2016 June
i went to honeymoon island this past Monday and saw how low the tide was with the full moon. i had never seen the sand and land at this part of the island go out so far... i decided to go back again on Tuesday to capture some little planet images. i'm grateful for being inspired to go to this part of the island so i could see it and experience it in a new way.
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for the past couple/few weeks, since i started looking for miracles to share with others, i’ve been noticing little ones almost every day.

this morning i was riding my bike to john chestnut park and had remembered hearing about a kai chi do gathering that was happening there. Kam had written me a few weeks or couple months ago and mentioned it, though i forgot what time he said it was and i didn’t look up if it was still happening or not. i figured it might still be happening, and if it was, i’d join them. i biked in through one of the side entrances and thought maybe it’d be in the big field though i didn’t see anyone there. i biked around the front and as i made my around to head towards the back of the park, i started noticing the signs for it. i then thought maybe it’d over by the little sandy area. as i went around to the very back toward that spot by the lake, i saw another sign though didn’t see a big group anywhere. i looked out in the distance through the trees and noticed a couple/few people and felt that must be it. i circled back around and as i got closer, i heard music playing and then Austin recognized me. Sandra didn’t recognize me at first and later said that my energy had changed. it’s amazing and beautiful to see others notice my energy changing. i didn’t feel a huge difference in myself, though it’s been many months since i’ve been to kai chi do. all the surrendering, letting go, and blessings these past months must be making quite a difference, even though they’ve only seemed more subtle along the way. i recall it being beautiful and really nice to see positive changes in others i hadn’t seen in a while.

the little miracle is the reminder that embracing all aspects of oneself and continuing on this journey can make quite a difference, especially over time. it really does show up in our lives, even if we don’t notice it as a big ah-ha, peak experience, or awakened state (or if we do notice it and forget about it later). the work we do to face ourselves, to do the inner work, and embrace the what is will show up in our lives.

i’ve been noticing this start to show up in my own life recently in the areas of finance and relationships with others. a couple months ago, i found myself with no income as my friend (my main client) stopped paying me for a couple/few weeks. after, or while, working through some of the emotions, i began to look at what my options were, though was feeling i shouldn’t make any big moves such as selling my condo and living out of a van (as i was thinking of as one possible solution). before all of this, i had volunteered to help at the p&g in chicagoland and didn’t know how i would get there without any income (especially as my friend would usually fly me up at some point in the summer to help with the business). i reached out to a couple of other friends i had done a little work for a while back though hadn’t yet requested payment from, and i also sold some things to bring some income in. after a couple/few weeks of not hearing from my friend who stopped paying me, i got a voicemail and email from him about going up to chicagoland to help with the business, and the day he mentioned me going up was the exact same day as the p&g. it was a miracle that it all worked out in perfect divine order.

in the area of relationships with others, i’ve noticed myself starting to open up more these past couple months. i’ve often been very quiet around groups of people, and have found it difficult to approach others to engage in conversation especially after i’ve been quiet for so long. i’ve noticed myself start to talk to and connect with others a little more easily lately. i’m still working on opening up, though know it will get easier as i continue along this path. it’s really beautiful to connect with others and feel a sense of family or community. i’m also feeling a little more comfortable in sharing what i’m going through with others. it’s always been easy to share something i’m feeling good or excited about — when comfortable, i can easily speak with confidence and passion. however, for the longest time, i’ve resisted sharing my hurts or what i’m really going through or things i don’t like about myself unless i knew someone really well. today after kai chi do, i was speaking with Sandra and shared a little of what i was going through. i had only spoken with her a couple times a long while back, though it felt okay to share how i was feeling. with only four of us at the kai chi do circle and me speaking with her off to the side, it was easier to do. i’m grateful for how the divine is unfolding all these little pieces to help me heal, grow, expand, and live the life i desire.

another little miracle i experienced was yesterday when i met a friend who i hadn’t seen in months and did a tarot card reading. at first i resisted doing the reading as i had only done two of them 10+ years ago and both had very bad outcomes. the first was the night before my girlfriend at the time broke up with me, and the second was just before i found out about a significant financial issue i was facing. (i didn’t expect the first, and knew exactly what the second was when my friends read what the cards meant, though i didn’t tell them what it was when they asked what it might be) as i was just typing the bad outcomes, i realized these are both the same areas that i’ve been seeing improvements in my life with that i just wrote about above. in the relationship area, i’ve seen improvements with connecting with others and making friends, and i know i’ll ultimately see this unfold into a romantic relationship with a girl. in the financial area, i just noticed the other day that the first part of a goal i had of being able to pay back loans/debt isn’t as far off as i recently thought it was. anyhow, back to the tarot card reading. i decided to go ahead and do it after chatting briefly with my friend about it. i knew i’d be able to change it if i didn’t like what the cards said, though for a moment i had resisted the outcome. i looked through the cards and saw there were only two really bad ones in the deck and my friend shuffled them. i focused my thoughts/feelings and picked a few cards, and they were all totally fine. they were all speaking about where i was in the moment with these good changes happening in my life (and in the same areas i just mentioned that previously had bad outcomes). my fear of repeating bad past experiences didn’t happen, and things were turning around in the direction i wanted.

i’m grateful for all the little miracles i continue to see in my life, and for the community and satsang at the flowering heart center in clearwater. i’m glad i started going every week i’ve been in town since the middle/end of last summer. i was going through a lot of resistance at the time, and the flowering heart blessing has certainly helped me heal and open up. since then, i’ve realized a lot of what i was making important or spending my time on didn’t really matter, and i’ve begun to surrender and open my heart to what matters so much more in life: love, connection, fun, and community.

(another little miracle is that i didn’t know how this was all going to come together as i slowly started typing it. after looking at what i wrote, it all seems to have been divinely orchestrated as i see how it all makes sense and is related. i was wondering if i was missing some details or telling too many, and it somehow came through all related as aspects of one larger miracle)

back to miracles.. haven’t typed them up in what seems like a little while, though its probably really only been 2-3 days. time can be funny like that. let’s see which ones i can remember. today i experienced one this morning. my friend was renting a car for me to go drive to a lot of his completed job-sites to photograph the homes. we went to go pick it up and i forget exactly what the guys said there, though maybe they asked if the basic car was okay or something. i mentioned something with a moonroof would be preferable if they had it for the same price. they said they had a ford f150 though it costed more. i said it didn’t really matter, anything would be fine (though i wouldn’t have minded the truck.. it felt like it’d be nice when they said they had it). a couple/few minutes later as they were finishing up the rental process, my friend asked how much more the f150 would be, and they said they could do it for the same price, they just had to clean it quickly. we went with it. i waited a little bit for them to clean it, and off i was.

a nice bonus was that it had navigation built right into the touchscreen in the truck. i didn’t even think of this and was figuring i’d have to use the gps on my phone to get around to all the towns. it was much, much nicer not to have to look at the small screen on my phone or figure out how to rig it where i could see it easily while driving or have to be charging it as using gps all day would’ve drained it. it drove nicely and the seat was comfortable (which was helpful while spending around 8 hours driving today). when i would get to a location, i turned off the truck and punched in the next address into the gps to get it ready before taking the photos. at first, it wasn’t remembering the address when i got back in and turned the truck on which wasn’t as helpful. after a few of them, i clicked it a little different to actually start the navigation while the truck was off and then when i would get back in and turn it back on, it would remember. the key fob worked nicely as i could keep it in my pocket and very easily touch the button on the handle to lock it as i was walking out and it would unlock as i placed my hand on the handle to open it. these thing seem quite simple and are becoming more normal in cars, though i likely wouldn’t have had these features if i just got the standard car instead of the free upgrade to the truck. these saved a lot of time and effort when driving to 27 different locations today. the driving and photographs took longer than expected though it went pretty smoothly. there was some traffic though it wasn’t extremely bad, and i was only stopped once by one of the homeowners/residents (and it only took a few seconds to say why i was taking photos and there was no issue).

the moonroof came in handy for a couple of photos in the city where i needed extra height — i thought of standing on the bed of the truck though stood on the seat or center console and shot a couple of times from there. one of the first buildings in the city had a car blocking the view and as i was leaving to go to the next location, something told me to go back and try standing on the bed of the truck or out the moonroof to get a better angle. as i pulled up and parked across the street from it, i saw someone walking out of the home and into the car. i waited a few seconds and the view was clear. i stood out the moonroof and got a much better shot than i did from standing on the curb a couple/few minutes before. it was perfect timing and divine guidance!

after taking all the photographs for today, i went to the loop and wasn’t really feeling like paying for parking and the thought crossed my mind of finding free parking though i didn’t think too much about it. i got down to the loop and was heading south. i was seeing lots of paid parking. i thought something like maybe down one of the side streets a long walk away i’d find free parking. i was already late and didn’t want to walk too much further. after driving just over a block past where i was going, i turned right and saw some signs saying 15 or 30 minute standing zone. the 30 minute zone ended at 7 though was full of cars, and the 15 minute zone ended at 8 and still had some room available. it was around 7:40 or almost 7:45. i drove around the block to see what else i’d find and went back to that spot not finding anything else. i read the sign more carefully and it didn’t have any indication of what happened after 7 or 8 and there were cars parked after 7 in the 30 minute zone. i drove to go check out one other area i noticed someone pulling out of down the block though it ended up being a no parking zone. i came back around to the 15 minute zone and the empty space was still there waiting for me. i pulled in close to the curb and put the flashers on the truck as it was still a few minutes before 8 and walked off. almost 3 hours later when i was heading back to the truck, the mind had a brief thought of what if there was some issue with a ticket or it being towed. i had sent white light to the truck and asked for no issues when i had left it, though still had the thought. i was pretty sure it’d be fine, though asked the divine again for it to be okay, and surrendered to whatever the outcome would be. i turned the corner and saw some flashing lights and thanked the divine. i had wondered if the truck would start having the lights flashing for so long. i figured it’d be okay as it was only the flashers though when i first got in and pushed the start button it didn’t start, though the seat stared to move into position and the screen came on and all. i pushed the button again to turn it off and then again to start it, and it started that time. there was no traffic and i made it from the loop to lombard very quickly, probably was just half an hour.

it’s really nice when everything flows smoothly. it feels like this happens more and more often the more we strengthen our connection to the divine by releasing blocks or resistance that was previously affecting the connection. another little piece of today that worked out nicely was that i saw a sign for an oasis when heading south on the interstate into the city. there was a sign indicating another oasis was 20 miles ahead. i didn’t know how far away i was from the city. i thought that still might be on my way in since i was pretty far north, only around a mile from the wisconsin border. though i felt that it’d be good to stop at this one. i stopped and wasn’t really expecting a great selection of food, though there happened to be a mediterranean or middle-eastern place that had a veggie falafel wrap. after leaving the oasis, there wasn’t another one on the route the gps took me and the beginning of the traffic was shortly afterwards too. it was all in perfect divine order. also, i hadn’t parked the truck that well and wasn’t leaving much room for the car to the right to get out, though i figured i wasn’t going to be but a couple minutes. after going to the bathroom and taking a couple quick shots for a time-lapse video out the oasis windows, i saw the falafel place and it didn’t take that long. when i got back to the truck, the car next to me was still there. i saw someone ahead of me walking in that direction though they kept going further back to the other parking area, so it seems whoever parked there was still inside the oasis and (hopefully) i didn’t affect them by not parking straight in the spot.

it seems life is simply a continuous flow of unfolding miracles when we learn and choose to see it as such.

today’s miracle

at my friend’s office, i had set up a bunch of tv screens to act as status screens/boards showing calendars, job statuses, and other data from the custom dashboard system i built for him to run the company. i re-did the technology behind the way they worked and had one screen that had a corrupt memory card. i had tried to fix it yesterday or the day before, though it wasn’t working this morning when i got in. i was trying all sorts of things to get it to work, including using some really old memory cards we still had here and clearing out a card and installing the latest version of the operating system on it. some things had changed in the latest OS and it wasn’t working, so i went back to seeing if one of the old cards would work. i found one that booted though it had the old network settings on it and due to the way it was set up, i wasn’t able to get into it, even with a keyboard physically plugged into it. i came up with a way to hack my way in by modifying a script on the part of the card i had access to via a different computer. i was able to get the latest settings and my newest scripts on it. it seemed to be working though upon rebooting after the update, it was displaying all sorts of error messages.. it appeared that the memory card was corrupted. the cards would sometime get corrupted if the micro computer lost power because the tv was bumped into or the usb power cable was moved by accident. it didn’t make sense that it stopped working on its own this time, as it had rebooted without me physically touching it. i let it sit for a little bit to see what it was doing, and was starting to accept the possibility that i might not be done yet nor have an immediate solution for it (and i was wanting to finish before taking a break). something told me to go unplug the power and plug it back in to restart it. as i was doing so, the thought something along the lines of maybe needing a miracle or it not making sense for it to be the way it was crossed my mind (though i surrendered and wasn’t attached to whether it worked or not by that point). i plugged it back in and it just started to boot up normally. now, after a while, it’s still running properly without any other issues.

open yourself up to miracles and you will see them happen and unfold before your eyes. miracles can be a natural and everyday occurrence if we allow them to be. believe its possible and you’ll experience it. sometimes for me its been more difficult to believe it in the world of technology as i have a lot of experience and knowledge in technology, though allowing for the possibility of a miracle creates the space in which it can occur. this reminds me of when Queenie put the Sri Murti on the computers and mixer at the P&G to keep everything running smoothly, or when i was copying the weekend video from an external hard drive to the laptop.. the file transfer had stopped a couple of times for no apparent reason and when i put my hands around it and sent it energy or white light, it started working again.

it’s really amazing and inspiring how simply miracles can happen when we’re open to them. we don’t even need any big ritual or anything.. just know its possible, or connect with the presence and ask for it, and it will happen. often the mind wants to make things difficult in life by thinking it needs to struggle or try hard to make something happen. life can be much more effortless when we allow for help from the divine. we don’t have to do everything ourselves. miracles can be a very natural part of life. and it doesn’t have to make sense how something strange happened.

monday i went to the store with my friend to help him carry a large toolchest he was purchasing. he had paid and we were waiting for them to get a forklift to take it off the shelves. it had been a little while and we were walking around the store looking at other things. something brought us down to one of the end aisles. after looking at something there, we walked a few feet and right there on one of the flat carts was the toolchest waiting for us. no one had come to find us to tell us it was ready and we didn’t hear the forklift running. it seemed a bit strange at the moment.. perhaps they got it from somewhere else or something, though it didn’t really matter. we were ready to go and it was there waiting for us. the cashier saw us coming towards the exit and told us we were all set and we left.

on saturday afternoon, after i was helping my friend move for a couple of days, i took a shower and it was a miracle that i really wasn’t feeling sore (nor really tired) afterwards. i had woken up that morning feeling a bit sore though at dinner afterwards i realized it was gone and i wasn’t feeling it at all.

simple miracles can happen every day. look for them and you’ll continue to find them.


a few recent little ‘everyday’ miracles.. on Sunday, at the Kundalini workshop at the Flowering Heart Center in Clearwater, i was helping with the livestream webcast and didn’t really have any expectations set about what or how the class would be. we began with Chakra Dhyana followed by Ananda Mandala and then Shaktipat.. at some point during Ananda Mandala, i started to feel the energy very powerfully. i noticed it running a lot in my hands. i felt inspired and rejuvenated, remembering why i was here, and i saw things coming together in my life in a good way (despite previously resisting aspects of where i was, or feeling overwhelmed or stuck in recent days). before the workshop, the thought had crossed my mind about asking Michael or Suzanne to help me make it through what i was going through, and it happened in the processes without me saying anything to them (and i didn’t even try to do anything either). after the class had finished, i was told that i was so nice and was also told that i was very spiritual (or had good energy). just a couple/few days before, i was feeling lonely, bored, and wondering why i was here. it felt good to know i made (or could make) a difference in others’ lives, and it was really nice to feel the sense of community (and be more in touch with my purpose, growth, etc). afterwards, i went to the beach to see the sunset. i got there a little early and i wasn’t enjoying the bugs that were flying around me in the warm, still air, nor having carried a heavy bag such a long way, though i was at a nice quiet spot past all the houses and the light was nice. i didn’t know what the sky would do that evening, and i was greeted by beautiful colors after the sun went down and got some good photos.

when i got home that evening, i had a number of things i was selling in auction ending that night. i had only seen one item earlier that was going to sell for a little bit though felt excited to have one less box here waiting to sell. when i looked that night, i saw a few things that would sell and i had also gotten an offer from someone to purchase most of the books, cd’s, and dvd’s i had listed. we corresponded back and forth a few times and i’ll be listing a combo package for most of them. they’re selling for less than i would’ve liked, though they are going to a good home in a free library and the pile of boxes i have to sell is starting to dwindle down.

yesterday, i had made a couple trips to my parents’ to print out the shipping labels for the things i sold (as my printer wasn’t working) and also to weigh the box of all the books/cds/dvds to determine the shipping cost. i was starting to run out of packing tape and didn’t really feel like going to the store to get more, and my folks ended up having some there that i could use so i could save myself the trip to the store. the timing for both trips also worked out perfectly with the times my mom was going to be home with her errands. in the early afternoon when i was leaving there the second time, i was going to drop off the packages and take out a bag of recycling. as i was leaving i was thinking about the recycling (since i was going there first), and on my way out i saw the mailman coming down the street, just a couple/few houses away, though i didn’t pay attention until a little later when i was leaving their neighborhood. i realized it’d be simpler to just drop off the boxes with him rather than run to the local store or post office. i made my way back into their neighborhood, and headed down the other side of the road so i could run into him before he was done on their street. i wasn’t seeing him coming for a while and began to wonder where he went or if i’d have to driving the whole neighborhood looking for him. i ended up running into him a few houses past my folks, and then gave the boxes to him and headed to drop off the recycling. while dropping off the recycling, i felt a couple drops of rain, and made it back home without getting wet. i’m not sure which way the clouds went, though had i not been leaving exactly when i did to run into the mailman, i may have gotten wet after dropping off the packages at the post office or postal store.

this morning i was feeling a little tired and wasn’t wanting to go biking (for exercise) right away. as i was waiting for my tea to cool down, i was on the computer and got a message confirming all the books+dvds i’ll be selling, and was checking some accounts to verify bill payments had gone through. something told me to check one of my credit cards that i was waiting on bonus reward points to show up for. i had called not long ago and it sounded like it wasn’t going to be for a few more weeks, though when i went on today to check it, the $200 bonus points had posted. i had submitted an online bill payment from my bank to pay off the balance and now that the points had posted, i wanted to cancel it so i could pay off the balance using the reward points instead. most of the time there’s a link to be able to stop the payment before it goes through, though there wasn’t an option online to do so for this one (as it had gone out as a check rather than electronically). upon calling both my bank and the credit card bank, i was able to stop payment on the check without any fees. it was good that the system didn’t support sending it electronically for this particular payment, as the payment would’ve already cleared if it did and i wouldn’t have been able to cancel it. with the bonus reward points and the few dollars i had already sitting there as points, i was able to pay off the entire balance due and the currently remaining reward points are just over the $25 minimum needed to redeem it, so i can do so without waiting the next time i make another purchase or two on that card. i went biking after all this, and it wasn’t as hot as i was thinking it might get if i waited too long. during the bike ride and when i got home, i felt good and excited seeing all the little pieces coming together as the divine unfolds this chapter of life. i also felt more energetic and was able to make it through the same number of sit-ups more easily than i had done so in previous days.

i know it’s all in divine order and am grateful for seeing all the little miracles / synchronicities show up along the way.

(just as i finished typing this and was copy/pasting it to post on my journal and the miracle groups on facebook, i saw another message from the buyer of the books/dvds who’ll be making the purchase tonight)

sometimes i have to just remember to go looking for the miracles. last night after the satsang, Elena asked me what my miracle for the day was. at first i didn’t think i had any nor remembered any. i was thinking my day had been pretty simple and fairly unexciting or even boring. then a moment later, after she said they would come to me, i remembered that at the beginning of the meditation i was sitting in a little bit of a charge/emotion/thought, and during the meditation, and as the satsang began, it dissolved and was completely gone shortly later. Michael shared with us a reminder of why we were there as Andrea’s mom was there for the first time and he was explaining what the satsang was about. i don’t remember all the details though he spoke about the awakening of consciousness and how enough of us awakening will impact the collective consciousness globally. i remembered my purpose of seeing/experiencing/participating in this shift, and the thought or little upset i had related to a personal desire had faded away. i knew everything was in divine order and was reminded that we already crossed the threshold of what is needed to cause a planetary shift in consciousness. the beautiful world we all desire is being created, despite any of our suffering, personally or collectively. we are all healing, expanding, and evolving.

towards the end of the satsang, Michael asked me if i wanted to share my experience at the P&G in Chicagoland. i was a little nervous, being put on the spot and unprepared as with what to say. it was a month ago and i didn’t remember all the details of what happened and felt i couldn’t share an accurate report of it. somehow i managed to share some of what i did remember and although i may have missed some details, i think it flowed through fairly cohesively. as i was trying to remember what happened both days, i naturally asked Louis, as he had been to the one in Orlando, and he shared some of his experience. after he shared what he got out of it, i shared a little bit about the miracles i had started to see everyday since they told us to start sharing miracles. by this point i was feeling more at ease in speaking to the whole group though still didn’t want to get carried away in all of the details and go on for a long time, so only shared a little bit of what i’d experienced. Suzanne or Michael mentioned the facebook page i set up for us to share miracles, and i shared a little bit about that. it felt good to be able to speak for a few minutes in front of everyone. although i feel it could’ve flowed better, it seems like it went pretty well and was what i needed. i’m grateful for the opportunity to continue to grow and practice speaking in a group.

due to things i’ve experienced in the past, it’s always been much easier for me to connect one on one with someone (though usually only after they’ve initiated the conversation or i’ve really known them). in groups, small or large, i usually would just observe the conversation flow back and forth between everyone, and although things i could share would sometimes come to me, i’d often be too slow to jump in and share them. and i’d resist going off on a tangent or an aside to speak or connect directly with someone in the group. this is something i saw myself once again fail to do last week after the satsang, though last night i saw myself asking Suzanne about an experience she had briefly mentioned to the group of us there. i’m grateful for being able to become more open and allow myself to connect with others a little more naturally. what i was thinking about or upset over in the beginning was a lost opportunity to connect with someone, and although it showed up in different manners than i was thinking, i see that the divine is providing me a path to open my heart back up to connecting and conversing with others.

perhaps it was also a reminder to just relax and be me, and surrender any expectations of how i think things should look or unfold, and trust and know that the divine is taking me where i need to go. it’s also been a little miracle for me to feel okay in sharing the little nuances of what i’m feeling and going through with others.

experiencing miracles is as simple at looking for them. i’ve noticed on days that i’ve stopped writing about miracles, looking for them, or got caught up in thinking or worrying about something that didn’t serve me, i began to notice more things occur aligned with that sort of energy instead of a positive miracle or flow. the night before last i didn’t sleep so well, waking up anxious or in some thought or emotion that i didn’t like. i barely slept a couple or few hours the whole night and when i got out of bed in the morning, i was still resisting what was there and was feeling tired. thinking i was tired, throughout a lot of the day i felt pretty tired until i took a nap in the afternoon. in the morning, despite being tired, i decided to go for a bike ride to the local park. i hadn’t ridden in about a month and didn’t feel like checking the air in the tires. the tires felt a little low when i was riding it though it still rode okay. this morning when i did check them, they weren’t as low as i had thought or worried they might be. they could use a little more air for better performance but they weren’t gonna get damaged by being too low. biking to the park yesterday was nice. it’s a little warmer and more humid back here in florida though its not as bad as i remember. it was nice to sit by the lake and not have any mosquitos bother me. i came home and cooked a nice breakfast (just in time for lunch). later in the afternoon, after my nap, i drove out to one of my favorite parks on the gulf. on the way to the park, some raindrops began to hit my car. i looked up, out the open moonroof, and saw it was just a small cloud that it was most likely coming from and figured it’d stop soon so i wouldn’t have to close the moonroof. about a minute (or less) later, i was pulling up to a stoplight and the raindrops were totally gone. when i got out to the island, i had left the moonroof open (and the windows cracked). i walked north a bit on the beach and noticed lightning in the not-too-distant dark clouds. a thought crossed my mind about the moonroof being open, though i didn’t worry. i stayed to watch the sun set and made my way back to the car a little bit after it went down. there was no sign of any raindrops where i parked. i did have a few mosquitos in the car and may have gotten a couple bites though this morning i had forgotten about them and i don’t feel them itching. i had stopped at the store on the way home last night to pick up some soap and went looking for a couple groceries. it was nice to notice some yogurts i like were on sale. i had closed the moonroof and windows when i parked as the dark clouds were getting close to where i was at the store, though when i was done shopping, it wasn’t raining (nor hadn’t). i wasn’t really feeling like getting wet going up to my condo with the groceries though accepted i might. on the way up the road home, i smelled the fresh rain that i had just missed. when i got to my condo, it wasn’t raining and i came inside with everything without getting wet.

this morning, i woke up after sleeping better though still feeling a little tired from it being warmer (i hadn’t turned the a/c back down when i got home last night). i woke up about an hour earlier than i thought it was and went on the computer to check a few things. a little after, i started to make some tea and figured i’d go biking after that. it ended up being a little later that i got out, though it was nice to go out to the other local park on the nearby lake. as i was leaving the park, a couple cars were pulling out of the gated neighborhood right there. this was a ‘random’ coincidence as usually that gate is locked and no one is entering or exiting when i go through there, and it’s nice to go bike in to take a different route and explore the little park in there. i wasn’t feeling like going in today though, and felt it would be open another time for me to ride through. i got home and started preparing my breakfast. as i was waiting for my meal to cook, i was wondering about what miracles, if any, had i experienced these past few days. i noticed that it was getting darker outside and realized i may have just missed getting wet biking in the rain this morning. i then remembered i had just missed the rain last night too. i started typing the ideas that came to me. after beginning the first few sentences, i went back to check on the food and ate my breakfast (not quite just in time for lunch, a little bit earlier this time). as i was rinsing off my plate after finishing eating, i noticed the rain pouring down outside.

little miracles happen every day when we’re in tune with them. and when we’re feeling out of tune, or not in the flow, all we have to do is begin to shift our attention back to looking for miracles or being grateful for what is going the way we like. it feels like miracles, gratitude, and flow are all interconnected. as we let go of our resistance to what is and step back into the moment, it can all flow quite beautifully. and even the stuff we’re resisting can flow effortlessly.. it’s only our judgment and perception that we don’t like it that prevents it from flowing. i experienced this the other night as i was stuck judging myself, overthinking, or worrying (and not wanting to be doing so). relaxing and trusting its all in divine order helps everything flow much more smoothly. sometimes we must surrender to something greater than ourselves and know we are being taken care of. perhaps one little thing didn’t work out exactly as we like, though we mustn’t beat ourselves up over it or analyse it or do any of those mind things with it, otherwise it can really affect us. and its really only our mind thinking it didn’t work out, as it very well can and will work out perfectly later. patience and trust go a long way. perhaps more so than perseverance. or its really perseverance, or faith, at a higher level.

it feel like part of this is really an aspect of surrender. as we let go of our attachment to outcome, having faith it will happen perfectly in divine order, we allow for life to unfold, manifest, and flow. i noticed this with my finances the other day. for a while, i’d been resisting having loans/debts, and i stopped receiving income from my main client for a couple/few weeks in april. i didn’t know what i was going to do with my personal life, nor did i know how i was going to get the p&g in the coming weeks, as my main client, a friend, usually flies me up to chicagoland to help him with his business and he had just stopped paying me. a couple/few weeks after i had last spoken with him, i got a voicemail or email from him saying he wanted me to fly up, and the date he mentioned was the exact date of the p&g. it worked out perfectly that i got in a couple days before and stayed for a few weeks to help him with his business. and i’ve still got work to do for him now that i’m back home. i didn’t make a lot of money in my time up there, though upon looking at my accounts when i returned home, i realized that i wasn’t too far off from the first part of the financial goal that had seemed quite distance or unrealizable not too long ago.

i’ve also noticed surrender, and growth (or facing what is there), helping my relationships with others. i was able to make some new connections at the p&g and the flowering heart center in downers grove while i was in chicagoland. and i’m noticing this starting to happen down here too (and part of me in the past had resisted coming back here as i didn’t know as many people in the local communities). the other night at the flowering heart center in clearwater, a friend i had begun to talk to and connect more with in the weeks before leaving said she was glad i was back. i wished i had opened up and connected more though i will do so next week. it’s really nice to connect with others on a similar path. it’s one of the most important and fulfilling aspects of life. part of why i came back to florida after a brief life on the road out west was because i was missing community and a deeper connection with others. though i’ve had some ups and downs and have gotten caught up in the mind at times, i’m starting to see this unfold more quickly now. it’s really nice to find community at both of the flowering heart centers and also to see the visions for both centers expanding. something as simple as the community sharing our miracles has brought us together and created more connections (not too mentioned inspired us and helped us grow). (thanks chris for setting up the facebook group for the downers grove community! i mentioned this to michael and suzanne and will be helping them set one up for the community here)

the real miracle is that i’m becoming more open and allowing myself to connect with others. i’m becoming more okay with sharing what i’m going through and feeling. for a lot of my life, i’ve closed off some aspects of what i was going through (due to past experiences that led me to do so). for a long time, i would only want to share good things for fear of being criticized or judged. i wouldn’t want to mispaint the picture of who i was and this would cause me to be quiet a lot of the time rather than share or open up. when i did connect with someone and got to know someone better, i would open up more and be okay sharing the parts i didn’t like as much. i’m sure this is normal to an extent, though by resisting a part of who we are, we aren’t fully embracing ourselves. and we’re projecting that resisted part of ourselves onto others, and causing further resistance. by fully accepting ourselves (and others), we can create a world full of peace and love. love and connection is really all that matters. to a degree, i’ve chased after external things to bring me happiness and fulfillment though they never did. perhaps for a brief moment though it seemed that moment would get briefer and to the point of it not really doing anything other than causing stress or some burden. yes, i suppose it helped me work through some charges, though i’m glad to have chosen a different path. one of surrender rather than control. one of connection rather than acquisition. one of openness rather than fear. now i’m not saying it’s all perfect and i’m totally there yet. i even see some resistance in typing all the details i’ve been exploring here (like in not wanting to mention that i wanted to ask out the girl who was glad i was back and i failed to do so, despite having journaled about this before). though the miracle is that i’m on this path, and it’s felt good to let go and trust. when i was in chicagoland, i met my friend christine for breakfast last week. it was very inspirational to see how everything has flowed in her life, and how she has moved forward with various aspects without knowing exactly where it was going and it all worked out and flowed smoothly. i was also able to see my own resistance more clearly in part of our conversation (and how the mind was getting in the way). (thanks christine!) faith and trust really do go a long way in allowing ourselves to flow with life.

it’s really inspirational to see when it does all flow so effortlessly. i made a brief connection at the airport just before boarding the flight home. and it almost didn’t happen. i was sitting waiting for groups to start boarding before getting in line. i don’t recall if they had called my group # yet or not though wasn’t feeling like going up just yet. someone nearby asked if the shoes a couple seats over were mine. i said no though maybe they belonged to the guy who got called up for standby a bit ago as he was sitting in that spot. i suggested she inform the person who worked there, though she didn’t respond or seem to want to. i said i’d go tell them. i made my way over there after going around a couple of people who were blocking the way there. i told the guy who worked there and he started to make an announcement. i then walked over to the lines rather than go back to where i was sitting. i asked the person at the back of the line if it was for group 3. she said yes and made a comment about having gone to the other line or something, and i said something about it being the longest line (it was stretching all the way across to the other side of the terminal hallway). a moment later she asked if i was visiting or going back home or something, and we had a nice chat until we parted ways to our seats on the plane. something as simple as a small connection like that wouldn’t have happened if i hadn’t been sitting where i was or the shoes hadn’t been left there or whatnot. there are so many little pieces that come together to create every moment. it’s all divinely orchestrated and unfolded in perfection according to where we are at in that very moment. it’s miraculous and beautiful to notice this flow of life.

it’s also been inspirational to discover more people online sharing their experiences living a nomadic or alternative lifestyle. if i do end up living life on the road at some point, it’s nice to know there is a virtual community out there and i can make connections with others along the journey. while i’ve been back and forth about staying in my condo or living out of a van/camper/rv, i felt called to come back to florida from chicagoland. while i did really like the community up there and its nicer there in the summer than here, i feel i need to be here now. in the past, i’ve often felt i had to make all or nothing decisions. stay or go. and over-think and over-analyse it in the process in attempts to make the best decision. now, i’m feeling i don’t have to be as rash in deciding. i don’t have to let go of everything. i can flow with life and allow it to unfold more effortlessly rather than trying to force everything to happen. i don’t know exactly what all the pieces look like though i do have some visions. i’ve envisioned both having a home here and traveling. or having multiple homes. though its not the things or the space that matters so much anymore, it’s the experience and the connections and the inspiration. i see both flowering heart centers expanding to larger centers or even ashrams, and being able to travel to both and have beautiful loving communities both places. and having a sweet girlfriend who’d enjoy the journey with me, whatever it looks like. life can be as amazing as we allow it to be. we can imagine and create and allow for this experience to be as beautiful as we desire. we don’t need to limit ourselves based upon our past experiences or current situation. it was inspirational to chat with my friend soleo a few weeks ago. he helped me remember we can have it all. after that, we learned about fulfillment at the p&g. its okay to fulfill our desires and create the life we want. and the path of fulfillment can be quicker than the path of renunciation too. all of these aspects of life, as i struggle to remember or look at them as i type all of this, have been a miracle. sometimes the miracle is life itself. all of the pieces are coming together without us even knowing about it. the divine, or the universe, is working behind the scenes to get us to where we’re going. trust, surrender, and allow. it’s all a miracle.

this morning i woke up early and was laying in bed for a while here at the hotel. my friend had mentioned going to go get breakfast one of these mornings and i was waiting to see if he’d call. i tried calling him after a while to plan out when i could go to his house to do laundry as i’m just about out of clean clothes. i was getting an error message while trying to leave a voicemail so figured i’d talk to him later about it. i went downstairs to get oatmeal for breakfast and came back to my room. i was sitting here for a little while not feeling like going to the office just yet as i was there pretty much all day yesterday. i also wanted to hear back from my frined to plan out my day and when i could do laundry at his house. i laid back down in bed thinking maybe i’d listen to an audio program for a little while as i didn’t feel like going to the office just yet. i think i pulled up the weather app on my phone to see how warm it’d be today and in less than a minute, my friend called. he asked if i wanted to go with him today to get out of the office. when i was about to lay back down in bed or as i did (and was feeling like i was at the office all day and not wanting to go), it felt like maybe i was somehow telepathically talking to a part of him, and that part of him picked up on it. i don’t know that he was aware of it at all.. probably the divine just guided him to call me to see if i wanted to go on the road with him today. or he just felt like it. it feels like this is how a lot of this works. we are all guided by our feelings, intuition, etc. it’s how we communicate with the divine and how the divine communicates with us. and when i woke up today i was wondering if i would have a little miracle to share today or not! i wasn’t feeling one at that point though one came to me shortly after. pondering back on a couple of things that happened yesterday, i could see them as miracles too! miracles are everywhere. the divine is everywhere. all we have to do is simply be open to seeing and experiencing it.

everything begins to work out quite smoothly when you begin to look for miracles in life. my friend had told me to be ready soon though i said i needed a little more time and he said to be ready by 10. when i started typing this after getting out of the shower, it was a little before 10 and i got a text message from him at 10 saying he’d be there in 5 minutes. i finished typing the first paragraph and wanted to use the bathroom before leaving though wasn’t sure if i’d have enough time. i went anyway, and just as i was walking out of the hotel, he was pulling up, right about 10:10. it all worked out perfectly. i had wanted to type up the miracle of what had happened and was able to type up the first part this morning before being in the truck with him (where i didn’t have a chance to). also, i had forgotten to charge my camera last night (as i’ve been shooting short clips for a time-lapse project while up here), and i remembered to plug it in this morning. i didn’t know if it had gotten much of a charge in the short time this morning, though i grabbed it anyway and when i turned it on, it was showing full power.

another recent little miracle was that wednesday night when we were sharing miracles, i felt a little nervous or something, though afterwards i was thanked for sharing or told that my message was inspiring or helpful (and more than once). and when i mentioned how i was feeling, they said it came across well without any signs of what i was feeling.


today i woke up and noticed the temperature on my thermostat was a bit lower than what i had left it on last night. i hadn’t noticed that since i’ve been back in town these past few days. i looked at the weather and saw it had gotten a little bit cooler this morning, and felt it’d be really nice to go out for a bike ride before it warmed up later in the morning. i had some tea and was on the computer for a bit, and it was starting to get a little later. i don’t know exactly what time it was when i got out.. it was sometime after 9, maybe close to 10, though when i opened my door to take my bike outside, it was still nice and i felt a cool breeze. this was a little miracle as i didn’t expect it to be a little cooler (and with less humidity) as these past few days have been much warmer and humid when i’ve gone out in the morning and i took longer to get out of the condo too. another little miracle or ‘random’ coincidence / synchronicity was that a couple/few minutes into my ride, shortly after i got on the path that goes along the back road here to the park, i was thinking of my dad and the connection to him. i was going through a small part of the trail where it goes through some trees and as i was getting towards the end of it, i noticed a car starting to slow down on the road to the left. i thought perhaps it was a realtor or something (though didn’t see any real estate signs anywhere). as i started to come out of the little wooded area, i had a closer glance at part of the car and realized what it was. i looked up through the passenger window that was open and it was my dad saying he took the day off and was running errands. i had never run into him (or my mom) in that area, and when i was thinking about seeing him yesterday and improving/healing the relationship/connection, there he appeared, seemingly out of nowhere. (they do live a couple miles up the road, though it was a divine plan for him to be taking the back road at the same exact time i was biking that way to the park and thinking of him) i ask the divine to help me heal all of my relationships so i can flow with life and enjoy it without resistance. (and funny that just as i posted this, i got a text message from my mom..)

what am i looking for?

i’m looking to meet a girl who desires to be in a relationship. someone who can be a friend, a lover, an adventure companion. someone who enjoys life, both the simple and the exquisite, though isn’t attached to either. someone who is awakened, free, or on a spiritual path. someone who desires to grow and embrace life, and is also fine where she is at. someone who equally enjoys staying at home, going on adventures locally, or traveling across the country. someone who desires to have fun, enjoys romance, and wants a deeper connection with me. someone who appreciates good or healthy food. someone who enjoys the beauty of nature and living in a warm place. someone i can share this experience of life with. someone who i can open my heart to and who can open her heart to me. someone i can fall in love with, who can fall in love with me. someone who is pretty, cute, or beautiful. someone who is sweet and has a good heart. someone who can appreciate both being at peace or relaxed, and also getting excited about fulfilling dreams. someone whom i can express myself with openly, fully, genuinely, and authentically. …

everyday miracles

today the hotel i’m staying at is going to be shutting down the water at 9am to install new plumbing equipment. they were going to be doing this tuesday after 10am, though they must’ve not gotten to it. today i was supposed to check out and didn’t know if i was going to be going to another hotel, my friend’s, or staying here again. i was wondering a bit if i was going to have to rush or have to ask them to delay shutting down the water until i could check out, move rooms, etc, etc. yesterday i talked to my friend and he said he’d get another couple nights for me here since they’re still getting settled down in the new house, and he booked another reservation last night. i went to sleep shortly after getting back from the deeksha circle last night and didn’t really worry much about needing to be up in time to be able to shower in the morning. (some of the past week here i’ve been getting in the shower after 9 or at least once not be all ready to leave until 10:30) this morning i woke up with enough time to go downstairs, get breakfast, inquire about the new reservation, shower, get ready, etc and was done by around 8:40 when i started writing this. i went back down to the registration desk on my way out of the hotel to show my id and sign the new paper and i was able to stay in the same room without moving all my stuff. the first night when i got here a week ago, the hotel room was smaller than the one i had originally been shown in the afternoon. i called the front desk and they didn’t have any other rooms available though were able to move me the the larger room in the morning. the room smelled like smoke and i called the front desk and they showed me two of the other larger rooms, one which smelled fresh that i ended up picking.

after typing all this and something else, i noticed it was a few minutes after 9 though figured the water might still be on. i was able to use the bathroom at the hotel rather than wait until i went to my friend’s office, even though they said it’d be shut off by 9.

yesterday i had written about a miracle in getting one of the raspberry pi micro-computers working at my friend’s office. i remembered that the day before i had another miracle in upgrading the hard drive on one of the imac’s here at the office. i had upgraded the first computer last week and it went well, which was a miracle, and this one went a little more smoothly essentially repeating the whole process. after i had put it back together and was booting up into the recovery mode to restore the operating system software, i put all of the tools, anti-static mat, band, etc. away figuring it was done. when it got into the recovery mode, i don’t remember what happened, perhaps i hit a key or something at some point before it actually began the installation process, the screen went blank and showed an error icon, either the blinking question mark in the folder or drive or something.. i really didn’t want to have to take the whole thing apart just to get to the hard disk. i turned it off and back on again, hit the key sequence to go into the recovery mode and waited. it got to the menu and i was able to format the drive and install the OS and then easily restore all of the data and application files from the backup. another simple miracle in how it didn’t make sense or didn’t look like it was going to work and then it did. being able to restore the data and application files and encrypt the drive was a bit of a miracle on the first one last week as at first it didn’t work but then i thought of temporarily restoring the OS so it would create the necessary partition setup, and then restoring the backup. often a ‘bug’ or something that’s not working has a simple solution or workaround, a miracle hiding, waiting to be experienced.

sometimes we might not think all the little pieces can come together or we might just get caught up in the thinking or emotions or resistance of experiencing (or thinking we might experience) something we don’t prefer, though when we surrender to the moment and expect miracles (or simply expect things to work out), everything will flow naturally and effortlessly in our favor. experiencing miracles is as simple as shifting our perspective. embrace them and they will become a part of our everyday life.