four years ago today [2012.10.23] ... this morning i woke up at a campground and wasn't covered in snow like the day before.  it was nice to have experienced once but isn't something i'd like to do regularly.  one of the reasons living in chicago was tough for me were the long winters that lasted about half the year.  having lived half my life in florida, i certainly had a preference for what i enjoyed.
this day i went to have a look at a powered paraglider.  i didn't get to take a test flight though got a feel for what was involved.  the video they'd put together of why they fly was inspiring.  i'd been thinking of getting some sort of flying machine for a while and this was one of the safest ways to fly.  i didn't end up getting it as i didn't really have the room to be carrying it with me and it was pretty expensive.  i'd thought of putting it in front of the truck though he recommended otherwise.  i haven't thought of it in a while though still would be interested at some point in getting something.  i love the view from above and the open feel of flying in the air would be pretty amazing.
it was neat that i was able to easily check out things i was interested in along my journey.  so many of these manufacturers were out west making it impractical to go have a look at everything before living life on the road.  on this day i stopped at an rv dealer to check out a sprinter van rv as i had some time and was almost at the campground i'd be staying at.  i had thought about it as it would give me more room and i wouldn't to pop the top or run out in the cold weather to get to the camper every time, though i'd lose the 4x4 the truck had.  more recently i've thought about getting a van if i were to live life on the road again.  mercedes now sells the 4x4 sprinter in the u.s. too, so i'd have that as an option if i wanted to explore places where i'd need it.
i went to check out the river behind the campground i stayed at, and saw the sun set shortly after i'd arrived.  it was nice to have access to campgrounds along my exploration of california.  it was much easier to stay at one than have to go looking for a quiet spot in the middle of the night to stay.
four years ago today [2012.10.22]

i woke up covered in snow this morning.  the girl at the campground had said it wasn't going to stick.  i was laying in bed in the morning not feeling like getting up right away.. although i had the heat on, i think i was still cold.  it felt like i didn't have to rush, though i decided i ought to get up and go outside to see the little bit of snow that was there before it melted.

as i started to explore, i discovered at least several inches of snow covering everything, and it was still coming down.  the top of my camper was bowing down in the middle.  i opened the hatch to try to get some of the snow off the roof and some fell on my bed.  i didn't have a snow brush or anything so i was using my hands which were quickly freezing through my old gloves.  i had forgotten my folding bike outside the night before and had to get the snow off of it and pack it up.  waking up to this much snow certainly was an adventure i hadn't expected.  i couldn't get that much snow off the roof.. when i went to close it, i almost got smacked in the face with the piece that helps you put it up, as it quickly slammed down with all the weight on it.  usually bungee cords help pull the tent material together though the roof slammed down so quickly that they couldn't react and the tent material was hanging off the sides of the camper.  the roof wouldn't budge when i tried to lift it back up to put the tent back inside, so i had to drive with it like that until i got to lower elevation where the snow had melted.  i think i put the truck in 4x4 to help make the way through the snow, especially where it wasn't yet plowed.  the four wheel campers factory wasn't too far out of my way that day, so i stopped by and was told it was probably fine despite the bowing and driving with the tent material out.  gratefully, i never had any issues with leaks or anything after that.. i'm glad the camper was durable.

on my way to another campground, i saw some dark clouds all around.  i rode my bike around the lake at the campground and appreciated the warmer temperature.  it was a bit crazy.. in just a few days' time i had experienced summer, fall, and winter.
four years ago today [2012.10.20]

after leaving san francisco the day before, i decided to go out to lake tahoe.  i was going to be checking out a custom truck camper manufacturer i had never seen before in person though it was the weekend so needed somewhere to hang around for a couple days.  a while back, a friend had shown me pictures of his trip to tahoe and told me how nice it was.. it was a bit of a spontaneous decision when i decided to head over there.  luckily, there were campgrounds near my route that were part of the network i had a membership to.  i woke up at the campground i stopped at the night before and headed east toward nevada.  the area near the campground i left had a nice feel to it if it's where i'm remembering.

lake tahoe and the nearby area was really beautiful.  i saw fall foliage at one of the spots i found.. the yellow-leaved trees across a field with mountain background were gorgeous.  they were so golden and a pleasant surprise this day.  i drove to the nevada side and explored a few spots by the lake.  while at one of them, a small beach if i recall, i got a call from an old friend who was really down, facing a break up and divorce.  i'd been wondering what i wanted to do on the road and had been missing a community.  i had left a really beautiful spiritual community i'd discovered that summer at the flowering heart center in chicagoland, and also missed some of the fun times hanging out or 'working' with the friend whose business i was help expand up there.  when my friend from florida called in need of help, i thought perhaps i'd head back there after exploring california.  i was also getting tired of driving so much and the camper was small for full time living, especially the times i didn't pop up the top.  i did see a lot of beautiful and stunning places along my journey, though i was a little lonely being by myself the whole time.  the few days i spent time with friends somewhere on the route were nice.

i drove around and explored the lake as dusk approached.  i went looking for a place i could photograph the stars over the water from.. i think i ended up driving far and backtracking, though found a nice spot.
four years ago today [2012.10.17]

i woke up in a parking lot on the point reyes peninsula and began exploring at dawn.  it was quite stunning to be somewhere so beautiful and experience the early morning light.  i wandered about the national seashore as the sun rose and discovered parts of it i never knew existed.  living life on the road was incredible when waking up in such magnificent places.. yes, there were challenges to living out of such a small space, though to get to stay in unique places and be right there during the most brilliant times of day was awesome and inspiring.  this world is really incredibly beautiful and filled with so many majestic places.. you only need to go wander and allow yourself to discover them.

after leaving point reyes, i followed california route 1's winding drive south on the cliffs.  i made some stops to take in the beautiful views on my way to muir woods.  while at muir woods national monument, i hiked a long trail past where all the tourists were and ended up at the panoramic highway before turning around.  on the way out of muir woods, i drove the panoramic highway the long way back to route 1, and then made my way toward sausalito and the marin headlands.  i barely fit the truck in the one parking spot i found on the street in sausalito and walked down to the shops and water for a bit.  at marin headlands, the golden hour light on the city and bridge was really nice as the sun was setting.

i then crossed the golden gate bridge and passed through san francisco on my way to meet a friend for dinner in alameda.  it was many years since i last saw him in college and he had grown and transformed quite a bit.  when it came up in the conversation, i liked how he described it as when he "found himself". it was great and inspiring to see him and learn of his success.  he'd been loving life in california and suggested places to check out.  after dinner, i drove to a nearby green spot on the map in hopes of finding a quiet place to park for the night.  it seemed to always be a challenge finding a spot when it was dark, especially in or near urban areas.  i ended up on the side of the road near homes and kept the top down.
four years ago today [2012.10.15] ... waking to the sounds of the pacific ocean waves crashing into the rocks and cliff below was nice.  i had breakfast and took some shots of the waves before continuing south to explore the coast.  before stopping to explore a state park, i saw really beautiful rays of sunlight coming through the tunnel of trees that surrounded the pacific coast highway.  at the park, i attempted to fly a radio controlled powered parachute model though only got it in the air for a few seconds before it crashed.. i was having difficulty hand-launching it and when it actually took flight, i think i quickly cut back on the throttle so it wouldn't go too high or far, and it went right into a tree.  it was a bit disappointing that i had yet to have an actual flight (let alone get any photos with it) after having spent so long researching and building it.  i had hoped to have an alternate option to kite aerial photography for when there wasn't enough wind to fly (this was before quadcopter drones were readily available).
after leaving the park, i found more spots along the coast to check out and saw whales in the distance from one of the overlooks.  the coast was really beautiful.. i could've spent much more time there, though was going to my first campground in california that evening.  on the way inland, i took a long, winding road through the hills in sonoma county.  it was quite beautiful and desolate, yet also another fun drive with plenty of steep inclines and descents (and countless curves).. some of the slopes measured 7 or 8 degrees (a 14% or 16% grade). at times the truck was all of a sudden rapidly accelerating down the curves at near 60 mph.. the serene drive could quickly turn into one needing focused attention to keep the truck under control.  near the end, i found a park with a view of lake sonoma where there was a lot of wind, so i grabbed my kite for a quick aerial photography flight.. having launched from a small lookout tower with no room to walk down the kite, i recall it being difficult to bring down with winds pulling so hard.  afterwards, i drove a little further and spent the evening at a campground near cloverdale.
four years ago today [2012.10.13]

i woke up in redwood national park today and went for a short drive up the road where i found a nice grove of trees.  i had seen the tall trees once before and was struck in awe by their beauty and presence.  i was excited to get to see them again, and at a new place i'd never been before (and one that wasn't crowded with tourists either). walking in the woods that morning was really nice.. the light, cool rain added to the experience of being in the forest of giant trees.  after exploring for a bit, i hopped in the truck and went to check out some of the neighboring park areas and then head south along the coast.  my truck got pretty dirty that day when wandering through one of the parks on a wet dirt road.  after finding some nice spots along the coast, i continued along u.s. highway 101 as it went further inland, and spent the night at a rest area just outside the avenue of giants.
four years ago today [2012.10.10]

i slept under the stars at crater lake and then went for another drive around the park to explore in the morning.  it was really amazing waking up at dawn and seeing the sun rise across the lake.  it was so serene and beautiful.  i drove all the way back out to the pinnacles overlook again, and then circled back around the lake before heading south toward ashland.  on my way to the pinnacles, i found a nice spot with a small waterfall.. a lot of the national parks have many beautiful areas waiting to be discovered.  many tourists might just go look at the main attractions, though there is often so much more to explore.  one could easily get lost for days or weeks in a single park.

i made it to ashland in the afternoon and had a look at the pacific domes manufactured there.  i was considering various options for living at the time.. i wanted to get my own land and have a home base between adventures.  these domes came in a lot of different sizes and material though weren't as permanent as other geodesic domes.  after seeing the factory and a dome that was used as a greenhouse, i went up the road to see a couple more at jackson wellsprings.  while walking there, i felt an amazing energy from a girl who i saw sitting in the distance.  i also felt a great energy standing at the doorway of one of the domes that was their goddess temple.  part of me wanted to stay for a bit to explore or meet others, though i got back on the road so i could make it to california.  i think this was one of the times when the divine was telling me to relax and be more spontaneous rather than stick to the exact plans i had.

i headed south and crossed the border to california.  it was exciting to get there.. a year ago this day i got my camper and had made it to california in the first year of owning it.  it was day 35 of life on the road and i finally had made it.  crossing the border, i saw a large mountain in the background, mount shasta.  it was a bit crazy.. it was nearly 50 miles from the border and appeared so big in the distance.  i made it close to mount shasta at dusk and spent the night on the side of a dirt road near the interstate.

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Becoming Silent

four years ago today [2012.10.05]

i made it to oregon this day.  i decided i wanted to make it to california by 10/10 as that would be a year since i had picked up my camper.  i know in the big picture, it really wouldn't be too big a deal if i made it that day or not, though it felt like it'd be a good milestone to have made it to california in the first year of having my camper.

before leaving washington, i took my kite for a test flight on the beach after getting a new spar, and then i went to check out the alaskan campers.  i had never seen them in person and was interested as the whole hard top would pop up (compared to my camper which had tent material around the top section when it popped-up).. it'd feel more secure when parking in the middle of unknown places overnight.  it's funny, i had just happened to be researching them the day before and saw that they were located not too far out of the way from my route this day.  it's awesome when the universe brings all the pieces perfectly together like that.  there are no such things as random 'coincidences'.. at some level, everything is always in perfect order, and when you're aligned with your purpose, you'll notice more things start to effortlessly fall into place for ya.

oregon was pretty nice.  i think it was on this day on my way to the coast in the afternoon.. that after going around a curve at one point, the temperature just dropped quite noticeably, by like ten degrees or something.  it was a little crazy how much and how quickly weather could vary and change on the west coast.  i checked into a campground at seaside and drove over to the beach before settling in for the evening.  the beach was developed though the sand area itself was pretty large, and there was a boardwalk between the buildings and beach.  it felt like it'd be nice to just hang around and explore the various beach towns and stay on the coast for a while.
four years ago today [2012.10.02]

back in the united states after taking the ferry to canada the day before, i headed toward the coast.  i'd seen a sign somewhere pointing toward the northwesternmost point and decided to follow that.  when i got to the parking lot and started hiking toward the coast i saw a sign warning of bears or another potentially dangerous animal that could be wandering the area.  i felt a little concerned briefly as there was no one else there, though i invoked the divine and kept walking.  by the time i made it to the water i had forgotten about the sign.  it was quite spectacular to have made it to the pacific coast and neat to be at the northwesternmost point in the country.  it was pretty foggy and wet there and nearby.

i headed back inland a bit and then made my way to explore some other natural areas, some of which were part of olympic national park, and found a couple spots with nice views of the pacific ocean.  as it was getting dark i found a quiet spot to sleep off a small road that was part of the national park.  i think there were warnings of the possibility of bears in the area though i didn't have any issues.  it was good to find less traveled spots to sleep especially as the days were getting shorter and i'd be there longer during the night.  it was nice to stay in a unique spot and not have to check in or out of a campground nor book a reservation.

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four years ago today [2012.09.27]

sleeping under the stars, i awoke in the forest to the sounds of the river below with a view of the cascades in the distance.  it was amazing to wake up in such beautiful places in the middle of nature.  this was definitely one of my favorite parts of living life on the road.

after leaving the forest, it was either pretty foggy or smoky.  i headed west and spent a night at another campground before i'd be taking the ferry toward the coast the following day.  i went for a walk and explored the path that went to a creek behind the campground while there.  i had a nice wooded spot in the back, though it was a little loud being right by the interstate.. just a little bit different than the nice morning in the forest.  if you live in a city or haven't been out to nature in a while, make some time to go soon.. it's so calming and healing, and just beautiful and amazing to be somewhere so peaceful, quiet, and natural.
four years ago today [2012.09.24]

waking up on the side of the road, i went for a ride shortly after the sun rose.  there was a nice haze and fog in the early morning.  i parked next to a field for breakfast and then headed over to a nearby park.  i either took a nap or worked on the computer before going for a walk.  after exploring the park and adjacent bridge, i headed over to the campground i'd be staying at for a couple of nights.

it looks like i spent a good number of nights at the campgrounds once i got to washington.. i don't recall if i needed to work a lot and was there for the internet and a place i could sleep undisturbed, or if i wanted to just check out the various campgrounds and see what life there would be like before heading to the coast to explore.  it was probably a combination of both.. when planning my route to the west coast, i was thinking of heading towards most of the campgrounds as i made my way around.
four years ago today [2012.09.21]

i left the campground and filled up one of the containers of propane for the first time.  it'd be good to have it ready to go so i could easily switch it out if the current one ran out again when it was cold.  i then headed back east towards the north cascades to sauk mountain.  it was a bumpy, winding switchback dirt road up to the top.  i don't remember if the girl i had run into a couple days before told me about it or if i had found out from someone else or just seen it on the map.  it was pretty steep and a bit of journey to get up and down it.  on the way up, i got 4.1 mpg and on the way down 44.4 mpg.  on the way down, i had the truck in 2nd or 3rd gear in 4x4 low so i wouldn't have to brake most of the way.  at the parking lot up top, i could see the peaks of nearby mountains over the top of the low clouds.

i then headed back west and north toward the canadian border.  in the middle of the day i discovered that most of my electrical components were not received power.  it was a friday and i didn't know if i'd be able to get ahold of the camper manufacturer or dealer.  i had just bought a lot of refrigerated food, and ended up drinking a lot of carrot juice that day or the next.  i didn't know what was wrong and if i was going to have to find some place to get it fixed while on my trip.  luckily i heard back from the dealer the next day who said it might be the gfi switch that got bumped.  i didn't even know there was a switch at the bottom of the breaker box, though it did the trick.  something must've hit it on the way up or down the winding switchbacks.  i ended up staying at a rest area a little south of the border, and wrote about my frustrations of being on the road (and life) that evening.  there was certainly a bit of a learning experience to be had when traveling across the country in a camper.
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four years ago today [2012.09.18]

after spending a couple nights at the first campground on the trip, i was back on the road.  i stopped at a town up the road, wenatchee, and discovered a nice little local grocery store.  it had lots of healthy and specialty foods that i’d never seen before.  i ended up trying quite a bit and liked most, if not all, of what i had discovered.  there was a really nice girl who worked there that told me about a good hike to lake ann when i mentioned heading over to the north cascades national park.  i didn’t end up going to that part of the park though it was nice to meet friendly people along my journey.

on the way to the park, i saw lots of haze and smoke from recent fires.  when getting up into higher elevations, i began to find some breathtaking views of the mountains, some of which still had a little snow or ice on them.  after leaving an overlook, i kept heading down the road to see what else i would find.  i wanted to stop at a nice spot where i could photograph the stars over the mountains.  i almost regretted leaving the area where i was as i wasn’t seeing anything for a while.  a bit later, i found one spot along the side of the road a little later though it wasn’t quite what i was looking for.. less than ten minutes up the road, i found a nice spot overlooking ross lake just as the day was ending.  i spent the night here sleeping under the stars.
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four years ago today [2012.09.15]

i woke up this day at the rest stop just over the oregon border and explored some of eastern oregon.  i had never been to this part of the state and it was very different than the northwestern part i'd previously seen.. it had a very dry feel to it like the states i had just been in.  perhaps it was due to the drought that year, though there still seemed to be a different feeling in the air.. i recall signs of or the feel of old western culture like i'd seen in some places on the way there.

i drove through a national forest or two, and made a couple short stops there on my way to washington.  the day before i had booked my first campground stay, and i made it almost all the way there after leaving oregon.  i slept on the side of the road a little over half an hour away.  after ten days on the road, it was going to be nice to take a little break the following day.
four years ago today [2012.09.12]

i woke up at dawn and headed into yellowstone national park.  i think i was told it'd take eight hours to drive the whole loop though decided to do it anyway.  i think i stopped at most of the main locations around the loop for at least a little bit.  at one of the areas i decided to go on a hike down a trail where i only saw one other person.  part of me was a little concerned as there could be bears in the area, though i had no encounters or issues.  it ended up being nice exploring an area that felt pretty remote as most spots in the park had other tourists.

i made it around the loop and to old faithful around dusk.  someone had said it wasn't going to be that long for it to go off, so i walked around and waited a bit.  it was getting really cold and was pretty dark, though after having waited so long already, i figured i might as well stay as it couldn't be that much longer.  i ended up waiting over an hour for it to go off.  it was pretty neat and went really high in the air.

freezing after having waited so long for the old faithful geyser at yellowstone to off, i spent the night in the parking lot there.  i think there were signs saying no overnight parking or camping or something, and i had seen buffalo wandering in a nearby parking lot, so i kept the top down and slept on the roll over couch rather than the bed over the cab.  i was still on my first propane tank and had wondered how long it would last.  this night, the coldest night of life on the road so far, i found out what happened when it ran out.  in the middle of the night i woke up hearing the heater just clicking every so often like it was trying to start but not igniting.  most of my bedding was up under the closed pop up top.. i only had one small blanket and it was below freezing outside.  i didn't go outside to figure out how to switch out the tank and just tried to stay warm and make it through the night.  the next morning, the temperature was well below freezing, something like 21 or 23 degrees.
four years ago today [2012.09.09]

on this morning i woke up on sheep mountain table in the badlands.  i had spent the night sleeping under the stars with my camera photographing them all night.  i explored the area a little more before continuing on my journey west.  when planning the route toward washington, i decided to zig-zag my way across the map so i could visit all the northern states on the way there.  this day i took a slight detour out of south dakota into nebraska.  i would look for green spots on the map to go visit.  after either having lunch or a bathroom break at one of these green spots in nebraska, i headed back to south dakota on the way towards wyoming.

while in nebraska, i learned that the google maps app on my old phone might know better than me.  i had seen what looked like a shortcut that it wasn't telling me to take.  when i attempted to follow this road, the dirt path went up a pretty steep hill in the middle of what seemed to be a field.  i decided to try to follow it anyway as i had already started going that way.. i ended up having to put my truck into 4x4 low and then go up backwards back over the hill just to get out when i saw there wasn't a road or path on the other side.

i explored a couple places along my route in south dakota and decided to check out wind's cave national park when i saw it on the map.  i took a tour in one of the caves, and then drove up through one of the nearby state parks where i saw some more buffalo that were also right on the road like in the badlands.  i wanted to make my way towards devil's tower to photograph the stars over it, though i recall it being a bit of a drive and i think i was getting tired plus i didn't know if i was going to be able to find a spot with a good view that i could park at all night.  i'm glad i decided to keep going and made it there.. when i arrived, i found a spot along the side of the road just outside the national monument with a clear shot of the tower.
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four years ago today [2012.09.06]

on this day i was about to embark on a journey across the country, one without a date to return home.  my home would be my pop-up truck camper as i began life on the road.  it was a new chapter in this adventure called life.

summer was almost over.  i had been helping a friend with his startup company since i left florida the end of may, much longer than anticipated.  i wanted to get on the road west weeks earlier to have plenty of time to explore before it got too cold in the northern states.  i planned out the first 10 days from chicagoland to the first campground i'd be staying at in washington, and figured i'd make my way towards the coast after that, though had no other plans set in stone.

i felt i might not want to leave once i got to california.  i had been there once before, nearly a decade earlier.  i recall sensing the beautiful, relaxed feeling in the air when i first arrived.  it was quite unlike florida.. perhaps it was because i was on vacation someplace new, though there was still something about it that felt different.  the nature was quite striking and there was so much of it.  i'd been to washington and oregon a couple times after my first trip to california, and also appreciated the landscapes found there.  i was excited to be heading out west and getting to explore the middle states of the country i'd never yet seen.  something about the wide open land always called to me.

i’ve put together a youtube playlist of all the 2012 life on the road films in chronological order if you want to watch them one after another. here’s the link:

to see pictures from my truck camper journeys or read more about the adventure, visit this link:

(you’ll need to scroll past all the videos as they’re also on that same page)

see the short one minute videos i’ll be posting on instagram (and read a little bit about each day), look here:

[from california to florida]

[from california to florida]

[from california to florida]

[from california to florida]

[in california]

reflecting on a few recent miracles..

one miracle i wrote about recently was feeling motivated/inspired to work on the life on the road films i shot back in 2012 and never completed.. in the past 2.5 weeks i’ve been able to crank through more of them than i had when i first started working on them 2-3 years ago. today i was able to start and finish one with nearly the most number of shots. going through the 600+ shots didn’t take as long i was estimating. it was a little slow in the beginning though picked up quickly. these past few days i’ve been asking for divine grace to help me make the edits needed rather than struggling with needing to control it and make it perfect. i’m almost done with another video that’s rendering now (#56). it’s a miracle i’m moving quickly since yesterday, as i was stuck on day #50 from thursday night through sunday morning.. the adobe software kept crashing and i had to keep trying different workarounds to make it through and it dragged on for so long. i had to surrender and accept what was happening (after getting mad in the beginning when it seemed to be crashing for no reason). the editing process has also gotten simpler as i’ve allowed myself to feel the grace and accept the videos aren’t perfect. more than once i’ve left in things that i could change or tweak (mostly because i didn’t want to wait hours for it to render again, but also because i’ve been shifting my perspective on them). these past weeks have been a bit long and i’ve barely done anything other than sit in front of the computer, though i’m grateful how much progress i’m making on completing the films.

earlier this afternoon when i was waiting 2.5 hours for the second/final render of the video of day 55, i had plenty of time to shower and run a couple errands. i went to open up a couple new bank accounts as i received an offer in the mail that had a nice bonus for opening up the accounts. when opening up the accounts, i found out i needed $25 to open up each of the accounts and i had only brought $25 for one of the accounts as i thought i could transfer the money over for the other account as per what the offer stated in the fine print and what i was told when i called. i asked if the transfer i was planning on doing would work though was told they really wanted the money at the time of opening. i accepted that i was going to have to make another trip to the bank, and it might be the next day as my normal bank closed early and i don’t carry my atm card with me (and i was planning my errands around the time i had to wait for the videos to render and didn’t want to waste more time). i left the bank and got in my car and saw it was only 3:55.. my normal bank closed at 4 (and i was thinking it was after 4 already and wasn’t rushing like i would’ve been had i known i was cutting it so close). i left and headed down the road to my regular bank and didn’t get stuck at the couple lights on the way. i made it there in only 2 minutes and ran inside and was able to withdraw the funds. i headed back to the new bank and then went to whole foods to pick up a couple things on sale. i got home and the file was just about done rendering. it was a miracle how it all worked out in perfect timing so that i didn’t have to make another trip nor lose any time that i could’ve been working on the videos.

perhaps the nicest miracle is that every so often (and recently while working on the videos) i’ve been feeling a feeling that i could describe as being satisfied or relaxed or peaceful or love. as i was typing the last sentence, causeless love/joy came to mind. it feels natural or simple, almost like it’s who we really are as the layers covering it up dissolve. i’m not sure if it’s from freeing all this attention/energy when making progress on these videos and getting them off my plate, or if it’s from growth in my journey. perhaps both. it doesn’t really matter exactly what it is or how it happened. i’m grateful for it and for moving into a place of allowing. it’s much simpler than struggling or trying or any of that sort of thing the mind likes to do. i may not be perfect or always feeling it though i know the resistance will continue to fade away as i expand and evolve and transform.

[in california]

[in california]

[in california]

[in california]

[in california]

[in california]

a recent miracle is that i was inspired to create a technique that has saved (and will save) me lots of time and frustration editing the video clips i shot a few years ago during my trip out west. i hadn’t touched any of the files in over a year and a half, though was feeling motivated recently after completing the last couple years’ worth of time-lapses. i really didn’t like dealing with correcting technical issues due to imperfections in the files the camera created.. many of the films have hundreds of clips and it was very tedious and frustrating to have to be cutting off the end of each clip. when i began working on the film i left off, i used the old technique and found it not to be too bad at first though was finding myself frustrated with it. i tried another one after and think i wasn’t enjoying the process too much, so decided to take a different approach for the next one. the first idea i had come up with wasn’t going to work that ell, though i then thought of another idea to run all the clips through a script that would automatically chop off the last half second of them (alleviating the majority of the frustrating issues with them), and then import those clips into the video editor. it didn’t work perfectly as the editing software didn’t like the very short clips, though i’m sure it has saved an enormous amount of time and frustration. in the past week, i’ve been able to start and complete 10 of the films. i’ve made it past the point of getting to california in the trip (where i had previously thought if i could just make it to then, then i could take a break or give up), and it’s going pretty well. it still is a long process though i’m finding myself more patient with it and enjoying it much more than when i had first started.

another miracle today was that i was much more patient and didn’t get anywhere near as angry as i could’ve when i discovered the car dealer had scuffed/scratched up the paint on my door handles and doors when doing a recall to replace the door handle brackets — i was actually surprisingly pretty calm and accepting though i did feel a bit of a charge that passed fairly quickly once i sat down and accepted i had to wait again (and started working on my computer while waiting to find out if they could buff it out or not).. this was very different than how i felt and reacted nearly two years ago when i first bought the new car and experienced them doing a bad job touching up a ding on the hood i found. today i was able to treat the service advisor kindly, especially at the end, though even when i first got back to the dealer and was feeling the charge of anger and intolerance. earlier today while waiting for the recall work to be done, a little miracle was that i was patient and pretty tolerant of the ego energy i was sensing and hearing from the sales reps who were standing right near where i was sitting the whole time (and i was actually able to work on programming somewhat complex code at the time and it didn’t end up being as much of an overhaul as i was thinking). at one point, i quietly sent blessings and light to everyone at the dealer (and felt a little energized after doing so). the last part of today’s miracle was that i had enough gas to make it back home (after the range dropped quickly and had indicated 0 for a few miles) and i was later able to start the car back up and get to the gas station to fill it up — i didn’t think it was going to be this low and thought there’d be plenty to make it home (as i had forgotten the gas gift card i wanted to use up) though i had to turn around and go back to the dealer after i discovered the mishap when i stopped a few miles down the road from the dealer (which was 30+ miles from my home). i’d prefer not having to make a couple trips all the way back out to the dealer again next week to drop off my car to get the paint touched up and new door handles installed, though i’ll make an adventure of it and perhaps go to some local parks or spots in nature in the area. i’m wanting to make it through editing all these videos quickly though i know it’s all in divine order.. they’re going to get done and i don’t have to worry so much about the deadline i’ve placed on myself to complete them in the coming weeks. if anyone reading this is interested in checking out the videos, here’s a link to where i’m posting them:

…and i just noticed repeating numbers in the url of the date and this post # on my website: /2016/08/11/17111/

[a.k.a. life on the road]

i think one of the things i really liked about doing really long exposures or time-lapses at night was being present. sitting, waiting for the camera to expose the images would give me a lot of time to just be there and experience being there. i recall feeling this sometimes during the day when doing time-lapses and just sitting waiting, or when simply waiting for the sun to set when i would get to the causeway or park early. it was nice to just hang out and be in a natural place without thinking i needed to photograph every single moment. it’s so much better to create when feeling inspired rather than trying to force it when wanting to do a specific project. being somewhere at night is nice as its cooler and there’s usually not very much light in the natural places i go to (or even in places that are more well lit), so it’s easier to relax and focus on what i do see. perhaps a part of it is that its also quieter with less people out. i’m not sure all the exact specifics.. i should stop trying to figure it out. it’s all about just relaxing and being in the moment. i’ve experienced this perception even when walking on a bright sunny day, so it’s not all about the external conditions.. it’s about the internal feeling. the external environment can help one feel a certain way, though one can shift how one feels regardless of any external conditions.. it might take a little more effort and work if one is resisting a lot of what one is feeling or experiencing in the world, though it can be done. i’m glad i came out here to do this shot tonight. i felt inspired earlier to do so when i was laying in the grass. it’s not the most exciting shot though i’ll put it with other ones i shoot in a time-lapse and i’m sure it’ll add to the interest of it.

i think what i’m enjoying most about my experience today going to lay on the grass and coming out here is that its bringing me back to aspects of the old me that i had forgotten.. i used to be more spontaneous and free and very often feel inspired to create lots of photographs.. i’d also really embrace the experience of life. somehow over the past couple/few years i strayed away from this. i’ve been wanting to make changes in my life so i could have more fun and enjoy it more again. i think part of the issue i’ve faced was in having my own condo i’ve really felt the struggle to make money to be able to pay for it.. i really don’t like owing anyone anything, especially not when it’s tied to some legal agreement where they could take my home if i didn’t pay. a long time ago, even though i did need money for rent or food or something, i still managed to be free. i was more care free and wasn’t attached to outcome. sometimes i did have less to worry about, less responsibility or concern, though i still sometimes managed to let go of attachment and be free. i think it helped when i either had a group of friends who were easy-going or knew me and appreciated me as i was, or when i had a girlfriend who enjoyed being spontaneous and going on an adventure. one of the most enjoyable aspects of life is just having fun and being in the moment with someone else. it’s something i’ve missed for a long time as i either lost touch with or let go of a lot of people from my past. having nobody and feeling stuck inside a condo that i didn’t fully appreciate really affected me. as i learn to surrender and enjoy my life more, i’ll really be able to embrace wherever i am, regardless of whether or not i’m with someone else or not. yes, it’d certainly be nice to hang out with someone whom i have a meaningful connection with, though i can still appreciate and enjoy my own life.

these recent months (and years) i’ve been so busy working on my photography projects that i haven’t really just sat down and enjoyed life. and as i did the projects and wasn’t really enjoying them for very long after they were complete, it began to feel quite meaningless doing them. when that’s all i was doing, my whole life began to feel meaningless. i really wondered what i was doing with it and often felt lonely and bored. i think sometimes the photo projects were just a means to satisfy that boredom, in an attempt to give my life some meaning or purpose, though it never quite worked as well as it could’ve. it’d only be a very temporary satisfaction.. it’d feel exciting to create a new technique and be out shooting that way, though it quickly lost its excitement after doing it for a little while or completing the project. sometimes it began to feel like work i had to do to complete it and it was no longer fun. i think part of the issue was that i was only going to the same parks and places in the area here. they quickly lost their excitement as it was the same places i was just photographing in new ways. it feels so much more exciting and thrilling to be traveling and exploring someplace new, or some place i hadn’t been to in a while. i know i’m not the only one to experience some of these things and others have written about similar feelings. places and experiences can become mundane if they’re repeated over and over, especially when there is no real purpose or the purpose is only a means or failed attempt to fulfill a deeper longing.

yesterday, or the day before, i deleted thousands (or tens of thousands) of dollars worth of ‘success’ audio programs i had purchased when i was attempting to start business a long time ago. i also deleted the majority of audio files i had downloaded or copied off old cds from a very long time ago. it feels good to purge and let go of things i no longer need. we often hang on to things (digital, physical, mental, or emotional) thinking maybe we’ll need them one day or want to experience them again, though if we look at when was the last time we actually used them (or did we ever use them), we’ll realize that the actual likelihood we’d use them is slim to none. i also deleted old video files i either downloaded or copied off dvds. all together, i purged over half a terabyte of data. it’s funny to look at how much time and effort i wasted downloading and copying the data, thinking maybe i’ll need it some day. i think the large majority of what i deleted i never played once. it felt good to let it go, knowing i didn’t need it. i look at even recently how i’ve downloaded some audio programs i’ve found on the web so i would have them for someday rather than just play it online and see if i even like it. most of them i never listened to though knowing i had them made me feel or think i was okay and could just listen to them whenever. however, whenever never came. it wasn’t a beneficial way of looking at it. now, looking at things more from the perspective of the experience, i can choose to see it in a way that i no longer need to have it or hang on to it. and i don’t have to be on the total opposite extreme about it either.. if i end up liking something, i can choose to keep just those things. i recently read an article talking about de-cluttering.. i think they quoted someone and it basically said to look at or hold each thing you have and if it doesn’t bring you joy, get rid of it. that’s such a great way to look at it. i don’t need to think about the usability or potential of it.. it’s simply going by the feeling it brings. this can be applied to any aspect of life. rather than overthinking things, simply if it doesn’t feel good, don’t do it, and if it does feel good, do it. a friend of mine who’s a transformational coach taught me about living from the ‘feel good’.. it’s simply stepping into the feel good and choosing from that place. it’s much simpler to live from feeling, or the heart, than the mind. the mind can take one in all sorts of directions and often contradict itself, though the heart, soul, and inspiration can guide in a much more effective manner. just like right now.. i wanted to write more and had other areas i wanted to look at, though i’m feeling a little tired and the camera’s been going for long enough to get a decent shot for the time-lapse, so i’m gonna head back home instead of try to force more words out at the moment.

as i was leaving the causeway, the thought of not caring came to mind. by not caring i mean in not being attached to outcome, not worrying so much about the little things, and not caring what others think or expect of you. i used to live more freely from this place of not caring. i didn’t really worry so much about certain things and would just go with the flow or what felt right. i’m sure there was some degree of caring, i don’t remember exactly, it’s been many years now.. though at some point i just got to not care or worry so much and would just enjoy the moment and the experience of life. lately i see how i’ve been trying to control things by wanting things to be a certain way or making things happen a certain way or whatnot.. this hasn’t served me as i’ve only put limitations on myself by doing so. i could write about lots of examples that i was thinking on my drive home, though i won’t go into them all as i’m not feeling them right now. as i surrender attachment to outcome or needing things to be a certain way (or seeking perfection in a sense), i’ll be able to flow more with life. trusting things are going to work out works a lot better than trying to force things to go a certain way. it’s much less stressful to let the universe handle everything rather than take it all into your own hands. the more you do this, the more you’ll see it just naturally works out anyhow (and all that time and energy you wasted was of your own making and truly unnecessary).

it feels good to just be in the moment. i’m sitting here in my condo and realizing this is okay right now. it may not be perfect though right now in this moment it’s okay. learning to relax and take it easy makes a huge difference in life. you don’t need to make everything so difficult. take time for yourself and enjoy the experience. relax. love life.

decided to do some last shots with my gopro before selling it.. funny that literally as i was dropping it off to be shipped out to the buyer gopro announced the new model

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four years ago today [2012.10.19]

i woke up and drove across the bay to san francisco to meet a couple of other friends who happened to be visiting san francisco.  it was overcast and foggy that day.  we went to eat at the vegetarian restaurant i'd been to the day before, the source.  afterwards, we went to explore the piers and saw the sea lions before going on a ride to see the golden gate bridge.  we left the bridge welcome center, drove by the coast a little, and then went down lombard street.  it was nice to spend time with them when we happened to be in the area.  we had a good conversation about group thinking and i remember one of my friends saying how i didn't really conform to any group.  after we parted ways, i drove east and spent the night at a campground between sacramento and lake tahoe.

the next day i wrote something about how it was funny to think about the city as a meeting place.  it was neat that i met friends from both florida and chicago when i was out in san francisco.  two lived there and two were just passing through.  i thought of how it was similar to how we all happen to be on earth at the same time and show up in each other's lives.  perhaps we all had decided and planned these meetings long before we even showed up on this planet.
four years ago today [2012.10.16]

i woke up at my first campground in california this day.  for lunch, i headed to town for a sub before making my way back toward the coast.  i remember it being nice and warm as i sat outside eating.  it was really great to get to experience some pleasant temperatures after all the cold days i'd been in earlier in the trip. -
i made it over to point reyes national seashore late in the afternoon.  i remember visiting there when i first went to california nearly a decade earlier.. it was so amazing to experience what felt like thousands of miles of waves and wind hitting the coast.  i went back on this trip to explore and experience it again.  it was extremely windy near the lighthouse area and somewhere out there i lost the wind screen for my microphone.  when i realized it, i took a few steps back to look for it before deciding it was a lost cause with so much wind.  i drove to and explored parts of the seashore i hadn't seen the first time there.. it was all really beautiful.  it was getting dark so i spent the night in a parking lot and would explore more in the morning.
four years ago today [2012.10.14]

i explore the avenue of the giants when i woke up this morning.. it was really amazing and beautiful.  i felt a connection to the trees when i hugged one, and was sad as i neared the end of the avenue of the giants.  the giant redwood trees were so magnificent.. it's really sad that 96% of the trees that once stood are gone because of logging.  i'm grateful that more people are becoming aware of the negative impact humans have had on the planet.  as more of us learn of the harm that has been caused to nature because of society's need to continually consume more, we'll start to see great changes in how people are treating the environment.  it's already begun to happen as consciousness has increased and more of us have started to focus on sustainability, collaboration, and simplicity over consumption, competition, and greed.

i headed south and got on california route 1 where it began at u.s. highway 101.. i took the long, winding road up, down, and around the hills toward the coast.  somehow i made it the whole way when my truck was just about out of gas, and the gas station just before getting on route 1 had some issue.. either the pumps weren't working, they were out of gas, or i saw that it was a no name station and i didn't trust the quality of gas.  it was a bit nerve-racking driving to the coast.. i didn't know how many more changes there'd be in elevation on the way there, and the truck drank a lot of gas going uphill.  i don't recall how many miles the truck was saying were left on the tank.. it may have been in single digits or zero.  i stopped at the first gas station on the map, a little community mart that happened to have one pump.  it was the worst spot i ever got gas from with an ancient pump that was really dirty and may have been rusty.  it had handwritten signs on it with the price and instructions.  at $5 a gallon and 24.982 gallons, it was the most i ever spent on gas.  i know i didn't have to fill it up, though i either wanted to see how low it really was or didn't really worry once i started the pump.  on the coast, i saw nice views, explored a couple of spots, and spent the night at an overlook.
four years ago today [2012.10.12]

i awoke in the middle of the night on mount shasta.. i had a dream where it felt like someone was coming into my camper through the tent material and attacking me or something (or perhaps this was the dream that woke me a couple weeks earlier in an indian reservation.. whatever the exact dream on mount shasta was, i do recall it being strong and feeling like it was happening in real life and i woke up). i suppose the high energy of mount shasta was helping me work through my fears.. or i was picking up on the energy of those sleeping at the other side of the parking lot.  earlier, i had heard one of them talking about some fears or energies they were facing.  i got up, stopped my time-lapse, and drove to the spot i had seen just down the road on my way up.  i'd thought of photographing the stars there (and may have wanted to wake up to move) so it all worked out that i was able to do so.  in the morning, i shot a time-lapse of the sun revealing mount shasta before leaving.  on the way down to lower elevation, i drove into the clouds.  it was awesome to be sitting above the clouds while on the mountain.. it was sunny there and cloudy in the town and area below.

after stopping to check out some crystal bowls in town, i headed south and stopped at a trader joe's in redding.  i remember the cashier being nice.. i didn't have lots of interactions with others on the road and it was good to encounter nice people when i did.  i then headed west toward redwood national park.  it was a long winding drive toward the coast and part of it was under construction.. i took a short cut through a narrow, winding, bumpy dirt road over the hills in an indian reservation.  just outside there was the edge of the park.  i was going to go down a road to part of the backcountry i'd researched, though the gate at the entrance was locked.. it looked like i had to have called ahead to get a key or code, or the hours/days open had changed or something, so i went to a nearby overlook.  it was going to be dark soon so i parked on the side of the road a little further up and spent the night there.  i'd be seeing the tall trees in the morning.
four years ago today [2012.10.09]

i explored a little bit more of the dunes before heading inland.  i saw some vehicles driving up and over the dunes.. it looked like it would've been fun, though i'm not sure if taking my stock truck with the camper up on them would be the best idea (and i had a bit of a drive ahead of me that day).

i was on my way to crater lake national park, and then to california the next day.  i think i had first seen photos of crater lake not too long before taking this trip.. it may have been when i saw someone i knew from a long time ago post a picture on a social network.  it was one of those spots i never realized was there until i researched it after seeing what it looked like in the photo.. it then was on the back burner as a place to check out at some point.

i made it to crater lake with some daylight still left to explore.. at one of the first overlooks, i met a girl who had just decided to drive south from seattle or something with her dog.  we took pictures of each other with the lake in the background and chatted for a minute.. had i been more spontaneous, i could’ve asked if she wanted to explore together or join me for dinner, though i was thinking too much about seeing the park quickly before heading to california the following day.  after seeing some of the overlooks near the lake, i decided to drive all around the whole park and go all the way out to the pinnacles overlook.  it was dark by the time i made it back around.. i found an overlook where i could see a nice view of the lake and wizard island from my truck, and i set up a shot of the stars overnight.  i think it was here that i lost one of the ball heads for a tripod.. it was strange, there was no sign of it anywhere that night or the next morning.  luckily i had more than one and was still able to get a great shot.
four years ago today [2012.10.07]

i took the path down onto the beach and drove up to the large dune at cape kiwanda state park this morning. i parked the truck a little bit aways and decided to go hike up it to have a look from there. this was one of those times where i wasn't really thinking or planning, but just continuing to explore while i was there experiencing the beauty of the place. the whole hike ended up being a couple hours and i probably didn't have any water with me. i just kept going further as i saw how much there was to explore. it was really amazing to see the views from the dunes and cape. after being gone for a while, i started to worry a little about my truck.. i had parked away from the water though didn't know if the tides would be rising and how much. i preferred the salt water stay far from it. i didn't have any issues but it was something that crossed my mind after realizing i was gone for a while and didn't know how much longer it'd be 'til i got back (especially as i couldn't see the truck most of the time i was up on the cape). afterwards, i drove north a bit on the beach to the next spot i could get on the road, and found someone stuck in the sand at the exit. i got out of my truck and helped give some direction as to which way to turn the wheel and whether to go forward or backwards, and they got out after a little bit. i then headed south and explored more of the coast on my way to the next campground. one of the parks i wandered through had some nice winding dirt roads through the hill or mountain.. some parts were pretty narrow and i decided to turn around (after having to drive backwards to the closest fork in the road) when i saw the path getting narrower with a log up on both sides of the road. from where i sat, it appeared like the log might rub against the truck and i had already heard some branches scratching against my truck or camper on the way in and didn’t want to risk any more.. luckily there was little to no damage from the branches.
four years ago today [2012.10.04]

i spent this day at the campground by the beach.  i walked out to the beach a couple times and saw some vehicles in the distance.  the day before, i had seen plenty of tire tracks but no sign of anyone else there.  it was still amazing how wide and empty the beach and path to it was.  so many beaches i had been to before had been pretty narrow and were often filled with homes or some sort of development right there.  this was very different and quite beautiful to be wide open and natural.  it was almost like i was in a dream walking by myself a long way completely surrounded by nature.

the campground was pretty quiet.. there was only one other rv in the back part where i was staying.  i briefly chatted with the guy staying there who would often go to this campground.  he mentioned how it'd be really wet and unbearable in the winter.  i was glad to have discovered it before winter.. the walk in nature to explore the beach was the best part of being there.

looking back at what i had written in my journal/blog this day, it looks like i was almost done with the revisions for the web application i was working on at the time, so that would help free up attention and energy to be able to enjoy the exploration a bit more.  i was also feeling excited to be living the dream of traveling out west.  it was almost a month that i had been living life on the road.  yes, there were ups and downs, though it was great to be realizing a vision/dream i had previously chosen.  you can live the life you desire and follow your dreams, and it feels great to do so!
four years ago today [2012.10.01]

this day i left my truck and camper behind as i boarded a ship to spend a day in canada.  my friend had told me about the ferry that went from the nearby town to victoria and i decided to check it out.  i got up at dawn and made it just in time to board before the first ship left.  i think i was a little worried leaving my truck and camper all day in the middle of a town i didn't know.  i literally was leaving the country and leaving everything (except one camera and my phone) behind in the truck camper.  i had all of my data with me as i had carried it to chicagoland for the summer.. pretty much my whole life was in there.

when i got to canada and handed them my passport, they pulled me off to the side for a minute to check it before stamping it.  perhaps i looked strange as a guy entering their country alone, carrying nothing, and being so far from home.  i walked a little around the downtown area in victoria and then made my way over to beacon hill park where i could see the olympic mountains back in the united states.  at this park i remember overhearing or speaking with a girl who worked there who had a nice canadian accent.  i then found a local restaurant and had lunch before going back to another park on the water.  i explored there and circled around along the water back to the port to wait for the next ferry to arrive.  after taking the long ferry ride back to the states, i got back in my truck and camper and headed a little west to find a spot in or near olympic park where i could park for the night before it got dark.
four years ago today [2012.09.29]

my friend and i went to olympic national park after heading in to town for breakfast.  on the way up to hurricane ridge, we stopped at an overlook where a number of birds landed on my friend's arm and hand after she fed them pieces of a tortilla wrap.  there was a nice panoramic view when we got up to the top at hurricane ridge.  after taking it in for a little bit, we headed back to the nearby town and my friend showed me a spot by the water before we met one of her friend's.  we had planned to go to a full moon celebration or something that my friend wanted to go to though ended up at her friend's bar for too long, so we went with her friend to visit a couple of his friends and play games instead.  my friend offered to drive during our adventures that day.. it was a little weird to be in the passenger seat of my truck, but nice to have someone show me around the area (and get a little break from driving everywhere).
four years ago today [2012.09.26]

after a couple nights camping by the bay, i decided to head back to the cascades.  the morning was really foggy.. on the way east i went to a park that had an overlook to check out the view of the landscape below.  i made a couple other stops to check out the river and mountain views on the way back toward the wilderness.  i took the road all the way to cascade pass in north cascades national park.  on my way in, i saw a nice overlook that had a view of some of the mountain range over the cascade river.  i thought perhaps i'd stay there for a time-lapse of the stars later.  when i got to cascade pass, i saw lots of snow or ice on parts of the mountains.

i don't recall if there was a sign at cascade pass saying no camping or if i didn't think the angle would be as good for a shot of the stars.. whatever the reason, i headed back to the spot i saw earlier in the forest and parked in the little area that was there on the side of the road shortly before it got dark.  it was a little cloudy at first, though the clouds passed by after a while and i got a nice shot of the stars and moonlit mountains that night. -
it was nice to have the truck camper.. it was a landscape photographer's best tool.  i recall some of the times when i'd be all set up at spots like this for a shot of the stars overnight, i'd hear or see cars going by.. they'd still have to be making their way to wherever they were staying that evening and i was already set up for the night and didn't have to go anywhere.  having a comfortable bed and all the basics with me everywhere i went was really nice.. i recall times in the past when i would sleep in the front seat of my car shooting the stars and it was quite uncomfortable (and the only amenities i might have with me would be a drink or snack, if i happened to remember to pack something). i also remember times being pretty tired and making a long drive home at night when i'd rather just be sleeping (and briefly drifting into sleep while driving). some sort of rv or camper is definitely the way to go exploring.
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four years ago today [2012.09.23]

i left the campground and headed south a bit, exploring some spots along the water and stopping at some parks i found.  one park had some nice trails and an overlook of the nearby area.  after that one, i went down a winding road on a cliff by the water where i found a spot to stop for a nice view of the islands in the distance.  a little later, i drove by some houses that had a great view of one of the bays.

i think i ended up pretty close to the campground i was going to stay at the following day and spent the night on the side of the road a couple miles away.  if this is the night i'm thinking, it was part of an indian reservation (as was the campground), and i had a strange dream that woke me up in the middle of the night.  if i remember, i think i thought that someone or something had come into my camper through the tent material to attack me.. i may have felt this as i was slipping between the dream world and physical world, and that's how i was interpreting the feelings in this reality.  perhaps i was picking up on some of the energy nearby or something.  a couple times like this (and times when i would sleep in places where bears or other large animals might be) led me to think i might be better off in a hard-top camper or van so i wouldn't have to worry about the possibility of anything getting in easily.  it did feel pretty vulnerable spending the night asleep in random places where people or animals might find me.  i often would invoke the divine and surround the truck and camper in white light or blessings before drifting off to sleep, and never had any actual issues during my journey.
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four years ago today [2012.09.20]

i spent the day at a campground not too far from north cascades national park where i was exploring the day before.  i did some laundry there and probably worked on the computer most of the day.. around this time of the trip i unexpectedly had to do a lot of work for a client who decided they wanted much more than they had originally specified for the web application i had built for them.  it was quite frustrating to have this affect my trip and make me feel rushed while exploring places, though it was really nice to be able to work from almost anywhere i wanted.  i spent a couple nights at this campground.. it certainly was much easier to get work done without having to go looking for somewhere to park that had a usable phone or internet connection.  there were plenty of beautiful, quiet places i could've stayed for a while, though many, if not most, were without a signal.  at the campground, i stayed at a nice spot in the shade under tall, thick trees.  in the afternoon, i went for a walk and explored the creek that ran through the back.. i think this was the campground where i saw a yurt in person for the first time (i'd been told about them years earlier when i became interested in alternative homes or living options).
four years ago today [2012.09.17]

i spent this day at the campground i arrived at the day before.  i most likely worked on the computer or took it easy and rested in the camper.  around dusk, i went for a walk down the path to the river.  i probably cooked soup or pasta or something simple.  living life on the road, i often ate cereal for breakfast (or sometimes oatmeal), and veggie wraps for lunch.  as mini-meals, i would snack on bars, bean chips with salsa, apples with peanut butter, or something else i could easily eat between wanderings.  i occasionally would stop for a sub with eggs and veggies or a veggie taco somewhere.  i don't recall cooking too often, though it was nice to have the burners in the camper and be able to cook something simple when i did do so.

i'm looking back at what i wrote on this day, and it looks like i was realizing how much stuff i had brought with me.  i do recall this first journey of life on the road being a bit ridiculous in the amounts of stuff i had with me.  i honestly didn't know if i was coming back or for how long i'd be gone, so i had pretty much everything with me.  i remember having to step over things or move multiple things around just to find what i was looking for.  the journey the following year was much simpler as i didn't carry as much.  minimalism in life, especially life on the road, is an enormous help.  besides making it easier to find things, it frees up mental space of things you need to think about or take care of.

i know if i were to do life on the road again, it'd be much simpler this time around.. in the technological improvements alone, i'd need much less gear to be able to create the same kind of images and videos i did on this trip.  when thinking about acquiring something new or keeping something old, have a look at how much you'll actually use it and consider if you really need it.  if you're barely gonna use it, it's probably not worth getting or keeping around.  it's also helpful to only keep something that's versatile with multiple uses.  i used to have gear that was only for very specific types of shots that would take up so much space and just sit there for weeks, months, or longer.
four years ago today [2012.09.14]

i woke up on the side of the road somewhere in idaho.  i was on my way to the moon.. i would always joke with my mom and say i was going to the moon when she'd ask where i went or was going.  this time i could really say it on my way to craters of the moon national monument.  when planning the route west, i think as soon as i saw it on the map, i decided i had to go there just because of the name.  i didn't look up anything about the park.. it just sounded interesting so i picked it.  in fact, i think that's how i picked most of the places i went to.. they sounded interesting or were a green spot on the map somewhere in the general direction i was going, so i decided to check them out.  i'm sure many people do a lot of research, planning, and reading up on reviews or tour guides, though it's often more fun to just go with what sounds or feels good.. it's more spontaneous, and is trusting the divine guidance that's been taking us all along this journey we call life anyhow.

just outside the national monument and preserve, i started to see some of the dark landscapes and it was unlike anything i'd seen before.  it was neat to see how diverse the land is.  the main loop of the park was closed as they were paving it or something so i started exploring a path near one of the parking areas that was open.  it ended up being a couple hour hike by the time i made it up, down, and around the craters and back around the loop to the parking area.

i left and headed west toward oregon.  i stopped at a rest area just over the border about 45 minutes before the sun went down and decided to spend the evening there.  it was nice to just stay wherever i wanted rather than have to plan out or go looking for a campground or hotel.  there was no need to check in, check out, carry or unpack a suitcase, make sure nothing was forgotten when packing back up, etc.  at some points in my truck camper journeys it did take quite a while to get out to a rural area where i felt i wouldn't be disturbed, though it was a tradeoff for staying someplace free and being able to get up and go.  my home was always with me wherever i went (or just down a trail).
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four years ago today [2012.09.11]

i checked out bighorn canyon national recreation area on my way back into wyoming.  near one of the bends in the river, i tried to fly my kite to take some aerial photos, though the winds were too rough and threw the kite all around and onto the rocky ground.  stubbornly, thinking the wind would change, i kept trying and ended up breaking a spar.  i spent the night east of yellowstone near the buffalo bill dam.  i never knew there was a dam or reservoir there.. it was nice discovering interesting places and memorable people along the journey.  i remember the guy who worked at the visitor center being friendly and telling me about the buffalo in yellowstone when i said i was on my way there.

the detour to zig-zag from devil's tower to yellowstone via north dakota ended up taking an extra day and just about a whole tank of gas.  this trip was back when gas was hovering close to or well over $4 a gallon depending where you were.  some may wonder if it's worth spending a whole day driving and nearly $100 in gas just to briefly see an extra state when you don't know what you'll find, though it's all part of the adventure.. yes, perhaps some parts of the trip may not have been as exciting as others, though it's really how we're perceiving it.  one could find beauty anywhere should one allow oneself to.
four years ago today [2012.09.08]

parked on the side of a road somewhere in a national grassland, i woke up in the middle of the pitch dark night hearing strange animal noises and feeling weird energy, and it looked like the rear window of my camper was broken.  it was pretty cold and i didn't want to get out of bed to look nor to write down the insights i felt.  at some point, i awoke with an understanding of perception.. early that morning i had written "I woke up a couple hours ago with an understanding about the reflection through which we see ourselves being the same transparent mirror through which we’re seeing the world, though can’t quite remember the exact words right now." when daylight came, i saw the rear window of my camper door was intact and the only signs of animals were some cattle up on a hill across the road.

i recall it appearing like a lot of the national grassland was fenced off or being used for agriculture rather than a park or preserve, so i headed west toward the badlands instead of explore longer.  after seeing a lot of the rock formations there, i drove down a dirt road surrounded by hundreds of bison.  i then headed over to another little part further out on the map, sheep mountain table.  it was a bumpy dirt road that led me to a much more desolate area where i only saw a couple other vehicles.  i got out to take some photos and was standing near the edge of the cliff when the wind stopped.  all of a sudden there was no sound at all, no sound of nature or man.. all that was left was complete, perfect silence, the voice of god.  it was a truly amazing and beautiful experience that words cannot begin to describe.  it was only my second full day on the trip and i had already discovered and felt the presence of god.  i looked forward to whatever other peaceful places i might find on this journey.

nearby there was a high clearance vehicle road that went further into the park.  i took it to the end where i set up a couple cameras for time-lapse shots of the sun fading across the badlands formations and the stars passing by.  it was nice to be able to spend the night sleeping under the stars in what felt like such a remote place.

miracles and gratitude.. i wanted to write this the other day so let’s see if i can remember it. a miracle that i’m grateful for is that i made it through the rest of the 2012 life on the road films. i somehow made it! it was a long process to do the 45-46 films that took just under a month of me working pretty much non-stop on it from the time i’d get up to the time i’d go […]

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how beautiful it was to simply lay in the grass for a short while on this sunny day. it was cooler today than it has been lately. in the shade, 71 degrees felt a little cold though after walking for a little bit to the lake nearby, it felt nice to just lay down in the sun. at first i thought i’d just walk around the lake or partially around and sit on a bench and then go back home. something told me to go to the grass. it was subtle, though my attention was drawn to it, almost like it was calling to me. at first i resisted, then decided sure, why not. i let go of thinking of what others might think of me just laying down there and just surrendered into the moment. looking up at the deep blue sky, i felt more present and relaxed. a couple bugs landed on me though i didn’t let them bother me too much and then they went away after a bit. the energy of the the brilliant sun and earth below me was grounding. i felt better than i did earlier sitting inside my condo bored trying to think of what to do or resisting being there. something so simple can be so energizing. i feel rejuvenated. just walking toward the pond i felt a little more present or relaxed as i noticed the trees around me and wasn’t thinking so much. relaxing and being present is one of the most beneficial things one can do in life. remember to take some time for yourself to simply be present and do something that calms you. while staring up at the bright blue sky above, i began to see little bits of something in the air.. i had experienced this long before. it felt like i was seeing little bits of energy moving about. i also noticed the little bugs in the air though when i focused in a certain way and noticed the energy, it felt different. it was like it was in a slightly different dimension or plane or something. while laying there i got the idea of driving down to the causeway to shoot a time-lapse of the stars tonight. i had thought of that earlier though wasn’t quite feeling it and was thinking maybe i can do that later as i’ve been shooting footage to create monthly time-lapses and this wasn’t a new month yet and i had also thought of maybe wanting to post still images to instagram of some of the shots along the way.. when you let go of the mind and it’s overthinking or needing things to be a certain way, things flow much more simply. while laying there, i felt like it’d be good to go tonight. i don’t need to wait, and it’d be good to just hang out there while the camera is running and see how cool it gets or how it is to hang out there for a while at night (as i’ve thought of doing van-life next year, and perhaps selling my condo as i may not be able to park it here and living out of the van for a while, and it’d be good to feel what it’d be like to spend more time in nature). so much of the time i spend in nature is usually doing something.. either riding my bike mostly for exercise or walking around to photograph. it was nice to just be present and just be, rather than have to do. it was so calming. it reminded me of how i would sometimes be in the past, though i had lately been so caught up in needing to do. simply being or feeling is so much better than always doing. i looked up at the tree near me and thought what if i wanted to photograph it because it felt so nice and i wanted to capture the moment.. then i thought i could carry a camera and just photograph when i feel inspired but not feel the need to do so all the time, and i also thought i could simply just be and enjoy it without photographing it. there’s no need to capture everything. sometimes it feels like it comes out of the fear of what if that moment never comes again or something like that, though living from a place of being, beautiful moments will always unfold. then the mind also thinks what about wanting to share this beautiful experience with someone else.. but then i could see how many thousands of beautiful images i’ve already created and realize i don’t necessarily need any more. shift how you see aspects of your everyday life, and you’ll see how beautiful the world becomes as you transform. this whole illusion really is a mere byproduct of what we’re feeling.. if we’re not liking our experience or want to change it, all we simply need to do is change our perspective and our perception of it will change what we’re seeing. and sometimes all we need is to take a walk out to nature and fully embrace it and allow ourselves to relax so we can really experience being there rather than thinking or feeling other things we may have been going through. oh, and i almost forgot to add that the whole walk to the lake nearby was inspired.. i walked to get the mail and wasn’t thinking i’d go out to the lake. after checking the mail, i felt like going for a walk to the edge of the pond and followed that feeling. i hadn’t locked the deadbolt on my door though quickly forgot about that and didn’t let that bother me as i thought i’d only be gone for a minute, though when i got there, feeling how nice it was but not knowing what to do, i thought maybe i’d walk around or to the bench on the other side or something.. as i started to make my way around the lake, i then was drawn to the grass after noticing how beautiful it was out and calm i was being out there. simple exploring is so fun and calming. and inspiration is always there for us if we choose to tune into it.

four years ago today [2012.10.21]

sleeping under the stars at lake tahoe, i woke up in the morning to explore a little before making my way to a campground not that far away.  it was windy that day with small white crests on the lake’s water.  along the highway to the campground i saw more yellow-leaved trees.  it was nice to get to experience a bit of the fall weather after just having been in summer temperatures a couple or few days earlier.  when checking in at the campground, the girl said we'd be getting a little snow though it wasn't going to stick.  being that it'd be near or below freezing, i didn't leave my water hose hooked up overnight.  the spot i stayed at was interesting.. it was a big parking area next to large rocks.  i went for a bike ride to a pond at the campground and recall it being pretty cold.  i don't recall what else i did.. perhaps i worked on the computer or just stayed inside the camper for warmth.
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four years ago today [2012.10.18]

having spent the night in a suburban area, i woke up before the sun rose and quietly left.  to stay more discreet, i hadn't popped up the top of the camper.. this is one of the times where a plain looking van would've blended in better, though i didn't have any issue.  i explored a little of the east side of the bay and then took one of the bridges back west.  on my way to san francisco, i stopped at a hobby shop to replace the broken propellor for the model i crashed three days earlier.  in san francisco i explored a few of the parks in the middle of the city that had nice panoramic views of the surrounding neighborhoods and city.  i never knew these existed and hadn't seen them during my first visit.  it was neat to check them out and explore somewhere a bit different than the typical tourist attractions.  after seeing a few of them, i headed to a camera shop downtown to check out a used lens before meeting a friend who worked in town.  i checked out the event venue where she worked and then we went to the source, a vegetarian restaurant, for dinner.  while there, i ordered an elixir, divine guidance, and felt like i was receiving the guidance or inspiration during our great conversation.  it was great to see my friend.. it had been years since we'd seen each other before that.  i gave her a ride home back across the bay.. she said it was a safe area so i stayed in the camper on the street there (though didn't pop the top). before getting to sleep (and the next morning), i wrote some insights and feelings i was experiencing.  it was awesome to feel more aware, present, in the moment, and be able to feel and understand more deeply.

I am Not the Body, I am Not the Mind. Sadhguru


“Saying Yes to Life” – Sadhguru

Let Us Make It Happen


About Sadhguru


Why So Much Suffering in the World? – Sadhguru


What is Enlightenment? Sadhguru


Different levels of Oneness and Enlightenment. Sadhguru


Have You Ever Met Any Himalayan Teachers? (Part 1) Sadhguru


Have You Ever Met Any Himalayan Teachers? (Part 2) Sadhguru


Are Dreams and Life just an illusion? Sadhguru


Is time travel possible? Sadhguru


What is the Third Eye? Sadhguru


Are Psychic Powers and Telepathy Real? Dr. Devi Shetty with Sadhguru


Life is Celebration – Sadhguru


Ancient Wisdom in Modern Times – Deepak Chopra and Sadhguru, moderated by Ms. Chandrika Tandon


Sadhguru – Nature of “The INNER SELF” and important Questions on Yoga


Of Love and Life – Juhi Chawla In Conversation with Sadhguru

four years ago today [2012.10.11]

i woke up in california with the view of mount shasta out my window.  it was exciting to have made it there after five weeks of life on the road from chicagoland.  i got in my truck and headed towards mount shasta.. i took a road i saw on the map that looked like it went pretty well up the mountain.  i stopped on the way up at a spot with a great view of the top of the mountain, and then headed a little further to the parking lot at the end of the mountain road.  unlike some of my other mountain road experiences, this one was smooth and paved all the way to the top.. where it was wide open with a nice view.

i spent the day up there, just drinking in the silence and beauty.. at one point, i flew my kite for a bit but the wind died down so the flight was short (and it may have taken a while to clean up the mess of kite line if i recall). i moved my truck to the parking lot a few hundred feet down the road where i set up a time-lapse of the sun fading across mount shasta and the stars circling overnight.  it was nice that there were signs posted saying it was okay to camp for up to 72 hours.  a couple people in a vw van were also spending the night there.  it was really beautiful and serene being up on mount shasta.  it was a great first spot to visit in california.

this was another place that i hadn't heard of until a couple years before going on the trip.  it was there on the back burner or bucket list waiting for me to go on this journey across the country.  living life on the road or going on an extended road trip is a great way to see the country.  so many people go on short vacations and a lot of that time is wasted planning, packing, getting ready, waiting for flights, getting a rental car, going to a hotel, finding somewhere to eat, etc, etc.  traveling long term on the road can eliminate all of that and save a lot of money while allowing you to see so much more.  with today's technology, you could work online while traveling or find work on the road if you don't have enough saved up for the entire trip or want to continue longer (or permanently). it's totally doable and could be the adventure of a lifetime.
four years ago today [2012.10.08]

it was another day exploring the oregon coast.  i took u.s. highway 101 south towards oregon dunes national recreational area and other spots that had sand dunes.  i stopped at some overlooks along the way to see more of the cliffs, rock formations, and coast.  one of the overlooks was near a lighthouse i'd seen during my first time to oregon though it was under construction this time.  the sand dunes were pretty nice.. i had seen some of them on a previous trip to oregon and got to see more this time.  it looks like i went to the campground a little earlier that afternoon.  perhaps i had to do some work or it started raining or something.  i went back to another spot in the dunes the following day before heading inland.
four years ago today [2012.10.06]

i spent the day exploring the oregon coast.  i could've stayed here for weeks or months.. there were so many beautiful overlooks to be seen and places to wander on the coast.  i flew my kite at cannon beach and shortly after it was in the air, it went crashing into the ocean.  thankfully, i had the waterproof gopro on it and not another camera.  i fished the kite out of the waves and water (which was a good bit of effort if i recall), and i took it to a local kite shop to be sewn back up where the spar had poked through.  i remember the guy there told a story of how his car broke down at cannon beach and he took that as a sign of where he should stay (when he was wandering without destination). later in the afternoon, on my way toward the next campground, i found a spot where i decided to record the waves coming in for a while.  it was so nice to be by the water in someplace beautiful.  i got to the campground, and was able to walk across the road from there right to the beach.. i watched the sun set and saw a winding path that you could take to drive down to the beach.  either that evening or the next morning i decided i'd take it the next day.
four years ago today [2012.10.03]

i noticed little bits of frost or ice on the ground when i woke up this morning in a quiet area that was part of olympic national park.  it was a little exciting to see it, though having lived in florida half my life, i greatly preferred warmer temperatures.  i headed back toward the coast and made it to the first campground by the ocean this day.

right behind the campground was a long path that led to the beach.  when stepping onto the sand and walking towards the ocean, the beach seemed to go on forever before getting to the water.  it was pretty amazing to experience walking a long way to the water (after a long walk to the sand) on a desolate beach with no one else around.  the tide came in pretty far too as the waves washed ashore.  i had never seen a beach so wide.  i went back to the water again when the sun was going down.  it was probably pretty chilly though nice to be surrounded by the ocean, beach, and wide open natural land.  somewhere natural and beautiful on the water was definitely a place i could stay for a while.  i had been looking forward to exploring the pacific coast on this journey and was glad to have discovered and experienced this spot.
four years ago today [2012.09.30]

this was a slow day.  i went with my friend to town in the morning for breakfast.. we were gonna spend a while at a local coffee shop in town, though had to cut the trip short when we remembered that we had left the neighbor's water running to fill the tank where my friend was housesitting.  back there, i spent most of the day working on the computer and my friend ran a couple of errands.  it was nice to get to use a real shower where my friend was housesitting, though i had to keep it short since their well had run dry or something that they had to borrow the water from the neighbors.  it was a really beautiful area in this part of washington.. the mountain range was visible nearby and there was a rural feel to the homes that were just up the road from town.
four years ago today [2012.09.28]

i took my truck and camper on its first ferry ride and was on my way to the coast this day.  it was exciting to be heading further west and starting this next part of the voyage.  the ferry ride was nice and saved at least a couple hours of driving over going all the way around seattle and tacoma to the other side of the peninsula.

the town on the other side of the bay looked nice as i drove through.  i stopped at a local park and then made my way over to the dungeness national wildlife refuge before meeting a friend who lived nearby.  it was a really beautiful at the refuge.. i explored and stayed for a little while.  i remember the water making nice sounds as it washed onto and away from the rocks or shells on shore.

that evening i met my friend for dinner and then we went to a oneness meditation.  it was a little crazy that the oneness meditation was being held in such a remote area on the very day i happened to be going there.. just the day before i was curious if there'd be one somewhere along my journey, and i looked online to find out it was going to be practically right next door to where i was going the following day (and was something my friend would be interested in too). it's funny how the divine works like that.  afterwards, my friend and i gathered some firewood for a nice fire and chat back at her friend's place where she was housesitting.
four years ago today [2012.09.25]

i was at a campground all day this day, either working on the computer or just taking it easy.  i rode my bike and explored the campground a bit in the afternoon.  it was quite loud at times hearing jets flying.. it looks like there was a naval base nearby.  the campground had nice views of the nearby islands, and there was a little island that you could walk out to if the tide wasn't too high.  i was able to walk out there the afternoon before when i'd arrived, though the tide was higher when i went out this day.  it was interesting to see some people had permanent spots at the campgrounds.  i'd briefly thought about that to have a home base between wanderings, though preferred my own land.
four years ago today [2012.09.22]

it was the first day of autumn.. summer was officially over and i still had a lot more to explore before it got too cold.  i went north toward the peace arch monument at the canadian border this day.  i parked nearby and rode my bike to the park and monument.  i technically walked into canada when i walked around to the other side of the monument.  there were lots of flowers and landscaping at the monument and park, and it was interesting to see that that there was no fence, gate, or anything between the united states and canada at the park.. one could just walk across the field and leave the country if one wanted to.  this was quite different than i'd later see at the mexican border.  it’s funny i went to peace arch this day as the day before was the international day of peace.  i’m not sure that i realized it when i decided to make my way towards peace arch.. it probably just was a “random” coincidence that i ended up on my way there at the time.

i biked back toward where i had parked and explored that area a little bit before heading to a nearby campground.  it was nice to be near campgrounds that were part of the package i had purchased.. in populated areas it certainly was easier than driving far to find a discreet spot to stay the night (especially as days grew shorter). after setting up my camper, i went for a bike ride to the nearby bay to see the sun set.  some days were less exciting than others, though it was interesting to get to see different places in the country.  and being on a trip with no return date and on my own schedule, it didn't really matter if i wasted a vacation day that one might typically try to squeeze a lot of activity in to before having to head home.  my home was wherever i was.
four years ago today [2012.09.19]

sleeping under the stars, i woke up at ross lake national recreation area, and began exploring the area.  i found another nice overlook nearby and a waterfall further up the road.  this was a beautiful area that i never knew existed until i got there.  near the visitor center at north cascades national park, i went on a short walk to a spot where there was a view of the picket range.  i read the sign there that said the range was a number of miles away, a trek through complete wilderness.  i stood there in awe for a few moments as i felt a strong, chilling sense of the vast expanse of land and wilderness between where i was and the mountain range that looked like it was just right there.  the peaks didn't appear that far or large at first glance, and what looked like could've been small parts of one larger mountain were really the most rugged peaks in the contiguous united states, miles apart from each other.  this was another striking moment in realizing the vastness of nature and how small we are as humans.  i imagined what it must've been like just to get out to some place so remote without roads (and to the further peaks even deeper into the wilderness that i couldn't see).

afterwards, i headed west a bit and went up a dirt road to a trail.  i hoped to find a clear view of the mountain peaks to photograph, though from a girl i met who was working on the trail, it sounded like this wouldn't be the best spot for a clear shot.  going back down the windy dirt/rock road, my truck read slope angles of at least 11 degrees, or a 22% grade!  from the video clips, i may not have done it this time, though on some of these similar steep declines, i would put the truck in 4x4 low, which really helped to maintain a low speed without having to use or wear down the brakes on the descent.

this day marks a year of owning my truck.  it was nice to be on adventure out west with the truck and camper i had ordered the year before.  i had looked forward to this journey for some time.
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four years ago today [2012.09.16]

i woke up on the side of the road in washington and took a short drive toward the campground i'd be staying at for a couple nights.  i got there early so i stopped at an overlook above the river where the campground was.  after checking in at the campground, picking a spot, and setting up my camper, i took out my folding bike and went for a ride to explore the area down the road.

back at the campground, i went for a walk down the trail to the river, and later in the afternoon i watched the sun set behind the nearby mountains or hills.  it was nice to take a little break from driving so much.. it'd been 3300 miles since i left my friend's place the first day.  after pretty much just cleaning myself with baby wipes the previous 9 days, it was also really nice to be able to take a shower and feel clean.  i don't recall what else i did that day.. i probably cooked soup or pasta for dinner, and most likely worked on the computer.
four years ago today [2012.09.13]

having run out of propane in the middle of the night, with temperatures in the low 20’s, i worried about the water pipes freezing in the camper.  i got up at dawn and quickly headed down to a lower elevation where it'd be warmer.  there were no issues.. the inside temperature of the camper was probably over freezing from having had the heat on part of the night.  on my way out of yellowstone, i saw the sun rising and stopped to explore at a spot where i heard strange animal sounds/calls i had never heard before.  leaving yellowstone, i crossed the continental divide and was most of the way to the west coast.

i headed towards the grand tetons and saw it was pretty hazy due to recent fires.  i had breakfast when i got there, and went to the visitor center where i talked to a young park ranger about some of the areas to explore.  when she told me about one of the trails she’d recently been on, i remember her asking if i knew what to do if i saw a bear.. i think i said “don’t run?” and she gave me other suggestions.  i wandered about the park and found some nice lakes with views of the mountains.  it was nice to be in warmer temperatures than the night before.  it was crazy how much the temperature could change in the mountains.  it was in the low 20’s on this morning, when just 2-3 days prior it was 90 degrees, and the following day it’d be 85.  i saw more wildlife and on my way out of the park, went looking for the spot where ansel adams created his famous photograph from.  i met someone else there who said he thought it was just down a little bit from the overlook where we were.

after leaving the park, i crossed teton pass, a 10% grade climb up to a nearly 1.6 mile elevation.. i only got 5.1 mpg driving up it.  i dropped down to 2nd and then 1st gear on the descent, which my truck read as 6 degrees, or a 12% grade.. the engine was loud but i didn’t have to wear down the brakes nor experience the 4 tons of truck and camper quickly accelerating out of control down the winding road.  it was good to know my rig could handle the mountain roads, and fun to encounter drives i didn’t know would be part of the adventure.
four years ago today [2012.09.10]

on this day i woke up just outside of devil's tower national monument.  i think i had seen a photo or something of it not that long before this trip and thought it'd be neat to go out there.  it was awesome to be exploring and seeing these places i wanted to visit.  i went into the park and explored some of the trails in the morning and then headed back into south dakota on the not so direct route to montana via north dakota.  i stopped at a green spot on the map there, just outside of theodore roosevelt national park, where i saw some interesting landscapes.

in a lot of places i visited or drove through, i felt i could've stayed longer and explored more, though i wanted to keep on heading west to stay on track to make it to the west coast before it got colder (as i had begun the journey much later than i originally wanted to). in the future i'd eliminate as many constraints as possible to being open for spontaneity.  i faced a few limitations, like non-existent phone service when a web application client decided they want much more than they originally asked for, having paid a lot for a campground membership that was running out with locations only on the west coast states, and having left when it was already starting to get cold in some places in my journey.  next time, i wouldn't drive as much each day and would see how i feel during the journey rather than sticking to a pretty rigid plan.

i did this a little later for part of the trip and would enjoy doing it the whole time.  life is so much nicer when we're relaxed and in the present moment rather than thinking we need to follow a certain plan.

allowing ourselves to be more flexible and spontaneous opens us up to new opportunities.  the day before this when i was at the tour at wind’s cave national park (which going there wasn’t part of my plan), i recall i was in the elevator with the young park ranger who gave the tour, and i think after everyone else had gotten out, she said something about being hungry (wanting pizza or something).. had i been more flexible and spontaneous, i could’ve asked if she wanted to join me for dinner and perhaps made a new friend.
four years ago today [2012.09.07]

on this morning i woke up on a dirt road surrounded by corn fields.

it felt like it was my destiny to be on this trip.

several years earlier, before i moved to chicago for four years, i had thought of going.  it was almost like a plan on the back burner.. if i hadn't moved up to chicago with friends, i was going to go on a trip west.  a friend ended up getting accepted at a program up there and a few of us moved up to join another friend who had already been there a year.  when i moved out of chicago, i almost made the trip and move out west with my girlfriend at the time.  it never happened as neither of us had the funds to get there, though i started thinking about rv's shortly after that.  nearly two years later, i had gotten my truck and camper.

it wasn’t a simple process, as i had found myself caught up in much research, and looking for ways to get an rv that wouldn’t cost much.. i was completely out of money when i left chicago and had no income due to struggling to start a business the couple years prior.  while having gone through a breakup, business failure, bankruptcy, having no money or income, and living back with family, i was at a low point in life.  i embarked on a journey of personal and spiritual growth that i had begun while in chicago.  less than a year after leaving chicago, i found myself at a powerful course that would change my life.  this workshop would take me through the awakening, transformation, and growth i needed in order to manifest a large client that would bring me much more income than i had ever earned in a year.  most importantly, it would change how i felt and perceived life.  not long after starting the big project, i began looking at the rv options again.  i narrowed down my choices, drove across the country to different dealers, decided on my camper, and placed the order for it to be built.  shortly after, i decided on the truck to carry it and ordered it.  it took the whole summer for the camper and truck to be ready, though it was worth the wait.

going on this journey west almost a year after getting the truck and camper was certainly an adventure i had looked forward to.

an interesting experience i had recently while working on the life on the road films was that i started to lose my sense of time and place.. after staring at the screen practically all day and watching the video clips of my trip out west, i almost began to forget what time of day or day of week it was.. perhaps even what time of year it was, i don’t recall. it began to feel a bit like i was out there on the trip, re-living it. i could somewhat tell what time of day it was as i could see how the light looked out the window in my office, though i think at some points i lost track of how long i was there at the computer working on it. it was nice to begin to live more in the present moment and let go of the human constructs of defining time and location. everything is happening in the now, though when we are thinking of stuff that happened to us in the past or things we’ve gotta do in the future, it takes us away from fully experiencing the present moment. the present moment, no matter what it is or where we are, can be bliss. the more we tune into whatever this present moment is bringing us, the more aware we can become not only of everything that is happening all at once and all the miracles that this moment is bringing, but also of our true nature. we can choose to live from this heightened awareness at all times should we so desire. we’ve simply got to surrender our attachments that are preventing us from doing so. as our consciousness expands, it becomes effortless and natural to do so. living from this deepened awareness will allow us to fully embrace the beauty of the world and experience it with wonder and awe. do things that help you alter your perception of how you’re seeing the world and you’ll begin to step outside of your currently limited paradigms. there is so much to this life, even in the ordinary human experience itself. just look at how many people live vastly different lives. observe the subtle details of how others perceive and experience life.. see what paradigms and perspectives they are living from, and notice how some of these may be quite different than your own. if most people you know have similar ways of seeing the world, go find others who see the world very differently and observe them.. see what you can learn about life simply from observing how differently they see the world. learn to do so with out judgment of what is right and wrong. stepping outside of this judgmentalism will help you transcend duality. there is no right or wrong. these are human constructs of the ego mind. as we learn to accept and embrace it all, we’ll begin to see everything is simply one being expressing itself in different ways. our uniqueness is what allows us to perceive the world through a new lens, though do not let it set us apart or make us any better than anyone else. we each are here to learn, perceive, and experience in different ways so the one being that we really are can understand itself in ways that were not possible had it not decided to show up like it has. anyhow, i’m starting to think too much about this now.. simply allow yourself to dissolve in the presence. whether that’s through meditation, yoga, chanting, a walk in nature, whatever it might be.. do what allows you to feel more present, and embrace the presence.

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