Peace
– Learning New Perspectives
– Opening My Eyes to New Methods of Perception / Levels of Awareness
– Meeting Others Who Understand
– Living Life Free of Constraints
– Travel, Experiencing New Places
– Meeting Others Who Are Non-Judgmental
– Falling in Love
– Positive Energy
– Sedona, Hawaii, the West
– Parks (the temporary escape from the surrounding chaos)
– Surrounding Myself with a Community of Like-Minded Individuals
– Sharing Life Experiences and Philosophies with those who understand
– Knowing There is Always a Reason for Everything, despite not always knowing or being able to fully understand why until much later
– Understanding Why as the Path Unfolds
– Enjoying the Journey
– Re-Embarking on My Quest
– Surrendering the Ego
– Fully Expressing Myself, My Way of Life (see the line above and realize the dilemma it is to be an artist!)
– Learning/Researching/Creating New (art/photo) Techniques to Explore New Ways of Self-Expression
– Understanding the Self
– Understanding Higher Levels of Awareness/Consciousness / God / Energy / the Universe / Spirituality
– Allowing the Thoughts and Ideas to Flow out Fluently from a Higher Place
– Realizing that the Words Always Make Perfect Sense (when you realize what they actually mean)
– Being Inspired
– Feeling the Ever-Present Moment when the mind is silent
– Realizing that Everything is Perfect (despite my often constant strive for perfection)
– Simplifying Life
– Relaxing
– Creating
– Doing Something With Purpose (although often I may not know exactly what the purpose is! perhaps I mean Doing Something that has Purpose / is of Significance)
– Hearing Music that brings back the Memories / Feelings (without excess effort to find/sort/play the music)
– Feeling Emotion
– Sharing Emotion with Those Who Are Non-Judgmental
– Knowing Oneness
– Observing
– Feeling Significant
– Seeing Enthusiasm in Someone Who Desires to Create Something Extraordinary
– Realizing the Connection Between Thoughts / Ideas / Concepts (and often running off on long tangents to demonstrate the importance of all these connections)
– Long Conversations about Life, Philosophy, deep things that truly matter
– Being Authentic, Honest
– Songs With Emotion
– Feeling and Understanding High Energy
– Dreaming
– Feeling the Breeze
– The View from Above (literally/physically)
– The Omniscient Perspective (metaphysically)
– Understanding Our Necessary Purpose(s) as Observers of the Fine Details of the Greater Perspective
– Desiring to Express this, all of this (which is really the unexpressable, as the moment it is expressed, it has already become altered)
– Realizing Above All, the Experience is what Truly Matters (and is what Perfection is, no matter how much one can strive to express perfection)
– (realizing there is really nothing more I can say to make you understand any clearer)
– creating in the moment (when it does occur, it occurs perfectly!)

Mark is currently in a state of transformation – a transitional process of redefining his life’s purpose. He has recently experienced multiple awakenings, and is learning to perceive the world from a higher level of awareness. Mark’s primary aim is to live a life of freedom and peace. His quest is to share this understanding with others, and assist in the global shift of consciousness.

Mark loves the sense of adventure found in travel, and the serenity of nature. He loves to explore ideas, discuss philosophy, and learn of how others perceive life. Mark desires to experience the beauty in each day and share it through creative expressions.

Mark Marano lives for freedom – to truly experience all the great things life has to offer. He believes in treating others with integrity, approaching life with a positive attitude, and sharing his abundant perspective with the world. Living free of constraints, Mark is able to experience a peaceful life of relaxation, spirituality, and contentment, and an energetic life of creativity, passion, and enthusiasm. He loves travel, adventure, and romance.

Mark believes everyone deserves freedom, and a goal of his is to guide as many people as possible toward a path of freedom. He believes life can only happen when one is free to live to their full potential. Mark is presently educating others how to become free, design their ideal life, and achieve their dreams. He thinks of himself in terms Greg Pinneo states, as being “a bit of a travel agent – I get people from where they are to where they want to go.” Perhaps it should be first stated that Mark desires to raise others’ levels of awareness of their full potential, as many people have set limitations on their own possibilities.

Recently beginning his awakening and transformation, Mark Marano is excited to meet others who wish to create success in their lives, and wants to inspire them to take the leap forward toward their own freedom. He also desires to meet others who have already become successful, and learn of their stories, challenges, and achievements. Being intrigued by the deeper philosophies of life and the universe, Mark loves to engage in conversations of perception, spirituality, and synchronicity. He especially seeks to meet positive people who dream big, have a conviction they can achieve their dreams, and are ambitious to strive toward their goals.

lunch with Jon Cancelino and Jesse Walker

it is quite an experience to realize when encountering a moment of actualisation
quite a beautiful thing is held when all the pieces suddenly fit what only a moment ago was in disarray
if only i could discover and actualise a way to realize many more of these divine moments
mere words do no justice to the drop of reality once held
yet now it becomes a delusion and washed away unto the chasms of forgotten thoughts and unexplored seas
the context of my surrounds is perhaps a necessity in the elemental foundations before the cause

why must it all exist behind the barrier
i need to find a methodology outside the ring of encompassing dreams and fascinations
only a given fraction may lend the answer to annihilate the protected desires
beware criticizing and analysis of the truth may only lend you an increased ability to yearn after and grasp the lie