...got to chicagoland a couple days ago. will be here for most of june before heading to maine and then down the east coast. drop me a line if ya want to meet up.
it started off as a curiosity.
soon after it was an obsession.
now it’s become a relentless pursuit.
time to break free
are they merely passing through? or am i to act and engage with them so i may share their brilliance with the world?
it seems like i’ve been caught in this dilemma for nearly a decade now.. do i choose to capture the timeless or live in the timeless?
Truth is in the discovery, not in the discovered. And to discovery there is no beginning and no end. Question the limits, go beyond, set yourself tasks apparently impossible -- this is the way.
beyond the witness
it is merely an illusion, this universe we deem as reality.
yet it is a playground where one can wear a hat and be a certain way.
it can be quite fun. especially when one learns to switch hats in midst of the game.
i know not what i speak, for what i know, not can be spoken of.
embrace the illusion. the way out, though beyond, is through.
expand in all directions simultaneously. yet none at the same time.
step into a new world. one that may seem quite foreign at first, yet it is your true home.
location of the exit is the only task of any value to you.
all else is merely distraction from your origin.
Wow, a great, yet subtle, sense of relief can be felt as one let’s go of one’s burdens and concerns. The present moment is beautiful, every single one. In this moment, I realized beauty on an overcast, partially gloomy, day, and even as the temperature dropped and the winds became cooler.
Life is really amazing when you actually experience it. All the subtle-ties that you once thought mundane can really illuminate in their own beauty when you let go of the judgement of the mind. Its really quiet without it. Allow clarity, embrace it.
Let go of your _need_ to do anything, and simply allow each moment to unfold on its own. Its much more enjoyable this way :)
it’s funny how i seem to be able to pick up on what others are feeling, what would trigger them, or what they could learn to shift/broaden their perspective(s) on.. and naturally, just by feeling whatever comes to me in the moment, bring it to light for them to be able to see/experience. not everyone gets it though. from a higher level, it truly is a gift that i am allowing to flow through me, if they would choose to [...]
Divine Madness – Alan Watts 2/4
Divine Madness – Alan Watts 3/4
Divine Madness – Alan Watts 4/4
.. it’s about exploration, inspiration, adventure — the experience and sharing perspectives [of such], all while developing close relationships so i may better know myself in knowing another
my raspberry pi camera just got delivered a couple hours ago. i just happened to get an in-stock notification on monday at the same time i was ordering a couple raspberry pi’s (and accessories) to run some status monitors for my friend’s construction business. as soon as i got the email, i dropped what i was doing as i knew stock would be limited and it wasn’t officially announced yet either. [good thing i had the pi's waiting in the [...]
it seems that life is a balance between observing and deciding what to observe
[deciding in the sense of choosing the outcome before it happens]
a simple thought for today: go out to nature and drink it all in.. appreciate its beauty and perfection.
..pondering why i photograph the sky so often. perhaps its because its so fleeting, always different. is attempting to capture the ever-changing moment a metaphor for us to learn to live in the moment? or is it somehow part of resistance against being here now?
when i am here now, the moment is so beautiful and perfect… beyond words, beyond images, beyond.
in the moment i yearn to capture how beautiful it is for i know it is only passing and cannot be held permanently. the image is a means, an attempt, a struggle to make the timeless lasting in time. it’s a communication to those stuck in time [including myself when i find myself in time] to seek the timeless for it is far beyond the greatest beauty or perfection that could possibly be found in time.
perhaps all i must do is choose to live eternally beyond time and there will no longer be a fear of losing the moment, for as one moment is lost, a new one is constantly born, and each is just as beautiful as the last.
part of my work is about the moments you don’t see or pay attention to. it’s making significant the insignificant. it’s the moments inbetween moments you yearn for. the subtle yet overlooked. what is always there yet unknown. it’s taking these moments and glorifying them. perhaps as a means to bring one to notice what one does pay attention to and put energy into. and to subconsciously help one realize that every moment is beautiful. why divide or seperate moments into what one likes and doesn’t like. why categorize into good and bad. why divide at all. reunite, and become one. it’s been underneath all my work. a subtle layer i didn’t even realize in the earlier parts. part of me knew, though part of me thought it was about something else. funny how life is like that. you can see one thing completely differently from the intended message, or from what someone else sees.
it’s about being in love with the world. appreciating it all. feeling alive and life itself.
it’s about rewriting what’s already been written, merely for the sake of doing so.
and expressing reality while entangled in the unreal.
while reversing what is and what isn’t, to expand one’s palette of possibility.
some of my work has nothing to do with any of this. it just exists for the experience alone. [though, yet, this is exactly the same message, in a different manner]
we are all different vantage points in the whole. [the whole is one]
the message already exists. though this time many messengers arrived so it could be heard by all.
[for when all is [knowingly] one, quite brilliant things might arise]
and it’s not always about being a messenger, as it is in living the message. [it will emanate and shine through brilliantly on its own no matter what is said or done, if anything]
the true work is about feeling the connection [to the unknown] and running freely with it.
it’s a wild journey [this whole thing we call life]
don’t try to understand, for that only leads you astray.
it is in experiencing that one knows.
[no matter when, why, how, where, while you read this] today is a brilliant day.
when you awaken, the many [once hidden] layers become transparent and quite obvious [they were always there].
letting go of unnecessary definition [which is all of it], is of far greater value than creating new definitions.
it seems to be becoming a little clearer to me what surrendering really is.
..do i choose to allow it fully?
..and though unexpected [at the moment], the discovery was [quite] welcome
Life is peaceful when you surrender and let go.
By letting go of unnecessary worries, you gain a greater insight to reality… you feel a deeper connection, and everything seems more alive, more real, as it truly is.
(links to posts by Neale Donald Walsch found in Interpreting Conversations with God)
an extended series of explorations on “enlightenment” as a human experience.
part one: What is your path to ‘Enlightenment’?
The morning glory which blooms for an hour
Differs not at heart from the giant pine,
Which lives for a thousand years.
and it became quite apparent that there indeed was no purpose.
it was all fun and games.
and nobody was getting hurt, this time.
except those who desired to, of course.
[yes, even if part of them was not aware that they chose that]
[but it was their choice 100%]
do we wake them up and let them know that?
only if they’re ready
but who says they’re ready
but what if they don’t?
they’re not ready.
..I read a line earlier by Nisargadatta Maharaj in I Am That that made me realize perhaps why the ego has gotten so big in the world recently: “Just as the harder the wood, the hotter the flame, so the stronger the personality, the brighter the light generated from its destruction.”
a journal of misunderstandings, ramblings, interpretations, and perspectives..
..so much more, and yet nothing, all at once
it’s funny… i watch myself doing all these things.. like starting lots of little projects and just trying them out.. but not taking them to where i could potentially. it’s like i want to leave something to come back to. for if i were to complete everything or abandon it all, i might be bored. and i fear that boredom, for it could lead to something unknown. my life could totally transform in that unknown, though i’m not sure i’m [...]
The past days, weeks, who know exactly how long, I’ve been contemplating if all the little creative projects I’d been wanting to do even mattered in the least bit. Today I feel [without the urge to photograph it all]. I can appreciate the moments without having to capture or grasp them all. There is an abundance of beautiful moments — each single one is beautiful!
today i wrote this
it was quite brilliant
a test of the new writing app
so i no longer need a non-functional app on my phone
and i can post entries directly to my journal with gps data
a desire of mine is to be able to understand all perspectives, yet only live or experience the ones i like. a dilemma, or contradiction, yes i know. perhaps even why the world is in the state it is in today.
There are no differences but differences of degree between different degrees of difference and no difference.
This is one of those fundamental questions: What is the purpose of my life?
And Sri Bhagavan says "If you were awakened, if you were really living, you wouldn't ask that question, because the purpose of life, is to live. It's that simple."
So there it is.
it’s definitely an interesting experience and perhaps more interesting how one might attempt to make sense of it all, when some if it [all?] can’t be made sense of..
i do like your approach and have been learning to soften, relax, and appreciate. perhaps sometimes i push the limits too far, though have struggled with definition as i realize i can choose to embrace it all.
i’m not sure what any of this means as i sit quietly and allow random feelings to pass through. yet i remain grateful.
[i risk it all for just one shot]
wow, it’s as if i can feel your openness and allow myself to become open. i feel connection in a sort of meditative state. i thank you for this encounter, whether first or last, for it is quite beautiful. i know this may not make total sense, though there is a part of you that understands. for that part of you is me, and this part of me is you. it’s crazy to admit it, though i am growing into humanity’s interconnectedness. it’s comforting to find others who might understand or feel the same way.
[perhaps all the pieces are aligning and the meditation/blessing last night has opened my heart to deeper feeling, though i've got to stop taking it so seriously and enjoy life, which is why i'm here]
[one of] my purpose[s] in creating art, life, the world, etc is to see [just] how differently others might interpret it
perhaps there really is no purpose in and of itself [other than to understand/explore new perspectives, through those other perspectives]
[its taking the purpose out of the art, and placing it in the experience of the art]
[for life itself only is experience, hence a metaphor]