is that even a question one can ask? mark marano is a role i choose to play. the true I, the I that I truly am, is without definition. mark marano is how i interact with the world. others come to know various parts of mark marano, though few, if any [in current form], will ever know who I truly am. I am that which lives through mark marano. I am the one who chooses what mark marano will be, the creator of mark marano.
definition is strange and intriguing, all at the same time. definition is not real, nor is time. [nor is anything anyone considers reality]
I explore the place between definition and time and reality. when I choose to experience definition, time, and reality, it is often through the eyes and persona of mark marano. sometimes I consider leaving the current mark marano and redefining the experience. in the past, I preferred to experience without this name, though for now, I have returned. until I decide otherwise, here I am. it seems to make sense [if we can even use that word properly], to stick with one name [although the identity may change/grow] so that others may see what I have chosen to experience through this being [through this creation of time].
sometimes I feel stuck with this identity, though then I go back to remembering who I truly am, and realize it’s all a game I chose to play. then I go on to enjoying the game and embracing the role, perhaps exploring it’s definition a bit more, or redefining certain aspects of it. [this is good advice for anyone feeling trapped or not fully enjoying their lives -- realize this [all of this] is not real — it is only as real as you choose it to be. embrace it and enjoy it, and know you can change it, should you so desire.]
so if life is just a game, how does one know when one has won? you decide when you’ve won [or lost]. it’s totally up to you. it’s all of your own creation. you might ask, well isn’t that sorta like making up the rules as you go? yes, in a sense it is, though that’s precisely all you’ve been doing this entire time anyhow. you may not be aware of it, though a part of you has made it all up as you’ve gone through it. some parts you’ve held onto longer than others, though it’s all how you look at it. if you choose to get stuck in your own definitions [yes, this is a choice, and so is forgetting that it is a choice], then that’s how you decided to experience it. [a part of] awakening is realizing this.
today you can awaken to the fact of what is truly happening. [it might take you a little bit to fully realize and accept it] or, you can choose to forget it, and label all of this as nonsense. it’s entirely up to you. one day you’ll truly realize what is happening, one way or another. [it could be many lifetimes, perhaps seemingly an eternity, though it's all how you decide to play [and create/experience] the game].
okay, so mark marano is not real? nope, but neither is the role you’ve chosen to play. they are only as real as we allow them to be.
enjoy it. step in and out of it as you desire. it’s all about the experience anyhow. we’ll all recognize that in the end. [if you can call the end 'the end']