what an incredible experience the last week or two has been! life is amazing when one allows it to flow!
i’ve been having some great conversations with people i just met and some that i’ve known for a while though hadn’t really conversed with. lots of amazing connections and understandings have come up. i was originally only going to be up in chicagoland for 2-3 weeks and was wanting to get on the road soon for my trip to the east coast, but now i know why it all worked out for me to stay here.
i’ve experienced greater awareness and connection to others and the divine. it’s probably been a cumulative effect between the sound healings, Oneness blessings, Oneness Meditations, Darshan from Amma, etc, etc. i’m becoming more comfortable talking about all of these things in front of others, even people i’ve just met. in the past i’ve felt that i had to know someone first or know that they’re interested in similar things, though now it’s easier to sense the connection/interest/etc and allow these experiences to flow through me. it’s only going to get better and better, as the energies are continuing to increase and expand. it will be absolutely amazing and beautiful when the whole world has awakened.
i had heard about Amma, the hugging saint, in the past, though didn’t know much about her. a friend, Iris, who i just met at the sound healing a couple weeks ago, told me about it and inspired me to go, especially the first day and the last day. at first i was thinking i’d go just the middle day for a couple hours, though i did end up going for pretty much the whole three days (except the last day when i got there midday). the energy was so amazing, just being in her presence or nearby. a lot of the first day i was sitting there through the program though i hadn’t seen or heard from Iris (or anyone else i knew). i thought maybe i’d leave though continued to just be there and it felt okay. in the past, i would have gotten agitated, bored, or something and really resisted staying, though i felt comfortable just being there. it’s amazing how just being in the presence of a higher level of consciousness/energy elevates everyone nearby.
i had a great experience during and after the IAM meditation on the second day. Amma’s trainers described the meditation as being very powerful. it’s a great combination of motion, breath, visualization, stillness, etc! it’s awesome as elements very similar to some of the components had come to me in the past. there was a great question and answer session with one of the swamis afterwards too. between this experience and having the questions i wrote for Doug from the Oneness community answered during the skype session last weekend, i’m seeing reinforced connections between my understandings and others’ understandings/teachings of what is happening in this whole thing called life. right after learning the IAM meditation, i went back to the main hall and ran into Marla (who i had met a couple weeks ago at the sound healing + Deeksha at Kristin’s home / spiritual center). things were flowing effortlessly as in being present, I could tell something was different in Marla’s energy, and by simply being there and listening to her experiences, she was able to see the reflection that helped her realize what was in her space. it was funny as we were waiting for Iris to meet us near the entrance though somehow we missed each other, though that must have all been part of the divine plan so i could listen to Marla. i noticed other seemingly random or odd occurrences like that too. it’s awesome how life is experienced at higher levels of consciousness!
i had an amazing conversation later in the evening with Marla. just being more present from experiencing higher energy, so many connections came up. life flows so easily when one is tuned in to it! it’s amazing and crazy how awesome and interconnected this whole thing we call reality is. there really is no limit to all of it — it’s infinite! after a couple times thinking the conversation was amazing and we should be recording it, i started recording it with my phone. it’s funny to watch how conscious i become of being recorded. i start paying attention to the future audience of the recording in addition to whom i’m speaking to in the conversation. it does definitely alter the experience of the here and now. wow, that’s a funny realization i just had. what i just wrote about altering the here and now. because all that is is here and now, and i’m using a device that is acknowledging the possibility of a not here or not now. by doing so, it takes me out of the here and now. i suppose i need to record without knowing i’m recording. so at another here and now, i can stumble upon the message that i created for myself in the earlier here and now (all to remind me, or another part of me, to be in the here and now!). by not being aware that i’m being recorded, i can live more fully in the moment and not think about the possibility of another moment. that must be a key to living more fully in the here and now — to get completely lost in the here and now, and fully engage into it. in the conversation we talked about a lot of related things. it does seem like i resist fully engaging in the moment a lot of the time, or more of fully letting go into the what is [as i feel i may not come back, and i’m liking this reality now]. it seems like we could totally transform this entire experience of reality, and this reality itself, by simply choosing to. though part of me wants to do this, part of me still wants to experience this path i’m currently on as amazing things are happening in the world now. it will be absolutely amazing to continue to live this life and experience the awakening of the planet.
it’s awesome how much energy one can feel and live from. the last night, the program was running overnight until the morning and i felt myself getting a little tired when i just sat there, though when i talked to someone, i would feel myself getting more energetic and the tiredness disappear. i did go sleep in the camper for a couple hours as we had a company event the next day. i was a little tired after another new friend, Natalia, knocked on my door as they announced it’d be a good time to wake anyone up who was sleeping as the line for receiving hugs was approaching the end and the closing would take place soon — after the sun started to rise and the closing began, i felt more energetic and alive (and only sleeping for not more than a couple hours that night no longer mattered).
earlier on the last day, Natalia had spoke about doing seva (service/volunteering). she was going to be helping direct people into the parking lot. it was funny how it unfolded as when Iris first told me about Amma coming to town, she told me about doing seva, and earlier in the program i saw some signs about different types of help that was needed though wasn’t completely drawn to them at the time, though thought i could do the parking seva [during the q&a with the swami, i recall him speaking about the effectiveness of doing seva that resonates with one vs doing seva that doesn’t resonate with one]. i conversed with Natalia for a while after the morning program was ending, though had felt disconnected from her the first day or two even though i talked to her for a little bit when Iris introduced me to her the first day. something must have shifted in the energy as i felt more present and able to connect with her as we spoke with each other. i think i was feeling a little disconnected the first day as i must have been resisting the high energies, though right near the beginning of the second day, i was feeling much more alive and clear. it’s awesome to connect with others, understand new perspectives, and make new friends who are on similar paths! as we were chatting about a few things, she mentioned a lot of people from Fairfield, a high energy town in Iowa, being at the event. shortly after, Chiraj, who lived there, happened to walk by where we were sitting and after chatting for a while, we all ended up doing the parking seva as they could use the extra help. it was great to make another friend/connection. it’s truly joyous to be around so many high energy people. i envision much more enlightened living where life happens so beautifully and everyday everyone can explore their connections to others as we all celebrate this experience of one life through many eyes of perception and hearts of understanding. this will be how the inspirational center i envision will feel. everything will happen smoothly, perfectly, in divine order and it will be so beautiful just to be there.
i stayed awake and energized for most of the day until the evening near the end of the company event. i was feeling pretty tired as we were sitting down for some food before the guys went home after the brief training and indoor racing. i had only maybe 2 hours of sleep the last night, 4-5 hours the night before, and not lots of sleep the night before that — the previous nights i had slept in my camper (not popped up) on the bridge over the river in st charles so it got loud early and was a little cold especially the first night, so maybe the body was focusing on feeling the lack of sleep catching up. i think i was also resisting sharing my awesome experiences the past few days as i’m not sure how much the guys would understand. Joe had brought in Dragan, a trainer for the Tony Robbins company, to speak to the guys — i could tell he had a certain level of awareness to him, and could tell that he could sense an understanding from me too. it was funny, as i ended up sitting right next to him at the dinner table though in the beginning was feeling low in energy and stayed quiet, as i felt i didn’t want to speak too much about my understanding and awareness as it didn’t come from Tony’s material and he had just spoken to the guys about his program (and i had indicated i wasn’t going to the upcoming event). after a little bit, i went to the bathroom and when i came back shifted my energy a bit to a little higher level. i don’t remember exactly how it came up, but Dragan and i started speaking and it felt good as we recognized each other’s understanding. i was able to share my experiences with him and others nearby and it felt really good. Micah asked about the IAM meditation that i experienced at Amma’s program and around that time i felt him and at least a couple others attention fully engaged on the words that were flowing through me. it’s amazing when one decides to show up and allow the energy to flow through. the rest of the evening felt great as i was able to share and connect at a higher level with others. Jake said at one point the whole table was focused on the conversation that was happening in the middle between him, Joe, Dragan, and myself. as i was listening (maybe when speaking too), i was invoking/radiating higher energy to help raise the consciousness. between the conversation and the energy, i’m sure we helped raise new levels of awareness. it’s awesome how this stuff all works (and that it can happen anywhere and anytime)!
i had a great experience at the Shift into Awakening last weekend too. it feels so long ago, it seems i can barely remember it. my entire experience of time is shifting! i do remember it being great and having an amazing experience. i was able to connect with my friend Marielee, whom i’d first seen and met a year or two ago, though never really got to converse with for more than a brief moment. it is truly amazing when i decide to allow myself to show up. most of the time i had seen Marielee would be during Deeksha at Kristin’s, and i felt i should be more peaceful rather than let myself get super excited and lost in the moment, so i wouldn’t really fully allow myself to express more parts of me. as we made a run to get coffee for the volunteers at the Shift event, i felt more open as there were no rules i was forcing upon myself as how i should act in a sacred space. it’s funny all these little things we put in our minds of how things are supposed to be at certain times and places. letting go of our own self-imposed limitations sets us free and it is totally awesome to be free! life truly is freedom. one cannot fully experience what is with limitations.
i was originally only going to go for the Oneness Meditation on saturday evening, though after the sound healing and Oneness Blessing at Kristin’s, she asked me about what conflicts i had and helped me get there. Marla, who i had just met that night, really inspired me too as she described her experience at the Shift into Awakening she attended in Colorado. i am truly grateful and blessed for all these experiences and how everything seemingly unfolds so effortlessly to continue to take me on this journey.
it’s incredible how all aspects of life unfold perfectly as they need to. especially when one is connected to the flow of life, what one might think of as coincidences or chance happenings, just naturally occur so smoothly and feel right.
wow, i want to write so much more about everything that’s happened these last few days / couple weeks though it could go on for so long [it’s all connected and related on so many levels]! i’ll remember the experience and how it feels, and continue to live from that vibration. it’s awesome to be alive! simply decide to do so and you’ll enjoy the bliss and peace. i wasn’t sure if i was going to ask Amma for a mantra, though decided to do so and am grateful for doing so. right after i asked for a mantra while receiving darshan the last day, i sat on the stage for a while, then i went to sit down in the area where i’d wait for instructions for the mantra. as soon as i sat down there, i felt an incredible sense of peace that i hadn’t felt in a long time. it was beautiful and amazing. right after deciding yes, i want a mantra, i began to get the experience of a higher level of consciousness! all one needs to do is decide one is ready and the experience will immediately begin to unfold! it’s incredible how life works! this is truly an amazing experience we/”I” have created! imagine what we will all will experience soon when we all fully awaken to realize the “I” that is! the golden age is beautiful! it’s awesome to be here to watch its birth and the great shift!
i could go on but i’ll end here. it’s getting pretty hot out here as i sit in my truck writing this and i’m thinking too much attempting to remember the details rather than let it all flow out naturally as it did the past few nights/days when i spoke it [maybe i’m also feeling the energy around here as the clouds above are becoming overcast]. i write all this so someone may be inspired and get what they need, no matter how large or small, out of it. [who knows maybe it’ll inspire me one day when i come back across this to remember this journey] i also write this as i am truly grateful and blessed for the experiences i have had where others have effortlessly just shown up to guide me along on this path, and want to give back by sharing these experiences with others and inspiring them to continue on their path! i know whoever needs this will find it. everything works out perfectly, always! it’s all in divine order.
Om Namah Shivaya!
below are some links to events that i’ve recommended to others in the past week or two. these are events are for anyone, especially those desiring to continue on their path of growth/understanding/connection/awareness.
oneness awakening “deeksha” blessings (usually combined with a meditation, chakra cleansing, or sound healing) — the deeksha/blessing is to help one become more aware and break free from the mind:
the meetup group shows both the events friday evenings at the bodhi spiritual center (usually these have either a meditation or chakra cleansing, and sometimes a teaching or q&a), and the sound healings monday nights: www.meetup.com/onenesschicago/events/calendar
more info on the Oneness Blessing (Deeksha) + the Oneness Meditation:
local sites + trainer contact info here (to find events near you):
Amma, the hugging saint:
spiritual center in chicago that has a meditation and celebration service (with positive speakers, band, affirmations, etc) sunday mornings (and a great community with lots of events):
gong bath i’ll be attending (tour happening this month around chicagoland):
the most powerful self-empowerment/discovery course on the planet:
i haven’t experienced Kai Chi Do, though i know people who have recommended it (and i know who runs the one in chicago) — i imagine it’s somewhat similar to Chi Gong or Tai Chi (though with its own unique aspects/energy/healing):
earth friendly homes / alternative building + off-grid techniques:
i’m sure we’ll be seeing lots of radically new improvements to all elements of society (especially how we relate to and treat nature). here’s a site about things happening relating to sustainability:
lots of other stuff:
[ one last aside, it’s neat to see the connection through repeating numbers in this post number being 12114 and today being 07.07 ]